Letters Home (The House Of Teroldys)
-
A lone candle flickers by the oversized bed of the young knight, the linen crumpled and tangled. Ashena sits huddled up with her knees under her chin, face pale and her eyes rimmed with red. With seeming difficulty, she untangles her limbs to make her way to the desk, candle in hand, and writes frantically, as if just to write and leave whatever ill dreams awoke her trapped there on paper. The pages are then left hidden in the bottom drawer of Ashena's desk, never sent nor spoken of.
"A rose garden, lush with the full bloom of summer, sweetly fragrant, dark as blood. The grass is soft and wet with glittery dew, my nightgown sticking to my back as he pushes me gently down. The morning is but a distant promise on the horizon, stars still twinkling overhead. Though he pins firmly me in place, I am spinning, dizzy with the beauty of the night and the sweet closeness of the one I love.
His lips are hot against my neck, and I shiver. So warm.. he is always so warm, so full of life. I am so cold.. the ground is cold, the heat seeping slowly out of me. His mouth so greedy, gentleness forgotten for an all consuming hunger. Pleasure. Pain. The coldness spreads, numbing my limbs and the stars spin above my head. Red roses turn funeral white when the dim realization hits. Something is wrong. Something is very, very wrong.
My eyes are slow to focus, but I know he knows. He pulls back to watch me struggle.
'Sweetheart', he murmurs, a warm fingertip caressing my icy lips, 'I know, I missed you too.'
A shiver down my spine. The voice sounds right, but something is terribly wrong. I can't think straight. His face floats into view, flashing madly before my eyes as the world will not stop spinning. Cecil's face, open and honest, lips turned into the softest of smiles.
He holds me closer, and the spinning slows to a gentle swirl, a slow waltz.
I have missed him.
For a moment, I want to surrender. I'm so cold, and he so warm. I could just rest in his arms.. it would be so easy.
He leans in closer, and the spell shatters. Hard, hungry eyes, that of a predator. Lips pull back to reveal sharp fangs, and I must escape, I have to wake up now!
–-
Locked in combat, the bodies of the fallen all around us. Moonlight glints off the greatsword as it comes crashing down in a powerful arch, my shield arm buckling with the pressure, but this time I am in my element. This time, I will not falter.
Torm's might courses through me, and I shove the shield back, straightening. My sword strikes, again and again, sparks of light flying. I am fury, I am righteous wrath, and he will fall, he ~must~!
In all the world, there is only he and I, only this fight, only right now, and there is my opening, now is the time! My palm thrust out, my lord's name ringing true and my enemy staggers, he falls to his knees. A hard shove, and he is on the ground, he is mine now!
I fumble for my blessed stake. Just one last strike, directly into his heart, and it will all be over. He is still, defeated, yet suddenly my blood runs cold. I ~have~ to see his face.. I have to know.
Time seems to slow, a faint silver moonlight reflected off the polished steel of the bull horned helmet. Same type of helmet, same type of sword.. so tall and so strong. But it cannot be, it's impossible!
Even as I lift the visor, I know it's Cecil, and triumph turns to bitter grief, so sharp I cannot bear it. The stake falls from my hand, and my eyes blur with tears. I want to kiss his face, to wrap my arms around him, but he turns to mist, dissipates and leaves me holding naught but air and regret."
-
Dark chestnut hair gleams in the candlelit room as the young woman brushes it with slow, diligent strokes. Eventually, brush is exchanged for quill, a thoughtful and melancholy expression stealing across Ashena's face. She smooths back a strand of loose hair, pulls her woolen shawl closer and begins to write.
"Dearest Gralam,
Of late, I have found my fiercest foe is not the ones I combat with sword and shield, but rather that insidious sense of futility and despair that comes creeping up on me, whenever I let my guard drop. Naught seems to happen on the Norwick front, tis silent as the proverbial grave. If the intent is to lull the defenders into a sense of false security, I must say it appears to be working, for interest has dropped so low that I myself am hard pressed to remain vigilant. Speaking to Arlan revealed further problems; rifts within Norwick's ranks, for it seems he himself has left the town's employ, disgruntled with the current leadership.
Which brings me inevitably to the one point of hard truth that I have been avoiding facing for so long now - Cecil's absence. Undeniably, the town needs him, they need someone good, strong and passionate - someone people can believe in and rally around. I am doing my best to coordinate efforts in the absence of any initiative from the town's own, but therein lies my problem - I am not of Norwick, I do not represent the town itself, nor do I even know any of the remaining redcloaks. It feels a futile effort, but someone must try, ~someone~ must still care.
Again, I have turned this into the bigger picture, when I meant to face the truth on a personal plane. Alright, no more stalling, here it is - I miss Cecil, I am worried about Cecil, and I am angry with Cecil, all at once and to naught but frustration, for I do not know what has become of him. Am I deserted, the jilted bride, or should I instead take to arms, go on a holy crusade to rescue my love from whatever horrid fate that has befallen him? I simply do not know, and feel completely at a loss on how to handle the situation.
I met a ghost, not long ago, in Norwick. It wrapped its ghostly fingers around mine, pressing and tugging insistently upon my ring finger. It spoke in whispery murmurs, unintelligably, yet I got the sense that it wished for something returned to it, most urgently. I had the eerie sensation that it, like me, was meant to be wed, but cruel fate had intervened. Perhaps she - for I could not help but to think of it as a she - had lost her ring, her love, and her life, and cannot rest until at least one of the above are restored? Again, I do not know, but I cannot shake the feeling of that ghostly touch, the sense of sadness and loss it carried with it.
More recently, a gnomish gentleman asked me a series of painful questions regarding my marital status, wishing perhaps to strike a match 'tween myself and his employer for having learnt of my noble birth. I found myself faltering, uncertain how to answer truthfully. Am I even still engaged? Truly, I have naught to show for it but memories slowly seeping through my fingers, a promise and a dried rose, collecting dust in a storage box. Time means nothing when we are apart, he said once, with the ardour I love so well. I find myself wishing I could feel the same, but time ~matters~. The hard times in particular.
I died once, and kept myself staunchy cheerful, determined not to miss a beat. I died a second time, and could not keep despair at bay. Ne'er did I need him more than when I took that first, unwilling gasp of air and awoke on the cold temple floor, ne'er since I first took my vows have I felt so ~desperately~ in need of comfort. Talindra, Allestor and Hope hovered near, but I sent them away, immediately cursing my pride when they respectfully heeded my words. I wanted to cry, to release the pain inside me, and could not.
Tis a silly thing, really, is it not? I know these wonderful Painbearers, yet I won't let any of my grief go, I cling to it so tightly, tis as if I am afraid that opening myself up means falling apart at the seams. Yet there's Elena and Allestor, two of the warmest, most caring persons I know, who would ne'er judge me or think less of me if I did. Then there's Hope, who has such gentleness and insight to offer. And then there's me, stupid, stubborn me, clamming up all the tighter for neither of them possessing of the specific arms she wishes to cry in.
It is easier to be a knight than to be a woman, truly (not to mention more dignified!). In that respect, I should perhaps be glad that my original plan seems to be the one I am destined for. Yesterday, a distraught Celia even told me that the sacred chalice of Torm from her convent, the one intended to be used in my marriage ceremony, is lost too. The groom is missing, the chalice lost - clearly, this is not meant to be! I shall be wed to duty, as I always wanted. That's really nothing to cry home about, when you think about it, but the uncertainty of it all does haunt me. T'would be better to know, one way or the other, and find my peace with it.
Yet whenever I falter, whenever these bleak thoughts seize me, I thank Torm that there are friends beside me - Allestor, Talindra, Celia, Reynauld and the others. Allestor has been my rock of late, generously allowing the many little jokes I play on him, and with the same warm-hearted cheer, reminding me what I already know, but temporarily forget - even should darkness surround us, we shall ne'er give up our light. Neigh, we shall clip-clop and eee-aw into the valley of dispair, and fear no evil!
(that last bit makes more sense if you knew the constant donkey jokes Allestor attracts, for not owning a horse - and on occasion turning himself into our beast of burden!)
Your ever struggling sister, Ashena"
-
Heavy boots clack against marble as the young knight reenters the temple, dusty from travel. A tawny cat sticks his head out from under the bed, then emerges fully to assail the knight with a suspiciously lecture-like set of meows. Clearly, Bob is feeling neglected, a fact he makes very clear to his paladin. Ashena briskly changes her clothes, packs a few fresh supplies into her backpack and washes her face, then snuggles the still protesting cat into fuzzy, purring submission. While Bob slumbers, she snatches a quill from the desk and begins to write.
"Dearest Gralam,
From the highest peaks to the deepest depressions; verily my life and lack thereof has swung to and fro until finally, I have regained some sort of equilibrium. One late evening, as we left a farmstead which had been assailed most brutally by kobolds, the weight of the world and my duties in it felt heavier than e'er they had. Always before, duty had been a cherished thing, a privelege even, that filled me with purpose and joy.
After waves upon waves upon waves of undeath, with no progress and no end in sight, I was hard pressed to keep that joy alive. And on this eve, when we had managed to put a stop to a kobold attack, but been that one, that few accursed steps too late to save the lives of all the farmers, well.. joy escaped me entirely and tears did fill my eyes.
The farmer's face is so clear to me, the bleakness of his features, the hopelessness in his eyes as he said t'was better his wife remain dead, than to live in this cruel, hard world.
Too late, again. If I had insisted Bitsy and I take a stand in the caves, what then? Had the farmer's wife yet lived?
Tormented by these doubts and the unshakable feeling of defeat, despite having won the fight, we walked back to Peltarch in silence. Twilight painted the landscape in a beautiful amber glow, a sad serenity reigning. I fought the knot in my gut, the lump in my throat that insisted on tears, blinked determinedly and then.. then I saw them, white and pristine, shimmering silk against the rough granite wall. Three roses, flawless and fragrant, for three heavy-hearted faithfuls walking past.
Allestor smiled, his blue eyes bright when he said that such blossoms are a sign of the divine. Truly, we have seen them before, a trail of white roses leading to a hidden stash of supplies, and my spirits lifted somewhat at the thought. But then, oh, then..
Trumpets.
Distant at first, a mere echo from above, like a memory or a dream, half forgotten as you wake. But the sound grew stronger and closer, piercing through the clouds and forcing us down on our knees with it's sweet, jubilant notes! A brilliant beam of light, near blinding, and then she stood before us, bright and beautiful beyond compare - the Trumpet Archon. Do not despair, she bid the three of us - do not despair, for you walk in the light of the Triad. Though these are trying times, faith will see you through. You must not falter, for the eyes of the gods are upon you.
The Archon left with another blaze of light and sound, leaving us slack-jawed in awe, trembling and teary-eyed for all the right reasons. Allestor and I burst into helpless, joyous laughter while Hope merely stood there, stunned. The loftiest of heights, the most divine of lights..
And still, I fell. Oh, t'was such a pointless and stupid thing, savage and devoid of meaning. I had wanted to turn back, knowing in my heart of hearts how ugly things could get further into the gnolls territory, but the group had fared well so far, with spells to spare and injuries still low. We pushed on, and soon, all too soon, all my months of training, all the dedication put into recovering from the weakness of death was followed by death once again. Weaker still, upon returning to my unwilling flesh, the overwhelming sense of defeat flooding me even as I took my first, rasping breath.
