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On a couch, in the master's library, with goblet of wine and a solid book about some piece of Narfellan lore… That was where Nate usually spent his evenings. If the theater was alive, then the library was it's mind. It was filled with historical records, arcane parchments, and detailed maps. Yes, it also had artistic collections: poems, songs, plays... But they were on paper. Words on cold, clean paper, to be read and analyzed and thought of rather than experienced and performed and felt. Nate was right at home among the books and the academia. And, he thought, what's the problem with that? Bards are so much more than people give them credit for. They are scholars and academics, alongside whatever assumptions people make about what a bard does or how he or she does it. You do not need much more than a canny brain to serve others as a bard, really. We are in the business of information, of knowledge, of gossip... If you can provide them with that, thought Nate, people will surely appreciate the bardic profession.
The library had for a long time been Nate's solace in solitude... Interrupted only rarely by a tea or a meal.
On the stage, in the auditorium, with a foggy feeling he can't quite place: some sort of subtle sensation in his stomach ... that is where Nate was and what he was wondering that night. If the theater was alive, then the stage was its heart. It was supposed to be filled with music, laughter, song, stories, and poetry... Not on paper, but in the air, around and inside us. Ah, but for Nate, the stage was a dark and empty one. Tonight, and for every other night before it for as long as he can remember: no flames on any torch, no seats sat in, and not a song sang. Heh, songs. Imagine that, he thought. To sing here, in this place. Nate never sang in public; his songs were always private and personal. Even so, he hadn't written let alone sang one in years. He preferred plays, because he could write them in solitude and then ask others to perform--actors, directors, students looking to make an impression. He could do all of that, feel nothing at all, and still earn enough profit to keep himself and his college projects out of debt.
The stage was Nate's least favourite place in the theater... To him, it was broken, darkened, and deserted.
Why, then, was he standing there? Why had he been there for what felt like eternity? Several hours, at least. He had been searching for the answer for some time. Center-stage, alone, and in the dark. It made no sense. He was supposed to be reading, thinking, attempting to solve the latest puzzle or challenge involving Peltarch's politics or peril. Was he distracted or tired? Maybe. Maybe not. Maybe that feeling in his stomach is something more, thought Nate. Was it his stomach or his chest, anyway? Or was it his soul? The feeling was like a butterfly vice, filled with possibility's invitation and impossibility's challenge. His thoughts sharpened, honed, and became clearer and more immediate: Your soul? A "butterfly vice?" Get a grip, Wingates. You're starting to sound like the tacky dialogue in one of your plays. Aren't you the one who spends all his time at the library? Don't tell me you're feeling something after all these years. In this circumstance, too? You're dancing with disaster. You always say a broken heart and feeling nothing makes everything easier, once the pain is gone. Easier to pull the strings, to play the part, to wear the mask. Easier to fake the laugh, fake the smile, fake just about anything...
So what's the matter, Wingates? Isn't the library enough? Don't want to fake it anymore?
Nate shook his head and drew a deep, shuddering breath. He exhaled slowly, trying to control his thoughts or... more accurately, his feelings. He had become so good at controlling them. Hadn't he? Why was it so difficult, now? The bard continued to search for the answer. He frowned and gripped his stomach. He figured out that the feeling wasn't really in his stomach, so he gripped the air, instead, and looked down at his hands. His eyes flickered between both... They hummed with arcane and the Weave. He tried to stifle the magic. To control and suppress it, as he'd learned to do. And it was harder than he thought. The bardic knack for magic not only became more chaotic, but more powerful the more emotional a bard became. Nate's mind raced with warnings and danger and risk, but his heart pounded and his soul sang. Why was he thinking in alliteration, and feeling in verse? Why did he itch to write a play--a poem, or even a song! Yes, a song, not for profit but just for its own sake, or perhaps for the sake of another. Others? The public? The public may have been worthy of the fake smiles and laughs, yet Nate couldn't bother to chant a single syllable for its benefit. If that were true, then why was he standing in the middle of the stage with this sudden urge to sing?
. . .
A crack of warm, shining light pierced the stage's icy veil of lonely darkness. A dainty, feminine hand pushed the auditorium's large doors open. The soft light reached farther and farther across the shadowy floor, chasing the gloom away. Eventually, it reached the stage, and illuminated the auburn haired bard standing in its center. When the light reached Nate, he squinted his green-blue eyes and peered up. Isolde Garibaldi stood in the open doorway…. with starry blue eyes, atop a perfect nose and crimson lips, her pretty face framed by soft red curls. The light behind her wrapped a silver sheen around her silky blue clothes. She lowered her gloved hand from the door and took a few steps, as she entered the auditorium. She made her way towards the stage, with her heels clicking against the floor, and her black cape flowing gently behind her. She looked up at the stage as she stepped nearer and nearer.
"Isolde?" asked Nate. A faint smile tugged the corner of his mouth as she joined him on stage.
"Nate!" replied Isolde. Their eyes met and she smiled. "I've been looking for you."
"Oh. Well, I..." began Nate. He paused. There was a hint of realization in his voice, and his faint smile grew a little wider. "I've been looking for you too. What's up?"_