3. Choices

Choices


  • Thirtythree: I have got to get a hold of myself. I stalked the rawlins all day, killing every goblin I saw. Untill I realized, it was not them I was seeing when they died. It was her! Jaelle. It was her face over and over that I saw as I drove my blades home! Why? Why kill an innocent farm boy, or merchant? What possible reason could she have had? She never struck me as a coward. Never showed any signs of fear that I could see. Was it all just for pleasure?

    I wish Syclya was here. She has a way of calming me, keeping me from doing something, as Thorn would say, rash. I miss her strength, her sense of justice, and her love. And now I fear that if I can not come to grips with this on my own, I am gonna get myself either killed or jailed.

    If I am honest with myself, I know it is guilt driving my anger as much as sorrow for the boy's mother. Instead of doing my job I was playing and drinking at fightnight. That is about when I figure she must have killed him. Jaelle is almost always at fightnight. But not this time. this time she had other plans.

    I did promise Thorn I would not do anything rash. And honestly, giving him my word is the only thing holding me back.


  • Thirty Two: A boy was killed in Norwick. Not by goblins or wolves or demons, but by someone he trusted. It was murder, plain and simple. His mother came to us, saying he was missing. I looked for him, and finally tracked him to a cemetary on the cliffs above the river across from Jiydd. He was not alone, and the signs seemed to indicate he went willingly. That is where he was murdered. His body tossed into the river from the cliffs.

    When his body was found by a fisherman, he had been in the water for a couple of days, Benji found some flesh under his fingertips and gave it to Armuil the mage. Aramuil performed a divining and we discovered that the flesh was,,, Jaelle's !!

    I trusted her,, I gave her the benefit of the doubt when Jay killed Troff. I even spoke on her behalf! And now all I can wonder is, if I had not, would the boy still be alive today? Damnit, it is my duty to protect the people of this town! If only I had found him sooner, maybe I could have stopped her. Maybe his mother would not be crying herself to sleep at night. And maybe I would not feel this sense of shame for my failure.


  • Thirty One: I was invited by Z to go on a crafting trip. While waiting I saw Syclya, and when I asked her to come along, she said yes. Made the whole day so much better. I swear she is more beautiful each time I see her. I find myself torn though, I wish her to be safe yet I want her with me always. And we all know, being around me is seldom safe.

    Our trip was north to the gnoll woods. I had never been there, but with the group we had, I figured we would be ok. The gnolls turned out to be very good fighters, even their younglings. We were exploring a particularly eerie section of the woods when Syclya slipped on the edge of a hole and plunged to the bottom!! I never even thought, I just jumped after her. Well, maybe I slipped trying to grab her, but it is my story..

    I am glad I did though. When I got to the bottom she was under attack by two of the filthy stinking beasts! I pulled my blades and pounced on them! I even managed to kill one in the process. Kinda silly of me though, after all, my love is one heck of a fighter. Soon the rest of the party slid down to us and we,,,,,(( the rest of this entry seems to have had some type of wine or ale spilled on it,, it was quite lengthy though))


  • Thirty: Wow, it is hard to believe that I have been here in Norwick for over two years. And never even saw a sign of that jerk I killed back home. Probably has forgotten alll about me by now. But I am still never going back. This is now my home.

    I saw Sy for a little while this week, seems things might be turning around for us. We might even be able to spend some time together for a change. I can only hope.

    I ran into Tindra while I was on patrol. After we arrived back in town we shared a meal at the town fire. Somehow I began to tell her about my past, and about Starla. She is a good listener and we seem to share some of the same dislike for intolerance in others. It is nice to talk to another Selunite. We are far to rare. That's probably is why we tend to stick together. It is us against the world!!

    Last note, Eli took me on patrol and told me I was in charge, said it was some kind of test. I hope I passed.