Every failure diminishes Torm.
That was all I could think about, all that filled my head as I knelt by the altar, head bent low as if my neck could not straighten, could not support the weight of my shame, my failure, the loathsome self pity I could not shake. My friends care and concern only made it worse, and I sent them away, even while a part of me wished for nothing more than to be held. 'Do not despair, mortals', the Archon had said - yet I did just that, feeling as though all my strength, all my joy and all my hope of accomplishing my duty were gone.
Of course, they were not, naught is truly lost while faith remains, but death does something to you, it robs something of one's self, and it takes time to adjust. Recovering is even slower, but I have mostly come to terms with the fact that physically, I will not be as swift or as sure as I was, not in a long time. Or ever, should Torm decide my duty is done, next I fall.
What I feel most ashamed of, though, is that when a doomsayer came, shortly thereafter, preaching the death of hope, I could not summon the right words or the right passion to disperse the dark tidings. Instead I grew angry, frustrated with myself and with the situation, and let sweet Hope walk off alone with a seemingly panicked commoner. Now, parts of her memory are gone, some dark spell robbing her of the precise details we need to continue with our quest.
Hopelessness spreads a dark, dank blanket of gloom to cover everything, and instead of rising up straight, shining all the brighter, I too let it envelop me. So many have left; people I thought strong and passionate, clever, courageous and caring. Where have all the heroes gone? The elven community, drifting off like leaves upon the breeze. The Norwick Remnant, now not even that, for it seems everyone who strove so hard to reclaim the town are now absent from defending it.
Even Ardent left, seeking a new and more peaceful life with her Nelor. She had resented me, she confessed when last we spoke in earnest, and asked my forgiveness for it. Perhaps I do come across as too perfect, successful and sure, but tis faith alone that gives me that shine, and for faith alone that I strive to succeed, to add to His splendour. We came to a new understanding, I thought, yet she left without so much as a goodbye.
Worst of all, so much the worst that I try not to think about it, talk about it or acknowledge it in any way, is that Cecil too is gone. Without a trace to follow, without explanation, cause or goodbye. I ~cannot~ think about it, I can ill afford the heaviness such speculation brings, but he is missed, more than words can say.
I cannot let myself wallow in self pity for very long, you see, not when the gods are watching, when such a rare honour was bestowed upon us as the Archon's message! I decided on cheer, decided on planning, on action and on ~hope~, come what may. All I can do is my best, and perhaps, just perhaps I can inspire others to do the same.
Your mule-headed sister, Ashena"
-
Pale morning sunshine seeps in through the inn window, Bob the cat batting a paw at the garlic hanging from the curtain before slinking outside on undisclosed cat business. Slow and heavy steps approach, and the door cracks open to reveal a haggard looking young knight, her armor battered and bloodied. She unbuckles the plate, washes trembling hands and face off in a basin, then slumps down on the bed. Extremely tempted, Ashena eyes the pillow, then groans and picks up her armor, shield and sword to clean each with diligent care. She washes her hands again, eyes the pillow again, resisting it a while longer to stumble over to the desk and write:
"Dearest Gralam,
The hardest part is not to fight with strength and valour, with all your heart and body can give; no, the hardest part is to do it over and over again, knowing each battle must be won, but that no victory will buy you anything but a temporary reprieve. Since last I wrote you, several more attacks have come, some but skirmishes, some near as gruelling as the first, and it seems all we can do is hold the line, ne'er pushing it forwards. But we ~must~.
The undead don't pause and they don't tire, they need not fresh supplies nor do they care if they live or die. Death, in fact, strengthens them while it weakens us. It's really rather unfair!
Still, weary as I am, I thought to remind myself in this letter of all the reasons I have to be grateful and glad, to give thanks to the joyous things and good persons in my life. Despite doom, I won't give in to gloom just yet, not for very long at the least! Sweet Hope may stifle a groan at every poor pun we crack, but for me such jokes stave off the doom and help make the evil we face feel that much smaller and manageable.
Hope, ah. Now there's a name that contains everything we need right now, and some fine capacity for punnery aswell! Allestor, Elena and Hope - three Ilmateri priests, our angels of mercy, and truly amongst the most important people to me right now. Without their support, sage advice and just plain ~kindness~, I don't know if I could cope for much longer.
Hope herself is an intriguing mix of meek and brave, possessing of a wit and a will far stronger than her humble demeanour would at first suggest. Allestor too is more than meets the eye, his polite and kindly ways spiced with a small, but unmistakable sense of mischief. It is not just the garishly golden boots that make Allestor the rebel of the bunch, in as much an Ilmateri can be such! He is a good man, with a sense of warmth and compassion that makes his company a true solace. The same is true for Elena, of course, in whose company none can remain glum for very long. I do not know that I have ever known someone so obviously learned, wise and intelligent, that has also had such a caring nature, such humbleness and infectious cheer to them as she. Truly, tis a boon to the world that such angels reside in it!
Stoic, dutiful Reynauld is ever a rock to rely on, whether we fight side by side, back to back or should he strike swiftly onto the field on Northstar's back. He seems to like the latter best, ever his best and brightest on horseback it seems, his smile never wider than on such occasions. I would dearly like to join him and ride my Fury into the fray, but my horsemanship needs fine polishing yet, and Fury has proven far too easily distracted by mares of late. He tried to mount Celia's horse, right before my eyes! I wonder where this ill behaviour comes from, tis as if he is trying ~deliberately~ to test my patience. Perhaps I have been neglecting him? More apples, and more time with just he and I when I can manage, and perhaps he shall be his old sweet self again.
As for Celia herself, she is somewhat shaken by her recent death, yet taking it more in her stride than I had thought, her resolve unshaken and her cheer not so brittle as I have seen it at times in the past. Perhaps she, like I, feel heartened by the fact that we are both undeniably useful, that we serve Torm's purpose most tanglibly in times like these?
Talindra has suffered two deaths, and this takes a heavier toll, even on one of such bright and steadfast spirit as she. It is a heavy burden to feel inadequately equipped for the dangers we must face, but I believe she too is recovering. As for myself, progress is slow, but it ~is~ there, I can feel it. Slowly but surely, my strength returns, and if I should at times be frustrated that I am not as swift as before, or that my energy runs out faster, then I just remind myself that all can be recovered but one's spirit.
We are not beaten yet, in fact we are making some little sort of headway in planning, and fortune smiled on our efforts recently, enough so that we actually found a small stash of potions, most useful for future fighting! Despite everything, I have hope.
Your stubbornly optimistic sister, Ashena"
-
The young woman wakes with a strangled cry, hands going immediately to her neck, trembling until her fingers find the chain upon which her holy symbol hangs, following the chain down to clutch it tightly. She stumbles out of the rickety inn bed, her face deathly pale in the moonlight shining in through the window - a window soon firmly closed and latched shut. Ashena kisses her holy symbol fervently, seeming to will herself to calm, and manages to light a candle without trembling further. Wrapped in the inn blanket, she writes:
"Gralam!
The night is dark and full of terrors, and I must light a candle and write, to remind myself of the all the brightness the world does still hold. Torm is my flame and my shield, and I ~will not~ fear the dark, I will take to arms and oppose it!
I thought I had prepared myself, I thought myself ready for what awaited us when the undead forces struck Norwick with full force. All our training, all our hard work and dedication, the potions and balms collected, the steeling of will and of heart.. I thought would be enough. I had called the squires together, called for the Order as a whole, but in truth t'was but myself and lady Elena who heeded the call, with our brave squires and faithfuls.
I thought us ready.. but naught could have truly prepared us for the harrowing, relentless evil that came from the shadows. Day and night, night and day, merciless and unceasing. Yet we did not falter, we fought and we bled, day and night, night and day, until we could fight no more.
Reynauld fell defending the gates, he and his brave horse both, surrounded, swamped as a two-front attack spread the defenders thin, as did Talindra of Tyr. My brave Sabbas I sent to defend Elena, a task that cost him his life also. Death upon death, of those I hold dearest, and still we fought, still they came.
I had accepted my death before the battle begun, deciding only that I would make it ~matter~, I would fight as long and as hard as e'er I could, I would do everything in my power, spare no expense and have no regrets when the moment came - and eventually, it did. I thought I was prepared, but I was not, when my end arrived. I wasn't expecting ~him~.
'Did you miss me, sweetheart?' A cold and mocking voice from the vampire towering above me. I was on my knees, gasping for breath from the powerful blow that had knocked me prone. I wanted to give a sharp retort, wanted to shove my sword up whence the sun doth not shine, but a spell froze my limbs, and I could not move, only watch helplessly as my death approached, clad in dark shadowy steel.
So very tall, so very strong, a greatsword on his shoulder and a bull horned helmet on his head. He looks as though a dark twin to Cecil himself, a twisted counter-image of what I hold most dear. My love was not there, but my doom approached, moonlight glinting off his blade as it swung down in a beautiful, deadly arc.
And then I was elsewhere, a place of white light and softly cushioned sound, a place of waiting. Sabbas was there, Reynauld, Talindra, even Celia and Ky'Amendos after a while. We waited and we prayed, prayed that our efforts had not been in vain, that our allies would yet succeed. Sir Shannon had arrived, Celia said, battling the great black dragon that had been her bane. I felt hope stirring then, yet all we could do was wait for the end to be played out by those with cards left in their hands.
Other souls came and went, two adventurers, lives lost chasing treasure. An Erinyes arrived to tempt them with her devil's deals, the same ones we all had rejected with force and conviction, before. But one of these new arrivals knew fear, it had seized him long ago I think, and driven him to worship the foulest of tyrants. Now, he feared Bane's realm, and despite all urging, despite even the offer of redemption, he took the devil's deal and disappeared.
We stood firm, faithful, and despite the sadness I felt knowing I had urged them here, I had lead them to this end… I could have had no finer companions beside me. T'was somehow all the clearer to see, in this spirit realm - perhaps because their spirits did seem to shine so brightly to me then, unveiled in their true beauty. An Archon appeared, trumpet blazing triumphant, celestial tones, proclaiming victory - but just then, a sharp tug pulled me back from that uncorporeal realm and back into my bodily self.
I woke gasping and in pain, upon the wooden floor of the infirmary. Sir Shannon was there, stern-faced and silent, amidst a small crowd of others whose faces merely blurred infront of me. My belongings were at the temple of Lathander, t'was said, and I stumbled my way over there, joined by the others eventually - Elena, Hope, Allestor, Celia, Reynauld, Sabbas, Ky'Amendos - and sir Shannon, looking upon me in disapproval.
I recall not his words, but rather the sentiment, the questioning of why t'was we and none others who had perished. Had we been careless, reckless, ill trained and ill prepared? Had we thrown our lives away when they could have been preserved, had we but fought smarter, harder, better somehow? I felt my spirit sinking, a crushing weight come bearing down as he said it, those dreaded words: every failure diminishes Torm.
Did we fail?
