3. The Last Skald

The Last Skald


  • Flying.

    The wind whistling past and the freedom as his great wings lifted him above the mountain. Keira was waiting, up top. He had saved her for last, to fulfill a promise he had made. The giant and the hin had been the last load before but for the moment he weas free . . .

    Another sweep and a grunt and he started to gain altitude. What few giants there were left on this side of the mountainside saw a red shadow sweep across them and then it was gone. He orared for the sheer joy of it before alighting on the clifftop and slithering down the hole into Sharns Chamber.

    Shadows clung to her as she continued to explore little nooks and crannies in the cave. She drifted here and there as he caught his breath and smiled at the lair, probably for the last time. "I did a lap outside with the mages and I looking for twists in the weave. If the orb of winter is up here it is well shielded."

    She nodded absently and walked over. Calm eyes looked up into his eyes of flame contained and she said softly. "How does this make you feel?"

    He looked down at her, then around the chamber where the remains of the rough 'harvesting' of Sharn had taken place. Headless the remains of the corpse lay, skinned. Blood and bits of meat had scattered to each corner of the room. He could steal taste the dragons heart on the back of his tongue. "Cold. . . and hot . . . part of me wants to feed more, till there is nothing left. But the others are waiting for us." He sighed heavily, hs breath a mix of raw meat and smoke. "Are you ready to go?"

    "She looks up, her expression unreadable. "How will you take me?"

    He laughed . . . "always with the double meaning? While having you in my talons is tempting, I think on my back will do." He bent his neck down so she could climb aboard. "You weigh almost nothing. Hang on with hands and legs . . . " They shot out of the exit like a red thunderbolt and he took to the sky.

    Wheeling, circling, shooting through cloud layers and snapping back to level with a rustling snap as the membranes of his wings caught the air they descended from the mountain top. If she said a word on the way down he did not hear it as he roared and sang for the fire in his veins and the wind in his wings.

    They did a high pass over the lands he loved. Nowick, smutty little fires obscuring the view of the invaders. Peltarch, from very high up, in case a mage though this was some invasion, the gypsy camp, hard to find, nestl;ed in the valley, the refugee camp, small fires burning and peopel huddled about them. Then Jiyyd hove into view. He landed, lighter than the last two times. There was a large pile with most of the adventurers arrayed around it. The division of the hoard.

    Deep down a voice urged . . . grab the chest, fly, you could be gone before they realized it. There are places you could be, a lair to make. Maybe go back and make an offer to that green you met . . . He stifled the thought but the hoard was right there, calling to him. Maybe she would come with you . . . you both could fly far from here, find a new life . . . He looked over to Keira and shuddered softly. Again he fought with the voice, but his claws dug a pair of grooves in the turf and he looked around for a distraction. his eyes lighting on a pig in a pen. "Is anybody gonna eat that?"

    They ignored him. Funny how easily they all adjusted to his new self. Or were they? He looked closer and saw that some still had weapons out and though they were not looking directly at him . . . .
    down down down

    fight it, swallow it

    calm

    peace

    he bent down to talk to Hedia and slowly he folded in on himself until he was just a skald, a fat old man . . .nothing more.

    but he had flown

    flying, in his heart he still did

    he chose simple, almost worthless things from the hoard, to try to make ammends for the thoughts he had had . . . for how close he had been to betraying the party.

    flying

    inside


  • He suddenly sat up in the chair by the fire and looked around. It was quiet save for Shady singing some odd tune to herself in the background. He knew he would be stiff, getting up so he sat and looked at the fire and thought over the days to come and the days gone by.

    The featherflights were well, they finally had started answering again. Some losses to the Heyokarr but the warriors had made it into the camp. This had taken a huge load off of the skald. Aelthas had been used and rescued . . . his recovery was goign slowly and Jerr had made it a point to give the man his space at the sisterhood, though he had been mentioned in more than one sunrise prayer.

