3. Maya's Second Journal

Maya's Second Journal


  • Entry 46 – Teacher

    Just make quick entry, before do chore.

    Nicahh show me place for training in Sisterhood. Place is so big, that easy get lost, and place for training was hid. Is right next to (The remaining is inked out)

    Nicahh say can go there, if need break something. Somehow make me feel like child who throw tantrum, but is more than this, and is much hard explain. I try not feel too guilty about.

    Keira come find us too. I hear her come, and she seem surprise, until I say hear creaky door she open. She say will teach me control this, and to use right. I notice that I have never seen Keira angry so agree. I see empty heart of hers try become full, and maybe sound silly, but think maybe help by listen and be student.

    First thing she say is when begin get angry, think of prayer of Tempus or something can do easily like song, help take mind off and relax. I tell her of ballad I know, I teach to Norwick children many year ago. It take quarter hour sing whole song, and so many verse is easy forget some.

    I hope work, because otherwise look funny kill someone while singing.

    _Maya sprinkles the sand on the page, then blows it off. A smile tugs at the corner of her mouth as she looks at the last sentence. Finally she starts laughing, as the journal is put back into her pack.

    Dressed in simple skins, Maya goes around to the side of the Sisterhood, and grabs the wood axe out of the stump. This day is particularly warm for Spring, so she leans back, and ties the braids and hair behind her with a leather cord. This simple act makes her pause for a moment, and reflect on the much simpler life she had so long ago, and how things have changed after what feels like an eternity of seasons past. For a long moment she rests the axe on the ground, closes her eyes, and lets the gentle breeze caress her skin.

    Yes, it’s the simple things that are worth fighting for.

    Soon the rhythm of chopping wood echoes throughout the grounds of the Sisterhood, and not so distantly to the gates of Jiyyd._


  • _Maya sat by the stream, relatively unclothed. Her armor and clothing lay drying in the sun, perched on various rocks. Her hair was still wet, but it too lay drying in the sun, hanging in sheaves down her back. Her braids were undone, the feathers and leather ties laid out neatly. The cold water had taken out most of the blood. What hadn’t come out with simple rinsing a little soap and scrubbing had finished.

    A large turtle also lay upon the rocks, just out of arms reach. It eyed Maya curiously, sticking its neck out from the shell. Maya playfully poked its nose with her toe, and she was rewarded by a sharp bite. Maya cried out in surprise and laughed as she shook the turtle free, and stared momentarily at her bleeding toe, the blood dripping in the water._

    Entry 45 – Anger

    Some days, I find very hard for control anger. Sometime, anger control me, and is like nothing matter. Love, hope, dream all gone. Just white in front of eyes, and then red of blood of people I kill.

    Ginger make me angry. Honor forbid I challenge, and honor forbid I take what think should belong to me. I remember get so angry, and can do nothing about, that I take out on furniture. Is better than friend, though today I take out on hobgoblin.

    …and I am ashame.

    It begin I spend whole day shopping in Peltarch. I find little tiny dress for Yana doll, and was so happy! Was candy on stick, and nuts cook in sugar, and is good for celebrate Yana birthday, which soon. Spend whole day shopping make tired. Not know why but do, so I sit down in commons for rest and drink.

    Then see Zyphlin. I think of Zyphlin as last friend left from old times. Times of be Black Dragon, times of teacher A’Lan, times of Kanen, and times of Adam. I pat ground for him sit beside. Would very much like talk about old times, have few laugh, and joke with cute friend. He have business though with Cerulean Knight, and say be right back.

    So I wait. I wait some more.

    Then he finally come back, and is crowd of people now. Sywyn look for Zyphlin. Think Keira maybe too. But I pat ground again. Zyphlin just sigh and look at me, and say have business, and is sorry.

    I remember start get angry. I was think he maybe should make time for friend, but is selfish of me. But not matter. Am angry now, and all can think about is maybe bash everyone head together, then Zyphlin no longer have business. I remember say something rude, and get up and walk away.

    Path to gypsy camp is bloody one. I look for fight. I kill all hobgoblin who look at funny. Am tired of them be on road, and is more like murder than combat of honor. By time get to gypsy camp, am cover in blood, and have something stuck to boot that probably part of inside of hobgoblin.

    Some day, someone will make angry, and I will pull out axe before can walk away.

    …and Tempus will help me kill them.


  • Maya sits on the bed in her room in the Sisterhood. Her face is puffy from crying, her eyes frown in distress. Clutching a pillow to her chest, she stares out the open window onto the road, and watches the travelers go in and out of Jiyyd. An old wedding ring, untarnished with time twirls idly in strong fingers. With a sigh she reaches down and rummages through her pack, pulling out her journal.

    Entry 44 – Adam’s Cloak

    I not know what to write about this. It start off as good day. I go in cold caves with Sisters and William, and was great adventure. I even get potion I really need. Then later, we all have fun with spar in Jiyyd Inn in basement. Was Gears, Ael, Nicahh, and me. I hold back, try not get angry and hit anyone too hard, so we all have fun. Nicahh is very quick and learn from Keira, and I leave happy know she say will teach. Is great honor, know such fine people and great warrior.

    Then Zyphlin come, and give wonderful news! Say that when evil men rob tomb, Sharn kill one of evil men and put Adam cloak in treasure…and they find! I am very excite, and Zyphlin say Ginger have, and is standing behind. I turn and am delight, and see Ginger step forward and offer cloak. I look in Ginger eye, and see is not happy though.

    Ginger do brave thing. She go with group and face many giant of cold, and then help kill Sharn. From what hear, all people there take treasure. Ginger take cloak, not know made by Adam, and stole from me long ago. So here I am, take what mine, but what Ginger earn.

    So I give back.

    Krig offer make trade with Ginger for cloak. Krig offer new cloak for replace. Ginger do, but I see is still not happy.