We failed to live, this is true, and our bodies are weaker for it. My arm is slower, my resilience lessened, I know it, I feel it. But try as I might, I cannot think of a single thing I would have done differently. Small things, perhaps, little what-ifs, but these are things I could not truly affect.
I should have given Sabbas more potions - but he did not arrive in time, he came when the battle was in full swing. I should have stood my ground, I should have resisted that spell like I most often do - but my legs were weary, my mind was worn and I could not. I might've rested before then, but spellcasters needed such respites more than I. Was I too far out in front? Perhaps, but Shallyah was beside me, she and I ever taking point, rushing out to thwart a threat and retreating to the gates, over and again.
No, I decided, and told him: the only thing I could have done differently would be to simply not have been there at all. I have no regrets, I did ~everything~ I could, gave it all I had. But he is right in one respect: now, we must do it all over again, and better. Every success adds to Torm's splendour, and succeed we must.
Somehow.
The attacks did not end there, of course. Tis an ongoing battle, one we are slowly but inevitably losing, for the army of the undead replenish themselves, while we do not. A dark message of a ritual was spoken, by their self-proclaimed herald Fendon, stating that once complete, we shall all bend the knee. I do not know how much time we have, but I do know that we must strike at the root, before all our strengths are depleted.
I am ~so~ tired. I've snatched my sleep in chairs and on benches, still in my armor, with nary a full night's sleep. In fact, the nights are worse, and it has often been daylight when I do doze off, but for now. Finally a few days respite arrived, and I have spent them in something like relaxment. Little miss Tressa, a darling hin girl, took me to the baths in the Silver Valley nearby, and for the first time since this began, I let troubles and cares go and soaked in hot water. She is a very sweet person, someone who lifts the hearts and spirits of those around her by just being herself. A new friend, or so I hope!
Being so relaxed, I thought I would sleep like a log once returning to my room, but dark dreams seeped into my mind, awakening me in as close to fright as I can remember. It started so sweetly, though:
I am pressed down, the scent of grass and summer blossoms all around. He is heavy ontop of me, the armor hard and chafing at my hip - yet I do not mind. I welcome it, the strength of his arms around me, the ardour in his voice, whispered so close to my ear that his breath tickles:
'Did you miss me, sweetheart?'
Suddenly, the flowers smell like funeral, cloyingly sweet to cover the stench of death and decay. His lips are cold, curling into a smile as he nuzzles my neck. I struggle to move, but cannot, I CANNOT and his smile widens; I cannot see it, but I ~feel~ it. Fangs as sharp as glass, as cold as ice break my skin and darkness claims me, spiralling down and down until I wake in a cold sweat.
He wrote me a letter, delivered by an innocent child to the temple of Lathander. By any other hand, in any other circumstance, t'would be much alike a love letter, but from this, my killer, t'was mocking and precisely as disturbing as he no doubt wished it to be. I will not let it get to me, I will NOT play these games!
I will find a stake, I will carve it myself if need be. Six foot long, to plunge it through his cold, unbeating heart, ~vertically~. Perhaps I'll add a pretty red bow, or strap a keg full of sunlight to it. Let's see how sweet he finds me then.
Your desperately homesick sister, Ashena"
-
The next letter is written in a wholly different environment, cool and pristine marble exchanged for the simple but sturdy wooden planks of a small inn room. Once more, a cat rests on Ashena's lap, though this one is black as midnight, staring up with demanding golden lion's eyes until she provides the attention Bub thinks his rightful due. As the cat drifts off to catty dreams of mice and world domination, Ashena picks up the quill, a determined look on her face.
"Dear mother and father,
I write to you from Norwick, a town but recently released from bugbear clutches, yet under threat from something even worse. The herald of the undead forces has proclaimed that Norwick shall be theirs within the next tenday, and judging from what I have seen so far, tis far from an idle threat. Darkness is coming, and we have such a short time to rally, to gather all the light we may to fight it.
Tis a silent sort of rally though, the preparations so quiet that I imagine I can hear teeth being gritted, shoulders and joints creaking as they set in bone-stubborn determination. There's no joy here, no optimism or talk of victory, but rather it seems as if everyone is taking a deep breath, steeling themselves for the fight to come. Verily, tis a fight that ~must~ be won, but winning does not mean it is over. Nay, even should the undead hordes be utterly defeated, the bugbears and their allies yet remain, looming near and watching, no doubt.
It is a desperate situation, yet there's a thankful clarity and simplicity to it all. There are no grey zones, no room for diplomacy or petty bickering, for the time for talking is done. Now, we fight for our lives, for ~all~ life in Norwick. What better motivation can one ask for than this?
Waiting is the worst part, still. I check and recheck my supplies, wondering if it is enough, if the potions I have will make me last long enough to fulfil my part in the task ahead. I have called for our squires, I have urged the Order's finest to the fight, gathered the information I may, and now I wait. I wait and I pray.
Should the worst befall me, Aymon will let you know. Please, don't worry for me (and I know you are, mother) - I am not afraid! On the contrary, I walk eagerly towards this fight; I am alight with determination and desire to see my duty done. I have much to live for, but should I die, I can think of few causes more worthy than this. If I should die knowing my life ~mattered~, that my duties were fulfilled to the best of my abilities, that I was loved and gave love in return - then I would go to Celestia with naught but joy in my heart. I hope, I strive to live - but I am not afraid to die.
All my love, from your faithful daughter, Ashena"
-
Ashena sits at her desk, staring off into nothing when Bob the cat slinks up on her lap, buffing her insistantly with his head. A sudden smile breaks the distant gloom on the young woman's face, gentle fingers stirring the cat to a soft chainsaw purr that seems to soothe them both. With a thoughtful expression, Ashena reaches for the quill and begins to write.
"Dearest Gralam,
My heart has grown heavy of late, and I know not fully the reasons why. Or rather, perhaps I do know, but my mind has yet to work out what my heart already knows? I must write you, for there is no one here that I would wish to burden with such thoughts as these, full of doubt and self-pity that I do not feel proud to possess! Maybe simply putting words to it all will suffice, for me to see where this feeling comes from, and so move past it?
I feel ~uncertain~, and I like it not at all. Part of it comes from this new position I've yet to grow into, of being the First Swordarm. Sir Roland offers good advice on occasion, but the fact remains that I oft feel uncertain - uncertain whether I am yet fit for the position, uncertain whether my words are heeded when my experience is so far less than others, when I am so much younger than all the rest. Tis all I can do to remind myself that we are all equals, when in truth I am still in awe of so many.
'Exemplary work', sir Shannon stated with his usual dispassionate tone of voice after the destruction of powerful undead in the basement of an abandoned building. A dry and precise statement more than a compliment, but to me t'was as if a choir of celestials sang, and rose petals fell from the skies like fragrant snowflakes. So elated was I by this apparant approval that I finally plucked up my courage to ask him of someone much talked about by others, yet never spoken of in the Order: Kara DuMonte, paladin and hero turned betrayer in the N'Jast war.
Being a paladin, and a lady paladin at that, comparisons with Kara DuMonte seem inevitable, but ne'er before have I heard words I have trusted the truth of, in explaining her fall. I felt defenceless when the likeness was made, when accusations came of strictness in lawabiding being to blame. Sir Shannon's words, while not explaining everything, rang with a wholly different truth.
'The road to the hells is paved with good intentions', he said quietly. 'Desperation, and the wish to save everyone was Kara's downfall.' Through this, forces of evil found a way to use her, to make her what she is now - a betrayer, a devil, an Erinyes. All this stemming from the best of intentions, from a good person doing everything she could to save others.
I thought on this for days, the words sinking in and taking root within me. It is not enough to be good. I must be just, I must be strict and relentless in the principles I am sworn to uphold. I must harden my heart, even while keeping passion and compassion alive within. I don't want to grow cold and distant, encased in armor and duty to the point where I am all knight and no longer Ashena! But perhaps it is inevitable?
I feel uncertain, and I like it not at all. A second part comes from this, from the sense of once again losing something of myself to that which I represent. I recall the neigh intoxicating freedom I felt, when first coming here. I was not Lady Teroldys, for our house had no name of any fame here, nor was I yet a knight. I was ~Ashena~, and befriended all kinds of people on equal terms, without preconceived notions of who or what I was. My deeds were my own, made in the name of Torm, but yet my very own, not the Houses, not the Orders.
Now, I am once again lady first, and feel even more apart from others than before. Though this is perhaps how it should be, how it ~must~ be, I would that sometimes, to someone, I would just be Ashena. That someone should be Cecil, yet I sometimes wonder if tis not the knightly part which appeals the most to him, that this is what he admires and in part aspires to become himself. I wonder if I am simply his ideal, not for being noble, but for being the knight or the maiden fair. I feel uncertain, and I like it not at all.
A third thread in this my tapestry of woes, is woven skillfully in with the rest. I told you of Ardent, long ago, did I not, describing her with much praise of her quick wit and her ability to befriend just about anyone? Including myself, or so it was then. I hope I am not wrong about that too, I hope and I think we were once truly friends, but now I know tis no longer so. And while it is true that her admission of a plan most foul is part of this, the sad realization came to me long before then; the insight that she saw me not as a true friend.
I was riding out though the gates, looking for companionship in an otherwise seemingly deserted Peltarch when I met Ardent and a group of others, passing by with a lifeless body. She was heading for the temple, swapping but a word or two as she trudged on with her burden. Slow as she was, t'was still I who had to chase after, for Ardent is ever heading in the opposite direction when our paths cross of late. So it had been for months, but I attributed it mostly to a flighty and restless nature. Now, I'm uncertain.
When, after talking to the rest of the party to find out what had happened, I finally caught up with her and politely pointed out that I and Fury's strong back might have been helpful, she said (looking about to leave again) that she 'didn't want to bother me'. As if I was busy with some high and mighty errand. As if I had no time for helping a friend? And then it hit me - never would she have passed Cecil by in this manner, never would she be considerate of whether or not she inconvenienced him - because they really are friends. And I am not.
This is not faulting Ardent, for our paths grew further and further apart, long before this point. Rather, tis I who feel foolish for imagining myself more important than I was, simply because I wished for someone like her in my life; someone free-spirited and swift of wit - someone not unlike Emma, whom I ever chased after as a child with futile and one-sided admiration. Perhaps this likeness is all that drew my interest, or perhaps I made her out to be what I wished her to be? Recent events have made me pose these kinds of questions, yet the answers elude me.
I miss you, dear brother - I know you would shake my self-pity and all these foolish notions from my head with a single mudball to the face! Though perhaps we are too grown up for even that (yet I hope we are not; not now nor ever!).
Your questioning sister, Ashena"
-
_With a weary sigh, the young woman hangs a tabard up to dry, next to the gold-and-blue armor, cleaned once again to a mirror shine. Her hair too is wet, fair skin tinged with pink from the bath. For once, Ashena foregoes the usual combing and braiding, simply towelling her mass of dark chestnut hair before letting it tumble freely down her back.