    He now felt like a ghost, Jerr did. He drifted from the battlefront to the camp and back again. He would pass the odd word of fancy with friends and aquaintances but nothing was in movement. he worked out with the whip until he had the swing and the timing of it, but that was only a few days of practice, much to the detriment of the Hobgoblins in the pass. Keira was not around since she told him what her plan was. Part of him was glad for that, for he had been tempted to try to talk her out of it while another part wanted to encourage her to go.

    The fire was warm and thoughts went to those in the camp around him. The Heyokarr families were glad for the news he had brought. The Roma and Gali had welcomed them like long lost relatives. He kept an eye on any issues that came up, but for the most part, things were running smoothly.

    It was time to go . . . .one last run North for supplies and then he would head south . . . Very south. Delaying wouldn't change anything, wouldn't help anyone. He had told Nicahh, Keira, Amith. He had to find Lilin and then he was gone . . . .


  • They met in the garden again and he sighed. She was moving with a serenity and grace that had always captured mens eyes and now he knew, some of it was on purpose but underneath, there was still Nicahh. And a lot of it was her.

    She sat next to him and started to lay out her supplies for the day but he lay a leathery hand on hers and stopped her gently. "No, you have completed the task."

    She looked at him sharply. "You didn't say that yesterday."

    He smiles and shrugs. "It is tradition. The student always comes back for the lesson that is not there, for there will always be more deaths and more to the song. But for now, unless there have been more from the battle in the Featherflight camp. We are complete." He sighed. "thank you . . . you know what this means to me and even with you being very angry and hurt . . .you did this." He reached out and touched the plant he had been nursing back to health. "When you are singing try to remember life in the midst of death. It is the hardest thing to do and I never quite manage it." He looked back into her eyes. "I think you can. Now I am not going to run off and kill myself . . .at least not try to. But there are a whole bunch of things I have been holding off on until we finished this."

    She nodded and waited for him to continue.

    "The people are outnumbered and the other side is not bleeding out the way we hoped. With Corde . . . " He pauses as her expression changes, just for a moment. "I don't think we CAN bleed them out, not without more numbers. I am going to try to get those numbers."

    "How?" She asked her face again calm.

    He paused and looked off into the distance. "Two tribes I have spoken with before, but not in a while . . . I once spoke with the leader of the Worgs. I will try to find him again. I told him long ago that a war for the land is coming and that he would have to take a side. I scried the camp of the enemy and the wolves they are using are being kept in pens and cages. His cooperation is not full with the other side, if it exists at all. I hope I can remind him of what we discussed and gain some allies and scouts in the woods.

    The other tribe is the Red Tigers. They live for war and would make a greta force on the southern side of Norwick. That would force the town to split its defences and make them more vulnerable on the north side as a result."

    He looks down. "And I need to know if the Featherflights still live. So I was going to use this . . . " He shows a tattered scroll that would allow him to shapeshift once. "I can walk to the wolves. Once that is done I will fly above the battle to see how the Featherflights are and then continue on to the Red Tigers where I will return to my self."

    "And how will you get home?"

    "That is why I had to teach you the song . . . I don't have a plan for how to get home. If the Red Tigers say no, if the Featherflights are all dead. Then I will be pinned on the far side of the battle . . . I will try to make it to the grove . . . do what I can . . ." He trailed off and looked to the ground. "Amith knows, and understands. She doesn't like it but she understands. I will leave a lot of my things in the tent, in my chest. Try to travel light." He snorts . . . "well, light for me. I am telling you because of what you have done for me and what you mean to me. I know you will take care of the family but I wanted to say thank you for all you have done through the years. I am sorry for all the pain or anger I brought you and wish . . . oh I wish for so many things. But the important one right now is that I wish for you to find your own happiness. As I found mine."

    He leaned across and gently kissed her cheek and then rose. "It will take some time to get ready, but if I do not see you again, know a part of you is in my heart and I am happy because of that."

    He turned and headed for the door towards the kitchens, whistling a tune she had not heard him sing before.


  • He looked up as she entered the garden and smiled. She gathered herself and set her potions and drinks to the side and looked to him to start the beat.