    For awhile I hold Adam cloak in hand. I pull back flap in seam, and see name stitch there. I remember put to face and cry hard, because miss him so much. I hug Krig much, and say how much he mean to me.

    But I still not earn. Ginger earn this. I did not. So I give Adam cloak back to Ginger, and Krig cloak back to Krig.

    When I was return, Tempus make me earn all things again. I fight duel to death for. Should I duel Ginger? What do I do?

    What does Ginger know of Adam? Ginger know of Adam laugh? Does Ginger know of Adam story? Does Ginger know of Adam gentle touch?

    Is wrong!

    Here, the writing begins to get sloppy. The pen is pressed forcibly, the page beginning to tear.

    Ginger earn this, but how is right? Is not hers for earn! Was stolen from me! It was belong Adam! My husband! How can be right for….

    _The writing turns into a squiggled line across the page as Maya’s hands begin to shake. The belt of Tempus pulses, the symbol of the FoeHammer shining brightly. Maya tries desperately to control the pen, but has her hand shakes, she instead tosses it across the room angrily.

    “Nooo”, Maya whispers angrily, shaking her head to quell it, even as the first tear of blood cascades down her cheek.

    With great agitation Maya paces the room, breathing quickly to calm herself, but it is of no use. The anger which fueled her return, which enabled her survival breaks forth, the wall of resolve broken. In moments, Maya’s already prodigious strength triples.

    The silence of the Sisterhood is shattered by a piercing cry. Maya’s hand hits the door and goes through it, pieces of wood skittering and spraying down the hall.

    A few rooms down, Nicahh suddenly bolts upright. Ael startles out of sleep and spins, whacking his arm on the bedpost. Both stumble madly out of the room with weapons drawn, heading to the sounds of splintered wood.

    When they finally reach Maya’s room, she is kneeling on the floor. The door hangs by one hinge. The table in the room has been broken in the center, and all that remains of the nightstand are scattered pieces. Face and clothing streaked with blood, she looks up at the two.

    “I’m sorry”, she mutters weakly._


  • _Catapults from behind Norwick’s walls loosed volleys at the attacking positions. Bugbears with long range throwing darts rained them down onto the attackers when the opportunity presented. Large battle axe wielding bugbears guarded them.

    Along with others, Maya nocked arrows and let them fly at the defending bugbears on the ridge. The bow was a well made target bow, but not up to the draw strength of the composite longbow Adam had left her. The arrows penetrated well enough, but not enough to quickly kill. More often than not, the bugbear only went down after sporting more than half a dozen feathers.

    In frustration Maya dropped the bow, and ran forward with shield and throwing axe. Several of the darts impacted her shield, the remaining skipped harmlessly off her Damaran made armor. With a cry of effort, Maya threw the axe upward, and it spiraled, finally embedding itself into a bugbear’s shoulder. Shrieking in pain, the bugbear fell out of sight.

    Holding her shield high to protect her head, Maya backpedaled out of range as the archers behind her finished off the last remaining bugbears.

    Standing with anticipation, great axe on his shoulder, Grag looked over at Maya with concern, “Where’s Dwin?”

    “I not know”, Maya sighed, “….and not know where Grax is either”

    “Grax’s already dun ‘is part”, Grag consoled her.

    Maya simply nodded. Grax had accompanied the group to slay Sharn, and he and five of his friends had helped attack the orcs, hopefully drawing defenses away from Norwick.

    Suddenly the conversation was interrupted by the distant sounds of combat. People looked at each other curiously, until Grag responded.

    “That’d be the dwarves I bet. C’Mon, let’s go”

    The group advanced to the cliff face. Maya was startled at the cry of a familiar voice on the ridge. She looked up and saw the dancing blades of a powerful spell, but had no time to concern herself with it.

    The group moved along the cliff face and past the rock barrier the bugbears had erected. With she and Grag up front, Maya looked around at the group that gathered in around them.

    “Everyone ready?”, Grag asked looking behind him. Amidst a few responses, most everyone just nodded grimly. Then with a throaty battle cry Grag rushed forward, Maya close behind.

    Tempus was watching._

    Entry 33 – Norwick

    We re-take Norwick yesterday, and drive bugbear back to forest. Was victory, and am happy we win, but somehow victory feel empty.

    Many home is shatter and burn. People who not escape Norwick on stake as warning. But Bugbear not defend with heart, and battle much easier than expect.

    Even so, some people fall. Few on ridge fall to bugbears with darts. William fall to bugbear with axe before I can reach. Person who fall to spell of many blades was Ael, Nicahh’s love. Ael and William were return to us, but some other not.

    Is much ruin here. Will take long time for rebuild. I have no gold for help because use on healing drink, but still have strong back for move log and stone. So I stay for now, and help.

    I will consider more Dwin offer for protect town too. I not want see Norwick suffer like this again.

    Have just finish take Ael back to see Nicahh. Nicahh grab and hug him with tear in eye, but can see Ael is confuse, even though happy. Return from fall in combat is like this. I know.

    Yana have very soft life now in Sisterhood, and in camp. I think in few days will bring to Norwick after all body removed, and is safe, for help rebuild town. She must learn reward of hard work and help other.


  • _In a sunlit patch of ground between the trees, Maya sat with little Yana. Both are festooned with flowers. There are flower wreaths, flower bracelets, crowns of flowers, and little bowls made from stems

    Maya sat in a simple deerskin shift, her armor put aside for the time being. The only thing linking her to a life of battle is an old, hardened leather belt, worn by time, it’s buckle displaying the FoeHammer’s symbol.

    Though the air is still, it is alive with the season’s first insects, many of which flit from flower to flower. Yana shooed one away, then giggled when a iridescent dragonfly landed on Maya’s hair. Maya gently reached up to touch it, but it flitted away.