  • Twentynine: Okay, this is getting rediculous!! I am really beginning to hate that place!! Oh! What place, you might ask? That horrible, cloudy, stormy place the priests call the Fugue! Twice in two weeks I get to visit it again. Once because of a sneaky little blood sucking vampire mage. Yea, you read that right. And then a stupid biting vine gets me after I managed to survive a battle with giant wyverns, harpies, and a couple of cockatrice!!

    The real problem is, I do not think I would have done anything different. The others say I should run, but how can I when I see someone I know in trouble? Am I getting some kind of message? I do not believe Selune would want me to be other than who I am. Perhaps I did something that I am unaware of, for wich I am being puished. Or, and this is the most likely answer, I am just down right unlucky.

    One thing for sure, I had better get practicing. I need to be a lot better at fighting since I obviously can not rely on luck


  • Twentyeight: How many times have I died now? Well add one more to the list. We were attacked in Norwick by some type of spirits. Aramuil called them chaos spirits. When they were killed they made something happen to the weave,, it caused all the spellcasters,including the clerics, to have massive headaches.

    I fell once but was healed by Jerrick,,he told me to run,,but there was a real big spirit swarming a guy named Noah. I just had to stay and help of course! Well it turned on me and next thing I know I am in the fugue. I might as well build a house there,,I go there so much!

    This time though, I heard a beautiful voice, it asked if I wanted to return. Well of course I did! I said yes and suddenly I am standing in the temple. A real pretty woman named Kara had brought me back by the blessings of Mystra. It did not even cost any gold, now that is what I call a nice lady. It was Feather who had carried my gear and my body to her. (Never thought Feather looked that strong).

    The battle against the spirits continued well into the next day, I do not think anyone else died. We eventually won. I was so glad that Syclya had left town before it all began, although she would probably have done better than I did. I still would have worried though.

    One last thing, Jerrick. I watched all the people pull together and rally against the spirits. And always in the thick of it was Jerrick. He might be reallly egotistical, but I must admit, if I could do all he can, I would be pretty full of myself to. However I can not deny his dedication to Norwick and it's people. I suppose he can't be all bad.


  • Twentyseven: Vampires. The name alone is enough to give me a chill to the depths of my very soul. A dwarf named Nulinus was attacked by one not far from Norwick. Several of us investigated, but found only the burnt pile of ashes. All that remained after it was exposed to the cleansing rays of the sun. Kabul said it looked like it was going towards a cave to the southwest. We decided to return to Norwick for reinforcements.

    We returned to the cave, just before dark. What a,(as Benji would say,) g>CLUSTERFARK!! There was no clear plan and some of the newer citizens just went rushing around like it was a normal raid. One even stopped to skin a worg before all the others were dead. I ended up on my back with a Worgs teeth snapping only inches from my face! It took all I had to keep it from sinking them into my neck! Needless to say, afterwards, we left rather quickly, and returned to Norwick. I have never felt so defeated before.

    On a more positive note, I did get to go hunting with Feather and Rasuil. It was my first hunt with only members of the wolves. I learned alot, makes me kinda wish I was one of them. They do seem to share a closeness that is lacking in some of the other organizations.

    But, that would make Jerrick my boss, or pack leader. I still have not made up my mind about him. Sometimes he can come across as an egotistical tyrant. And other times he seems like a hero from a legend. Which is it? Or is it both? And is that something I can live with?


  • Twentysix: Wow, does my head hurt. I was at the Graapevine lastnight with a number of people, and got real drunk. I did get to hear some real good stories, and met some new faces. By the end of the night some of those new faces were nearly naked! And when one of them left, I think her name was Caling, she was followed out by Ol'Stubs. When he came back in,, lets just say he looked a little rumpled, but in a good way! Boy, does she ever have a weird taste in men.

    I had Kabul show me a cave that has some ore in it he says. I will check it out soon. I need to find ore if I am going to learn how to make blades.

