3. Elridith Centhedwa

Elridith Centhedwa


  • going to post all elridith stories here…


  • Your Gentle Grasp.

    Can you hear me gentle bird?
    Are you around me?

    Take me in your touch.
    Take me to where I belong.

    Take me there tonight.
    I know it's now time.

    The girl from the past is now gone.
    As if willed from existence.

    I need you more than ever now.
    I need you now to show what comes next.

    I will hold on forever.
    I know I will be alright.

    I don't want to be alone.
    Never again.

    My heart is now empty.
    It has none left to give.

    I thank all those who comforted me.
    All those who were a part of me.

    –-

    The blue monster.
    My axe and courage.
    I have never found a more unlikely brother.

    The silver beacon.
    My light in the dark.
    My eternal hope, and reminder of the people.

    The tome of knowledge.
    To share my thoughts.
    Book of wisdom of patience.

    The shy arrow.
    My comforting words.
    To remind me of the past.

    The green shield.
    Compassion and heart.
    To show me what life is for.

    The beautiful lady.
    A great wall for me to lean on.
    Without you I would have been truly lost.

    My dark horse.
    In another life things could be different.
    To firm my resolve.

    Now dark bird.
    Take me in your wing.

    I am ready finally.
    These strong hearts do not need me.

    I doubt they ever did.
    But I hope I taught each something.

    Will you be the dark raven.
    Or the shining phoenix.

    Decide now, and fly.
    I said I am ready.

    The fire in my heart dulls.
    It's now time.

    Time to fly.
    Im not alone.


  • The terrible feeling of understanding.

    'I don't want the world to see me, because I don't think they would understand.'

    Am I the dark horse running amongst the herd of white. Or the white horse amongst the dark. To reach into the darkness and pull forth a light from inside. Perhaps I will never know. Perhaps I might die early, and be graced with an answer. I fear not the beyond. I fear not the eternity that awaits. I have done what I believe to be true in my heart. Let my heart be whatever you wish to view it as. For I care not. There is a duality of light and dark. The further we push to remove one, the other only seems to appear more and more, in either direction. But it is a necessary struggle, for without the light we are blind. The eternal balance. I long for a sign that existence has meaning. Perhaps this will be my end. My last cheer for what is right in the world.

    This is my crusade. My test. My existence. Be it success or failure, it will be proven is a single moment. A moment that may shape the lives of many, or shape the lives of none. I would give my life for many of them, if not all. Will this be my dark crusade, from now until forever?


  • Pieces Held Together

    _"When you're gone, im in pieces. Hard to live with my other half a world and a half away from me. Everyday I hold back the tears, but I really understand why I was sent back." A few tears fall down the girls soft face. A few tears from those silver eyes, but her eyes aren't sad. Her lips stay frozen in thought, but her eyes turn into a smile. She didn't smile often. It was rare to find her with one that wasn't put on for show, or formality. She has really lost the drive she used to have. It's been a year since she has seen her son, a year for her isn't much, but to any to see their child. It has become a near unbearable eternity, but still she is able to even fake those smiles. She sighs lightly as she begins to stand up from the stones placed out in the middle of the forest. How this place is able to stay untouched with so much happening keeps her in amazment, and she prays for it everyday. She prays for everyone everyday, and then for those she dosen't even know. Prays to just hold on, one more day. Every step a breath, for the next breath, for the next step. It's a difficult life for her, seperated from those who she has loved for so long, but she knows what she must do. Her small bodies carries her out of the glenn, her small body carries signs of tiredness when nobody else is arond. Does she have to appear so strong? Perhaps, perhaps not, but she does. Not for herself, but for her people. If she can lead by example. If she can be strong, can't those around her be strong also? She hopes, and prays. Thats all she really has left. Her people, those she owes her life to times over. She would willing die for many of them, not because she is lost and alone, but because she truly believes they are worth it, every one of them. She would rather fall for another, than to fall in her age, it would truly be her honor.

    "Just to keep all my pieces together right?" She glances up at the sky, seeking somehting past the clouds. If only for one day at a time. "I'll make it through, just keep an eye on me." Those silver eyes show their smile again, the one seldom seen. She knows why she has come back, she knows what she must do, one leg at a time like everyone else.