    After a prolonged silence, Yana looked up. “Maya, why do you fight?”,

    “So I can do this with you”, Maya replied in her thick accent

    Yana looked puzzled for a moment. “You fight so you can make flower bracelets?”

    Maya put down the flowers, and looked long at Yana. The little toddler body was just beginning to stretch. Her hair was longer, her body leaner. Her speech had improved dramatically, but Maya could hardly tell.

    “No”, Maya laughed and replied, “Though some. I fight to defend things I have. I fight for defend life I want. I fight so friends and little Yana can do same. Tempus is about many thing, and many not understand. Only see Tempus for war. Tempus is about fight for what want. He teach if worth have, is worth defend. People who talk about what want, and not willing fight for, have no worth in eyes of Tempus”

    “Tempus also teach respect for foe”, Maya continued. “Is why I pray for Orc too that I slay, that spirit find place with him. They willing fight for rule land, like any plant, or tree or ant in forest. I know many friend say are evil scum, but I think no more evil than vine take over tree, ant who fight other ant, or tree who kind take over forest. War is way of life. Always be that way.”

    “Maya?”, Yana asked hesitantly, “Will I have to fight some day?”

    “Yes”, Maya replied, a serious tone in, “Someday will have to. Is why I teach you fight, so live and maybe someday, sit in forest and do nice thing with friend too”_

    Entry 32 – Flowers

    Today I spend day with Yana. We do nothing important, just play with flowers, chase bugs, and eat too many sweet things. We do nothing have to be done by sunset. Even though Tempus asleep, was great day.


  • _The warm southern wind blows over the archery tower, where Maya stands observing the Orc lands to the south. The feathers in her hair rustle gently on her cloak, which flaps lazily behind her. With deliberate care Maya kneels, arches her back, and opens her arms wide as she raises her head skyward.

    She prays to Tempus, a long solemn prayer to honor those who have fought and fallen in this battle. She prays for the souls of those who fought Sharn, and whose spirits have departed. She prays for those that have fought and returned, to regain their strength and fight again. She prays to honor her enemies, who fought and died bravely, just a few leagues to the south.

    At the end of the prayer, Maya begins to smile

    “Thank you Adam, for be my inspiration, to ask Giant of Fire come for fight. I hope you are proud of, and can see me smile now”_

    Entry 31 – Honor and Battle

    So much happen since write in journal last. Grax did see flag, and when he come to edge of Peltarch lands, I almost not recognize. When I first see, was young. Now he is fill out, little taller, and have position of honor among people. It was fun for say hello, and see again.

    He take me through ogre lands. Most ogres stay away, but some come try for fight. We shoo all away, and battle few, before reach top of mountain. There, I have great honor for meet King Thordin, king of Giant of Fire.

    King and I speak much, and I ask for help from his people. I offer tribute of best throwing axe I ever see in life. Was too small for him use, but I tell him maybe remember fine little axe from fine little woman, and he smile at that. At end of meeting he make no promise, but say will consider.

    Grax then escort me back to Peltarch lands, and I say goodbye. Whole trip was great honor, and one I remember for long time.

    Few days later, I travel with Dwin and others to Hobgoblin cave, for maybe find place get underneath Norwick. I know of place in Underdark for do this, but Dwin and me worry that many not survive trip if discover by Drow.

    We end up fighting more hobgoblin than shake stick at (is stupid saying). We reach bottom, but find no place else go. Was many lock doors cannot get at, so maybe next time bring locksmith with and search again.

    Then, day after exit cave, have big surprise! Grax and five other giant show up! I feel beside self with pride for bring word to giant, and I look up and smile at sky so Adam can see.

    Grax and giant and me discuss plans for attack. We decide on hit Orcs, maybe break morale. We think if maybe hit Orc, make take all troop from Norwick to protect fortress. If not take all troop, then we take fortress. Now Orc must worry protect fort, and maybe not so much Norwick. I also hear Grag launch Sharn head with catapult at Orc for fun.

    I wish could have gone on trip for kill Sharn. Is great honor face mighty dragon in combat. I hear that many people die though, include Peppy and sweet little Riama. Am very sad for, and I make special prayer to Tempus for keep family safe.

    Not much for say about attack on Orc. Was big mess, but very much success. We lose only two people who be brought back, and Orc and giants of cold lose 50-100. We even bring catapult for bombard fortress! I know we never get much chance to use, but is big trick. If Orc think we try, then will do best protect fortress all costs.

    We will wait time, give Orc chance pull help from Norwick. Then Dwin in charge, and we try take Norwick.

    Will need special bless from Tempus for that battle.


  • _Maya looked at the symbols on the sheet of parchment. A thin man with a moustache sporting a charismatic and confident grin watched her from the other side of the desk. Maya held it up to the lamp, and looked carefully.

    “It should be easy copy”, she nodded appreciatively. “You have thanks”

    “That will be 100 gold”, he said grinning.

    Maya’s face fell. “You not say was 100 gold before do this! I give you 10.”

    The thin man went to snatch the paper away, but Maya held it back out of reach. “Look woman…”

    “Maya”, Maya interrupted, “Name is Maya”

    “Maya. My standard fee for translation is 100 gold. Now, please pay up”

    “Is too much”, Maya said looking indignant. “Is only 2 words! I give you … 20 gold. No more”

    The thin man forced a smile, “Maya, this isn’t some barbarian town where we haggle over chickens and furs. This is Peltarch. My fee is posted right here”, he pointed.

    Maya looked up, “Is in Damaran. I cannot read Damaran. 25 gold is enough. You rob me for 25 gold as is”

    With a determined look the thin man tried to snatch the paper again, but Maya held it over her head, well out of the mans reach, and stuck out her tongue.

    “Miss, if you don’t pay me what is due I will have to call the guard. This is robbery!”

    “No, you try rob me!”, Maya retorted, plopping down a 25 glimmer coin on the counter. Take or leave!”

    Both glared at each other for a moment, before the thin man spoke up.

