3. Shadows and light - Kara's Journal.

Shadows and light - Kara's Journal.


  • Yalaira

    _Ever since the demon fortress was destroyed, I had found myself ending up increasingly aimless and without a purpose for myself. With duty done and the enemies of Narfell vanquished for a time, it seemed like I was not needed….that I was a weapon to be drawn and sheathed when people had someone they needed dead. I was growing tired and incredibly lonely with Jerrick so occupied with issues around the circle.

    I can't blame him for that, I just miss when times were easier and we weren't so rushed off our feet.

    At times, it feels like people keep me around and use me because I can fight. Not because they happen to actually want to know me. Just once, I would like someone to not mention doom and gloom. Instead, they come to me because they enjoy my company. Not for anything else...just good company.

    Morose thoughts aside, the last few days have been interesting, to say the least.

    The day before last, Jerrick and I ended up running into Taria and just ended up speaking with her. I learned something interesting ; she has abandoned her faith in Umberlee for whatever reason and saught to learn of a more benevolant goddess, Isis. An interesting choice for one who used to follow the bitch-queen...but it is one I am glad to see. Further to this, we sat and shared stories about how we came into our faith and what it meant to be faithful. We were not so different...three orphans sitting around and musing over the paths that their lives had taken.

    I've never had anything against her personally and I told her that much...her faith had always been the deciding point in whether to avoid her or not.

    She seems to be genuinely wanting to convert to something better than she had previously had. Given everything that we've seen, she deserves that chance. A chance that I am intending to give her if she'll take the help.

    That was a fairly normal tenday.

    This one has been anything except that..

    To set the scene ; I had been travelling to the Guardians compound to speak with the air ship crew that had been stranded here somewhat recently. Being able to use their craft for transportation to the Moonshae isles would be a great boon, especially if it was fixed. Somehow we would have to find room for Alfgeir, but I think we could manage. By the time I got there, the crew and the ship was preparing to leave for wherever it was headed for, so I took the offer to join the crew for a time and speak with the captain enroute.

    I thought they were going to float around Faerun with their ship..

    How wrong I was..

    I saw it. I saw Aber-Toril ; Blue crystaline like oceans surrounding the most pertinent land masses that make up our home, and then finally the globe itself.

    I can't give proper words to how beautiful it was...simply that noone will ever believe those of us who saw it all. That ship of theirs took us so far into the void that I had no idea where we were anymore...only that we had landed upon a kingdom known as Yalaira. The flora and Fauna here is not so different from Toril, though there are some minute differences.

    When we first arrived, we had run into an ore mine of sorts, where people were being worked to death by some mephits. We intervened, but could not stop the mephits from killing most of the slaves..the ones we could not save, we later buried and offered prayers for. It should be noted for posterity that it was Taria I asked to offer last rites...she was given the option and she chose to send off those poor souls with Isis's blessing invoked. When all the bodies were buried, we set the slaves free and continued on our way to the town mentioned to be south.

    It would later come to our attention that mephits had infested the entire kingdom, right to the point where one of them had assumed the mantle of 'king' over the entire realm. It was decided fairly early that we would not stand for this and so we went to the aid of the beleagured knights that had remained loyal to the displaced prince ; the Heir to the realm. Before we knew it, our help was accepted and we had been given the task of slaying the Mephit king.

    The trek itself wasn't so long....they had set up a portal in the inn that led back to their castle...the battle against the Mephit king and his minions turned out to be a nasty one though, as two of our group died to their onslaught. We did what we were asked though, we slew the mephit king, the one holding the portal open and scattered the remaining mephit forces into the hills and forests.

    For our assistance and herosim, we were made honourary members and knights of the Knightly Order that had survived in Yalaira, the Order of Radiance. While people were content to leave after that...I simply could not. The wealth of information contained in this strange culture was just too much for me to pass over on. In light of that, I decided to stay and help Prince Teran rebuild his kingdom.

    It will not be indefinately, but it will give me a chance to study this unusual place and give me a purpose for the time being past all the killing that has taken place in Narfell recently. Being free of any kind of demonic taint for a while is most welcome, along with all the history of this kingdom.

    I just hope Jerrick stays safe...I am really going to miss him.

    Part of me is still having trouble comprehending the fact that I am no longer on Toril. This should be interesting none the less._


  • The Eye of the Storm

    _We did it.

