3. Maya's Second Journal

Maya's Second Journal


  • _The sun beats down in unseasonable warmth across the Narfell landscape. The sky is cloudless. The air uncharacteristically still. On top of one of the cliffs north of Norwick, Maya sits relatively unclothed, eating a large pear.

    She recently bathed, the blood of Norwick’s enemies washed downstream in the cool water. Her hair is unbraided, and spills about in uneven lengths across her shoulders and back. For the first time since her departure from Damara, its gold-brown hue gleams in the late morning sun. She looks around casually, dark blue eyes watching for the glint of steel.

    After several minutes, she turns her attention to the things gathered around her. With casual grace, she stretches out on the grass and opens her journal in front of her._

    Entry 179 – Storm

    Storm of war comes to Narfell, but like war with Eastlanders, I think I miss it. I have vision of great war, travel here, and then not be in war? I do not know why Tempus does things he does, sometimes. But I am not wise like Tempus, so I will wait for him show me.

    Norwick is be attacked from South, and N’Jast already has take Jiyyd. I think first that Tempus send me to fight soldiers of N’Jast, but Norwick is not at war with N’Jast. I come to defend, but problems are with south. I think maybe evil priest Corde is up to no good again.

    Lady Kara fights for N’Jast. She tells me that Peltarch make arrange for assassinate N’Jast king, and N’Jast is very angry, and march on Peltarch. Kara thinks cause is worthy, and Peltarch is corrupt and evil. Maybe is right.

    But I have much concern. Kara and Lyte make promise to each other. They make promise of peace. Kara promises to make oath to Tempus in front of his champion, which she does.

    But Tempus is NOT (underlined several times) happy. He is so angry at Kara, he wants strike her down for make oath, but cannot because words she say are careful pick. Is feeling I get, without words. Why would Kara hide behind words?

    Make oath to Tempus when hide behind words is foolish. For warrior to make Tempus angry is even more foolish. I don’t think Kara sees this. She will doom her army to have Tempus on other side

    Better to make no oath at all.

    (there is a pause here, as if the pen lingers on the page)

    Maybe, just maybe Tempus bring me all way from Damara to have his champion witness Kara oath? Maybe Tempus want reason not to help N’Jast? From what hear, N’Jast army slaughter unarm towns people, try leave Jiyyd. This against everything Tempus teach

    I do not know rules of gods, but this make sense to me. Was long way to travel for witness oath, but if important to Tempus, is important to me.


  • _There are numerous entries that fill the intervening space in Maya’s journal. Its pages worn and stained, it nears the end, awaiting another chapter or drawing to conclusion. There are ramblings and thoughts, dreams and hopes, and quiet circumspection.

    Many of them focus on Yana. In the years that have passed, Yana’s slow growth due to her Elven heritage still puts her in her teen years. But the years behind are much longer, and through schooling in Damara and Maya’s patient tutelage Yana has become the fledgling warrior she was destined to be.

    …but not in the way Maya had envisioned.

    The journal tells of travel. It tells of a young woman’s first journey, of bandits, trial and hardship. It tells of a mother’s love for her adopted daughter, of hope, disappointment, and pride.

    Towards the end, much of the journal speaks of visions.

    Maya’s visions from Tempus speak of battle, of old friends fighting and dying for causes just and unjust, amidst hope and futility. The visions show her old home with Adam in flames, of families dying, and people fleeing for their lives.

    The visions crowd the twilight between waking and sleep, until Maya heeds them, and ventures home once more. With the embrace of her daughter lingering in her heart, Maya ventures once again to Narfell._

    Entry 178 – Battle Calls

    Is hard to believe I stand in Peltarch again. It seem like three lifetime ago, that I was stand in commons, and bow trembling to Tempus who choose me for be his champion.

    From wall where I sit and write this, I see smoke rise from south. I wonder to self who fights this war and why.

    But not matter. Is war. I make oath to Dwin that I defend Norwick. I cannot be in Damara and keep oath, so here I am. Soon I will be home again, and axe will drip with blood of Norwick’s enemies.

    …as should be.


  • _Yana pressed forward and swung the practice warhammer clumsily at Maya, who blocked it with her shield. Maya returned the swing slowly, allowing Yana to block it as well. This continued until the sounds of wood against wood became rhythmic, echoing through Norwick.

    Maya pursed her lips some, watching Yana’s stance. “You still keep shield too low. Am much taller, and have long arm. Need keep shield higher so not get hit”. Maya raised her shield higher, mimicking what Yana should do.

    “I’m keeping my shield high!”, Yana retorted, swinging again a more forcefully. This time, Maya deliberately aimed over Yana’s shield and swung more quickly. The wooden practice weapon thwacked Yana’s leather shoulder plate with enough force, that she cried out and backed away.

    “Dammit! What are you trying to do, break my arm?”, Yana rubbed it angrily.

    Maya shrugged and grinned slightly, “Maybe should keep shield higher, no? Sometime, painful lesson is best one. Sore shoulder be good for remember.”

    Yana narrowed her eyes and grumbled under her breath, but when she approached Maya, her shield was held a little higher._

    Entry 102 – Change and Preparation

    I write this while sit here in Mermaid. Is clear sunny morning, and can see people on docks work on ship from second floor window of room. From here I could see Nathen walk all way to ship for travel for study. By time he return from study, Yana and I will no longer be in Narfell, and I may never see again.

    Stomach ache when I think about I just finish make pleasures with Nathen maybe for last time.