    “I should call the guard”, he said, narrowing his eyes

    “I should punch in face”, Maya said

    They both continued to glare, until finally the thin man snatched the coin. Maya’s expression suddenly changed to a grin.

    “Is settle!”, Maya nodded. As she turned to leave she looked back, the thin man looking back with an expression of contempt. “Not be angry”, Maya said, “You bargain good!”

    He continued to stare, speechless, as she turned the corner out into the busy street._

    Entry 30 – White Flag

    I sit here now, on border of Peltarch land. I put large pole with flag in deep hole in ground, fill with rock, dirt, more rock, and more dirt, until strong like tree. Flag now flap in wind for all for see.

    Kobold not appreciate me be here, and have to kill many before they leave alone. Kobold Shaman have words with me, and I honor by return all body and weapon. I am not at war with, and they fight brave.

    I will wait here for time. Kobold Shaman say until next time moon full, then must leave. I make bargain with, and will stick to.

    I hope Grax see this, and I hope my words with giants are true. I have honor all treaty with them, as honor must have, and hope they feel same.

    I cross fingers now, to honor Adam. Adam would like, I think.


  • Entry 29 – Lull

    Lull is new word I learn. It mean quiet time between busy, and is what happen now for me. I walk through refugee camp, and all is quiet. People are sad move from home, and I hear many travel to Peltarch and live there instead. I help protect while travel when can, and tell Hobgoblin to go back to cave and stay off road.

    Other time I play with children. Keep busy, and teach Yana way of spear, hammer and shield. I also play with much, and try help camp as much can

    While busy in camp, I hear of attack on south side of Sam Hill. I was not there for help, and miss battle, but hear was great victory. However, I still think is foolish for camp be there. If giant attack and break through, has been show in Ormpur that not worship Tempus, and attack innocent and kill. So many in danger there. Should move to tower south of Peltarch, away from war.

    I mention this to many people in camp, that I help move to other places. Most just shake head. Few call me “stupid blonde” and ignore. Is no honor in challenge not warrior, so just hold head high and walk away. They are angry for other reason. But I there, and is easy for put anger on.

    While walk north with Kresha, Rhyndar, and few mountain person for show shrine of Tempus, when we come across evil spirits, who ask for Sayla return to them. They say find person mark by light, and ask. I not understand what mean, so I ask priest at shrine of Lathander. He say too busy, and will speak later, so I wait in Peltarch while write this.

    But have hope. Kresha take words of Tempus to heart when I show. Say that next time, will pray to him, and shout name in battle. Many in battle shout name, but none change way and take words to heart. This be first person who Maya help see heart of Tempus. Will be monument in life for both I think.

    Now I have crazy idea for help win war. Is very foolish, or very smart. Is maybe both. I know when I pray, I hear Adam laugh, pat on shoulder, and say, “That’s my girl”.

    Now must go prepare. Is journey must make alone. Journey as Champion of Tempus begin there. I hope not end there too.


  • _The spirits of the dead surrounded Maya, clouding her vision. Boney hands reached for her clawing at her arms. Flailing, she turned in time to see a sword and spear. She raised her shield and the jar of the swords impact spun her about. The spear grazed her as she spun, and stumbled away, blood running down her armor. Maya backpedaled quickly, but the spirits pursued.

    Beyond the spirits was a familiar voice, reassuring yet shouting. It shouted prayers to Tempus, and a rush of energy filled Maya, even while she ran. Finally, she slammed into a cliff wall, swords and spear probing, biting, deflected. Again the prayers from Tempus. Again the rush of energy. More spears, more swords….

    …and the spirits vanished.

    Beside her stood Krig. In front of her two orcs. The screams and shouts of battle filled her. Familiar shouts of friends trying to retreat against impossible odds.

    Krig’s stout form whirled, and the impact of hammer buckled the orc’s shield, his guard dropping to defend. Maya’s axe hissed, and the orc’s head and helm were cleaved in a gout of flame and seared blood. The body dropped like a puppet with it’s strings cut, spasming on the ground.

    “Is time for go!”, Maya shouted

    “Aye lass…back to the gates!”_

    Entry 28 – Retreat

    We thought could take fight to them. We thought wrong. Many of us press south, and have good victory against orc and giant. Was many, but group act together with plan, and come out of battle with little hurt. I could feel Tempus be pleased. Was quick raid, sharp victory take them by surprise.

    Then we turn and press east. Orc was prepared. Fight start go good, but then archer use position on hill for fire down, and then suddenly am surround by evil spirit. Was very evil magic, but could do nothing about. Spirit follow everywhere.

    When magic go away, I see Krig fight beside, but was so many Orc that must retreat. I remember pass body of wizard and priest when go back to gate, and was think that maybe if not for evil magic take Maya away from protect, they still be alive.

    I must find way to protect from this. It happen before many time. Ettin Shaman do to me once, when I fight beside Rary. Will speak to good wizard about, or maybe priest.

    Orc counter attack soon after, and many, many defender fall.

    Later, while recover at camp I hear of Norwick fall too.

    Evil is winning.

    I know Tempus not care for good or evil win. Is struggle for us decide who have right for own land, and who are driven from land. Strong survive. Weak do not. Is why I make Yana learn. Is way of life and nature. Only have to watch forest long enough and see that even little ant understand this.

    But I care. Tempus expect nothing less.


  • _Maya stood and watched from a respectable distance as Pavel knelt beside Yana, explaining something to her, holding a goblin bone. On several occasions he had stood with a thick stick, his hand on the top, the bottom on the ground, while Yana kicked at its center

    Pavel never yelled, but Yana had occasionally been reduced to tears. When Yana did something wrong, Pavel did not hold back his criticism. He was harsh but fair.

    The first lesson had been difficult. Yana had failed to understand it wasn’t a game, and it took some convincing as Maya tucked her in that night that it would all be for the best. Now Yana was on her third lesson with Pavel, and Maya could see Yana’s attitude beginning to change. Her playful approach had been replaced with focus and determination.