Darkness falls outside as she writes her reports, huddling up in a thick woolen blanket and warming her hands on a mug of steaming tea, before the long day is concluded with another letter home. Weariness seems to dictate the words pace, but slowly filling the page, sadness welling up in her soft brown eyes before the end._
"Dearest father,
It has been too long since I wrote last, and much and more has happened, none of it good. Norwick has fallen to the combined forces of bugbears, hobgoblins and duergar, and a large portion of the townsfolk are trapped within, forced into labour and being used as bargaining chips. The warning signs were there, the signs of armies amassing, and I had begun to spend more of my time in the south to better be of aid in the coming conflict.
Alas, despite knowing a storm is coming, one is ne'er quite prepared when it hits. Norwick was struck swiftly and mercilessly, taken by surprise during an auction that had gathered much interest from around the lands. T'was brutal, many of the most reknowned heroes of the lands falling in the desperate attempt at keeping the marauders out. But in vain. Norwick has fallen, and all the south is in turmoil.
These were desperate days, and so too were some of the measures considered in the fight to reclaim the town. A war council was formed, with representatives from around the lands, but prior to this, a group of mainly the former Norwick militia hatched their own plans. One of these seems to have come into fruition, despite all those involved swearing t'was never put into action.
Oh father.. my heart is heavy, for that which has occurred now may have called a halt to the war itself, but given rise to something far worse. At ~someone's~ prompting, undead have poured out from the Norwick crypts, powerful and numerous, intent on claiming all of Norwick, all it's life, all it's flesh and blood and turn it to vile undeath. So grave is this threat that the bugbear leadership is willing to surrender the town. But the mood here is dark, and for good reason.
Hundreds of the villagers have fallen victim of the undead, yet their hunger is endless, and they come even so far as Peltarch to seek 'their' flesh - Norwick flesh. Bugbears too have fallen prey to these attacks, goblins, animals, even plantlife - tis a blight upon all the Rawlins, and one I feel we must give our all to fight. Regardless of whether this aids the bugbears also, we must fight, ~I~ must fight for Torm's gifts are given for a reason.
I am not the mightiest of heroes. I have not the strongest arm, the sharpest mind, the steadiest defence. But I have faith, I have the grace Torm shows me, and if there's ~anywhere~ that this may truly make a difference, it is in the fight that now awaits. And I wish so fervently to do just that - I need to act, to shed this helpless frustration and feeling of inadequence, of ever being in the wrong place at the wrong time.
I should be writing of my marriage, I should tell you most proudly that Cecil is now the leader of the Remnant, the likely Chancellor to be, should Norwick indeed be liberated. Instead I wonder if we shall ever truly find the time to wed. Instead, I think of legions of undead, marching up the riverbeds, bursting up through water, through the ground, blighting nature's green buds with their cold, rotting touch. I think of death, and I am not afraid, but filled with a terrifying purpose.
Torm willing, these dark thoughts are but the rainclouds of these troubled days, following one upon the other until I must bleed them out onto parchment, shedding every drop. I try so hard to remain bright and strong, each daylight hour. But when darkness falls and the day is done, the clouds move inexorably in, and ne'er have I done enough to banish them completely. Would that I had shelter, that I could once more curl up in loving arms and cry, until everything was all better. But nothing will ever be better for wishing it so. Instead, I must strive to ever do my part in making it so.
I love you, and I miss you all ~so~ much. Aymon told me we are summoned home, and I shall do all I can to answer that call. But for the now, there's too much need for us here to leave, though part of me wishes for nothing more.
Your faithful, loving daughter, Ashena"
-
In the still of night, a tousled and sleepless Ashena slips quietly from her oversized bed, sleep clearly eluding her. She drapes a warm shawl over her shoulders, pets Bob as the little cat slinks past her legs on his nightly escapades, and lights a candle by the desk to write anew.
"Dearest Gralam,
It's official now, decided, scheduled and set in stone but for our parents blessing - Cecil and I are to be wed on the winter solstice! Aymon got his most official and heir-to-the-throne look on, asking stern questions and (I think) shocking Cecil somewhat with the full extent of the implications of marrying into the family. He still didn't balk, not once, nor did he meekly comply without question. I knew Aymon was satisfied when sternness gave suddenly way to that otherwise infuriatingly teasing look on his face!
Cecil chose the date, I the minister and place (Celia, the temple of the Triad) and Aymon said he'd clear everything with the family. It's all taken care of, all the things that were once but hopes and dreams are now taking shape, becoming real and soon, oh so soon within reach. So why am I suddenly so nervous?
I buried myself in work, finding a thousand and one excuses to postpone my tailor's appointment, dreading being covered in froth and lace like a creampuff princess. Our friends were happy and enthused to hear the news, Celia in particular taking great joy in the planning and details of it all, even sending for a wonderful sacred chalice from her convent, to bless our union with. She is a little nervous too, I think, but I can think of no one I'd rather have to join our hands, and I have no doubts that she will do a wonderful job.
From left and from right, I hear naught but congratulations, naught but what a wonderful man Cecil is, and how well suited we are to each other. I have no doubts about any of that either, truly I don't! Still I feel as though there is a garden full of butterflies within me, beautiful and promising, shimmering in colour but also fragile, fluttering ephemeral things. Am I afraid the dream will be taken away somehow, or that it will not be what I imagined? Or rather, not what ~he~ imagines? After having spent so much time longing for something, is not reality (me?) bound to disappoint?
Disenchantment - is that my true worry, or are the reasons the same as my original stance to marriage; that it will mire me in domesticity and keep me from my duty, or at the least divide my loyalties, cloud my clarity of purpose? My duty to Torm comes first, always, and though this was the very first thing I bade him accept, I wonder if it will not be a hard thing to live with. I wonder where we shall live, too!
I wonder so many things, and I cannot share even half of them with Cecil, for they ~sound~ like doubts even if they are not truly that! Besides, thoughts like these invariably vanish in his presence, for he has a way of filling a room or any given place entirely, until there is only him and the irresistable warmth he spreads. Cold feet scuttle quickly out of view when Cecil arrives, and I think for the most part they are just that, cold feet and nothing more.
Still, would that I could speak to someone who has been in my shoes and the shoes to come, a lady knight about to wed, or a married knight with wife and child! Sir Mariston, Shannon and Roland are the founts of wisdom I can never quite seem to reach or tap, and verily, with all three I am not near bold enough to ask something so personal. If only Rath was married, he could tell me all about it! There is almost nothing I cannot speak to Rath about, yet on the subject of marriage, he has ~the~ most pragmatic views, nearly as much so as Shallyah. Their reasons are not anything like mine, for if not for love, I would not marry at all!
There is something about love, though, something that stirs all the butterflies. I have never before been so happy and so anxious, all at once. It might be taken away, it might break or fall short of the dream. But I think, I believe that the best is yet to come. I will just have to do what I do best, and have faith.
Your jittery sister, Ashena"
-
The young woman paces, a curtain of gleaming dark hair fluttering as she reaches the end of the long marble hall and turns swiftly on her heel, walks a few steps, and stops. Indecision written plain across her fair face, Ashena seems to agonize internally, then breathes out and squares her shoulders. Another couple of steps towards her desk and the white, empty sheet of paper awaiting her, then she stops again, wincing. In nothing but sheepskin slippers and a plain white nightgown, Ashena closes her eyes, reopening them with a familiar look of unyielding purpose, usually reserved for charging headlong into ranks of the foulest of foes. She grabs the quill, weilding it like a sword before her, dips it into the ink and begins to write:
"Dear mother and father"
_Pause.
A chewing of her bottom lip, a quietly muttered reasoning with herself: "Come on, you can do this! Good news first, well, the sort of good they cannot possibly argue is anything less than good.. come on!"_
"I had settled into knighthood to some extent, no longer feeling quite so much the child impostor at the grown-up's table when it came about that the Order's First Swordarm, the honourable and vastly experienced Sir Roland Brynmor stepped down from his post. The training and organization of all knights and soldiers within the Order falls to the First Swordarm, who is also one of three champions on the Council, advising and assisting the Grand Master.
Somehow, though I am both the youngest knight and the most newly minted, I was among those nominated for the role. To my surprise, unbelievable honour and yes, more than slight trepidation, I was also the one appointed! For my own part, I can't help but think Sir Rath a worthier and more suitable choice, but Torm willed otherwise (and his faithfuls do make up the rest of the Council, which may well play in), and I shall do my best to serve.
These new duties take up much of my time, and the Order looks set to expand with several new squires of late. Even so, this is not the only joyous news I have to impart to my honoured parents. I trust Aymon has written already…"
Pause again. ~Long~ pause as Ashena struggles to find the perfect, the just right and magical words to describe a certain someone with.
"….I have, for some time now, been courted by a certain gentleman, a guardsman and defender of Norwick. His name is Cecil Northman, and he is a brave, honourable and kind man, as strong of arm as he is of character. Despite my former protests against the very notion of marriage, mother, I must confess my heart is won over. I love him, I ~do~, and though his lineage is not noble, his spirit is undeniably so!
It is my most heartfelt wish that you, like Aymon, will see this and deem him worthy, for I would never act against the family's wishes. Father, mother, I humbly ask for your blessing to marry this man. Truly, it is him or no one, and he will be nothing but a boon to our House, I know it and Aymon knows it!
Your faithful, loving daughter, Ashena"
She blows on the ink, just barely letting it dry before sealing the letter shut.
-
A candle spills a warm pool of light across a study desk in the Order library, the air filled with the dry, dusty smell of old parchment and leather. Several books are laid out infront of the young woman, whose look of dogged concentration slowly cedes to frustration. With a quiet groan, she plants her face against the wooden surface of the desk, then sweeps everything to the side and begins to write a letter instead.
"Dearest Gralam,
Why is it that I can go to the darkest and dankest of places without flinching, boldly stand up to rotting undead and screeching demons, only to find myself defeated by homework?
While I was yet a squire, Rath bid me learn the Celestial tongue, for not only is it the language of the divine, but also another of the Order's squire's means of communication. Walter was to be my tutor, in exchange for teaching him my own skills with a blade, such as they are. This was agreed upon, but never really put into effect, the fault being asmuch my own as Walter's.
I was about to write that there was simply always something more important to do, but that's just it, isn't it? I have yet to be convinced or convince myself that learning Celestial ~is~ important, and so I sit here with my books in just the sort of half-hearted effort that I cannot stand, knowing I ought to do it, but not really wanting to. Predictably, progress is slow!
Studies is truly a part of my duties that I have to struggle to complete, for it brings me back to the times when all I did was sit inside and wait, long and envy the rest of you for being out there, doing all the things I wished I could. Now that Torm graces me with perfect health, should I really waste it being cooped up like a sword in its shealth?
I do ~try~. I spend at least an hour reading, each evening, everything from books on Peltarch history, religion, necromancy and demonology, verily the library here is a fount of information to gladden any scholar's heart. And in this treasure trove, I sit sighing - tis a shameful thing, I admit! All this knowledge, and my stupid, stupid head is just too slow and too thick to take it all in. I leave the library humbled, each time feeling as though I know even less than I thought I did when entering. Though perhaps that is not an entirely bad thing? At least I shall never fall from pride, being so reminded of my shortcomings!