    That small body fills up with air, almost puffs her chest out and marches herself off south. One step at a time, that smile in her eyes grows._


  • Alone…

    Why do I forget? Why do I wish to be with another? Why is it my only fear being alone? Although it is the only thing I am able to find. The only place I am able to exist. The only thing I am ever able to truely find. I want to find someone. I want to be a part of something. A part of something great. Something greater than one person, greater than a single idea. Something truely great. Why can't I have that? Too ambitious? Askling too much of myself? Asking too litle? The only one that can awnser these things is someon i will never speak to.. someone I will never be able to understand. this is my life now, and I should be able to live it, to the fullest amd the greatest More than I can ever believe I am capable of. I want to be important. I want to chnge the world, but first… but first I must truely understand who I am.. who I am inside myself... for that is a question I do not know the awnser of.


  • Along Again?

    The poor girl glances down over herself. She sits and waits, only able to stare out at herself and her surroundings. She has a look of puzzlement in her eyes. Like everything seems so new to her. Like the moments a child has everytime the encounter somehting new and exciting. The poor girl gazes out at this new world. Gazes out into what she is ignorant of, having gone from cycles of crying and praying. That has since stopped. She is truly alone. There are only things that differ from before she left the material plane so many years ago. For her time has been a fluxating variable. She has never had the luxary of having this a constant in her life. Finally shes back to where she should have been those so many years ago. She is back to the time where she was after leaving her origional home. Her body has lost some of the age it has gained. Theres only two things different about her other than her body going back in time.

    Those eyes. Those beautiful eyes of hers. They kept their pure silver color, but inside they are different. Inside they radiate of a blue light. A vibrant blue color searing within her eyes, and that intricate branding on her hand. That mark summed up whole her history, everything about her, everythign she was or wasn't capable of, is missing.


  • Whats in a name?

    The poor woman, or girl, or somehting inbetween. She can never find a place between the two. To humans a woman, to her own people a child. Beyond her years, but appears to be so young. Is she younger than before they met? Looks like it. The poor girl lay sitting alone in that awful place. That horendous place, not evil or bad. Just alone. The only thing she ever wanted in life. The one thing, just not to be alone. Yet here she sits again. Her head low, the only thing she has is a symbol of the father god she's drawn in front of her. In that sand, theres not even the wind to keep her company in this place.

    The girl looks overself questioningly. As if something has changed and she didn't know what. Like she can sense a change in herself, but fail to understand what it was. Somehting at the core of her very being is different. She thinks over this slowly a moment. She wipes away the symbol in the dust and replaces it with a name. A name she thought was her own.


  • Alone Again…

    I'll…. I won't see him again. Ever. Not here. Never again... But we will always be together. To him I have served my purpose. I've been a damn fool to think it would last forever. Nothing can last forever. I'll pray everyday for them. Every single day. There so much I wish I could do to change it, but I can't. Nothing.

    I'll miss you. More than you know. More than you'll ever imagine. You are a part of me, and im a part of you. Together forever, forever and always. You will never see me, you will never feel my touch on your skin again, but our spirits are intertwined, as is the way of your people, and your touch will last in me forever. You will always hear me. You've a long life ahead of you, a lot to learn, and alot to accomplish. Your body will take you back more than you think. You'll be shocked, but remember you will always have me, always and forever.

    I.. I know, I love you with all my heart and soul, and they will be yours. But why can't I see you? Why can't I touch you? I don't want to be alone. Not again. Never again. Don't leave me, not again. I can't be alone again. My body, what about it? I don't care about it. I want you… I want my boy... Don't leave me again.

    Don't be desperate my dear, some day we will be together. Some day after you've lived your life the right way. I thank you for what you have done, it is complete. It is done. It is now I am forced to leave you to before I found you. You will see how when you look at yourself. I will always be watching, I will be waiting for you. I only ask you not to forget us. You are in us. Your child more than I, but I have no choice. If I did I would stay with you forever. You know that. You will always have my thoughts and prayers. The great father is watching you. I am no longer your guardian despite my wishes. You will hear me, and though I am not your guardian, I will be watching waiting, you are my other half. Take your real name, the one which you were destined at birth, buy your father forbid. I love you Ari, always and forever.

    The Beyond is too far. Too long. I need you now. I need you. Please…

    The poor girl waves to somehting above her, bathed in tears as she has been for a long time. She thinks she's been in tears forever. Tears of sadness.


  • Reconnecting

    _That voice, it sounds so familiar, but it couldn't be. She begins to turn her head but stops. could that really be him? Will he recognize me? Her head swivels around slowly. A gleaming grin grows on her face, she stands, speechless a moment. The only thing that happens next is she jumps to the man in front of her.