    We took the battle to the enemy and struck them down in their holes. The battle was fought with such ferocity that over half of our group that set out with us were either slain outright or had to cover our flanks as we advanced…Less than a dozen of us survived to walk away from the battle...

    We left with about roughly two dozen.

    We knew it would be tough before we left. That there would be fallen we would have to leave behind while we continued to fight on..

    So many dead though. Eleven bodies were carried out in total when the last demon had fallen and the plane tore itself apart, taking the fortress, the demons and quite possibly Silus with it. When I consider all the death, all that we had to give in order to see them destroyed. Was it worth it?

    The only answer I can give is a simple one.

    Yes.

    I wentb ack out there when I could finally muster the energy to walk again and the forest now seems so quiet, so peaceful....not a corrupted goblin, Minotaur or demon to be seen anywhere in the east. I didn't head further in though so it's unknown if there are still forces of the demon prince out there. I have no doubt there will still be stragglers, but I also have no doubt that we shall hunt them all down and destroy them forever.

    Whatever Demons still remain on this plane are now trapped here and that is something I relish, that they will have to know the fear and pain of being endlessly hunted. That they will actually die when they are slain.

    This day and the next belong to everyone who stood with us. Everyone that we stood for, Everyone that could not join us. Everyone that wanted the demons purged.

    Quite simply, this day is one I think we shall all remember as the day that the Nars stood together against forces beyond it's ken and won one of the coming battles. There will be more, of that I have no doubt.

    For just this day though, the sun is shining._


  • The Coming Storm

    "Echoes of tragedy carved on my steel
    in this neverending fight against the beast
    soldiers of twilight turn back to the Abyss
    burn in your fire or glory for me will be your end"

    _The time is drawing near when we will be standing up and marching out to meet the Enemy in their holes and I am starting to grow restless. I am not sure whether it is the feeling of uncertainty regarding the outcome or whether I'll be alive at the end to see what happens. The threat posed by these demons is after all, very very real.

    All I know is that we have to succeed if we ever want to reclaim the forest before they get anymore of an iron grip. Everyone knows that it needs to be done…they know there is a battle that we may all not survive coming.

    Right now, only routine and discipline are keeping me together. Routine for distracting me and discipline that's keeping me from fleeing as fast and as hard as I can. The consequences for failure here are ones that terrify me.

    Yet, despite all this possible doom and gloom, we have a chance and a real possibility that we might succeed. The yuan'ti said they would be there when the time came...We weren't given much of a choice in the matter. It was a statement of fact from that woman. I was surprised to see even one of their kind still about in this land so openly.

    So here we'll stand.

    Right at the epicenter, reaching into the storm.

    And we will see what shall be._


  • Pandemonium

    Pandemonium, such an apt name for the last few days.

    The next adventure regarding Hedia's artifact took place the other day there, one that led us deep into the lost city, to be surrounded by fiendish undead, demons and drow. I lost count of how many drow we had to face before we finally figured out that going through the caves was generally a bad idea.

    At one point, we had been trapped by some drow handmaiden and her entourage. We cut our way through the drow but there was no sign of that handmaiden….I'll find her and take her head. This I swear.

    On the way back, we were approached by a talking lion after we had been trapped by a seer. It asked that in exchange for being set free, one of us had to promise to journey to Pandemonium and free an innocent about to be sacrificed.

    I swore to go and help...noone should be trapped in that pit.

    I just don't know if others will be permitted along...hopefully they will.

    We'll see when the time comes.


  • Returning

    _It is always a long and trying journey to return from the heartlands, if only for the fact that it is so much warmer there than it is here. It is rarely covered in snow, or so bitterly wind-swept as Narfell is. Frankly, the reasons for returning grow shorter every time

    I was hoping that when I returned, there would have been at least a little progess in trying to rid the demons from the forest. Something…Anything.

    Instead, I returned to find that nothing had been done so far...not a thing. Are people that afraid that they won't act when they know they should? Are they waiting for someone to open the door before they step through? I honestly don't know anymore.

    So few people are left that can be relied on when push comes to shove and we do attempt to storm that fortress that the enemy has established. So few people left that are willing to stand up at the front and lead everyone into fire and darkness. I'm trying but I'm frankly not having much success in bringing everyone together.