    At first, Maya had considered asking Keira. Maya remembered though that her own father and grandfather had sent her to the arms master to learn spear craft. There are certain times that strangers make better teachers. The foundations of learning to kill someone are one of them. Maya would later build on what Pavel had taught her, as her own parents and grandfather had done, so many, many years ago in the Uthgardt tribe

    There was a sudden snap, and the stick Pavel held buckled in the center, about where a goblin’s knee would be. Yana stood there, favoring one leg for a moment, eyes delighted with success. Pavel spoke to her softly, making corrections, telling her what she did wrong or right, but never smiled.

    Killing was serious business. As it should be._

    Entry 27 – Paths

    Pavel have been give lesson to Yana. There are many who not approve see little girl learn this, but I remember was about same age, when father send me to arms master for teach spear.

    I do this for many reason. Yana need learn must fight. In head and heart, Yana still running. I see beginning of learn fight when hit Talgris over head with little toy hammer, but when I try teach, is mostly game for her.

    Fight can be game. Kill is not game. I know this. Tempus know this. Is why Pavel teach.

    Even if Yana never kill, she need to know in heart can. If become priest, or scholar, or make music, will be time in life that need to know can fight and kill. I see many in life who pause when time come, and die for it. Yana will not pause. I will see to.

    I get letter from Dwin deliver by little Hin. Dwin ask of I want join militia again. He try to gather great warrior for militia, and make strongest group in land. Am very much honor for this, but must wait until after war, then make decide. I talk to Lilin about, if can have job and be member of Sisterhood too, and she say many already do. So I give much thought to.

    Speak of Lilin. She tell me big secret. I not even write down here, in case someone read journal again.

    I not know which journey Yana take in life. I will try to teach listen to heart. She will have to learn listen to head on own, because I am not good at. But now, I help teach survive journey. Lesson is hard one.


  • Entry 26 – Brief Reunion

    I am much busy with move. All of children be move to camp, so is safe. I bring much from Sisterhood to camp and try make much as home for children. Hardest thing I do in long time was hug Yana goodbye. I promise visit when can, but see standing there with cloth doll in arm, and little wood hammer in hand when walk away, make heart break.

    I speak to man name Pavel who is fight and dance like Hugh, for teach Yana duck and use hands. I hope bring strength of heart for her. I make oath and promise favor for teach.

    I also speak to very tall man name Dentin, with metal leg. He is priest of god of make crafts. He say wizard took leg, and give metal one in place. Seem like nice person, but was very strange.

    Biggest news is when wait for battle I meet Nathen! Was so hard believe it take me moment for know is him. I forget about battle and hug so tight he squeak. Later, we go by Sisterhood, and talk about many things.

    He seem change. How I not put finger on. Is maybe have less courage face life. Now he work in Bard College in Peltarch, and say he will be busy for much time. I will make point go to Peltarch and visit.

    I ask him if still have Maya in heart, and he say yes. I have Nathen in heart but so much happen, will be different between us. I not know if will be same as once was, but will find out.

    Last thing write about was go to hall in Norwick for see end of contest, but say was cancel for war. I feel much embarrass and was ready for leave, but Cyrian there, and he say want challenge me. He want test self in fight against Maya. I ask if he want me hold back, and he say no, for do what take for win.

    Again I feel shame. I give Cyrian everything inside. I let anger come out. Strength of Tempus with me. …and I remember want to kill. I want kill man who just want test skill.

    He have good defend like merchant swordsman, but he cannot face fury of heart, and he fall. I remember pick head up by hair and raise axe, and was going to behead before I come to senses.

    He say I am good warrior, and surprise I make him fall fast, but if I cannot control self, will be danger to friend and enemy both.

    Is not warrior. Is butcher

    I will pray much to Tempus on this.


  • _Maya was almost to the gates of Jiyyd when she realized she had forgotten the list of supplies needed for the dinner tonight. Sighing, she turned on her heals and trudged back to the Sisterhood. Running back to her room, she tossed open the door and…

    …startled Mal and Julius in her room. Both looked up rather startled, Maya’s journal dropping from Mal’s hands onto the floor. Both stared wide-eyed at Maya, who returned the wide-eyed stare with one of her own.

    Mal and Julius had been brought to the Sisterhood as part of the refugees from Ormpur. They had lived with their uncle for a time, but he had turned up missing. Due to the recent attacks, Maya had considered sending them up to Peltarch, but both had considerable carpentry skills for their age, and had been very handy repairing the shed and fences. Julius was 14, and Mal was 15.

    Both looked at the doorway for an exit, but Maya stood there blocking it.

    “Shit Mal!”, I tol’ ya this was a bad idea!”, Julius whined, shoving Mal.

    Maya folded her arms and looked down at the two kids. Mal was almost a man, and had started a growth spurt that kept the pantry always in need of food. Julius his cousin, seemed much younger than their year apart, due to the height difference.

    “Journal is private. You know this”, Maya said, glaring at the kids.

    “What’cha goin’ ta do?” Mal looked up quizzically.

    “I think maybe if boys want look for dirt, should give opportunity. Come”, Maya said ushering the boys outside.

    “I tol’ ya this was a bad idea!“, Julius repeated.

    “Oh shove it”, Mal retorted, pushing his younger cousin ahead of him. Maya led both of them around to the side of the Sisterhood. Once there, Maya paced off ten steps from the end of the fence, making a mark in the dirt.

    “Fence need go to here. Cow sometimes go in trees. Best get busy”

    Julius swore and grabbed a shovel from the shed. Mal stood there and turned to face Maya. “What if I don’ wanna”?