Nor shall I fall from sinful excess, for while each kiss from Cecil seems to rob me of all wit and sense, we have wisely decided to ration them quite sparingly - although sometimes, we do not meet for weeks and have a dizzying amount of kisses saved up! You needn't worry though, not only is Cecil a perfect gentleman, not only do we most often kiss while both of us are encased in armor, but we have a third ace up our sleeves of virtuous conduct - the kittens.
Believe it or not, but Bub & Bob seem to always be their most insistant for attention when Cecil and I are in each others arms, even to the point of Bob swatting his little paw at our very lips, mid-kiss! Chastity belts are out, chastity ~kittens~ is clearly the season's hot new trend in Narfell!
Your study-weary sister, Ashena
P.S. Did Aymon write home recently?"
-
_The Order Halls, again. The young woman is seated at her desk, feet pulled up into the folds of a warm blue robe as she contemplates her next letter, quill wagging in her fingers. Suddenly, a streak of pale fur leaps at the quill, battling it down with great fury and vengeance. Ashena gives the fuzzy kitten a reproachful look, yet can't help but to chuckle and scratch his tawny head before she carries him over to a small basket in the corner of the room. The comfy basket, perched securely on a climb-friendly contruction resembling a small tree adorned with various cat toys, soon sees the kitten yawning hugely and falling asleep, face down on his tiny paws.
Giggling quietly at the state of her mangled quill, Ashena picks a fresh one and begins to write._
"Dearest Gralam,
All of a sudden, and in ALL the reverse order, me and Cecil find ourselves parents! Mother always told me, sweet words and sweet kisses lead to sweet babies, but never had I imagined it would happen so swiftly as all this, with ~several~ key moments missing inbetween!
Our young ones are named Bob & Bub, and have the most adorable blue eyes you can imagine, coupled with soft fuzzy fur (tawny and black respectively), razor sharp little claws and teeth, and mischief by the bucketful! They are, surprise surprise, of course kittens, and found abandoned in the strangest place at that!
I should start from the top though - and it began most normally indeed, with little reason to think it a day out of the ordinary for any other reason but the joy of getting to spend it in Cecil's company. We had finished our patrol, the rest of our party dispersing as we headed on to the bath house together. I think we must both have been in a bold mood that day, for somehow I found myself not only close, but in fact seated upon Cecil's leg while we spoke, and nearby bathers made jeering remark on this fact. A wink from one of the men added to the discomfort, and so we decided to seek privacy within the steam room, and relax once more.
On our short way over from pool to steam room however, the most bizarre sight awaited us. Verily, when I hear of people being reluctant to frequent the baths, this very sight pops unbidden into my mind, and I cannot help but shudder inside! A man stood by the door, trying to engage in conversation as Cecil and I stared in fascinated horror. He was most unfortunately attired, in a bathing garnment far too small for his bulk, and adding to this, covered both in his own body hair and so much oil that I half expected him to slide sideways on his own grease trail.
The man made eyes, not at me but at Cecil, and desired to come with us into the steam room. The door SLAMMED in his face (unkind I know, but necessary for sanity's sake!) and we stood near trembling in the steam room. Then, unbelievably from a grown man, bawling began. He was ~crying~, and now I did feel cruel, remorseful enough to eventually open the door - but the man did not stand there waiting. Instead, we followed oil glistening footsteps back to the pool, where he stood entwined in a lustful embrace with the man who had winked at us previously!!!
I shall spare you the details, verily as much for my own sake as yours, for that very vision seemed to etch itself to our minds, and we retreated to the steam room in haste. Clinging to each other like frightened children, we simply stood there, trying ~desperately~ to unsee what had been seen while all thoughts of romance were brutally stripped away.
But not for very long.
After all, the steam room is designed for relaxation, is it not? And Cecil's proximity does make my thoughts scatter, even foul ones. Soon, we had regained a little of our previous mood, and the only danger remaining was temptation itself. But that's when we heard it..
'Meow..'
A soft, mewling sound coming from somewhere inside the room! Cecil listened intently, then walked over to the benches across from us to kneel down and peek below. A pitch black kitten trotted out to cautiously sniff at his leg - then a second one, pale gold in hue like a little lion! We picked them up and searched the room, yet could find no mother to the small critters, nor any signs of a passage she might have used to get inside or out of the room. The staff were equally clueless, when asked.
Quite simply, the kittens presence was inexplicable and we could not help but to wonder whether it was a sign of sorts. Cecil's god is the Black Lion you see, and he has on previous occasions received signs, leading him further on his spiritual quest. Regardless of that, the kittens were far too young to manage on their own and so we decided to care for them ourselves. The plucky black one promptly climbed into Cecil's lap, while the tawny one stared at me uncertainly for a while, then buffed my leg with his little head. One each then, we decided!
With great argumentative effort, I was allowed to keep little Bob with me at the temple. As luck would have it, there is something of a rat situation in the city and a cat makes perfect sense in that respect. Although you would not BELIEVE how much trouble a small kitten can be, or how often he wakes and demands to either be fed or played with. Parenthood is exhausting, verily! Yet when he is asleep in his basket, looking like a perfect fuzzy angel, I confess my heart does swell with love.
Your (unexpectedly) kitten-raising sister, Ashena"
-
_A tall candle spreads its warm light across a large and open room, fine tapestries on the walls and the floor set with beautiful marble. The young woman sits at her desk, several small piles of paper stacked neatly beside her, and an as of yet empty sheet set before her, awaiting freshly inked words. The nearby bed is enormous, Ashena's neatly laid out nightgown looking small and lonely on the vast expanse of the bedspread. Sword, shield, helm and a fullplate armor in shining blue and gold rest on the armor stand beside the bed, gleaming in the candlelight.
The sound of her chair creaking echoes across the silent halls, and Ashena pulls her woolen shawl closer, a thoughtful look on her face as she begins to write._
"Dearest Gralam,
While my last letter was written in such euphoria that I scarcely touched the ground, the time that followed my knighthood has seemed designed to ensure I keep well grounded. The Order is most generous, allowing me full use of the facilities here which include sleeping quarters, training and crafting hall, meeting room, an expansive library and storage room full of the most curious and wonderous items to admire. I even recieved aid in getting my new plate dyed and tailored so precisely to my measurements that I swear it will keep me on the straight and narrow in sweet consumption, for fitting so very closely! It is now a deep, rich blue with gold details, strictly adhering to the guidelines of the Order.
I feel just a little bit less Ashena Teroldys, and a little bit more the Knight of the Order, wearing it. I expect that is part of the point, however!
My days have begun to find a steady routine, a daily grind that, while not so different from before, is yet unlike what I had imagined life would be like as a knight. I sleep in the Order halls, above the Temple of the Triad, I say my prayers at dawn before the altar of Torm, then have breakfast in Ashald Park. I walk my beaten path down in the sewers (sometimes the nearby swamps, and the crypts of Norwick every so often), then soak at the bath house. I eat my supper, write reports and study before going to bed (in a bed so freakishly large, one would think the Order either had giants in their ranks, or housed nightly orgies. Neither is actually true, of course!). Lather, rince and repeat this routine, over and over, and there you have the current life of Ashena Teroldys.
Glamorous, is it not? My friends chase treasure and adventure all over Narfell, fighting beasts of myth and legend in the most dangerous and remote parts of the region, while I mop up slime in the sewers. Ashena, the Janitor Knight, on a never ending quest for cleanliness! My new weapon of choice ought perhaps to be mop and bucket, instead of sword and shield, at this rate!
(I can picture the heraldic emblem now, a bucket with a drowned rat and diagonal mop, overlaying a green gelatinous cube background)
I jest of course, yet part of me is not free from envy of such epic adventure as those my friends partake in. Still, perhaps the hardest part of my chosen path is something I am still learning - patience and perseverance to one's duty, whether this duty be full of glory or in my case, simply gory.
If one breaks it down to the core, tis really quite simple though - my life is sworn to a higher power. I would live and die serving Torm in whatever way He asks, over seeking empty thrill or shiny treasure any day. Yet when I hear fantastical tales of dragons and golems, how can I not feel just a ~little~ envious? In our heart of hearts, every adventurer longs for just that, I think; adventure with a capital A!
I will be patient, I will persevere in my task and who knows? I may find that adventure lurks in even the slimiest and dirtiest of places, walking hand in hand with duty. I have faith that it is so, verily!
I shall be fair to my routine too, for it gives my days structure and meaning, preventing what would otherwise be days spent waiting, worrying and longing. I wait for Aymon, I worry over the future and I long, oh how I long for Cecil, for our duties now separate us more often than not. The time we do have together, we fill with fun, adventure and kisses so sweet, they live nextdoors to agony. I am happy, yet waiting, worrying and longing for more. I want you to meet him, I want ~everyone~ at home to do so, I want to present him proudly and declare my love out loud!
But I must be patient, I ~will~ be patient and persevere in my love and who knows? One of my dear siblings might marry so fabulously up that me marrying down will be a footnote of no remark in our family history, or a title may present itself for Cecil to wear, just shiny enough to give him an honest chance. I have faith.
Your most glorious slime-buster sister, Ashena"
-
"Oh, Gralam!
I'm a Knight now, as of just this past eve, a sworn knight in the Order of the Divine Shield! I spoke my vows before Torm and a small congregation, and verily, such bliss filled me that I do think my feet have yet to touch the ground since! Aymon was there, and Sigibert, Rath, Shallyah, Walter, Ardent, Elena and many others from the Order itself, several good persons from our recent mission, alongside the unexpected addition of quite a few of the pale and scantily clad women we had liberated from the cult but hours ago.
And at the back, standing head and shoulders above most everyone else and looking so splendid my poor heart nearly ~burst~, Cecil. Beaming from afar, he looked beyond handsome in a regal red and gold outfit (which oddly matched the strange new armor I found myself in, though his was immaculate and mine full of gashes and bloodstains, alas!).
I knelt a squire and rose a knight, to the solemn smiles of Lady Daisy, Sir Roland and Sir Mariston. A joyous feeling bubbled inside me, bursting into full and unstoppable bloom as I turned to wave to the small crowd and congratulations began. I HUGGED Rath, near lifting his feet off the ground, hugged lady Daisy, nearly did the same to sir Mariston before some tiny vestige of my dignity insisted upon itself. Instead I shook his hand, far, FAR too many times, smiling as though I was touched.
More hugs, handshakes and congratulations followed, though they blur together into one big, giddy jumble as I worked my way through the crowd. Further back stood Sir Shannon, expressing his regrets that his many duties had prevented him from attending the whole ceremony as he would have wished. My heart swelled inside my chest, and I nearly hugged him too, before swiftly reminding myself to act more befitting a knight. I shook his hand instead, and he smiled! It was a small smile, but I'm sure it was there, unless my giddy mind has in hindsight plastered such expressions to everyone in attendance (which, come to think of it, it might)!
I had just enough time to be swept up in a mighty bear hug by Cecil, before the Order was called to a meeting with General Neverith of the Peltarch Defenders. As I walked up the stairs, I cast one glance back and spied Aymon and Cecil in what appeared intense conversation, and my insides did a quick somersault. Aymon looked so serious, and Cecil startled and gobsmacked - what on earth were they talking about?!