    I have been have many vision now, of big caravan and city. So many vision I have more new feathers in hair than know what do with, and if not careful will look like raven too. Tempus seems want make sure I take this trip with Yana, but I do not know why. Tempus is simple but powerful god, so vision are simple and powerful too.

    I look at calendar and count month, and see that will be less than one year now I will say good bye to friends I have know for so long.

    Some will be hard. Some I worry for. All will be miss.

    I am excite about new adventure I will have with Yana in distant land, and watch her grow and see world. But am sad too I think.

    Is hard for be sad and happy at same time. Cry is good for both though.


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  • _Kara neatly deflected Maya’s blow with her shield, and launched a series of fast and expertly placed strikes past Maya’s guard. Maya backpedaled and slipped left, away from Kara’s shield in an attempt to use her height and reach advantage, but Kara backed up also, countering the move. Each eyed the other, breathing hard from exhaustion.

    Maya grew frustrated. Kara was simply better with her sword than Maya was with her axe. Against Kara, the only thing Maya had going for her was her size and strength. Maya towered over Kara by more than half a foot, and outweighed her by more than seventy pounds. But Kara had the experience of fighting against many opponents larger than Maya, and was using every trick she knew to defeat her.
    As both stood back eyeing each other, gathering their breath, Maya noticed that despite Kara’s extensive training, her legs were unsteady. She shifted her weight too much to maintain balance, and her breath was not recovering quickly. Kara bit her lip as her breath came out ragged, and blinked back sweat from her eyes.

    Maya wasn’t ready, but it was time. Maya rushed forward, and deliberately landed a forceful blow on Kara’s shield. Kara turned her shield to deflect it, but Maya wasn’t trying to get past it. Kara’s sword slipped by Maya’s guard repeatedly, but Maya continued to pound on Kara’s shield with every ounce of strength she had.

    The effect was telling. Kara raised her shield over her head to deflect the forceful overhand blow, but Maya had arched her back and put every last ounce of strength she could muster into it. When the blow landed, Kara’s legs collapsed. The following blow broke the straps and sent the shield spinning away.

    The duel was over. Kara dropped her sword and raised her hand in submission._

    Entry 101

    I meet Aramuil and large group who come back from graveyard, who say that spirit of Heyokarr demand champion for give something. Many enter duel. Was Albryanna, Maythor, Dietrick, Kara, Rhyndar, and me. I hope not leave out anyone.

    I win.

    I not know how win against Maythor and Kara, but I do. Kara is get tired at end, and I think is only reason I beat her. Maythor am not sure, because armor he wear is very magic and strong.

    In end, I am present with spirit dagger with many runes by speaker for the Heyokarr spirits. She say I will know when to use, but not tell me how.

    That night, I cannot sleep. I lay in bed and begin to cry, for is much happy and sad. Ever since I come to Norwick, Maythor was true champion of Norwick for me. Now I have defeat him, and other challenger, and heart swell with both sad and happy.

    This will be good way for go on First Journey with Yana I think. I receive letter from school in Damara who teach ways of fight with both magic and sword, and they say will accept her as student. I have not told her this though. I hope she will like this. Already she is become own person and do things for self much, and will no longer need me watch over her so much.

    I think of this, and it makes me cry too.

    I write this while wait in Dancing Mermaid. I travel to Peltarch to be with Nathen, who cannot stay in Norwick for long time away from study. I am much silly and buy Norwick clothes for warm summer and show much skin for him, but if get smile from Nathen will be worth gold I pay.


  • _The cobwebs of sleep clung tenaciously, wiped away slowly by the noises of morning activity and the light coming in through the window. As sleep filtered away to forgotten dreams, Maya opened her eyes. Her own hair clouded her vision. Braids, feathers, and loose strands blanketed the feather pillow. Beside her, Nathen watched with curious and smiling eyes.

    “Good morning sleepy head”, Nathen murmured.

    Maya propped herself on her elbows and peered out the window, before plopping her head back down on the pillow, smiling sleepily.

    “Good morning you too”, she said.

    Nathen turned and looked out the window also, curious what Maya was looking at. “It’s late”, he muttered, “We should think about getting out of bed and getting breakfast. Don’t you have to work downstairs?”

    Maya sighed and moved her head onto his shoulder. “Yes, should. But, I could sleep for whole morning.”

    “Come on sleepy head. You’re too big to carry downstairs. Yana will be waiting”

    “Yana is old enough get own breakfast”, Maya mumbled.

    Nathen’s hand moved surreptitiously under the blankets. Suddenly Maya squealed and burst out laughing as Nathen tickled her.

    “Time for breakfast!”, Nathan grinned as Maya giggled helplessly.

    Suddenly Maya grabbed his hand and rolled over on top of him, pinning his arms to his side. Her long legs stretched out on each side of his. Braids, sheaves of hair and feathers fell across his face and shoulders. Maya looked playfully down at him, eyes full of hunger.

    “Maybe have Nathen for breakfast”

    Nathen only managed an “Oh” before Maya’s mouth covered his._

    Entry 100 – Reunion

    Has been much long since I see Nathen. Too long. I am much happy now, but I wonder how long last. I ask what happen to us. How we drift away. Was one time could have been husband I think.

    He does not know either. Sometime, thing like this happen. Now, I am just much happy he is here. He is one of most kind heart I know, and make pleasures with him is much fun and silly.

    Maybe last few day. Maybe few week. He say would like me visit him in Peltarch, but I do not know if will happen. He and I are not of same heart as once was.