    Maya looked at him for a moment, then grinned. Walking up to Mal, she whispered something in his ear. Mal gave her a dirty look, turned with a huff, and grabbed a shovel._

    Entry 25 – Stuff and Things

    Chancellor Lucid say was too busy to make ring. He do right and apologize, but was still sad about. Later though, I run into whole group of forest people. Was Wolf, Fadia, Raisa and William. Fadia offer put nature magic on ring. I give ring and gold ahead of time because I trust. Nature magic is good.

    I also get letter from Talgris. Am glad is safe, but he must know I not make life sit still because he not here. He say try come back. I hope is true.

    I had long good talk with Nicahh about some things Shannon say. It put mind at rest. So many listen to rumor and not talk to for self. Is why I try judge people for self, and not what other say about.

    Nicahh says I am wise. Is kind words, but is not true. I not know philosophy. I not know law much like Barrim or Shannon. I know numbers only little bit, and not know poison ivy from weed. Still not master trade speak. I just try speak from heart and hope other do too.

    I catch two boys read journal. I very angry at first. If was man would have broke nose, but not boy unless do many times. I give extra work for punish, make fence longer. Older boy begin say no, so I whisper promise pull down pants, put over knee and spank in front of other. I tell him be good story for other until both old and gray. He get to work after that.


  • _The smell of warm cookies and the echoes of children’s laughter linger in the dining hall of the Sisterhood. Visions of flour covered faces, sticky hands, and jelly smiles still remain.

    Maya sits quietly by the large fire place, the stirring fire creating medusa like shadows from her braids on the wall behind her. The children have been tucked into bed, Natanya departing less than an hour ago. Save for the crackling of the dying fire, all is quiet.

    Maya stares at the fire for quite some time, her brow knitting with troubled thoughts. With care she opens a large bag leaning beside the chair, and takes out her journal, opening it to a new page._

    Entry 24 – Rumors

    I have argument with Shannon other day, while in Peltarch. I ask maybe he come down to Sisterhood, help make cookies, play with children for time. Yes, was way of try get Shannon and Natanya together without armor of body and heart, but it not work.

    Shannon does not like Sisterhood.

    I ask why, and he say take care of people with dark heart. I ask who is dark, and he speak few names. I say Sisterhood do good things, but I am not able to follow all he says. He speaks quick, and some words am not familiar. But I get much meaning, and cannot help but think he is wrong.

    He says Sisterhood have these things, and do good, for power and politic.

    It take me many days of think about and put thoughts one by one inside of head. Shannon is very wise, is true. But I get feeling his heart cannot see.

    Maybe I am blind, but when see children smile because I make cookie, or tell story, or teach story of Uthgardt people, I cannot help but see good in this. Nicahh bring me here and ask nothing, and help me find place where am happy.

    Nicahh did good for me. She did good for children. How is bad in this? Where is power or politic gain? If Nicahh try get power, or gain politic so can do for other what did for Maya and children, then is good thing, not bad.

    He use example of people of names I not know before. Say they do good, but no one know about. Is maybe because Shannon has been in places I have not. Are many people do good that I not know about. Is true. But I ask this –

    How come everyone know Shannon? Is Shannon for power and politic gain? I think no, even if is judge in biggest city in land.

    I wish could have said to him, but sometimes take days to get what think about in order.

    Yes, is true some have dark heart. I can see in Keira. Heart is so empty she cannot feel. But other day, I see her face light up like small girl when snow fall, and I watch as she walk, very light on feet because be so happy. So it seed there for grow.

    Natanya say something very wise for me once. I ask why she goes to evil place in the ground where lizard men are. She say best place for light, is in the dark.

    Maybe my heart be enough light for some seed grow too.


  • Entry 23 – Heartache

    I not know why he left. He say in words in note. He say he was for protect me and Yana from people who would do harm. But family is people who stick together through things good and bad. I was hope Talgris would maybe think of me that way. Think of as family. He say why he leave, but not know the why in his heart.

    Maybe because I want so much, I hope for much. Maybe too much.

    I travel to Peltarch few day later. I try avoid hobgoblin because not feel like celebrate battle. Was just sad and angry over what want and cannot have. I think maybe buy cloak make feel better, or buy special healing drink make all better from almost dead.

    I go in Peltarch, and see many around commons. See Natanya and Shannon talk off to side. I think maybe say hello, but am not good company, so I go about look at things, maybe bring smile to face first, before say hello.

    All I see is too much gold. That make dark feeling even darker. Then I hear Natanya call out name, and run up talk to me. She see I am sad, and want to talk about.

    So we talk much. We sit on grass and share heart about things we want, things we have, and things we had. Soon I begin feel something not expect.

    I feel shame.

    I have had so much Natanya not have. I had love of Adam. I have wonderful memory of make pleasure in tub of hot water. I have memory curl behind with no clothes, and whisper story in ear, until I sleep and dream of them. I have memory of wedding in Damara, on site of great, great battle. Tempus was there for me then. I could feel him watch us.

    I have memory of silly Nathen who leave trail of roses. I have memory of carry him over shoulder to room and have way with, while he laugh much and pretend protest. I remember him be easy for tickle. I remember heart always see good in things, even when things are bad. I remember have confidence (word is crossed out and respelled several times) in all things I do.

    Now, I have memory of Talgris. Is short memory, but it burn like bonfire. Make pleasures was like great battle with him, full of triumph and joy.

    I have these memory and many more…

    …and Natanya does not.

    She love someone very much who cannot find in heart for return same, and it fill me with much sadness for see. I see pain in eyes when she speak with me about. This someone is Shannon.

    When under tree in camp, I ask Shannon once if he make vow for not be with woman. All he say was, “Something like that”. I know Roland do this, so I ask Shannon if same.

    I wish could knock Shannon in head, shout WAKE UP so he see beautiful Natanya in front of him. Though he not know this, I was ready for do commons, but he put helm on. Was probably good thing, because knock on head not likely change heart or duty to Torm.