    Ael's idea to just get a capable group together and go is a good one. Blunt and to the point, rather than letting people deliberate over what needs to be done, it is just done.

    I just don't know if anyone will survive it.

    Despite that, I'm glad to finally be back in his warm embrace...it certainly beats sleeping rough on the stoney ground. When I think of him, my thoughts are always lighter and for just a moment, I'm without worry, or care. I shudder to think of the day when he's not there.

    My concerns can wait for a little while, for now, I just want to relax._


  • Duty

    _That burning sensation in my arms..

    This is the first lull in fighting that we've gotten in the last day and a half and I'm ready to just collapse…I'm still not sure what's keeping us all going besides an obscene belief in the duty we are doing.

    Vampire scum everywhere in this accursed forest.

    We'll be moving again shortly, this place isn't a safe camp spot.

    Gods, I miss him...and a warm bed that isn't the stony ground._


  • The Enemy

    _Their infestation has spread beyond the Rawlins and into the Pass now. I don't remember the details terribly clearly, one moment we were trudging through the pass and came across a corrupted hobgoblin or two. Puzzled, we continued into their cave where we were ambushed by elements of the three hundreth and sixty-eighth abyssal legion under the prince of undeath.

    What I do remember is almost cutting Ronan down as magic flew. He looked like an incubus at the time…what was I supposed to do? I've suffered their presence in my dreams before, I was not going to allow it again..

    I think we made our way out at that point, having finally taken the head of a larger vrock. It is amazing how cowardly they are when they are affected by mortality.

    We were ambushed twice on the way, which I only remember in a daze. My vision was far too busy spinning to be able to focus on anything except getting away to recover.

    What does trouble me is the expanding influence they have. They've spread from the Rawlins and presumably taken over the lower bowels of the hobgoblin cave. That they did this is not surprising...that they were able to claim the cave without anyone noticing is. It led us to suspect that they may have created a magical link back to their fortress from within the hobgoblin caves.

    It also removes any doubt that we have to exterminate this new threat as soon as possible, and take the head of 'Haxan' , the name that Zyph murmured about before we commited to a running battle outside of the hobgoblin caves.

    We're so outnumbered, it is unbelievable._


  • Thoughts

    _I haven't much to add this day, unfortunatly. Life has been rather quiet after the trip with the five into the Cold caves.

    It's funny, I never thought we'd see such quiet times, but it does seem that the land had other ideas. With the little lady's minions only encroaching some nights, it seems like that is the onl thing happening any more. I haven't seen a major issue that isn't being dealt with in some time.

    I'm almost finding myself at a loss for things to do when there is noone else around.

    There is one constant in my life right now and that is Jerrick. I'm not sure how it originally happened, but I am eternally grateful to Tymora for bringing me the luck to meet such a wonderful man. Let us just hope that luck extends to him staying around this time…I'm growing incredibly tired with those dear to me disappearing.

    That reminds me though, I think I may go and visit the city library. Time to catch up on some reading._


  • The Suicidal Five.

    _So a Dinosaur, a Druid, a Paladin, a Pretty boy and something pink walk into a cave…

    Innocent beginning you would think, no?

    'The suicidal five'

    That is what we called the group of five companions that went down into the cold caves for a simple wander. Before we had even gotten into the caverns, we were facing heavy resistance with one of the most rag-tag groups I have ever seen.

    We made it though. We fought our way through Ogre. Gnoll headhunters, pools of Ooze that tried to eat Ael, culminating in one large final battle between nearly fifty ogres and our little group of five.

    Most worrying was the ooze that we found. It wa surmised to be the same ooze that had been an experiment with the old nars that had been stored away in various lost labs throughout Narfell. It appears quite viscous and aggressive, having reached out to try and envelop Ael and Jerrick on at least two separate occasions.

    It is interesting to note that water appears to have a diluting effect on the slimes themselves, and that live material, such as flesh appears to dissolve on contact with the undiluted liquid. Most concerning is that it expands as it envelops and melts material.

    Jerrick knows what he's doing regarding the ooze though, so I'll leave it to him, though I plan to offer him as much support as I can manage.

    Still. What a day._


  • Burdens

    _As I flick back through this journal and read through the various pages that I've written in the past, I realise just how much has been left unsaid, unrecorded. It would be a full time vocation to record every individual piece of trouble that happens in Narfell. It is a full time vocation to care about what happens to the people of this land as well, one that I do not think I will ever be free of. For people such as the Order, the only release from duty is that of the final death.