    Now I just take each day one at time, and enjoy Nathen while he here. Tomorrow can worry for self..


  • _The air was warm and still, almost stifling for this time of year. The sun was high in the sky, and beat mercilessly on the people of Norwick moving here and there going about their business.

    Thorn sat talking with the little elf woman who seemed permanently camped by the tree south of the inn. Devlin spoke with Albryanna, and suddenly burst out laughing, his voice ringing roughly across the commons. Dwin puttered to the crafting hall, a bag loaded with ore, muttering something under his breath in his native, guttural tongue. A man only known as “Z” held the door for him, his hair wet with perspiration from simply walking across the plains

    Insects buzzed noisily. Two dogs chased either other across the archery range. A couple of crows cawed angrily at some intrusion. Yana laughed in the creek.

    Maya sat on the roof of the Grapevine Inn, languishing in the harsh sun. Her hair was pulled up behind her head so the feathers bunched in a black bouquet, a vain effort to keep as cool as possible. She wore light cloth and little of it, and was vaguely self-conscious of how much skin was showing.

    Ael walked down the road past the inn, and almost got by it before Ael stopped and stared up curiously at Maya. A slow smile spread across his face and he waved. Maya waved back, wondering briefly why he wasn’t sweating. Ael stared long enough to make Maya feel self-conscious, then a bit more, before turning and heading south.

    It was a very quiet day in Norwick, for a pleasant change._

    Entry 99 – Felix

    Yesterday I tell story of Maya axe to people around fire. Dietrick say want look for “sword of legend”, and ask about my axe. Felix who is young priest of Tempus sit beside me. Bagnar stand by fire, and others sit beside fire too.

    After I tell story of axe, Felix seem very disappoint. He complain much of what he has, and I was begin feel bad for tell story. He show me his hammer, which is good made, but not like axe I have. After we talk, I take Felix to Sisterhood for maybe find spare hammer. Bagnar tag along too.

    To make long journal entry short, I not find hammer in Sisterhood. We travel to Peltarch, and I show him hammer in shop next to Temple of Tyr. I tell him is good goal for himself. He work hard and earn, but all Felix do is complain.

    He complain about not be good warrior. He say is too much gold, and will never get.

    Wise person tell me once that “Complain is already admit defeat”. Are not exact words, but meaning is clear.

    I try tell him that life make walls not to stop from do, but to see how much want something. But he still complain, and I am very frustrate with.

    Not everyone can be good warrior. I remember long time ago, I wish to be Cerulean Knight, but I have no magic, so cannot. Felix must find place in life. Tempus does not teach must be good warrior. Tempus instead teach fight brave. Fight brave is not always with sword. As say many time before, some battle take place in heart.

    He say in shop that he not dream of spend so many gold on armor and weapon, but would instead build temple to Tempus. Maybe, that is destiny for him. Not to be great warrior, but to teach of Tempus, and build temple so other warrior come, and Tempus be little closer to this land.

    But I am worry that he will not try. Is afraid to try, and Tempus not like coward.


  • _Little Yana, not so little now, trudged up the hill laboriously, one slow step at a time. On her back across both shoulders was a long pole. On each end of the pole was a fair sized bucket of rocks.

    As she neared the top, each step became a struggle. Her slender legs, now not quite so slender, strained with corded muscle. Sweat plastered the hair to her face. Eyes and mouth scrunched in determination.

    Her legs quivered the last few steps. She struggled briefly with balance, then pushed forward one more step.

    Maya stood at the top and knelt, ready to grab her in case she lost her balance. “You can do this Yana, just two more step. Just two!”

    Yana’s lips began to quiver, but she grunted and took another step. Her right foot slipped a few inches, but she kept her balance and struggled with the final step. The next step took her to the top, and as Maya took the pole from her back, Yana sat down hard on her hands and knees.

    “You do this! You make to top!”, Maya smiled encouragingly.

    Yana looked up breathing raggedly, “I’m not going to be able to walk tomorrow”, she said, not without some resentment.

    “Is OK”, Maya smiled. You have no chores for next two days.

    Yana blinked with surprise, “I don’t?”

    “No, I do for you. Your job is rest, and eat. Cannot make strong without rest and eat. Too many time I see person be train to death. Make strong need rest. Make strong need good food”

    Maya went back on top of the hill and pulled a picnic basket from behind a rock. She brought it over with a smile and sat it down in front of Yana, who at once smelled Mama’s delicious cooking.

    “Here, you take this”, Maya said as she pulled out a mug and filled it with apple juice. “Juice is good for give wind and strength back. Then you eat as much as want. Is plenty egg, fish and bird here. This will make go up hill with rocks next time more easy”

    Yana didn’t respond, simply nodding as her mouth was already stuffed with poultry. Maya chuckled a bit, and stared out across the plains as the breeze ruffled the feathers in her hair._

    Entry 98 – Training

    Training for Yana begin for First Journey this month. I have always try teach her, but this different. I work her very hard for make her strong and good balance, and chores she have I do most of instead. Is her job now is become warrior she need to be for survive.

    I ask her of this, if this is what she want. She seem very determine to do this, to become warrior like me, but I hope she not be disappoint. She is strong and quick for age, and I can make her more strong and more quick, but will be different than me. She must understand she must seek warrior inside of Yana, and not warrior inside of Maya.


  • _Maya stood in front of the mirror, fixing the last of the feathers in her hair. Her armor was polished, and cloak had been recently cleaned. Yana sat on the edge of the bed, watching Maya curiously.