    He laughs and smiles. "This mean you're my older sister now?" He chuckles as he looks her over. She just looks up at him, "Thats right… oh, i've so much to tell you." He glances down again with a smile. "I'll be around" he winks.

    The walk off together, the quick chatter of the years and years that passed. Well at leats for one of them. Over a hundred years of stories on one side, and a few on the other. She had quite a bit to say. Good he is patient._

    :to be continued


  • _Changing Times…

    The gentle motion of one thumb massaging the tip of the other. An uncomfortable glance down at something seeming to change. Something that has been a constant for her entire life. The familiarity gone, like something about her very being is shifting as it is shifting. That the smallest changes of a signle solitary mark can make her feel so different. But as the little mark changes, she is changing. It's not only the mysterious seal on her thumb that changes itself. As each length of the triangle brightens she brightens. Her hair seems to grown from a bright blonde, to a stunning light goldish color, with pure silvery streaks running through it. The centers of her eyes contort and mold into a new image as time seems to pass. The intense green remains, but at the center the color grows brighter and brighter as the days pass on. The changes are subtle and flowing. They are not radical, but only unexpected. What does it mean? Why is there a change? And What will happen because of it? All questions without awnsers. All the girl can do is embrace her changes, she dosen't feel weaker or lesser because of it, only different. Such embracing is difficult, so tight ties are worn on her hair, and gloves are worn. Perhaps she should get over her feelings ans insecurities, but now is not the time. There are more important matters to attend to._


  • All I Want

    Dawn is rising out of the dark night sky. The familiar chatter of sea birds start to get louder and louder as time goes on. A small creeking noise can be faintly heard from a corner. The small elf is waoken by the birds, but it's about time she got up anyways. Well, as awoken as an elf can be anyways. She was able to wedge herself into a nice spot inbetween a few big crates and the wall. Good thing her clothes and cloak are both very thick, but she likes the cold either way. It reminds her of so much, the cold. The figure stands tentatively, peeping her head out from behind the nest she made in the boxes. She thinks to herself it was good they birds started up this early. She looks up at the sky, the suns rays just starting to reach the ocean mist now. Small smile slides across her face as she hides behind the crates as she peers out at the ocean. She lets out a small laugh thinking it's way overdue for her to see the ocean anyways. She straightens out her clothes and reties her hair up. She reties it every other minute. Maybe she needs to cut it, it is getting long. That long blonde hair flowing around her as she walks. Good thing she keeps it up otherwise she likely loose it. She smiles and tries to discretely make her way of of her nest for the previous night. As she stands its clear to see that she is much shorter than most other elven women, but its likely because of her age, perhaps her heritage. She dosen't speculate too much about it, although the thought crosses her everytime she gets up. She is young, very young. She smiles to herself at this. Thinking back to a red haired priest calling her a 'just a baaaaabbyyyyy' or something similar to it. God does it remind her of Alara. She wanders around the various boats wondering which one it was she was looking at the previous day. Alara, it was her best friend before she came to narfell. Damn does she miss her. Elridith would give anout anything in the world to have her now. She misses being a kid you know. Everyone thinks shes so old, and mature. I guess she does pretend to be that way. She wants to let loose all the time, sometimes she does. She has some friends she can 'let her hair down' with. Juster for one. They have had probably too much fun poking people. Childish yes, she admits to herself, but fun nonetheless. Every once in a while she can joke around but it's not the same. She feels out of place. All these thoughts almost make her miss the boat. She moves up then shows the man her ticket and climbs up. Good things she packed light this time. Just food, books… well maybe she didn't pack light. Least she tried to this time anyhow. She moves up and over the ramp then down underneath to put her things down. 'Aasa will be here in a bit, I guess my things will be alright' she thinks. She lemps her things on top of her bed and clides the door closed behind her. She didn't wans to be a stoaway now that she actually had a little of bit of coin to her name. She stops, pops the door back open graps a book from her sac then heads out again and up the stairs. She heard the deckhands scurrying about around her, as well as a few other passengers who didn't decide to stay in their rooms. This is what she loves. The ropes are pulled off of the dock, let loose from their ties. She takes a deep breath. Although stuck on a boat she feels so free. She takes a few more as the boat starts to get going as the sails are let loose. Alara, she remembers again. She was a druid, perhaps that's why El was always interested in the druids. She remembers Alara used to try to teach her. Attempts were futile, but it was fun thinking about the possibilities. She takes another breath, but this time reality sets in. She remembers the undead, the demon, the climbing numbers of the times she has been to the fugue. She shakes her head. The little elf needs her time. 'I need to relax, or... well I neded to get away from there, too much is going on' she thinks. She remebers how awful she felt as she was killed by the most wretched creatures she has faced. Those wretched beings. Another deep breath, and worry sets into her, just as the air fills her lungs. Demon, at least she broke that altar. Undead, she hopes she helped at least, if only a little. She tries to think about what she has actually done here. She doubts herself, i've done nothing. 'Ya.. ya... I stopped that demon... one time... but just that one thing, and I died, and other people had to save me.. and they did all the hard parts anyhow... killing those demon spiders'. A small sigh is relased from her thin body. 'I've done alot for my age, but im getting older, becoming an adult'. Yes.. she wasn't even an adult yet. Why is she where she is now? 'All those people think im more than I really am... but why?...' she takes another deep breath. ''I just want to find my place in the world. That is what I want. To be my own person. To be everything I ever wanted to be... NO... I want to beverything that is Me' she pauses a long time. The icy mist coming up off the sides of the boat, but she dosen't mind it so much. They haven't gotten that far yet. 'Maybe I should have tome more people I was going for a while, maybe I should.....' she doubts herself and what she has done. 'I need this, I need tome to stay out of the fight, the memorizing, the reading, the running... the fighting' shes tired. She tightens up her cloak around her and slider her elbows on the railing of the boat looking out. She watches the waves pass, and breathes slow and steady. She relaxed knowing she needs this time. The faint smiles starts to reappear on her lips and she looks out over the open ocean. Her hair getting loose in the wind, her searing bright green eyes look out. She stands with a regal poise and beauty for one such her age. Perhaps only coincidence... but then again, perhaps not.