    Last thing. I went to visit Aelthes in Peltarch. The council there decided to keep him confined to the Temple of Selune. When I heard of it I naturally went to offer him my assistance. My devotion to Selune is nowhere near as great as his, but I felt a show of support might help to make his confinement more bearable. Untill we spoke, I never new he was a lycan. He does have controll of it, so it must be a blessing from The Lady. I hope they release him soon. He deserves to be with his family and friends.


  • Twenty Five: I now know what the bards mean by "his heart sang". That is how I feel today. I saw Syclya, and she told me she loved me. What more could I ask for. We still are to busy to spend much time together, but I know it will work out.

    On a sad note though, a little hin was killed today while trying to rescue Nulinus the dwarf. He gave his life for someone he barely new. His name was Bennie. They tried a ressurection, but it failed to bring him back. I believe he was happier in the afterlife. May his god keep him safe.


  • Twenty Four: The days are beginning to blur together. I practice constantly with my blades, and also my new longbow. I am getting alot better at sneakin around, and was even able to sneak up on a group of goblins that were attacking the town. I also have started using a new blade, a rapier. I really like the feel of it.

    But the nights are pretty bad. I find myself thinking of Sy almost constantly. I do not get to see her very often, and when I do it is often in passing, as we both seem to be constantly busy. But, maybe that is better. If we were together to much, we might get sick of each other, and end up seperating like so many of the couples here seem to do.

    There are some men here that have gone through a whole bunch of different women. And I am sure they all thought that it would last forever and they were the "one". That is not for me. Had Starla not died, I would never have even looked at another. I do not give myself out as a token to whoever is the newest face of the month. Only to move on to the next when boredom overtakes me.

    I have made my choice.


  • Twenty Three: I have not been in this good of a mood in a long time. Not only did I see Syclya today, but she apparently likes me as much as I like her. When I walked up to the fire at the town center, she was standing there speaking to someone. I could never tell you who it was, I had eyes only for her. She smiled when she saw me and said" Celad, Wait right here" and off she ran. Well, of course I did as I was told.

    She returned only a few minutes later with a package, and handed it to me. She said it was a present for me! When I opened it I was stunned, it was a new cloak and matching belt. And both had a slight enchantment. I know they must of cost her a lot of money. I thanked her and tried them both on. Perfect fit.

    Afterwards we went on a patrol to the hobgoblins area. This time it was me leading the hobbies into our traps. It worked so well that none of us received more than minor injuries. Again, she is my good luck charm.

    I am going to go to Pelt soon, to find a suitable gift for her. Something she is sure to love. I Wish we could have spent more time together, but we both have our duties. I will take what time I can, and pray to Selune for more.


  • Twenty two: Bad news. There was a baby killing jerk named Jay that was killed in Oscura. No that's not the bad news. The bad news is he is back. And he showed up in Norwick with a friend and killed a Legion member named Troff. He also attacked Jerrick. When I showed up, Jerrick was heading to Peltarch to find him(Jay). I went along so I would have all the facts for my report to Albry.

    We found Jay in Pelt along with Jaelle and a woman named Jack. Jack was the one who helped Jay. Jerrick was so busy threatening everyone that he would not listen to what they had to say. I do not like Jay at all, but I still wanted both sides of the story. So when Jerrick was done issuing his ultimatums (by the way, who made him king?) about them not being allowed in Norwick he left. I stayed behind. Jay was gone but I did manage to talk to Jaelle and Jack.

    There story was that Troff and someone named Gina had participated in the attack on Jay in Oscura. He was out for revenge, plain and simple. Jerrick just got in the way. In fact I do not believe it was about Troff at all that got Jerrick so upset. He even said " I don't care about them, you attacked me in Norwick". Sounds to me like Jerrick is just pissed that Jay beat him.

    When I got back to Norwick Jerrick and his wolves were trying to stir up the town about the killing. And there was Troff! Someone had been able to raise him. But it did not matter if the "bad guy" was trying to balance the scales in his eyes. Nope, king Jerrick wanted revenge!