    “Where are you going?”, Yana asked, kicking her feet absently.

    “I am going see Dwin”, Maya replied, looking at herself hard in the mirror.

    “You’re getting all dressed up to see Dwin?”

    Maya closed her eyes for a moment, before turning away from the mirror to look down at Yana. “I get clean and in good uniform to honor him. He is leader of Norwick, and deserve this much”

    “But you’ve talked to Dwin a hundred times, and I never see you get all dressed up like this”. Suddenly Yana’s eyes went wide, and she made a face, “Are you sweet on him?”

    Maya laughed reflexively, making Yana giggle too, “No no Yana, is nothing like that. Is….”, Maya sighed, “Last time I dress as Militia”.

    Yana’s eyes went wider, “You’re leaving the militia? Why!?”

    Maya went over and sat down beside Yana on the bed. She stared at the floor for a moment, before turning to look at Yana.

    “Is for many reason. First is, I do not need red cloak for defend Norwick. I defend Norwick many times without be militia. Second is I cannot be everywhere. I cannot work inn, patrol, and read report and be good mother to you. You are most important to me. Yes, people in Norwick are important too, but you are child I care for.”

    Maya paused before continuing.

    “Your time for First Journey will be come sooner than think. We speak some of how your body change, no?”

    Yana just nodded, looking up.

    “In few year, you will grow more than any other time in life. You will get tall and strong. You will have to make many choice. I want be there help you make choice. I will not choose for you, but I want be there for show you path so can choose wise. When this time comes, we will take long journey together. I will show you what I can, so that you can see world for self, and make good choice in life.”

    Yana looked up and asked timidly, “Were you on First Journey when your father and grandfather were killed?”

    “Yes”, Maya nodded, doing her best keep a reassuring tone, “But this will not happen to you, if I have say about”

    There was a long pause, as Yana and Maya just looked at each other. Yana looked away and around the room, before settling her eyes on Maya’s gauntlets, the symbol of Tempus indelible and bright upon them.

    “Devlin’s going to be sad”, Yana said quietly. “He loves you”

    “I know”, is what all Maya could reply._

    Entry 97 – Service

    Today I do something much hard, and speak to Dwin of leave militia. I get all dress up to honor his be leader of Norwick. Is least I can do.

    I was expect he be much angry. But he was not. He was not happy, but seem understand reasons. All he ask was that I be there for help defend Norwick, and of course I say yes. Will come time soon though that I will go on First Journey with Yana, and then inn will have to be run by rest of Sisterhood, and Norwick will be without me for while. But this is still few years away.

    I already speak to Devlin about leave militia. He was not happy, but not protest either. But see him sad like he was with me, broke my heart. I think maybe if still around I will ask him come on First Journey with Yana and me. Yana likes him much, and would be good influence.

    In mean time I will continue teach Yana matters of heart, and how to fight for what she believe. Now she also have lesson from Aramuil, so is very busy little girl, learn both fight and magic.

    Now I will have time for teach her proper.

    I cannot help be proud of her. She is not of my blood, but she is of my heart. This is better I think.

    Many year ago I was very angry for Tempus take life from me, so I cannot have child. But now I see what his plan was, so long ago, and I wonder why I ever doubt him.


  • _Yana bounced on Maya’s shoulders rhythmically with each long stride. Maya looked up at the cherubic face, and little Yana, perhaps not so little, peered down with a grin.

    “Go faster Maya!”

    Maya chuckled, “You begin be too heavy for go faster on long walk like this. Was day when I could carry forever. Those day are years behind us. Soon will be tall like me!”

    Yana laughed, “I will never be as tall as you! Elves don’t get that tall!”

    Maya just grinned and quickened to a mile eating trot. The Sisterhood was just down the road, and there would come a time when Yana wouldn’t want to ride on her shoulders at all. Better to be exhausted at the end of the journey, than look back on lost opportunity._

    Entry 96 – Despair

    Demons are begin attack town. Other night, Celestria and Chet fall in battle, and before that, man of great evil cut down many, including all in Grapevine Inn. Little Yana too.

    They say man was in blood red armor, and after be frustrate for not find Aramuil, he go on rampage through Norwick and kill everyone. Was said entire guard not able stand up to him. Is said great mage Ronan chase him north, but that he escape. Mord have give order that no one allow face him alone.

    I cannot begin write how I feel about what happen. When I find out Yana was cut down, for moment it feel like legs cut out beneath me and could not stand. Then when go to Tristina, she is weak but return from death, and I care for much time. Then I thank Tempus for return child to me, and ask him grant me power to face him in combat.

    I am going to rip head off with bare hands, if Tempus gives me strength to do.

    I speak with Celestria, and she has turn fall in battle to anger and frustrate. As long as not do something stupid, I think this is good thing. Devlin worry me much though.

    I speak with Devlin on hill overlook Norwick, and he seem very distract. I mistake for his heart be empty and maybe full of despair, but he say no, is different.

    I do not follow his words so well, but from what can put together, he say that he worry war make lose something more than death. He says is feeling he has, but cannot explain, that this war will make such loss.

    I hope he is wrong


  • _It was early morning, and the sun barely peeked above the eastern tree line of Norwick. The grass was still covered in morning dew, and footing was poor.

    Maya stood beside Kastin and held her shield high, thrusting her training staff as if it were a spear. She watched carefully as Kastin did his best to mimic her moves.

    A few early risers stood watching. There were some of the guards who just ended shift, and a few farmers who had already done a few hours work and were looking for an excuse to take a break.