  • Out Of Love

    _With a blast of red light a ball shoots into the dark blue sky. A wretched feeling within his gut as he is compacted before his long, but short journey. The red puff shoots up and up. Higher and higher into the sky until barely out of sight. Then comes to a complete stop, and shoots towards the sea. The red ball of light is a stranger amongst the clouds. It soars quickly, at an almost unimaginable speed. Over oceans, forests, plains, and deserts. It flies off and off, further and further. Reaching the uncovered ruins in the land knows as Everska. In the north of the continent by a lake a figure cloaked in darkness awaits his betrayer. He has been betrayed and will have his retribution. Painful and wretched it will be, but the betrayer soars on. He knows what he has done, what he should have done. He flies on towards the possibilities of endless pain or death. But there are things worse than death, but those are rarely known and ever mroe rarely spoken of. They exist and perhaps will be employed on the recovering soul on his return journey. He flashes down in another red burst of light after hivering over the area for a short moment. The restored grey eyes and red hair of the elf are one of the first signs to his master. A dark resonating voice dierces the darkness from underneath it's hood.

    "I know what you have done… I will not tolerate it..."

    Red drops spray the dark grass and stones and a foul piercing scream is released.

    "Insobordination will not be tolerated!"

    The red haired elf drops to his knees, on the edge of death. A small crunch of the grass as he hits the forest of the ruins. He crys out with the last bit of air he has in his lungs.

    "You... you will be defeated..."