I sat through the meeting feeling much like a child masquerading as an adult in my new Order robe, yet tried my best to listen and learn. Mariston was opinionated and adamant, Roland shrewd and Shannon dry and precise as the discussion continued of things political, legal and governmental in nature. Rath offered good ideas and Eluriel proved more insightful than I had perhaps given her credit for as of yet - but my mind kept returning to Cecil and Aymon downstairs.
As the meeting wound to a halt, the jubilous feeling of before returned in force as I left my seat. And it must be this very sensation that compelled me to take lady Eluriel's hand as she playfully offered a dance, spinning me deftly around, then offering sir Shannon the next dance. At this point, Shannon must deemed me just as childish as I felt, for he left without a word and I could not help but feel as though I had disappointed him.
Even that was not enough to dampen my spirits or still my trembling heart, however, and I near tripped on my new robe in hurrying down the spiral staircase. Torm be praised, Cecil was still there (though Aymon was not)! We had made a sort of promise to go dancing at the Festhall afterwards, and his face lit up as I stepped into view. I took his arm, and walked as if on naught but air through the darkened city streets.
The Festhall was bright and gaily lit, a band of elven musicians greeting us with soft lilting tones. Cecil had assured me he could dance, but some part of me must have doubted the extent of his claim, for as he swept us into that first dance with sure and elegant steps, I am certain my jaw must have dropped momentarily! Not only can he dance, he can ~dance~! I floated on my cloud of bliss, following effortlessly as if in a dream. It was simply perfect.
Eventually, we both found our tongues as the band kept playing, and we kept dancing, through joyous jigs and slow, sweeping reels. It seems Aymon had observed and drawn his own conclusions, for now he wished to have a talk with us both and to interview Cecil formally, about himself and his intentions. In short - an interview for prospective marriage!
I gawked, and looked no doubt precisely as startled and gobsmacked as Cecil had back at the temple - yet now, he simply smiled and pulled me closer as the music slowed. Before such an interview, he murmured, it might be wise to ask what the lady herself desires. As if on cue, the music stopped. In the sweetest repetition of our first encounter, Cecil withdrew a single red rose from his pack, offering it with a most significant smile.
And just like the first time, I accepted. The music swelled around us for the last dance, and the words that were whispered then are mine and his alone.
All that remains now is to have this fragile rose accepted by the family, and Aymon's support will mean a world of difference. Until that talk, the rose is but a rose to anyone but Cecil and I. Remember that, Gralam. It's just a rose, so SHHHH!
Seriously!
My feet still refuse to touch the ground, and I have not slept all night. No frowny-face now, tis not for having spent it in any unseemly manner! I was escorted back to my room, and have since been packing my things to move to the temple, then writing reports and letters to calm my butterfly thoughts. I'm just so HAPPY that I do not know what to do with myself, and fear I shall run through the streets shouting like a maniac!
But I won't. After all, I'm a knight now, and sworn to a certain level of conduct! Though if inside of me, a tiny Ashena does cartwheels and squeals in delight, I do not think Torm himself would begrudge me of it.
Your giddy sister, Ashena"
-
_The first explorative rays of of sunshine have only just begun to creep past the horizon, probing and pushing gently at the velvet blanket of night outside the small inn room. It is either very late or very early, yet the sole occupant of the room seems very much awake.
In fact, it's highly doubtful if the young woman has slept at all this night, as a small suitcase occupies the bed, her few modest belongings neatly packed inside. A wickedly spiked set of gold and red armor rests on a chair beside the bed, alongside the usual wooden shield, longbow, a shining golden helmet and the sword, now free of any trace of rust, shimmering in the warm glow of the candle light.
Ashena, wearing a sky blue robe cinched at her small waist with a golden band, can't seem to stop smiling as she flits about, adding the last few items to the suitcase's content. A single red rose adorns her long braid, adjusted now and then with an even brighter smile. Dawn spreads a soft pastel light through the small window where Ashena takes her seat, perhaps for the very last time, and begins to write._
"Dear mother and father!
The past day has truly been the most significant, most blessed and proud one of my life. I write to you today not only as your daughter, but as a true knight of the Order of the Divine Shield! Yesterday, I stood before the altar of Torm and a congregation of the Order, family and friends, to take my oath.
Though nervous at first, once I spoke the words, nothing has felt more right. As I drew my sword, that feeling increased ten-fold, for a bright golden light did blossom along it's length, from the very tip and down the blade, through hilt and onwards. Verily, it seemed to travel through the palm of my hand, tingling down my arm and to reach all the way inside me to set my very soul aglow! And with that blessed light, the last rust fell off the blade of my sword to reveal the name of the paladin who had weilded it before me - and I knew it pleased him well that the duty he raised it for is done.
For ~Marko Kirkasmieli~, my brother in faith, the story of the final defeat of the cult of Kiputyttö will be recorded and remembered. I share it with you, my honoured parents, for I have no doubt that it will please you well to hear what your son and daughter have accomplished in these lands, in the name of Torm and House Teroldys.
With the demons taken out of the cult's ranks on our last mission, the time was upon us for the final, and with the gods aid, decisive blow to this evil. Lady Daisy once again put the call out, and many fine and good souls did answer. There was Aymon and myself, Ivor Shemov of Torm, Walter Barry of Mystra, Shallyah of the Red Knight, Elena and Allestor Hollins of Ilmater, Doogie of Beronnar Truesilver, Magdarin of Gorm Gulthyn, the unarmed fighter Aeden and hinnish faithful Rynthen McTavish of the Silver Valley.
The task set before us was clear and true - destroy the cult. And with them, any wicked helpers they may have, as according to Lady Daisy's scrying there were mercenaries bolstering their ranks, amongst them Cyricists and even drow. The map of the cult's location, by thoughtful addition of Lady Daisy's, was enchanted to function as a word of Recall, to be used once our task was complete. The map would then bring all of us back to the temple of the Triad in an instant.
The map lead us into the foothills, south-west crossing a small section of Gnoll-infested forests, then due north across a snowy field, fighting our way past ogres into a a cavernous lair. Here, we soon found the mercenary forces Lady Daisy had reported present, but more than that. A grey dwarf with a coiled whip barred our way, claiming we must pay if we were to go further, to see 'her' girls. We quickly slew the slaver and proceeded into a large room with an enclosure, housing a great number of sickly looking women in naught but rags.
Directly ahead of this cage, a woman was shackled and kneeling, while a richly dressed man discussed the price of… of using her, with a pair of bulky guards. Aeden's scouting had also revealed a drow priestess near the back of the room, likely the one calling the shots. We launched a swift attack and killed everyone but the captured women. From them, we learnt the horrifying truth - the cult had forced each and every one of these enslaved women to prostitution, in order to spread disease and gain riches for their dark purpose. But even worse, they were impregnated time and again, their innocent children at once sacrificed and thrown into the putrid cookpots, devoured like the holy men and women that came before us.
The cage being sturdy, the women frail and sickly and the key to the lock no-where in sight, we decided to press our advantage and return to free the captives on our way back. Down a flight of stairs, we found the cult's true stronghold. Their numbers were high, featuring numerous druids and priests. Chief amongst these, the High Priestess, a sinister and powerful woman, awaiting us near a raised altar, soaked with blood.
The fighting in that final room was fierce, but in the end, none of our foes remained but the priestess herself. As we closed around her, she took to running, but got no further than a narrow bridge before we caught her. Malice seemed to drip from her, poison radiating from her very person, and with her dying words, she did place a curse upon us - for her godess to strike us all down with a terrible disease.
For a breath or two, her words did seem but empty threats, but then several of us suddenly took ill, falling unconcious with a burning fever. First Walter, then Ivor, Aeden - and then Aymon. I ordered them brought back to the main chamber, for t'was my immediate thought and full intent to destroy the altar and by doing so, break the curse and the power of Kiputyttö.
I carried Aymon with the help of another, placing him gently on the stone ground. No words did reach him, the fever raging with a heat I feared would soon be his death. I placed my hand on his forehead, whispering words of cleansing, but he was still and did not stir. Until suddenly, his eyes blinked wide open, gleaming with something dark and sinister. One by one, our sick did rise up to strike against us, possessed by the evil powers of Kiputyttö. I was forced to strike my brother down, and kept him down as the others were being likewise subdued.
Elena, at my urging, did approach the altar and begin to pray. A dark force lashed out as the altar fought back, resisting the purge with grievous harm to Elena herself. She bore the pain, stood there unfaltering and strong in faith. One by one, we all added our prayers to hers, with Elena and Allestor in the fore.
The pain was brutal, spreading to all who added their voices to the choir of cleansing. The force seemed to lash out more frequently, desperately, then a crack appeared on the altar's surface. Through gritted teeth, our chanting continued, human, dwarven and hinnish mingling, echoing in the cavernous room. There was a rumbling, the pain building to neigh unbearable, then the altar did shatter in a million pieces, a great explosion that sent shards, dust and pebbles everywhere. Victory! Praise Torm, Ilmater, Gorm, Beronnar and Arvoreen!
Immediately, the oppressive feel in the aid did lift, and t'was as if a cool and fresh stream of air had flowed into the room. One by one, our afflicted woke, confused and with no memories of their attacks upon us. I think it perhaps best it stay that way, for those actions were in truth not their own, nor should they carry any shame or guilt from them.
Upon the priestess' body, we found a key and several vile and powerful possessions. We collected them all for Lady Daisy to take care of, and headed upstairs to free the women captives. As everyone crowded around me, I used the map to bring us back to the temple, to some shock and consternation of the temple staff, I can only imagine.
The women were immediately treated by Lady Daisy, given some gold, directions, an offer to stay at the temple and last but not least, their freedom. Many left, but some stayed - and I pray the temple may give them honest work and a chance to heal not just bodily, but in spirit.
Lady Daisy heard our account of events, before one final boon was bestowed upon us - the vile items of the priestess were, through what must have been a tremendous effort, cleansed and sanctified, to be offered as our reward. I was honoured with the first pick, and after much consideration chose a wonderous amulet of strong protective magic, with a hidden boon within - a breath of fresh air, to be released once every day. I was full of glee, thinking the sewers and dank crypts would be that much more bearable had I this breath of fresh air with me always - then I took one look at Aymon's face, and knew I could not keep it.
He chose the priestess' spiked armor in turn, and we traded the two immediately after. The armor also offers fine protection, far better than my old, which I gave to Ivor with a slight pang of regret. I had grown fond of it, for just as my sword, this armor was old looking and with rusty spots, yet bearing the symbol of Torm upon it. Some romantic part of me saw a correlation, a form of kinship there. I felt part of a long tradition in wearing the armor, in weilding the sword, all in the name of the Loyal Fury. But Ivor is a priest of Torm, and I have no doubt he will carry on the tradition every bit as well as I.
The armor, oddly spiked and covered in blood and gashes from axe and sword, was the unexpected outfit worn for my knighting ceremony, for it started immediately after our quest was complete. I had made such meticulous plans for what to wear, and how to do my hair, and suddenly, there I was, bloodied and ragged before the small crowd in attendance - but in all honesty, it felt more true this way. A knight's work isn't all roses and corkscrew curls, quite the contrary. Tis blood, gore, sweat and tears, and I would have it no other way.