    Kastin stood a little over six feet, was well muscled and quick. His personality was hard to pin down. He was stoic and emotionally detached while on duty, but quick to smile and relaxed when not. She would see him in the inn chatting animatedly with Chet over an evening meal, and drinking ale. Sometimes, she watched him exit the inn. He had a habit of wearing little on his legs, and Maya liked a man with strong legs. But like a good officer, Maya kept her distance.

    Sometimes, it made her lonely.

    “No”, Maya instructed, “If lead with weak foot, will be good for hit hard, but not so good for balance. We first teach balance, then rest will follow. You use right hand most, no?”

    Kastin nodded wordlessly.

    “Then we lead this foot, but not crouch enough make leg tired. Seem maybe clumsy at first, but good for balance. In fight, balance is second.

    Kastin looked at Maya curiously, “What’s first?”

    “Heart”, Maya replied._

    Entry 95 – Red Cloaks

    I get report from Kresha on man name Kastin, who was ask to be militia. I meet him in inn and talk with for bit. Is very much man of duty, follows Tempus, and can see maybe have heart of fire.

    I say yes. I tell him am not good with tactic, but am very good at personal combat, and offer to teach, but he not take my words at worth, and he make challenge.

    I respect that. He want to find out for self, and not listen to rumor or words of gossip about Maya. So we go to hill and spar. I see right away he keep shield too low, so I reward with two hard whack on shoulder and knock him to ground.

    Am his teacher after that. I ask if he know what do wrong, and he say, “Challenge Instructor”.

    It make me laugh much.

    Other than Yana go to bed without make fuss, was only good thing happen that day.

    Are times I feel very much far away from other guards. I do not know why this is. Other day they form group to go after hobgoblin, and I think I could have been much help. But I just come from long duty, and that after spend many hour help move furniture and look for hole in wall in Grapevine. Have big rat somewhere in inn, and is very clever and take things. Was so tired would not be much good in fight, so go to bed.

    I wonder maybe if inn take too much of time, or be guard take too much time from inn. Maybe do both and take care of Yana begin to be too much.

    I will have to think much, on where heart is.


  • _Raxia swung the practice staff, wielding it in similar fashion to the double bladed weapon she was used to using. Maya took a step back, forcing her to follow, and when Raxia took another step she over extended, allowing Maya to step to the side and pull her off balance. Raxia stumbled briefly to one knee before quickly turning and re-engaging.

    Maya watched her student with curiosity. She was very tall, perhaps even as tall as herself. But she was very thin, her length all arms and legs. The double bladed staff suited her, but Maya would have been happier if she stayed with the standard weapon and shield until her balance and defense improved.

    Raxia over extended herself again. This time, Maya rewarded her student by pulling her completely off balance, sent her to the ground painfully. Raxia said nothing though, rising stoically while awaiting correction.

    Perhaps that’s why Maya trained her. Raxia accepted responsibility for her own actions and her own failures without ever complaining. But as Maya stood beside Raxia, correcting her footing and demonstrating attack posture, part of her mind wandered to the coming events, wondering if she would survive them._

    Entry 94 – Ka’arak

    I finally know name of champion of Minotaur. His name is Ka’arak. It is a good strong name, one that speaks of honor.

    I meet with him other day, in place of truce. He tells me of coming of demons. I ask why if they are allies he would do this, but he says demons do not fight with honor, and warns me so I am prepare. He wants me to survive them, so I can face him on field of battle, as warriors should meet. He does not care of Norwick or its people. He says I have heart of Minotaur. He only care I survive to fight him.

    I think on this much in past few days, and have two vision of before this. Tempus tells me battle with Ka’arak will be turning point in be his champion. Vision is very clear. One vision I lose. Other vision I win, and vision continues on with shrine and light. In both vision, Tempus takes me to him in way I cannot understand.

    I wish Tempus is god that would speak. Words from him would be nice right now.

    I like to think I will win. I have much to fight for now. I have many who look to me for fight, and one who looks to me as mother. I cannot lose for her. I cannot lose for Yana.

    Maybe is why we are bring to each other, so each can survive what will come.


  • _“…but he’s an asshole!”, Yana protested.

    Maya stifled a laugh, but couldn’t help grinning. “Is true maybe. No, not maybe. Rando is as you say. Where did you get word?”

    Yana looked away, “Nilli said it. Said that Rando was an asshole”

    “Nilli, old woman by large tent with many skins?”, Maya asked.

    “Yeah. She said she was around when he was captain, and said lots of things about him that I’m not sure what they mean, but I remember that word”.

    Maya, knelt down in front of Yana, “Maybe is word little girl should not use so much, no? Is true, though. Rando is not nice person. I was around when he was captain too. I hear many story of him, and know many thing too, but cannot just keep people out of Norwick because are asshole. Half of Norwick be gone”

    Yana grinned girlishly when Maya said the word, but then her face turned serious, “But Rando killed people up north, didn’t he? Didn’t the scary white woman kill people too? That’s what Nilli says. Why does Dwin let murderers in town?”

    Maya paused at length. Yana was growing up, and the questions were becoming more complicated and difficult to answer. It was times like this that Maya realized that she needed someone wiser in her life, and part of her heart ached for Adam again.

    Maya sighed, “I think is because Dwin want run Norwick without help from Peltarch, and not take word from Peltarch they kill these people. Dwin does not like be told by people who run Peltarch what to do. Chaevre has help Norwick much. People say she is evil but I cannot see into her heart. Rando…”, Maya paused at length, “Maybe he is evil. Is certainly not nice person.”