    At this he falls to the floor, his pure grey eyes closed. The ruins go silent._

    //continuation of what happened IG for those who saw it


  • _I wish there were peace…

    The soft glow of the sun pierces the outstretched arms of the trees. The gentle light illuminates the sunkissed face of a young body which lie beneath it. The soft delicate breaths from within her chest are relaxed and comfortable. These is nothing fear for her at the moment. Just the dull pause inbetween her breaths. The glenn is full of the normal residents. Which flutter and speak to one another, before again fluttering off with a sparkle of light. The glen epitomiomizes the feeling of saftey, despite whatever feelings or thought may stir in her mind. An untraditional visitor and faithful of the lying girl flaps it's way about, somewhat pestering the locals but means no harm. At the sight of it the sparkles dance their way away from it through the air. The comfortably curled form lay gently, perched carefully over a book. Her things beside her looks packed and ready to go at any moment. A small quill whisks it's way over the pages with great grace. The odd looking sheets bound within the silver tome. The tome carries no nameany the familiar triangle associated with the still and relaxed elf. A suprising regal beauty over one such as her age. As unexpected as the end of the world, a crack rings out from the entrance of the serene glenn. A piercing yell rings out from the blue outsider. The splatter of blood along the soft forest floor. The broken flaping like that of a bird with a broken wing. The mere attempt to scramble away by the blue creautre now covered in red. All the while the elf scrambles into her bag. Pouring into it. She thinks it seems to go on forever. That every second lost brings her closer to death. Her mind was too unrelaxed and unprepared for which she thought wouldn't happen again. Her hearts beats harder and harder. The sounds of the ruffle across the floor and her scramble offset the few creatures as they make their way up and up to where they can be safe. A gleaming silver sword makes the familar sound as it slides from it's now buried sheath. Cutting a small slit on the edge of her bag. Now two pairs of eyes try to pierce the falling leaves and the glare of light from the setting sun. Clearly one is more trained for the art. A younger pair of eyes now searches frantically, taking each step with great care. She moves a deadly slow. If caught it could mean the end. The end of her. She is scared. Her heart beats faster and faster still. While the one of broken wing beats slower and slower as it crawls to the bag. The now low light in the sky leaves a strady stream of a reflection off the silver blade. Perhaps she shouldn't have chosen one looking so pure. So crisp. So clean, but it wasn't given to her. It was a lucky find in a place not far from where she is now. As every step forward both make, the closer they get. What will happen now. They move slow. She thought the blue one was near the entrance. Was he? She can't remember, her head now bursting from the pressure of the blood through her veins. She tries to concentrate on the pain. She is keen on keeping focus, but not this time. The panicked heart beats faster and safter even still. With every step countless beats. With every step countless thoughts. Is he back? He cant be back. Why has he come? Why now? He wants me. He needs me. No. She shakes her head again, a small ruffle of her long blonde hair. The shining appearance of her whole body. The long hair perhaps even brighter than the reflections of the sterling clothes she wears. The broken wing makes it's way into the bag. It curls itself thinking that the only place to be safe. The only place to hide. He wants to help but like the beating heart which makes it's way about the glenn, he is afraid. He will do nothing but cower in fear, and try to wait for his wounds to heal. A toothy grin, a malicious grin makes it's way about. A deadly grace about him. One false move and he knows her will have her. One false move and everything he has ever dreamed of will be his. One false move is all he thinks about. He patiently scans the trees. The other still off at a distance, and with the falling leaves and the glare of the sun, he hasn't spotted her yet. Perhaps the gods smile on her today, perhaps they will keep her alive just one day longer, perhaps. Gods are fickel creatures and that is fact. A dark blade comes into focus of the thin one. She cowers behind the nearest tree, luckily big enough to hide her. Her frail but recovering body. A snap of a branch by her small feet crys out. Crys heard by the other. The malicisous grin grows. He makes his way slowly. Slowly, but as the gentle steps come, the now cowering one readies herself. The pressure of her heart in her chest feels as though it's going to explode. The fury and anger within her is overhwleming. The dark thought still in her mind. She can barelt contain herself. Faster ans faster now she thinks. What can she do. She waits. As if her patience was being tried to eternity and back. She waits. The slow pause as a sickening scoul roars out within the glenn. "Where are you?" then ceases to laugh and the wicked grin returns. He taps the dark blade against each passing tree. A dark red and black crust forms on each as they are touched but the hiseoud blade. The curled and demented form of the blades slides along. The rap and sting it leaves on the trees. She darts out from behind. Her long flowign hair follows behind her. She readies herself into her positision. Her legs stretch and flex as they are set wide expecting an incoming blow. She narrows her front to avoid being hit, but still the malicious grin only laughs. The owner of it a pale face with a set of beaming red eyes. The set of red eyes fileld with hate, resent, and of anger. Nothing but evil emotions course through this shell of a once righteous man. The man swaggers on. An arrogance and pride of what he has been befouled to about him. He dosen't speak now. Nor does she, only the crunch of leaves as she lurches forward, the blade raised above her. The blade slides through the air towards the broken soul. The black blade raised quicly to shrug off the swing, and returns one into the thick of her leg. The black and red ruptures the skin leaving it with an unearthly taint, a burn of unpurity. She crys out with a gasp and tries to breath. His face smiling down at her. Grabbing her throat with his free hand and he squeezes. The weak gasp for air rings out, only made harder by her efforts to strike him with her silver blade. She tires quickly, her efforts useless. He bulls the blade out and rubs it on her thigh, tearing off the pants that cover it. A sick smile eyes her up and down as he looks over the untoughet parts of her leg. The bleeding flows slower by the burn of the dark magic searing the wound. "Better no?" he mocks her. He thrusts the dark sword through the thick of her arm, missing the bone by near nothing. A squeal tries to get out of her body, but it trapped inside by his fingers clentched around her throat. The black nails scratch the elegant flesh of her neck, a small spot of blood makes its way out. Then he pulsl the blade out, it sears the wound as it comes out. And is forced into the thick of her other arm. Her smiles to her again as she tries helpelessly to hit and kick him, but her already weakened body does nothing but make him laugh at her. "Give up. You're mine" another laugh rings out, wretched and cold. The wound is seared, every inch of the blade in her arm leaves her trying to gasp for air. Just one breath, all she wants. One breath to stay alive. The grip about her throat tightens with disgust, the black nails pierce the skin even more, the drips of red are no longer drips, but now completely cover his fingers. Her pace pales with every moment that passes. Her flushed color is leaving her body. Her mind struggles to think with every breath she needs but dosen't get. She struggles and stuggles for every breath. She stared into his eyes, her pure green and gold into his red and black. The force between them unmistakeable. There is a history here. Something between them. He turns his head in regret, in anger, in fear. What has he become. He looks at her arms and legs. She stares into the horrid gateways of his soul. She looks as tears drip onto his hand, mixing with the blood from her throat. Slowly they bead downwards, the essense of the gold and green within her eyes seem to beam forward at him. Forcing something into him. His grip relaxes and he turns his head. She musters the very last bit of her breath for on word. "Why?" He stares into her, judging himself. His pale face leaves the slight sign of a frown. Perhaps not even a frown at all. Something happens. He closes his eyes turning his head, failing to look at her. The tears still streaming from her body. No sound, but the tears bead down and strike his hand now covered in blood. He shakes his head and lets her go. The blood pours from he rnext as she struggles to catch her breath and stop the bleeding at once. He kneels. Raises his hands to look at them, opening his eyes. He realises the man he is, and the man he was. The two more different that night and day. He buries his head in his hands. Afraid of what he has become. Afreaid of what he might continue to be. The frail and broken one clutching her throat trying to stop the blood sobs. The first time she has cried this way in a long time. The pale figure, a once familiar friend and more to her raises the black blade into the air just before his chest. Pointing it straight into his heart. He can't deny what he is any longer. He can't deny what he has become. No longer will he allow himself to be a pawn to the darkness which ails him. And just as he tries to purge himself from the world with the wicked blade. The other strikes it down with her own. Just as he tries to end his life, she allows him to live. She stops him from ending his own life. She stops him. Grabs her bag, and runs. She runs through the snow, through Norwick, through the Nars, and a trail of tears and blood follows behind her. She knows why she saved him. He thinks himself worth nothing having finally understood. He does not know why she has done this. Why?