Your proud, faithful daughter, Ashena
P.S. I will now move into the Order's facilities at the temple of the Triad. Adress any letters you send to that adress!"
As the young woman finishes the letter, she touches gentle fingertips to the rose in her braid, her smile again growing brighter. Immediately, she reaches for a fresh page to continue writing.
((Immense thanks to Wywernywin for this amazing, exciting and highly meaningful goodie-good plot line. Ashena wouldn't be half the paladin she is now without you!))
-
Early morning in Ashald Park, the young woman seated in her usual spot with a mug of tea, a bright red apple and a neatly cut sandwich beside her. She hums happily to herself, enjoying the solitary breakfast and the freshness of the rose garden while working on another letter.
"Dearest Gralam!
The one true perk of wading through filthy sewers and cutting the rotting hide of oozing zombies for a living - aside of course for the satisfaction of doing one's duty - is that one may visit the bath house afterwards, and without shame or hesitation indulge in lavish soaps and scented oils. The staff have begun to call me by name at this point, and often offer for me to try this new soap or that (although they have yet to convince me of the merits of their massage services).
At first, I felt ashamed to constantly walk through the door in such a wretched state (covered in slime, zombie gore or both), but by now it is a well established routine, and the staff greet me with far greater cordiality than my often stinking presence deserves. For a small extra fee, I can even have my armor cleaned while I soak - a fine service!
My visits there are as frequent as they are solitary, for while I do not lack for company in my patrols, most people are either too shy to bathe in public or hesitant to spend so much coin on a membership to join me. So you can perhaps imagine the raised eyebrows as one day, I walked in with a very tall, very slime-covered gentleman beside me. Cecil had, after several patrols in dark and smelly places alongside me, decided to collect his courage and his finances to finally accompany me to the baths!
Oh, don't give me that frowny-face, Gralam (and I know you are doing just that, reading these words)! I said they were public baths, did I not? Nothing truly ~improper~ could occur in a public setting, and besides, he had already seen me naked the very first time we met. This was much less bare by comparison!
Though I will not pretend there were not a few admiring glances exchanged between us, and mayhaps a reddened cheek or two.
And perhaps he kissed me, finally.
Perhaps for a ~very~ long time.
We hurried to the cold pool soon after, briskly determined to cool off, yet grinning like the terminally deranged. I've never known anything to feel so sweet and so wildly, irresistably intoxicating! He kissed me again after a game of splash-the-Cecil had turned into TIDAL WAVE RETALIATION, washing me right out of the pool. As we left, I felt sure I heard the staff murmur and chuckle behind us, yet despite my cheeks burning, I cannot feel so embarrassed as to regret it. I won't!
We've spoken no words of actual love yet, but it's there in every glance, in the warmth of his voice, in the brightness of his smile, in the smallest touch and the closest embrace, it's there, I cannot doubt it and I will not hide it (as if I even could!).
Aymon knows, and while mostly amused at first, he now seems determined to facilitate matters, should Cecil measure up to whatever standards it is he has in mind. They have met, and seem to get along fairly well (to my immense relief). Rath too seems to be taking stock of Cecil, even going so far as to take him to the Barrows below Peltarch, just the two of them. I think he was impressed, though he still seems to watch us at times, more big-brotherly than Aymon himself in a way!
While love blossoms in my own heart, I'm saddened to see it wilt in that of another. An argument between Celia, Shallyah and Walter broke out recently, and what had appeared a budding romance between the first and last of these friends is now crushed. A bewildered and disheartened Walter asked me to talk to Celia, to get her to stay, yet I could not understand the true nature of their disagreement. Except that Shallyah, admirable in many ways, but verily not in her understanding in matters of the heart, had opted to intervene somehow.
Uh-oh.
I found Celia in Peltarch, about to catch a boat back to her old Order. We talked for hours, her hurt and humiliation so real they were near palpable. T'was startling to find that beneath that strong and confident Celia I've come to know, the Celia who faces down a Vrock without flinching, the steadfast Celia, shining in faith - beneath all that is someone as brittle as she is beautiful, someone even less familiar with romance than I. Though she is perhaps as much as ten years older than I, though in matters of the faith I have no doubt that she is much the wiser, in this case, I felt a font of wisdom and experience.
When Celia, whose whole life has been devoted to the church, growing up an orphan as she did, for the first time ever tried to open her heart to another, to lower her guard… when she was in this most vunerable state of mind, in unfamiliar territory - that is when she was told she was doing things wrong, that she ought to change, that she was not good enough. Shallyah (through no ill intent as such, I am sure) either did not see or did not care that her words were like bricks in a house of glass, and no matter what I said or did thereafter, I could not mend the damage.
But I kept Celia from leaving, and somehow, though t'was not in the manner I had envisioned or wished for, I did get behind the shield to see the real her. After hours of exhausting, heart-wrenching conversation, I think the one good outcome of it all is that I have made a friend for life. I find myself both fond and a little protective of her, and very glad that she remains a squire for the Divine Shield, just as I. And I have no doubt that once she is past this hurt, she will emerge all the stronger for it. In fact, despite being burnt in the romance department, I find Celia is warmer and more open now than ever before. Mayhaps we all do grow from our mistakes?
Your thoughtful, blissful sister, Ashena"
-
The early morning sunshine finds the young woman already at her desk, though still in her nightgown and slippers, a woolen scarf draped loosely around her shoulders for warmth and a huge mug of steaming tea beside her. A stray ray of sunshine glints off the now golden hilt and pommel of her sword, a wonderous smile spreading across Ashena's face as her eyes travel to the source of the sudden flash of light. She takes a sip of tea, wriggles her toes in thought, and begins to write.
"Dear father,
Yesterday saw us strike a most important blow against the cult of Kiputyttö, as Lady Daisy gathered us once more at the temple of the Triad. She had divined the location of the Nabassu's lair, situated deep within the swamplands south of Peltarch itself. With undoubtedly good words of warning and advice, she saw the group off…
...that is to say, all but myself, for I was shamefully late! While preparing for the strike, I thought to find peace amongst the foothills, gathering apples for Fury. But I wandered too far and momentarily lost my way. If not for Fury's swift hooves, t'would have been a day not of glory but deep embarrassment, indeed!
I caught up just as the group entered the underground lair, Aymon giving me a chiding look as my flustered face no doubt said it all. Besides ourselves, there was good and strong people to fight beside, verily! Lady Elena, a priestess of Ilmater and knight of the Order, Shallyah, Ivor and Walter from the last strike, a Hoarran paladin by the name of Talaitha Gray, the unarmed fighter Aeden (an associate of the Ashald family, I believe) and last but in no way least, Doogie, priest of Beronnar Truesilver.
In the dark, damp cavern below, there were a great many undead in our path, bolstered by lesser demons such as quasits - the latter cunningly hiding above our heads to swoop down and spread their wicked havoc. A few lizardmen did also aid the demonic side with spell and sword, but the toughest challenge before finding our target was the ropers. These rocklike creatures, said by some to be more commonly found in the Underdark, did lash out queer tentacles to harm and poison many of our number.
As we neared the end room of the caverns, bodies lay scattered and broken on the ground, in greater and greater numbers. These did rise as zombie warriors upon our presence, a fact that our lurking Nabassu used all too well. For as we approached, it suddenly revealed itself to lead an unmerry chase around the room, awakening all it's undead allies and calling the quasits down from above.
Doogie and I gave chase, but the remaining party was hard pressed by the rising zombies and quasits. I turned back while Talaitha joined Doogie in the chase, hoping they could keep the Nabassu from fleeing while we finished it's allies off. Once the dust began to settle, we chased after, finding the Nabassu pinned into a corner by Doogie's persistant efforts. However, as our own reinforcements did arrive, so too did the Nabassu's final aid - another Vrock, screaching defiance as it tore into our ranks.
A strange calm did settle over me then, and as another in our party shielded me from the Vrock's swipes, my focus could rest solely on the wounded Nabassu. With my Lord's name burning in my heart, on my lips, I did strike the demon a solid blow, the truest I have ever struck - and it fell, defeated! Praise Torm!
The Vrock, however, very much remained, and slashed savagely around itself. Shallyah and Elena in particular seemed to draw it's wrath, and it was a close thing for both to walk away with their lives. Through numbers, teamwork and the grace of the good gods, the Vrock too did fall, cleaved in twain by Shallyah's axe.
As the last lingering undead were finished off and some items recovered from the Nabassu's lair, the whole cave began to rumble and shake. With many of us weakened by poison and sickness, the wild dash to the surface was more of a desperate crawl, the shaking landing many on their hands and knees along the way. Mere moments after exiting, the whole cave collapsed beneath us.
Again, my sword awakened after our task was complete, the searing, golden light travelling all along it's length (and into my very heart, it did feel!). Once my eyes adjusted their sight, I saw that the rust clinging to the hilt had fallen off, the symbol of Torm depicted there now in splendid, shining gold!
One final duty lies before us now - to find the cult of Kiputyttö and root them out for good. May Torm guide us to success in this also.
Your loving, most determined daughter, Ashena"
-
The young woman twists and turns in her bed, a full moon spilling silvery light across the small room. Finally, she gives up the pretense of sleep and scoots out of bed, sheepskin slippers softening her footsteps as she pads over to the window, looking up at the sky with a dreamy smile on her face. Lighting a candle, Ashena begins to write, pausing now and then to tug absently on her long braid, drifting into private thoughts.
"Dearest Gralam!
Such a difference there is between touching and ~touching~! I never, ever thought that I was missing out on much, for not being the most physical of persons. Indeed, none in our family are very prone to physical affection, now that I think of it, at least in comparison to many of my new aquaintances, some trading embraces as easily and effortlessly as others do words. I find myself homesick enough at times to startle Aymon with a small hug, though. I wonder, am I as awkward and stiff in accepting such affection as he? Likely I am, though I try not to be, not with my friends.
When it comes to ~touching~ though, you know full well how I have felt about that subject. You tried to tell me it was much different with the right person, but I just didn't believe you. Too many sweaty hands at too many harvest dances, pressed far too close for comfort, as if they had some sudden right to rest upon my person. Oh, how I wished I could have danced in full plate, covered in spikes ideally!
That ~worm~ Roderick Pendergast in the rose garden, with his groping, unwanted hands, that slug-like tongue he tried to shove down my throat.. ugh, the thought does still make me shudder! To this day, I do not know which one of you sought him out that night, or what was said and done. But after he grovelled and stuttered out his apology, he never so much as looked my way again - a fact I am eternally thankful for.
In short, I thought I was not only not missing out, but in fact escaping something entirely undesirable and mostly repulsive. But oh, how wrong I was! I swear, I shall never taunt you for making puppy eyes at Beverly again, or make gagging noises whenever I should find you in an embrace, for oh, OH what a difference the right person makes. It makes a whole ~world~ of difference, verily! And we've not even kissed yet!
We had our dinner, Cecil and I.