    Yana looked at Maya earnestly, waiting for some wisdom that would explain it all.

    “Yana”, Maya continued, “I do not have answer for why Dwin do. I say this. If war come, I will put you in safe place and fight for defend people of Norwick. But I am not happy about. If Rando and Chaevre are evil and murder people, then we should not fight war over them.

    Yana paused for a moment, “Can I have a cookie?”

    Maya’s shoulders slumped, wondering if anything she said managed to capture her attention. Maya simply nodded, and pointed over to the pantry._

    Entry 93 – Why?

    I think before go to war, I would ask Dwin why. He knows I will keep oath, and will fight for protect people of Norwick, but want know why he not just lock gate for big trouble makers and say not allow here.

    I will watch close. If they make big trouble in Norwick, I will behead. I will let blood sing hard, and make them think they fight Tempus himself. Then I put head on pike outside gate of Norwick, and send note to Peltarch come pick up what left.


  • Entry 92 – Rest

    It is quiet now.

    Yana is asleep after have fit and cry. She take small cake from pantry in Inn, and not tell truth about. I scold much about never lie, and send her to room to sit on bed. She fold arms and say not go. I do best try not to laugh, because look cute when like this, but carry to bed and tell her now lose dessert for five days because not do as told. I tell her would respect if say she took, and tell why first, but she just cry.

    Yana can be pain, but love just same.

    Today Nicahh try give me new clothes. I do not like much, but is gift and not want insult. Is almost show everything up front, and I feel I will fall out if bend over or turn quick. Nicahh say not, but have hard time for believe.

    Was funny sword show up again in Norwick. Sword have rules on blade, that person can challenge for own, but person who has can decide on fair challenge. Person who has now is name Andrew Tormier

    I challenge him, hope maybe he choose to fight, but no! He choose must both act like chicken, and have people around fire decide who best! I laugh so hard I almost pee, but have to agree, Andrew make best chicken. I have not laugh so hard in very long time, and feels good.

    This is man I not notice before. Was just one of many come and go through Norwick. But I see he is of good spirit, have twinkle in eye, and can laugh at self. Face is handsome, and carries self good. I sit by fire and watch him for time, before have to go on duty.

    Now is time for bed. Is begin to be cold again, and must put up heavy curtain in windows.


  • Entry 91 – Torn

    I guess happiness be short.

    It start when I travel north to go see who at camp. Am off duty, and spend time play with Yana, so think maybe look up friend who there sometimes. I get to north gate of Norwick, and I see Rando, Chaevre, gnome I not know, two Banite, one be Zanetar.

    Rando I do not like. I respect as warrior but is cruel person. Chaevre was knight work for Anakore, and has help defend Norwick much. Is whisper of try steal body from Peltarch for undead magic, but I hear was just try get body of friend for bring back. Was take over by evil witch name dark enchantress, but not her fault. Besides, I see dark enchantress when fight demon, so know is not in Chaevre any more.

    Zanetar is ban from Norwick though.

    I stand inside of gate while they talk, just so make sure Zanetar not enter town, and am concern all are together, and speak like have business. That is when Devlin comes, and say he must speak to me.

    It seem that Rando on trial for do something in Peltarch, and Chaevre was in prison. Both escape. People are dead. Now Peltarch want. But Mord make decision that is Peltarch problem, and allow Rando and Chaevre enter Norwick if not cause trouble. I do not like much, but is order from commander, and am honor to obey

    Was begin be good from there. I lose to Nicahh in archery, but is no shame and still have much fun. Chet is shy and try ask me to be his girl, but Devlin rap on head, I think from jealous heart. Nicahh thinks that maybe should give Chet chance, but Johan once give advice for not be with people work for you, and think is good advice. Beside, I do not have any fire in heart for him.

    But then Shannon come. He point to Chaevre and say is wanted by Peltarch, and ask for help. I tell him I cannot, because was order not to, unless make trouble. Then Shannon ask one thing, one thing I not forget.

    He ask me look other way.

    Is great insult. Shannon is friend of mine, and have been through very bad place together, so I put insult behind me. But still is there, and I cannot believe he would ask me do this. Ask me for dishonor duty. Shannon…of Torm, ask me to not do duty.

    I hope Torm forgive him this.

    We have big meeting later with Dwin. I will not write detail of here, in case journal is be take or read, but he say much as Mord does. That for now, they allow here if not make trouble. He ask Shannon if Peltarch want Norwick to help, must make request on paper. Shannon warns that soon maybe army be control of Peltarch, and come take from Norwick.

    That will be war.

    If this comes, I will have to move Yana back to Sisterhood. I do not like, but can see no other way.

    I speak to Nicahh about things, and she believe they are murderers, and should be shown gate, or give to Peltarch. My heart tells me she is right, but duty says I must do as Mord and Dwin say.

    I go to monument in Nars, and pray much to Tempus. I even give own blood in Tempus name on monument to make prayer stronger. But is no sign. Is no answer.

    I feel am torn in half. Devlin talks of duty same as me, and speaks of second chances, because someone give him one. He understands that when make oath to side, is much dishonor to disobey.

    Nicahh speaks to my heart. In my heart, I know this is all wrong. Nicahh does too.

    I have not ever been cut in two pieces like this. Heart and duty to Tempus have always been in same place. Now, one fights other. Oath says to protect, and heart says cut into many small pieces and feed to birds.