    She runs, only to later realise later she left he journal behind. The jounral lay in the gnell, three drops of blood tainting the cover which used to be a pure silver._


  • Elridith can be seen purchasing a thich stack on new papers only to later bind them into a cover she had made for a journal. The cover is now a pure silver, but it still has the familiar colored triangle that appears on all her books. Within the book on the first page reads her first entry:

    I have been having some strang feelings recently. Not evil or corrupting like before and during my uncle had been harassing my mind. In fact it almost feels good. It was very brief however. It was not long after my mind was freed of my uncle's grasp. It felt like someting was emerging from within myself. But it is difficult to explain and I dont know exactly I should describe it.

    Below appear some drawings of triangles in more colors. Different in sizes, but all legs of equal length. Some of the sides come in a singles of different colors like blue, red, and white.

    I need to do some more research on a few things before I really feel like I am getting anywhere, but it will take time. I which I had more time to spend on this as it is connected to me so significantly, but with other new duties and responsibilities it has been pushed back some. I hope my time is well spent.


  • Elridith can be seen purchasing a thich stack on new papers only to later bind them into a cover she had made for a journal. The cover is now a pure silver, but it still has the familiar colored triangle that appears on all her books. Within the book on the first page reads her first entry:

    I have been having some strang feelings recently. Not evil or corrupting like before and during my uncle had been harassing my mind. In fact it almost feels good. It was very brief however. It was not long after my mind was freed of my uncle's grasp. It felt like someting was emerging from within myself. But it is difficult to explain and I dont know exactly I should describe it.

    Below appear some drawings of triangles in more colors. Different in sizes, but all legs of equal length. Some of the sides come in a singles of different colors like blue, red, and white.

    I need to do some more research on a few things before I really feel like I am getting anywhere, but it will take time. I which I had more time to spend on this as it is connected to me so significantly, but with other new duties and responsibilities it has been pushed back some. I hope my time is well spent.