    I told a Pelt guard named Yana the other side of the story, but it did not matter. Jerrick is gonna use the good hearts of the citizens of Norwick to get his revenge. How many are gonna get killed for him. Because no matter what he says, this is not about Troff. This is not about the mighty druid "balance". It is not even about the logical choice to end the life of an evil, baby killing, sychopath.

    It is all about Jerricks pride.


  • Twenty One: Well,, I had an interesting night. After going on several patrols this month and helping my friend Vander go collect logs for his crafting I was invited by Benji to Jerricks house. I finally was able to officially meet feather, his new girl. She seems like a real nice person, and was very hospitable.
    I was surprised at how large and nice their home was. It was a tree house after all. I had heard of elvin tree homes before, but this was the first one I saw in person.
    While there Ras and Brendel seemed to be at odds with each other, and Jerick had to take them both upstairs like a couple of little kids. There was a bunch of yelling but it did not seem to develop into any bloodshed.
    Now we come to my big mistake for the evening. As I was heading to Jerricks I ran into Alestra. She asked where I was going and when she learned it was to Jerricks, she asked to go along. I did not see a problem with that so, like an idiot, I said yes. BIG mistake!
    Turns out that Brendel's new (girlfriend?) friend Jaelle arrived shortly after we did. I did not know that Brendel was also seeing Alestra. Boy, you could cut the tension those two caused, with a knife. I apologised later, but the damage was done.
    The next day I journeyed to Peltarch by riverboat. I had received an invitation from Elidur to watch a recital by a new bard named Sera. I thought it was great. Although if Locrian ever hears that song he is going to be very angry.
    One last thing, apperently I have been offending Eli. When I complimented her on her outfit, she asked if I liked it because it showed more skin. Well of course thats why! I said Yep,, and do you know what she said to me? That I must keep my comments to myself from now on! What the heck? I have never had an designs on her, and really always had a great deal of respect for her and her position. I don't know what triggered this but I will be sure to keep my distance from now on. It will be hard to do considering she is one of my commanders. I knew joining the militia might be a bad choice.


  • Twenty: It has been busy. I have managed to go on several more patrols with Syclya, and others of course. I am also sending in regular reports to Colonel Albry. I have even trained with Thorn.
    But, lately, I have begun to doubt myself. My thoughts constantly return to the same woman time after time. I have not had strong feelings for anyone since my wife Starla died over ten years ago. And now, I find myself looking forward to spending time with someone I trust and respect more than any other person I know.
    The problem is, I don't think she feels quite the same. I often think she looks at me more as a brother and friend than as a, dare I say it, lover. Now that I put it down in writing it troubles me more than ever. I am filled with the fear that, should she ever find out how I feel, it will create a rift in our frienship that will never be healed. And losing that would be more than I can stand.
    So, for now, I think friends we will stay. After all, I can barely keep myself alive, let alone protect the woman I love. And truthfully, what do I have to offer, I do not even have a trade or a home. Yet.


  • Nineteen: Ok,, I think I have solved my problem of going out alone,, I joined the Militia! Well at least Albry has taken me on as a recruit. I will be getting training from her and from Brendel, also from Thorn. And you want to know what the best part is? Syclya also is a new recruit! I saw her on the day I signed up with the militia. She had also just signed up and had already gone out on a couple of patrols. We decided to go on a patrol together. That is when I found out that she had died recently. It saddened me to know that a great warrior who I care for deeply was in need and I was not there. Thankfully her faith is strong and her god raised her up.
    While we were out on patrol, we were ambushed by a large group of Hobgoblins. We might not have made it if it weren't for the Ranger Danika. She came flying out of the shadows to our rescue! I thought I had seen someone following us,and I am glad I was right. But we made it back in mostly one piece. And now I have an excuse to see Syclya more often and the best part is I am gettin trained at the same time. I Made the right choice it seems.