    He didn't. "A lot of people are worried about you." He said gently. She begins to protest but he holds up his hand. "I know, you promised and we are almost through. I want you to know you could have not done anything more precious for me than what you are doing right now. But the death lays take a lot out of you, and a lot out of me." He gazes out at something far beyond the Sisterhood walls and his expression turns serious.

    "The back door we thought we had is closed. The plains are littered with orc and giant camps. Nicahh . . . I don't know how I am going to get them out." He hangs his head. "I am doing it again. Me me me. . . . sorry."

    She saves her voice and lays a hand on his arm. He looks back into the distance. "One verse, today. Just one. We should be finished in a couple of days, even if we cut it down to an hour or two a day. But today . . . you have work to do and I cannot hear it or judge it . . . ever. I want you to start making a verse for me. Micah told me he saw me dying . . .as a dragon. And if I am lucky, I will get that chance on the plains. And I will do it willingly, if it gets the Featherflights free." He pauses, "for I am dragon, and I will do what I have to do."

    "One verse, a couplet even, save it for the day. Rest your voice today, no arguing, no yelling. Just think, write, and help me get the sisters off my back for being so cruel to you." He grins. "Even Amith had some words for the time I am spending with you."

    "I'll be going, see you tomorrow for one of the smaller sections . . . old age." He chuckles. "We never have many die of that . . . ."


  • The archers tower shook slightly as he punched the post with enough force to put a hole in a house wall. "Dammit!'

    Keira ghosted beside him and looked curiously at his hand but there seemed to be no lasting damage. She chose to say nothing although a hint of smile played across her lips as she saw the fire in his eyes. Lauc came up from behind and asked what was wrong and Jerr growled some small phrase of disgust at the whole process before stalking off for some peace.

    It was quiet in the garden, Nicahh was not about . . . . he had given her some time to rest her voice as he was making her sing what he could, but he had developed his voice through years of practice and training.He looked at a nearby plant that seemed to be doing badly and frowned. "I am sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you" he whispered to the plant as he fetched some water for it and sang softly to the plant of the great forests and the world beyond the walls. "I did not mean to sing nothing but death for you. . . "

    "It cannot hear you." Keira said from the shadows. He managed not to jump too much.

    "I know, but all the songs of death will hurt any spirit. And as the spirit goes, so goes the body. If I needed this plant for a medicine I would not hesitate to harvest it, but I will not hurt it out of simple neglect and common ignorance, if I can do otherwise." He set his canteen back to his belt and smiled at her. "There is enough common ignorance around, eh?"

    She nodded and sat on the bench near him. "They anger you. But hurting yourself will help nothing."

    He nods slowly. "I had to punch something or someone." Looks to her. "I was close to asking you for a sparring session. But it would not have been a good idea."

    She nodded.

    He tended the plant and then sat staring at it for a time, she watched him, more than the plant. "They don't get it at all, do they? Or is it me? Am I trying to make people see things through my eyes too much? Am I fighting the wrong war?"

    "What will the Giants do?" She asked after a lengthy pause.

    He shrugged. "Old ways, broken, make way for new ways. I would expect them to do one of three things or a combination of them. Steal bodies, steal gear, or make an all out push and take the wall and the town. How would the town react it Grag fell and they took his body to keep it from being raised? If some of the people started to lose their weapons and see them being used on the other side? I know Peppy lost a hat and they got it back, but I am talking about them stripping the dead and keeping everything."

    She smiled.

    "I know, for you that would not profit them much. But I don't want to see you dead, just the same." He grinned at her. "Not unless . . . . " The grin gained an edge and a bit more teeth showed than a normal smile might allow for. He coughs and looks away, the cough having a small amount of smoke mixed in it.

    She sniffed and smiled.

    Silence returned to the garden, the silence of two people comfortable in their own thoughts and the presence of each other.


  • He sat and looked out as Keira spoke with Lyte. He was far enough away to show he was not taking part in the conversation but close enough to hear the words. Listen It was the best way to learn, to think. He could see the surprise on Lytes face as she bagan to realize that Keira was speaking more than just her usual one line comments and trying to explain a concept.