    I see it in their eyes sometimes, Hear it in their voices. Growing tired of helping others when all people do in return is insult and berate you.

    So am I. Oh so tired.

    In other news, so much has happened since my last journal entry, both wonderful and heinous. I'll start with the heinous, as it's always better to get the bad news out the way first, rather than let someone worry and linger on what 'could' be the bad news.

    Anyway, the demon threat in the Rawlins is getting worse and we are not really that much closer to a solution than we were some tendays ago. I did send word to Grag though and asked that he take over with the leading of the group that is to be assembled. People follow him without question and actually listen to what he has to say, which makes him the best choice for a leader in this case.

    The shield will still be helping. We have information to share with everyone on a whole and a large group to assemble in the mean time. When the time comes, I will still be on the front, protecting others. I just don't want the burden of keeping so many people safe. Not again.

    The past should remain that way.

    Working it this way also frees us up to work on group tactics, and just how we are going to siege this fortress that the demons have erected.

    To make matters worse, a knight in red and black armour has begun harrasing Norwick and it's people, as well as having slaughtered an entire inn and got Elyl (somehow) into an agreement where he tainted his own honour. He is now branded as a result, one that will not be removed easily, or I suspect, without bloodshed.

    For the last two days, I have been holding vigil by his side, here in Oscura. He was brought down here because Dagon is probably the most knowledgeable on brands, possesions and exorcisms in Narfell at the moment.

    At the moment, any kind of healing magic causes him excruciating pain, so all we can do is treat with bandages and hope that his wounds do not grow infected. That demon is going to pay in pools of it's own blood for lashing out at one of ours.

    I'll add some more when I'm not exhausted._


  • Home

    _First time home in quite a few years now, I am glad to see that the old keep is still standing firm after all this time. Lucien was a good choice to leave in charge of the place after all. Even if he still has problems wrapping his head around the notion that I stopped aging some time ago. So instead, I settle for merely smiling whenever he asks.

    As for the journey, it was as to be expected on Midwinter, quiet and cold.

    I needed the break from Narfell to be honest….while it is a land with more questions than answers, I do grow tired of it at times. Occasionally that annoyance grows enough to return home for a while and muse over what could have been, had I not mustered out of the Purple dragons originally. I do miss the Order and the dragons from time to time, as it was the finest point of my long life.

    Still...Narfell isn't without it's lures. I had been spending quite a fair bit of time with Jerrick recently and I regret none of it. I'm not rightly sure what it is about him that keeps drawing me, only that that smile of his is infectious.

    In the mean time, I am hoping that we can finally finish dealing with the heart of winter. Alot of people had begun to ask after the relic and I will feel alot more at ease when it is finally returned to it's rightful owners, if only so we don't have to continually dance around the point of whether we have the sword or not.

    With that, it's time to go visit the stables for a while, as it has been far too long since I have rode anywhere._


  • Reckoning

    _The time is at hand to call Nephilim, the son of gods. We have gathered all the pieces, continued to soldier on through the hardship provided by the little lady and the insanity following our curse. None of us are sure what to expect by combining the armour all on one person..

    I was chosen to wear it all, being the one who was picked as scion. The magic surrounding these artifacts was palpable as they were joined together once more. There were five in total ; Bracers, Greaves, Amulet, Cloak and Belt. Once combined…they began to shimmer with magic until a glow completely surrounded them. After a few very long moments, the items and the glow shifted to a pattern forming infront of me.

    A few moments later and a a man commanding real authority stood before us. Our task was complete and we had managed to call Nephilim back from the hellish nightmare he had been trapped in, and in the process, trapping ourselves in limbo while the soon-to-be confrontation began.

    He was not pleased to have been called initially, and demanded to know which of us was the scion.

    His intent was to slay the scion and end the cycle which he had started, oh so long ago. Nothing could have prepared us for the confrontation.

    It was all a blur.

    As soon as he began calling upon his power, we all did the same and then he dove forward, cutting a bloody swath through four of us before we knew what had happened. All I remember is dropping to the floor and losing consciousness while the fight still raged.