    Somewhere is answer for all of this. I just wish someone wise who knows Tempus would tell me.


  • _Maya leaned against a post. The inn bustled around her, the cacophony of voices becoming a simple song of life. Here and there women of the Sisterhood went by and served customers.

    Across the room, Chet and Devlin sat at a table. Chet was eating stew, and Devlin was telling him something with great animation. Two people sat by the fire in the adjoining room holding hands. Near by, Dwin cackled at some inside joke with Mord and Kresha, while Aramuil looked on with a bemused expression.

    No one caused trouble. People were too busy eating, enjoying life, and laughing. Part of Maya was disappointed. She felt almost useless watching this song of life, and not being a part of it. But soon, a merchant from Peltarch came up to her and asked which room was the best, Yana ran through the room pretending she was a bird, and one of the patrons bought her a round of ale.

    Maya looked around and smiled. This was why she fought. This quiet celebration of life captured her heart in the same way coming to Adam’s house had done, countless years before.

    She was home._

    Entry 90 – Grapevine Inn

    I write this from small table in Grapevine Inn, which now open. We have many customer today, but now is very late. All but two go home or rent room, and I think both maybe are too drunk for walk.

    I feel have home again, for first time in many years. It warms heart in way very hard for write and put into words.

    I hope some day, far from now, when Tempus no longer needs his champion he will let me live here, for see people come and go. I think word is “retire”, but that means go to sleep, so am probable mistake. I will ask someone in morning maybe.

    But now am just happy


  • _The wind whispered through the trees and bent waves of grass before it. The sky darkened, threatening rain. To the south, the ravages of a demonic war bloodied the sky in shades of gray and red.

    Still in the green bridesmaid’s dress, Maya knelt on a hill in Jiyyd, her face twisted in distraught. She held her arms outstretched in supplication, staring up into the sky, while tears ran from the corners of her eyes down past her ears. Words in her Uthgardt tongue all but disappeared in the wind.

    “Tempus, why did you do this?! When you remake me, and was born again, why is it I can not have a child? Why do you leave me, barren like this?”

    Maya paused and sniffed before continuing.

    “I hurt good man today, one who follows, and fights in your name. All I ask is sign. Give me reason! Is because I give too much death, so life does not grow inside? Is because I am for one, chosen by you, and not by me?”

    Maya closed her eyes, taking a long deep breath.

    “Even though I am your champion here, in this land, I should not question your ways. I just ask that you tell me. Give me a sign, so I may understand. Give me strength, so my hope does not die.”

    Maya sat there for a long time. The rains came and washed over her. The night came and cloaked her presence. She shivered and endured, but there was no sign. No ravens came with visions, and no ancestors guided her foot steps. She sat alone on the hill until morning, her prayers unanswered._

    Entry 89 – Barren

    I should write of great battle with goblins, minotaurs and demons. I should write of Nicahh’s wedding, and great joy I feel for two of my friends, who joined hearts today in front of many people and Elven gods.

    Is selfish maybe, but I do not.

    I was dress in green. Ael wish for green, and not for blue, so I feel like tall plant. Devlin was in green too, and we joke much about. After Nicahh and Ael make promise to each other, and are bless, was much joy, and I could see in Devlin’s heart have joy too.

    He make funny jokes, and kneel in plants and pretend to be one, and we laugh much. Then in playful way of say, he ask if I would be his, and give him children.

    I do not know what to say to this. Maybe I misunderstand, but even if words he say are wrapped in games, I think I can see them. It saddens me much, for tell him no.

    Devlin is good person. He does not capture my heart, but is good follower of Tempus like Talgris, and knows honor. Yana likes him very much.

    But I cannot be what he wants. I cannot give him child.

    …and it hurts.

    There is a gap here. The following entry is written much later, but not marked under a different date.

    I can say I know Tempus heart. I can say I know what he teach. But to know mind of Tempus? I do not think anyone can know mind of god.

    Are times I look back on long life and see how Tempus make me what am today.

    I was take from family to be slave, but while be slave I learn axe, and grew tall and strong. I escape from wagon to come here, land of war and heroes. He gives me visions to see people for teach, and tells me to become Black Dragon Knight, so I can learn all weapons, and art of battle.

    He gives me Adam, so I might know love.
    He takes Adam, so I might know pain.
    He sends me to bad places, so I know despair.
    But then gives me Natanya, so I know hope.

    He gives me Nicahh, sisters, and Yana, so I know family, but does not let me make one of own.

    Why?

    I hope someday will be reveal to me. I must have faith in mind of Tempus.

    And patience.


  • _Maya stood in front of the mirror, and eyed herself critically.

    “I am too tall”, she muttered to herself in the Uthgardt before turning around. “Legs are too big too”

    She hurriedly put on a long, wool skirt, tying it then spinning it around to put the ties in back. Then she put on a short linen shirt, pulling up and poofing out the sleeves. She ducked a bit, looking into the mirror.

    “This is much better”, she continued in Uthgardt, poking at her midriff. “Stomach is strong, and my belly button does not look stupid. Men will like glimpse of tummy, no?”

    With great deliberation she spent the next 20 minutes undoing all the ties in her hair, and brushed it out. The dark gold mixed with the occasional brown was brushed until it shone with freshly washed luster. Maya stood in front of the mirror, and mustered a “come hither” look, lowering her eyes as she had seen Wizard Sky look at Zyphlin so many years ago.

    She smirked at bit at the ridiculousness of it, and broke out laughing, eyes bright with mirth.