I opted for the Mermaid and we found a secluded spot at the back of the inn, by the fireplace. I chose his meal and he mine, and we laughed long and hard at having picked such very similar things for each other. He'd bought winter wine though, something unfamiliar to me, but most fitting for the tale he was about to tell of his own northern origins. The wine was dark and surprisingly sweet, a little spicy in a pleasant way. He filled just the one cup, lifting it to my lips to offer a small sip. My head spun, though I felt more drunk by his presence than the wine, for we sat very close together on the couch, his arm draped around me.
Cecil lifted the wine cup to his lips, pressed against the wet imprint that my own had left behind, but moments ago. It was as if our lips met, on the rim of that lucky cup, and I could not help but to envy it. He was very warm, and very near, and the air seemed alive with a sweet, dizzying anticipation. Oh, would that I were bold enough to kiss him, but I was not, I did not! Instead the cup passed between us, from lips to lips, from fingertips to fingertips while we spoke.
I asked for his tale, and he gave it, the story of his youth; how he had come to be who he is, and where he is now. He faltered a bit at first, vunerable in a way I have never seen him before, but as the tale unfolded, it seemed to immerse him and flow unhindered. He spoke of himself as if another person, a past self, a boy that was not yet a man. The tests that boy had to face has marked him, deep gouges and rents running down his back, slicing through the swirling patterns of his tribal tattooes (yes, he showed me).
Cecil's rite of passage (though at the time his name was not yet Cecil) was both failure and success - failure, because he was cast out from his tribe, but success in that he proved both valour and patience, and his spirit animal's footsteps lead him onwards, lead him here, to Narfell. And here his quest continues - so I believe, and I think he does too. The Black Lion has shown itself to him since, and I am certain that though he did not succeed in the way common warriors do, it is only because Cecil isn't anywhere ~near~ common.
As his tale came to a halt, that vunerable look returned to his face. I think this is not a story he tells often, if at all. We spoke of softer, lighter things then, yet that deep sense of intimacy remained, like a warm glow between us. When we rose at last, it was only to embrace fully, and oh, oh, OH.. if any harvest dance had come close to that sweet embrace, I'd be dancing still, instead of smiting foul and wicked things in every dark, dank corner where the sun does not shine!
Your (stupidly enamoured) loving sister, Ashena
P.S. Give my kindest regards to Beverly, if your heart still sings her song. In hindsight, I might have given her an unnecessarily hard time. I understand certain things better now!"
-
Again the small inn room, shrouded in darkness but for that one, single candle on the desk. The young woman, still clothed at this late hour, is putting the last polishing strokes to the sword in her hands, the pommel now gleaming a deep, rich gold, free of rust. She holds it out infront of her, pressing a light, almost reverant kiss to the shining pommel, then swaps sword for quill as she begins to write.
"Dear father,
We have struck our first blow against the foul cult, Aymon, myself and a small group of faithful consisting of two Tormish priests (Celia St Clair and Ivor Shemov), a Mystran spellsword (Walter Barry) and a warrioress of the Red Knight (Shallyah). Our mission was a success, though the victory was bought with every last drop of blood, sweat and tears we possessed, for all of us were near death's door in this fight, and none more so than our Aymon. But oh, how proud you would be of him, father, had you seen him on this day!
Lady Daisy had studied the note I brought to her, and scryed for the location described within; a cave tucked into the foothills beyond the city walls, usually populated by orcs. These had moved out at the cult's behest, and instead the cave was filled with their own wicked ranks. Our mission was two-fold: bring rightful wrath to the foul inhabitants of the cave, and bring back any and all information we may find on the problem at hand. I am pleased to say we did both.
Arriving at the cave's mouth, we found the entrance blocked by boulders, seemingly impassable. Walter, having skills with the arcane, deemed the stones but an illusion however, and boldly thrust his hand at - and through them. With this, the illusion broke, and we proceeded inside. Cultists awaited, men and women of like garb to the man with the rotted face. Troglodytes bolstered their numbers, and about half-way through, the next set of reinforcements did show their ugly faces - dretches and quasits.
At the very far end of the winding cavern, their leader awaited: a man skilled in both magic and melee, likely a druid of sorts. His cohorts were cultists, but.. not all alive. Rather a good few were in fact undead, and did rise again after we had thought the battle won with their leaders death. I instructed the room searched, but just then, the whole cave shook and groaned most alarmingly, and then a monsterous Vrock stood before us!
It did taunt us, calling us the next sacrifices and ghouls to be. The fight that followed was desperate, Aymon blocking some of the Vrock's vicious swipes with all his might, but bleeding profusely when it did strike true. Yet he stood firm and unyielding, letting each swipe of those claws break upon him, as ever my rock and my shelter. The rest of us swarmed around it, all on our very last legs, most all healing depleted. One healing balm, two, all of Torm's blessing from both myself and Celia to my brother just to keep him standing, and then the ground shook again!
A large and grotesque figure shook free from the rock itself, unfolding great stone-like wings. It resembled a gargoyle of sorts, but far more intimidating. Before we could even think to act, it flew off, while we clung on to the fight with the Vrock for dear life.
'Just one more strike, good lord, just one', I thought - but it was the Vrock that got there first, it's claws finding an opening in Aymon's guard to drop him bleeding to the ground. But then, oh Torm be praised, then our steel hit true in turn! It fell, IT FELL, and Aymon's life was saved just in time.
Afterwards, we did search the cave and came upon several holy items of the good men and women of faith that the cultists had captured. However, there was no sign of their bodies, and a large cookpot in the room made my stomach turn uneasily. A note was also recovered from the leader of the cult, written in Abyssal. All of this, and our story, we did bring to Lady Daisy at the temple, after having slugged our way through the returning orcs to reach the city, none of us dead, but all of us nearly so.
The gargoyle-like demon, recognized by some of our party and Lady Daisy upon description, is called a Nabassu. It is a powerful fiend, also known as a 'Portal Demon', according to Sir Shannon who I spoke to later on the subject. It was speculated that the Nabassu encountered was a juvenile, spending it's time on this plane feeding on holy men and women to grow in power. It must be stopped, this is now our first priority.
At the temple, the holy relics were divided amongst us, though Aymon did refuse the sword I found most fitting to his hand, and would not say why. He gave me this ~significant~ look, as if I was meant to understand something, but as usual I am no match for his intellect and stood there, dumb as a post and insisting he had earned it. He seemed glad enough to accept the shield and sword of my noble warrior spirit's gift to me though, and did take the armor Celia kindly gave away as hers was replaced by another. Oh, I do not ~get~ Aymon at times, but I am nontheless most proud to be his sister!
Finally, the most wonderous thing occurred as we were all but done talking. I felt a stirring in my right hand, a compulsion almost, to draw my sword from its scabbard. As I did, the blade flashed a bright, blinding gold, the light seeming to travel from its tip and all the way up my arm. A deep sense of what I can best describe as gratitude filled me then, and I knew the paladin before me was pleased that his duty did not fall with him. The rust on the sword's pommel has now fallen off, revealing a flawless gold surface beneath.
It is not yet over by far, but with such companions and with Torm's aid, the task ~shall~ be completed. This is my solemn vow.
Your loving daughter, Ashena"
-
Sunshine filters down through green foliage, glistening off a thousand little dew drops on a thousand leaves, straws of grass and flowers in a small park. Deep red, velvet roses sway in the gentle morning breeze, their rich scent filling the air. The young woman sits alone on a blue wool blanket, nestled in between rose bushes and a sheltering oak tree. Eyes closed, she breathes in deeply, smiling as she exhales and lets her gaze wander through the marvels of the small garden. The sounds of the city are muted and distant, and a bird chirps gaily in the tree above Ashena's head. Smiling, she slings her heavy braid over her shoulder, and begins to write.
"Dearest Gralam!
I have found the most wonderous haven in the city, a small and sheltered garden that, at certain times, reminds me of much of home. It is called Ashald Park (and yes, it is indeed Rath's ~monstrously~ wealthy family that has founded it), and it is a shining gem inlaid in the stout stone walls surrounding the Jewel itself.
I like the park best early in the morning, when it is near empty of people and all the flowers unfurl to greet the dawn, spreading the most amazing scent. In fact, I like it so well that I often fight my natural urge to sleep in, in favour of a solitary breakfast out here. The beauty and freshness of such a morning fills me with such purity that I can readily brave any stinking sewer, festering swamp or dank crypt that the rest of the day may throw my way, verily!
Given the frequency with which my duty takes me to foul smelling, slime-infested places, I shall need every bit of purity I can get! I recently invested in a membership for the local bath house, a full 200 gold which I at first found shockingly expensive. But oh, never have coin been better spent, for it is a wonderful place with hot and cold water in abundance, and a steam room that is simply heaven. I feel born again after each visit, and though some of my friends argue they are too shy to bathe in public, I'm certain they would change their minds after one blissful soak!
Speaking of friends, I think there are a few I have yet to describe to you! Well, some are friends, some are (I hope) friends in the making. Walter is a Mystran spellsword who seems in equal portions brave and unlucky, for twice I have now witnessed him draw new breath as the healers brought him back to life. Ill luck aside, he is both pleasant in demeanour and intellect, though wears the most unusual set of armor that leaves his legs bare. He also winks at me, and makes what seems to be half-hearted attempts at flirtation, though I'm certain he means nothing by it.
Actually, the display of bare legs seems something of a trend in Norwick, and it strikes me now that all the following persons share the preference! Victoria, who I have already described, favours a silvery white armor with a tabard, but nothing to cover her thighs. Likewise, Celia St Clair, an equally blonde and pretty priestess, though of Torm and not Lurue, favours a similar attire, though with a colouring more suited to The True. Shallyah, a warrioress from the north, also leaves her legs mostly bare, claiming it favours mobility. I could name many others, but suffice it to say that the climate may be warm for this far north, yet verily not QUITE so warm as to explain the plethora of bare thighs on display! I feel both prudish and practical by comparison, encased in metal from top to toe as I most frequently am.
Both Celia and Shallyah are not yet what you could call friends, exactly, but definitely persons I wish to one day call that. Celia is not easy to approach though, for just as sir Shannon, she seems encased in duty and faith, and getting past that shield to learn anything of herself is no simple feat (at least I sense it is a shield with her, though with Shannon I am less certain - it is more as if he has ~become~ duty, and left irrelevancies like his own personal self behind). Shallyah on the other hand is difficult to talk to because her approach to life is so different from mine. Verily, while I am guided by my heart and my faith, she approaches everything as if it could be picked apart by reason, some of it discarded for being of no practical use. She is a good ally, though if she's to become a good friend too, she'll have to start thinking of her heart as something other than a tool to pump blood through her system!
And speaking of heart, you did not think I could write a whole letter ~without~ mentioning Cecil at this point, did you? Well, I almost made it, but must now confess a certain nervousness of what might happen next between us. There's such a TENSION in the air whenever we meet - not a bad sort of tension, but the sort that makes you intensely aware, makes hair stand up at the back of your neck and sends prickles down your spine. We do not hug or kiss, but the feel of my hand in his makes my insides turn cartwheels until I'm dizzy!
We have agreed to meet in Peltarch next, and share another meal together. It could be today for all I know.. I must hurry to my patrol so that the rest of the day is mine to spend freely!
Your (now frantic) loving sister, Ashena"