    Son of Gods indeed. Given the chance, I would have liked to of trained with him to learn at least a little of his ability. He was awe-inspiring that day.

    When I woke...the others were half sprawled out over the couches in the gathering chamber, just as dazed as I was from the confrontation. Laying not far from my foot was also a pile of equipment, where Nephilim had stood and fought, and subsequently been defeated in a trial by combat.

    Whether or not we realised it, we had freed him and ourselves. Nephilim himself confirmed this when he returned to us as a hound archon. He had been freed of his madness and the curse had been lifted. He could finally know rest at his god's side.

    There is more to be done...though just for today, we can rest easy._


  • Mistaken Identity

    _I…I almost killed an innocent man today..

    Eluriel, Meril and myself were standing just outside their glade, speaking about how the hallucenations were getting worse when two ...things approached us and uttered some inane babble that we made out to be 'get on the ground and get undressed'..

    Needless to say, we didn't take too well to two 'demons'...so we attacked them...the foremost one fell within a sword swing...too weak to be a demon. After a very sharp throbbing pain in our heads...we saw the truth. It wasn't a demon at all! it was a man...that I had almost killed for absolutely nothing

    These visions are getting worse...it's all coming true. Are we going insane?

    Not a day before...Eluriel had seen a zombie, she naturally shot it. When we approached to look over the single zombie...we all saw a man, with a Eluriel's feathered arrow sticking from his back. Had she just killed an innocent..? Mecizq later confirmed that it was infact a zombie and that we had just been hallucenating..

    Gods above though, these visions are getting worse. Who will be next? a friend? a loved one?

    This has to end._


  • Moruss

    _We're starting to fall in droves now….one here, two there. Each visit from the little lady sees more and more death, with our options shrinking with each fight. The worst battle had to be outside the shrine of Kelemvor, where she brought out her forces enmass because we hadn't gotten on holy ground fast enough.

    It was the worst battle that we have seen yet, with both Natanya, two paladins from the shrine and myself falling in battle to those dreaded Bodaks....Gods above, I hate those things...their screech is horrible. One moment of weakness brought on another...I should never have taken that offer. They all knew what had happened..roland very nearly removed me from the order for it, although cool heads prevailed. That I am shamed with the reminder of my actions is enough in his eyes, I would wager.

    It is too late to let it get to me now. We have our tasks to get to, gates to prepare to enter. It is all we can do.

    A little bit of hope though...we have learned of an ancient trial by combat that would allow us to challenge the little lady and her champions....if we won, she would be banished on a permenant basis.

    I just hope we can manage to call it._


  • The little lady of infernus

    _I recall our first meeting outside jiyyd so long ago and I stood defiantly infront of her, refusing to play her games….to deal with that I had promised and sworn to destroy without question. Yet...

    She was different.

    She wasn't just undead...she was emotion...she was hatred, fear and rage. They all fed her and increased her power. Every time someone struck her, whether it was in hatred or a sense of righteousness. She picked her target well, there is nothing Kelemvor hates more than the walking dead and by proxy, me.

    She had been harrasing us for quite some time now...on and off until we came to the gates to the abyss..or the halls as we called them. We became less of a nuisance and more of a credible threat to her. Up until now, she had merely send some undead...enough to be stopped in short order without any kind of group..

    Then the running battles started.

    Waves upon waves of undead marked with dark energy. When the first attack upon jiyyd came, wild magic from the stolen orb was still a major issue. Casting spells at all was a severe problem. The attack upon a settlement marked her starting a 'serious' resistance to hamper our efforts to destroy her. Apparently she knew of Syne and the bonding in the halls...how I do not know, just that she knows.

    So now we struggle each night to prevent attack after attack on our own selves and settlements themselves.....it has gotten to the point where we are separating ourselves from the region at large come nightfall and hiding in hallowed grounds. It does NOT feel right, but it is the only option we have. By day, we try and warn people of what they face and the dangers of taking her as harmless.

    A way to defeat her was discovered though...positive energy disrupts her presence on this plane and stems the assault each night. It is rare we see her twice in one night after her 'body' has been destroyed.

    At the same time we endure her attacks, the halluncenations and violent emotion changes keep becoming more frequent...at least twice now, I've been murderously angry at absolutely nothing...I think a cup fell and shattered...I felt so much rage.