    I can do nothing for friend Natanya but try take mind from, so I invite to Sisterhood for make cookies and pastry with children. Sometimes, snickerdoodle, milk and warm fire best thing for heart.


  • _In the very early morning, Talgris turned the ceremonial dagger over in his hands, its polished blade catching the moon light through the window. Maya slept peacefully, braids and dirty blond hair spilling out across both pillows. Talgris stood there beside the bed, and simply stared at her, time forgotten in the moment.

    They had found him again. The faces of those he killed stood etched in his mind, rows of faces going back through long years. Some of them belonged to people that were remembered, by people that cared, who prayed to Hoar for vengeance. A warriors curse perhaps.

    The dagger has been found on Maya’s pillow, a harsh reminder that it was easier to protect himself than others. He never told her. Her life was different here. There were responsibilities and children to care for. There would be no honor, in bringing his past here.

    Before turning to leave, he took one last look. The note on his pillow pinned to the flower didn’t have the words he wanted to say, and the cowardice of it blackened his heart. He knew however, that if he woke her, she would ask him to stay with her, and fight…

    …and he wouldn’t be able to say no.

    Quietly, he left the Sisterhood, and headed down the Long Road. The journey to Peltarch wouldn’t take that long, he mused. Familiar journeys were often the shortest. From there, a small fishing boat to Hoarsgate perhaps, or a caravan to Damara.

    As the leagues passed beneath his feet, he brought out a small lock of hair, tied with leather, and pinned to a black feather. “A gift from Maya and Tempus, for you”, she said, after their first night in the Sisterhood together.

    He brought it up to his face, and breathed deeply, wondering sadly how long her scent would linger._

    Entry 22 – Abandoned

    I not know…

    There is little legible on this page. The ink has run in spots, wet and splotchy, and in some places smeared or scratched out. It’s obvious Maya stopped and started at several points, but simply lost the will to finish.


  • Entry 21 – Quiet Times

    Things very quiet for now. Talgris come over when can, and I play with children much. I am worry about few older boys. Now that Talgris here, they not so eager do things with group. One even take swing with fist at Talgris after practice, which not end bad but still make worry. I want Talgris be accept here.

    Yana seem OK with him, but Talgris used to sleep later than Yana. Yana come in to room and bounce on Talgris other morning, and Talgris give me “Do something” look. I take Yana out and get oatmeal, and put too much syrup on.

    Talgris get up three hour later. Sleepy head!

    I know Talgris is like bear. Will rest here, eat too much, drink too much, and then battle will call him. Then he get up before sun and practice hard for weeks. Maybe in Spring. Is too cold get out of bed now.

    I do very good in archery contest for try win gold, but big elf Ael beat me. Good luck only last for so long. I make joke be easier throw him at target instead, and everyone in meeting hall laugh.

    Oh! I have new shield! I was able sell old armor, and sell dusty old bottle of give huge strength to Lilin. Dwarf in Peltarch get new shipment in of many things with magic, and I have gold for buy new shield. Is heavier than one have before, but better protect against heavy weapon like mace or flail.

    I also speak to Chancellor of Norwick name Lucid. He said will make magic ring for me. I hope have enough gold! Ael find ring for good enough enchant, and when give I make joke that man should be on knees when give ring. Is easy make joke with Ael.

    Ael and I get lost on magic beach in Peltarch. Is hard explain…but happen. I hope Nicahh and Talgris not be angry I spend so much time with Ael, but always seem be in same place same time.

    Here, there is an entry squeezed into the margin

    Is fun try make pleasures and be very, very quiet!


  • _Rather early one morning, little Yana sleepily padded into Maya’s room, clutching her cloth doll and little wooden hammer. It was a cold morning, and Maya was covered almost completely in furs. Yana walked over and jiggled Maya’s shoulder.

    “Maya, I had ‘nother bad dream. I tried ta hit ‘em with…”

    The figure rolled over. It wasn’t Maya.

    A scarred face framed with stringy, dark, graying hair opened one eye lazily to stare at the little girl with elven features.

    Yana stared back, eyes wide at saucers
    “Hello”, grumbled the man sleepily

    Yana shrieked, and with surprising force brought the little wooden hammer down on the side of the man’s head and shoulders repeatedly

    “WHAT HAVE YOU DONE WITH MAYA!”, shrieked little Yana as she rained ill aimed blows upon him

    “ow..OW! FARK!”

    On the other side of him, Maya sat up suddenly, startled out of a deep sleep, blinking quickly.

    “Is OK! Is OK!”, she said quickly, holding out her arms and gently grabbing Jana’s wrist, dragging her over him and onto her side of the bed.

    “Is good man. Name of Talgris”

    Yana sat on top of Maya’s legs, looking at Talgris distrustfully as he rubbed the side of his head, “He looks like an ogre. I thought he ate you”

    “No, no. Ogre much bigger and uglier. But little Yana very brave fight Talgris too!”

    Talgris covered himself up with the firs again, and began laughing._

    Entry 20 – Blood and Lust

    I meet Talgris today in Jiyyd. He say want talk to me about something. We head out of Jiyyd near west fields of Sisterhood by trees.

    He ask if I know what place is. I then realize was place where ask Adam be mate, and marry. I tell him his, and he just smile, and say is place where bury, very long ago. Then he reach into pouch and give flower. Same kind that live forever, and glow in dark. He say is last one, and I should have.

    Is hard write in words how feel at time. I feel very little, and very big at same time. I remember feel warm all over, and face feel hot. I ask why he dead so long and come back, he take my hand, put on his chest and say,

    “I come back for you”

    I have no words for moment. Here is warrior of Tempus, say he come back from Tempus for be with me. He tells me am pretty, and always think so. He is tall and strong, and suddenly realize it must be like poem I write. I want him beside for fight, I want him in field of grass. I just … want.

    I tell him must see fight. I need see fight, and after walk say he want fight bugbear who put him in ground in first place.