  • Amongst the many entries she has… there seems to be something written on the last page of her journal. As if specifically laid out should somehting significant happen. It is specifically written in elven.

    Friends, I suppose that if one of you has this book, what I have been fearing for a long time has come upon me. Either I have passed on from this life, or my uncle has been able to grasp my mind through the bond I share with my brothers. Don't fear being taken by my incle. He is completely incable of taking control of anyone besides myself. I have realised the possibility of him doing so shortly asfter having my frequent headaches and lapses in consciousness. Unfortunately some of you have seen me in those states. I apologise for not being strong enough to have resisted my uncles will. He is far stronger than I, but that is no excuse for having let you be endagered by me. I must also streen that the longer it takes for him to be rid of my mind, the more and more i will forget. I don't want to forget any of you. All the friends I have made I am proud to stand beside. Rather it be by the campfire sharing stories and tales, or out on the planes chasing after our Legion generals as they seem to cut down orc like a hot blade would ice. For those of Spellweaver I thank all that you have taught me in the ways of the weave and hope I will never forget.

    If such a horrid event should happen to me there would only be two ways for it to be reversed. At least to the study I have spent on it thus far. As my mind would not be in control and function of my body and form. The means I would rather you take would be to speak my name. Force me to know that you are there with me. Force my uncle to further and further realise that I am not his posession. My mind would have to be cleared to an extent. Perhaps one would attempt to rid the darker parts of what is within me away. I am not a expert of divine forces, but that would likely be a good place to start. I know my uncle has a great aversion to Corellon. Purge my mind of my uncles evil taint. And then I would think my body would have to be warded. Something very significant. Im not sure how this would be done either, but Jeni seems to know some warding magic. Perhaps asking her would be wise. It would have to be a significant ward spell. If not possible to target my mind itself, then to place in on an object, perhaps the green ring I often wear. Something I could carry with me always. That would be sufficient enough to my knowledge.

    The other alternative which I would advise against. Would be to travel to Everska and track down which part of the country he now resides. Take on the masses of cruel and wretched followers and then furthermore kill my uncle. Again I would greatly advise against this as the odds of success would be estremely low, no matter the group going. I would never ask you to leave your homes and families for me and I don't expect you do to so. My uncle is a powerful man and would nothing more than to see anyone remotely conencted to me suffer. He will be somehwat limited to my abilities while controling me. His own power would be incrediously more significant if he were controling himself at the time.

    There is also the remote possibility that through distraction and my uncle losing his focus I would be able to temporarally regain control, but that is very unlikely to happen. Although I might be able to break through for very short periods.

    I am sorry I have brought this upon all of you. If I ever am able to regain ahold of myself I will explain everything. I understand if nothing can be done. I love and will miss you all.

    A few small wet spots are found on the page, one would guess they could be tears


  • Characters In Stories

    Evryann - Brother <chaotic good="">(middle brother, ranger/rogue scout type character. often goes back and forth between narfell and everska to keep tabs on el)

    Isendel - Brother <chaotic good="">(eldest brother, priest of corellon. currently being tortured by evil uncle isendur)

    Elverann - Father <neutral good="">(member if the high mages council on everska. evoker and negociation specialist. prohibited elridith from practicing magic as a child for fear of what has come to follow)

    Eowade - Mother <chaotic good="">(once was an trapper and tracker, is why evryann has gron into that trade)

    Isendur - Uncle <neutral evil="">(the main source of el's difficulties. has been trying to track down elritith, he is a palemaster mecromancer type character who is completely obsessed with undead and unliving beings. would do anything to gain more and more power)

    Avylur - Cousin <neutral evil="">{son of isendur} (long time rival of elridith ever since they went to school with one another, necromancer mage following in the footsteps of his father)

    Legebrill Lantoness - <chaotic evil="" chaotic="" good="">No blood relation to elridith, but is a long standing friend of avylur and isendur (the one who has set out to find elridith by the uncle, has met her on few ocasions). Elridith and Legebrill, despide their age, were somewhat romantically involved before he was influenced by her uncle. Eventually goes good and decides to to kill elridith when he ahd the oppoturnity.