    We are truely in the dark here, with no guide._


  • Enduring

    _As we learn more about the prediciment we're in…the more I am certain that we have made a rash mistake in opening and passing through the gates. Every night this tenday, I have been waking up sobbing at the nightmares that come to me.

    The first one showed the south of narfell entirely aflame, fallen and butchered by the enslaught of demons that had preceeded the warnings we had been given. The City, once a mighty bastion of civilization and hope was now a shadow of what it was...

    ...yet it still stood.

    I saw the order all die, one after the other to the advancing demon horde. All through the eyes of her....

    ..when I finally woke, the sheets were soaked with sweat.

    I feel so dirty. So violated.

    And there is nothing I can do except bare it._

    (this entry appears to have been written and rewritten several times, with blotchy smudging on some of the page that suggests the ink was still a bit wet when it was written)


  • The following pages are full of designs for different suits of armour and forged blades

    Although there is a clear lack of skill, the drawings are at least legible and make sense.

    Following that is a small entry.

    _Creation and design always makes me feel calm for some odd reason. I don't know why, but it is how these suits of armour were conceived. I wish I knew where Aelthas was because at this very moment..

    With all the order under pressure from the shadow of the halls…there is noone I can talk with. Natanya is probably the only one I can sit down and just speak of worry with because she understands.

    She is more or less the sister I never had._


  • Oaths

    Is it true what they say,
    Are we too blind to find a way?
    Fear of the unknown cloud our hearts today.
    Come into my world,
    See through my eyes.
    Try to understand,
    Don't want to lose what we have

    I spoke with Daisy shortly after bringing the others back from the bathhouse and the halls of pride….she explained a little of our plight and well...I did not enjoy the news.

    She asked that I swear never to use the power over the order that I had and I agreed. I would never wish to use it in the first place...these are the people I care the most for...regardless of what may happen between us.

    None of them know that I met Syne and Maya in that final room. At least...I believe they don't know...they looked too zombified at the time to even register anything. We spoke for a time, Syne and myself and he was surprised that Roland or Natanya wasn't the one before him. Was it all a trick? I watched them all die...I...I even killed Roland. That he asked is besides the point.

    I've killed someone that I swore an oath to protect, because he asked...because none of us wished to choose who would die in that accursed place.

    Worst still.

    His voice reaches me even in the sanctuary of Tyr. He wished to talk....I should have said no, but I could not help the feeling that speaking with him and dismissing his heretic ideas would give me at least a few marks peace. Noone could see him. Not even daisy could and she was standing infront of him!

    What trickery is this?!

    Nonetheless, there is a certain irony that he was the first to speak plainly of our situation in many days now. He did explain that 'his knights' were going on to do glorious deeds with him....I am not his knight and I never will be.

    Yet, I cannot escape it...at every turn, his servants are there just at the corner of your eye....yet never fully there. I feel their presence more and more now. They would offer comfort where the order gives none...though I would have none of it.

    Gods help us all...I do not know if there is a way out of this..


  • Solitude

    For the first time in years…I cried myself to sleep last night. The realisation of what has been done to us has finally dawned and the weight that I now carry is mine alone. Were the halls meant to merely strip weak emotions such as sacrifice? Shannon was the first...he would have died to save any of us.

    I feel more alone now than ever before.

    My dreams are plagued by visions of a supposed future and I am hounded by devils who want to 'protect' the scion. Why?

    I cannot tell the others...yet...I think they all know the damage it is doing to us. They couldn't understand. They were not the ones who soul bound their own friends and loved ones to themselves. They weren't the ones who had to endure giving them orders because they were bound to a single will.

    I don't want this...but at the same time, there is no going back.

    I feel so alone.


  • Gathering shadow

    Something is amiss in the temple…everyone can see that, feel that..An air of ice fills the lower levels ; no longer providing the serene comfort it once did to us in our time away from the halls and all of this madness...

    I worry for the others along with myself....I..am already starting to see things...my emotions running unpredicably wild. Just today...I broke down into a fit of tears.

    ...

    It has been years since I have weeped...it is NOT my doing.

    I'll endure this...Stay strong for the others because we must. Too many innocents city in this city to slip. I've kept myself relatively sane so far...how? Syne appears, we talk and I dismiss his ideas out of hand...that is what I'm bound to do. He can't be right...Can he..?

    I have to stay strong for them.