  • Eighteen: %$#@%#%%,,,, They warn me and warn me, but do i ever listen?!?! Noooo, not me, not the mighty scout Celad. I can sneak around and not get caught! BULL!! Guess what happened? I got snuck up on by a corpsethief! He killed me quicker than you can say boo!
    So there I am in the fugue, about to walk into the big bright light, when the next thing I know I am in the temple. I am standing butt naked in front of Albryanna, with all my gear on the floor in front of us. Turns out some wandering adventurer found my body and carried it and all my gear to Norwick. He did not even take any of my gold! He left no name and no one saw him leave,,nly Albry. I asked who paid for my res, and Albry says she did.
    I now owe two thousand gold to two beautiful women. I can only hope my dumb butt stay's alive long enough to pay em back. No more wandering alone,, EVER.


  • Seventeen: I spoke with Master Z today. He said I would have to go on a few trips to prove myself to him before he would take me on as an apprentice. I must show him that I can follow orders and work as a team. Also i must demostrate skill with my weapons and with tactics. I do have to get some extra gold, because he wants me to bring some healing potions so he doesn't have to worry about me. So tomorrow I go hunting. I hope I am makin the right choice.


  • Sixteen: Norwick was attacked today. Apparently there is a mage named Izekial, who has a vendetta against Norwick. First he tried a weird creature that looked like a beholder, it's name was Gamblor. It made a bet with a Dwarf named Stubbs. Why do thes people play these foolish games with the bad guy's? It never turns out well for them.
    This was no exception. Both Stubs and another guy fell for a succubus and ended up under it's control,, they tried to kill Belia. I couldn't stop it so I ran for help. When I got back Belia was down and Ferdinand was killing the succubus .
    But then we were attacked by Giant spiders. Now these I can kill!! (Did I mention I HATE spiders?) By now the guards had showed up and we managed to win the battle. Thats when Izekial shows up and admits to bringing the Gamblor here. He seemed a little put out that it was gone. Then he left.
    I talked to Belia for a while after her wounds were tended to. I found it strange how she seemed to be the primary target. I believe it was this Izekial who was really in control all along. Belia did say she had laughed at him once and called him a child, so maybe he wants to prove her wrong? Any way, later he came back and tried a more direct approach. This time Ronan was there and was able to defeat him several times, each time the coward would run off. So Izekial then sent spiders again!! This time I was so close to death I thought I could see a white light. I remember thinkin, darn I'll never see Syclya again. What a strange thought to have then,, I must have got hit on the head. There was more but it all is kinda fuzzy,, I think I'll go get some rest. My head really hurts.


  • Fifteen: I spoke to Vander about smithing, since I was unable to speak to Z . He said I would need a book that I could only get in Peltarch. So off I went by myself. While there I also took a couple of basic classes in smithing and in tanning.
    I am goin to need new armour soon, since I keep gettin these mysterious tears and slashes in this set. I arrived back in Norwick only to find out that Jerrick is missing. All the signs point to foul play. I expected the Druids and the local militia to be working together, but sadly that is not the case. I even heard rumors of those of Elvin descent saying the "halfbreed"got what he deserved!?! I hope I don't hear that, I might end up gettin in trouble.


  • Fourteen: Today was a good day. For the first time in months I was able to talk to Syclya. She was at the south fire when I walked up. I had seen her around town runnin errands for the apothecry, but she was always so busy I did not think she would want to be bothered. Maybe I was wrong. She realy seemed happy to see me.
    After a while we went huntin hobbies together. It's weird but of all the others that I go huntin with, I always seem to do the best with her. It helps that she is really an awesome fighter and her bein able to heal me sure does help. But I think there might be more to it than that. When we got back I treated her to dinner and some wine. I have a real low tolerance for wine and I think I got a little to drunk. I hope I didn't do anything stupid. I would not want to get her mad at me.
    Also, I talked to Alestra the other day and asked who would be good to talk to for lessons on forging small blades. I don't think I want to become a smith, however, if I know how to make 'em it should make better able to use 'em. She said I should talk to "Z". She says he can help. We will see.