    Alara - Childhood Friend - <neutral good="">(druid) Long standing best friend of Elridith since they were both very young. Although they didn't go to school together they often shared the things they learned, Elridith was inept with the druidic ways, as Alara was inept when it came to the arcane, but they were great friends nonetheless.</neutral></chaotic></neutral></neutral></chaotic></neutral></chaotic></chaotic>


  • -Internal-

    Elridith sits alone on another dark cold night in Jiyyd. She gazes into the fire with her searing green eyes… her mind is full, full of questions without awnsers, awnsers without questions. Her mind is flooded with thoughts she strains to understand.

    Why?

    Lies... Why? Not lies, but why not the truth? Why not the truth when I need it. I never ask for much. Can i just have one thing? One things to keep myself sane? Why can't I? Awnser some question? Maybe even just one? Talk to me? I hear you... Can you hear me? You can feel me... You must be able to feel me... I can hear you... I can feel you... Why don't you awnser? Why no reply? I lie in pain every night the two of them are gone... Everynight i can't see them. Why can't i see then? Is it fate? NO. There is no fate... at least I hope. I don't believe in fate. Everyone can make their own destiny if they try for it. Everyone can become what they wih if only they believe... Can you hear me? Will you try? Try to get out. Please get out. I beg you. I am selfish... scared... little... weak... young... nieve... a fool. Am I really a fool? Am I really weak? Im trying so hard to be stronger... To be stronger for you... To come save you... To help you. I need to help you. You are my blood, my flesh and bone, the one who told me this... The one who told me to be whatever I will... To be what ever I can to help others. But... He is too strong, too terrible to face... I can try to face him, but i don't want to fall... To be beaten by him, to be less than him. Him and his black heart. Him and his black soul. The evil essnese that he embodies. The twisted contorted wretch of a broken soul paired to a mrken and even more twisted mind. His power is disheartening. Makes me feel like nothing. He is my blood, but he is has faded. Faded into darkness long ago. Long ago into the pit of darkness he now so loves. The fleshless friends and bits of men who have long followed him. The twisted bits of animated flesh or bone, fesh or bone of hate. Writing torment waiting to do his bidding. Waiting to do anything he wills, only for the sake to be in the presence of his power... To be in the presence of his dark heart. Can I face him? Can i truly stand up to what he now has become? To stand against all that he really is? Am I prepared? Am I enough? Am I enough?

    She lets out a deep sigh and walks slowly over to the Regal and up the stairs, with he rhead hung low. The whole while she rubs the triangle on her left thumb. Particularly the gold line between the green and black.


  • Elridith glances up and arond the fire at night when she's alone, then takes a deep sigh and turns back to her page

    Broken

    Broken lies to broken tries
    Leave my thoughts in broken sighs
    A broken mind of broken thought
    Leave the world with what should not
    To leave in peace or in such strife
    A broken life to live this life

    A floating breeze I wish it were
    To bloat my mind with just a blurr
    Nothing here to stop the stir
    Nothing here to stop the stir

    My mending mind just filled with pain
    Be my thoughts in such disdain
    To lift them off my poinding skull
    I wait the time to be so dull
    I try to fight the words inside
    To hold the words I try to hide

    Leave my mind and broken brain
    A worthless ship a broken main
    The broken thought a broken stain
    The broken thought a broken stain

    there are several small triangles drawn lower on the page, which look as thought they were a single triangle before but have now been broken apart


  • Journal Entry 11

    the writting is in Sylvan and cane be found less organized and smeared when compared to her other writing

    there are several small triangles written around the page in various sizes

    I don't know whats happening to me… I keep passing out almost everywhere. Im finding it more and more difficult to stay awake. I find my behavior more ridiculous as every day goes by. I have had several more issues with the dreams or watever they happen to me. I don't know wht all of a sudden things have started changing. I could be partly due to the wild magic, possibly putting a strain on me. Maybe spending almost my time in the books. Im not sure, nor likely will I ever be, but this is almost driving me insane. The headaches are constant and i have relatively no escapes from them. Raisia mentioned the Vervain Root, which helps for the firts few seconds, but after just leaves a nasty bitter taste in my mouth. Im sure if it was a headache due to a slightly different reason, im sure it would help. Wolf tried restoring me, which didn't do much. I did however thank them both for trying and i was humbled they took their time with me. I feel i have taken a turn for the worse, and am exceedingly impatient and anxious for my situation to resolve itself. Im not sure if i will able to do it myself, or without having to go home, which unfortunately i can't do. At least at this point anyways. I guess the nly think i can do is try to find some more material on the wild magic, maybe its somehow connected top why i am so much worse as of late. Until then im stuck with myself as is.

    some more triangles and question marks appear near the bottom of the page, no name is written as it usually is