    Journey is blur. Blood is hot, and when we get near bugbear, I make pray to Tempus. I tell Tempus if like Maya, bless battle, because if Talgris die I be pissed. He smile at this, and I get out holy water and make bless, then we battle.

    All bugbear fall before us. Even one with great axe. I remember lose self in battle when face him, just for Talgris.

    But one with big axe have brother.

    Scout come and see us, and try stop, but as soon as do we hear brother scream and charge. Then he make mighty swing, and I see Talgris stagger…

    …but not fall.

    Talgris back out of fight holding stomach, and I cut brother bugbear with big axe to pieces. Then we run out of place before others catch, both with blood sing in heart.

    Talgris only say one word … “Boarshead”

    I think was lucky even make that far.

    Make pleasures with Talgris was like another battle, two warrior of Tempus join for celebrate life. I do not know if Talgris will become part of heart like Adam, but is good start.

    Am happy bed is warm again.


  • Entry 18 – Shopping

    Woman name Winter and woman name Serenity take to place in Peltarch where can have clothes made. Call Divinity Plate or something. I already have nice clothes from Nicahh and Sisterhood, but I go along anyway, for protect and maybe get something nice. Little elf name Thorn tag along too. Still have no one to warm bed, and maybe better look like woman than Champion of Tempus.

    Trip to Peltarch without much fight, and Winter seem upset. I ask who pray too, and was hope hear name Tempus, but instead pray to Tymora. Use little skinny sword like Adam use, and wonder if all worshipper of Tymora use little skinny blade. Even Zyphlin use. Cannot help think Tymora worshipper be all gone if only learn use weapon good for bar fight.

    We get there, and everything cost too much gold. Who want by clothes cost more than 1000 gold!? Can see if maybe enchant, or have magic turn evil wizard into toad, but for just look pretty?

    Think easier if want man take clothes off, not put clothes on.

    Then we go south again, but Winter stay behind. Before know is with big group of people do battle with bugbear. Was big elf Ael, Keira, Vell, Laucian, and few other. Vell is priest of Corellon like Rary, and have good prayer. Make stronger, and feel like could run forever.

    We do battle smart with bugbear. Scout go ahead and make report. We find bugbear for battle, choose field of battle every time. Was great victory over evil bugbear, and Tempus was please. Afterwards, I pray to Tempus much for honor bugbear, for they fight very brave.

    Battle was not hard, and blood not sing so much, but just enough feel warm. I remember say things to Ael about how look cute, and exchange words of flatter. Ael is only elf ever meet who would want make pleasures with. Other much too skinny. I keep think if Ael would like point of ear nibbled, and begin laugh. I would not dishonor Nicahh, so is just words, but is fun think about!

    Entry 19 – Magic Ring

    I meet Rary by fire in Norwick after fight bugbear, and say want buy magic ring. He say must look for Magic Ring maker. I spend whole day ask guard of Peltarch, shopkeeper, innkeeper, and even Hemrod, and no one over hear of!

    Now feet very sore, and am late for children. I think maybe Rary have sand in head.


  • _Maya quietly enters the Sisterhood, her belongings carried in a sack over her shoulder. Her armor removed outside, she pads along in bare feet over to her room, and carefully sets down the sack in the corner. As she goes to get into bed however, she notices a small lump curled up near the pillow.

    Yana is sleeping quietly in Maya’s bed, the deep slumber of the young has kept her unaware of Maya’s presence. The little shield has fallen on the floor, but the hammer is clutched tightly next to her little cloth doll

    Maya stands there, lost in the moment, before carefully settling down next to the bed_

    Entry 17 – Home again

    Am finally home, back in Sisterhood. I not write much in journal while in tree, even with have little for do. Headache so bad sometimes want to hit everyone in head with axe and tell shut up. Even burble of huge pot get on nerve.

    Curse was broke when collect all bone and put evil wizard to rest. Am glad have friend who could figure out, because otherwise would have die from curse.

    I remember did ask Talgris why give me flower. He said was because was mark of assassin, and when get knew would die. He said he would wear on clothing proud, for tell assassin he not afraid. He said wanted to give to girl would know would wear in hair. I have to think about that much, and then finally understand one night and make feel warm inside. I wish still had.

    I also remember try give Shannon hug when I see hope start fade, and he get very upset. Natanya say is not Shannon’s way. He prefer book instead. So I write to Adam friend King in Damara. I write long letter, try explain, and ask favor. I hope letter get there.

    Children were much happy seem me, and words in journal cannot say how happy I was. I have to tell too tired for game, but promise try make honey pastry in kitchen. I not know how to make, but will be fun try. Am sure will make huge mess, and get flour over everything, but hear laughing children be worth it.


  • Entry 16 – Cold Caves

    We still have curse, and it get worse. I have headache so big it need own government, so I keep entry short.

    We look in Cold Caves. Was many ogre live there, some with powerful magic. I try protect William, but he fall at my feet, and before could kill ogre, ogre hit while on ground and make big mess of. I almost die too. Both save by grace of god of duty and honor.

    Not find bones. Two more now have curse.

    I think Steelfin right. We must stay here in tree. Keep curse here. I hate not fight own battle, but risk too big for us leave. We need put our life in hands of friends for find. Will be hard swallow, but must do. Others without curse will be stronger, able think better.

    There is a space here, and a spot and spatter of blood

    Nose start bleed little. I write few last words, before sleep.

    I begin wonder of Shannon. On way out, not wait for William and Vell. Both so tired could barely move, and almost dead from cold and hurt. I stay behind and guard and help. We share potion between for keep alive. When finally catch up, Shannon only say, “Have nice rest? Take long enough”.

    I know Shannon much more wise than Maya, and maybe do right thing, but sometime have feeling he do right and good thing because have duty to, and not because want to. Heart maybe strong, but maybe strong because made of stone.