    “Tempus, this is very foolish. I hope you are not looking now, seeing what your champion is doing to herself!”

    She reached over to her dresser and gathered several dark blue ribbons, and tied them into her hair, and reattached all the feathers in a bunch in the back. Tentatively, she eyes herself in the mirror again, noting how the ribbons and feathers matched the skirt.

    “Is…not bad I think. Maybe a necklace or…”

    Just then Yana walked in, stopping at the door way. She looked up at Maya, elven eyes wide, before turning and running down stairs, giggling.

    “Rijha! Rijha! Come see what Maya did to herself! She looks like a girl!”

    Maya leaned her head on the mirror and just sighed._

    Entry 88 – Woman

    Today I try to look like woman, instead of Champion of Tempus. Is lesson here, somewhere I think. Was worth see look on guards face though, when walk around Norwick. Would be good disguise maybe.


  • _“Good night!”, Yana said as she trundled upstairs.

    “Good night”, Maya called softly from down below.

    Little Yana, still a child but not so little, trundled over to her bed upstairs in the Grapevine Inn. Reaching underneath, she pulled out a small wooden hammer, and knelt by the open window. The cool night breeze rustled her dark hair, causing her to shiver.

    She held the little hammer to her breast, and scrunched her eyes tightly.

    “Dear Tempus”, she started.

    “Thank you for Nicahh and all the sisters who took care of me.”

    “Thank you for my teachers Rijha and Suvarr, who teach me to read and write, and know my numbers.”

    “Thank you for Lady Natanya, who helped bring Maya back from very bad places.”

    “Thank you for Ael and Devlin, ‘cause they make Maya laugh”

    “Thank you for bringing Maya to me. I really don’t have a mom, ‘cause she died when I was born. Now I kind’a do. Ssshh! Don’t tell her though, ‘cause she’d probably cry or something.”

    Jana got up, and started to crawl into bed, but quickly went back to the window, holding the hammer and scrunching her eyes again.

    “Tempus, bless all the guards and people that protect Norwick, and make it so I can sleep safe at night.”

    She quickly got up and went to bed. Moments later, what passed for sleep was upon her, and dreams of goblins, frogs, and dark whimsical things filled her night.

    Before the sun finally settled behind the horizon, and Norwick was blanketed in darkness, a large raven graced her window sill. It sat there watching, its gaze never straying far from the Yana’s sleeping form. Before the last wisp of light was stolen by the night, it departed, leaving a solitary black feather by the bed._

    Entry 87 – Quiet

    It is quiet now. Is good time for think.

    I play in Norwick game night, and after shoot with bow have pretend battles with good wizard on other side. Battle gave me much to think about when fight wizard. Tempus makes me strong in many things, but against powerful magic is not one.

    Now I save coin for shrine. I speak to Dwin about, and he say will help, but first must find place. Must be good place, where all can come see. Then after build, will need priest of Tempus for bless. Hope will be Krig.

    Militia of Norwick grows big. Is good thing, because goblin and enemy are many. I promise teach woman name Raxia I give lesson for fight. She is very tall, almost as me, but skinny like elf. I think she need learn duck if going to live.

    Maya pauses for a moment, tapping the quill on her lip.

    Nicahh and others go north on ship. Ael is much worry because is soon for be marry, but I have faith Tempus will protect and bring her back to Ael. Besides, Nicahh say I am to have dress, and I know she not miss opportunity to make me look like woman instead of warrior for Tempus.


  • _Maya lay by the pool’s edge, her unwashed and still braided hair a disheveled mess in the steamy confines of the bath house. Her clothes and armor lay in a heap in the corner tossed haphazardly and strewn in disarray.

    A few women, Peltarch socialites, or upper merchant class visiting from Damara sat in the corner, giggling and whispering conspiratorially, often glancing in Maya’s direction. Maya paid little attention to them, instead laying with her chin supported by her fists, staring into the water.

    The song in her blood hadn’t really ended. The fight with the Ettins and Duergar had been challenging but without grave danger, punctuated by sporadic fights and interludes. It had been dangerous enough to invoke it, but without the need for fervor, which allowed it to end quickly.

    After the battle she stood with her comrades, trying to quell it. The only person worth considering there had been Ael, and that wasn’t going to happen. She found it easier to simply walk away.

    Even the boat ride to Peltarch had done nothing to relieve it. Afterwards, she sat on the Peltarch docks for what seemed like hours, watching the dock workers unload crates from a merchant vessel.

    The bath house was a mere 10 minutes away. He cost 50 glimmers. She didn’t even know his name.

    The song was quiet after that, though her heart was empty._

    Entry 86 – Needs

    I fight evil Ettins and Duergar today with Ael, Nicahh, and two stout dwarf name Farley and Kallinar. Was very good battle, and even have trophy of good make double axe. Maybe some day, I learn to use.

    But after battle, blood sing too much, and had been too long. All could think about after battle was celebrate life and make pleasures. Is way should be, no?

    I leave group, I go many places for make go away, but nothing work this time. Think watch many dock worker with no shirt in sun was probable not good way for make go away either.

    I get to bath house and after speak to person, I make pay. Is person I never see, probable never see again.

    Why is no one here understand?

    _A loud burst of giggling and pointing drew Maya’s attention. Maya looked over at them. They returned her gaze haughtily. Mockingly. Maya wondered briefly how long it would take the guards to arrest her, if she truly let Tempus within her, naked like this, after she put one of their heads through the partition behind them.

    Instead Maya closed the journal, and gathered her things._