    The trip to check Ormpus seemed to have had an effect on Keira. She did not like the killing of the wolves yet if they came close she was her usual deadly and efficient self. But she seldom used to comment on the need for a kill, or whether there was another way to do this.

    They had sat in the old hollow above the ruins of Ormpur and talked, Juster, William, Lyte and Keira had. Jerr was trying to drink in the silence of the grove and find a measure of peace in his soul to carry for the next day. he let the words wash across him the way Lyte sat in the stream and let the water play across her body . . . . it was funny, he admired the play of the water but there was something more spiritual than sensual about how she held herself in the cold mountain stream.

    The sun rose and he quietly sang it up asking for strength for the defenders, and guidance for himself. Then they walked back. That is when he really beganm to notice that Keira was trying far harder than she normally would to get the message across. This was important to her. . . and that made it important to him.

    He had to find a way to talk to Sharn.

    This whole war had a wrongness about it and the only way to settle it was to get it from the dragons mouth without winding up INSIDE the dragons mouth.

    Climb or challenge from the ground?

    With or without people?
    he had promised to take Keira. but this might be a one way trip . . .

    He looked to the walls where people stood waiting for the next wave.

    He looked towards the mountain and sighed.

    Neither, until the families were rescued. He could not leave them in there . . .


  • The voices rose and fell, in the garden, with a lot of pauses inbetween. The melody had been easy, the rhythm, simplicity itself. Chants were not hymn, not complex . . . but they were long.

    Nicahh had a beautiful voice and Jerrs was mellowed with age and practice, like a highly polished carving. He spent a pair of hours setting the history of why the song of death was sung and then they had begun. Each death, a lesson, each fall . . .a chance to raise another up. So they sang. The cold took a trio of hours to list all those who had been caught in a pass, in a storm, wandered too far from camp, or been ill prepared for the swift changes in weather that the mountains were famous for.

    At the end of each session Jerr thanked her, nodded to Ael if he was about and left without another word. Anyone following him after this would find him in some out of the way part of the house or in the fields sipping ales and blinking back tears.

    Finding Jerr, other than that was becoming more of a challenge. It seemed like he was always passing through on his way somewhere else. He did time at the wall and added his arrows to those of others. General Lyte seemed always to be willing to listen to him and ask after his responsibilities yet he has never been known to hold a rank in the Jiyyd Militia. Norwick scouts and druids knew he was a regular to the grove and the lands around it making his patrols alone, more often than not. The Camp often found him singing a simple hymn or checking on the status of families who now fell under his care. In the camp he often had a small train of kids following him about and begging for 'cookies'. Only Oscura had noticed a break in his regular stops. Dirge reached for some flowers to crush and frowned when she realized he had not dropped off a bouquet lately.

    Running . . . for the slow fat kid he once was he found that he spent a lot of time on the move, now. But then there were the peaceful moments. In the arms of his wife, in the grove praying, and when he was talking with Keira.

    But somethings you cannot run from.

    "All warriors who can swing an axe will go to aid the Featherflights . . . but not you, skald." The rational part of Jerr understood he was being given the larger task, to care for not one tribe but two. But the call of the axe was strong in his blood and to be left behind was galling. Worse was how few people understood that he would willingly fight a forlorn hope beside his brothers, if that is what was called for. He had sung them off that morning and listened to them charge out onto the plains.

    Now it was his turn.

    The rescue.

    When the Featherflight families were ready they would drum a call and Jerr would answer with a timeline of when the rescue would come. Like a well oiled machine they would pierce the Orc Lines long enough to allow the families to make a run for it. He looked out from the top of the wall to the south and smiled thinking of the number of people who were ready to act . . .

    well, that was the plan.

    He had almost considered just asking the Giants to give safe passage to the families but decided that this idea might be pushing it. That the bodies of the dead were being respected was good enough. At least those of the giants. They had dropped off ales for the defenders to honor the battles and even accepted a gift of alcohol in return. Each time he pushed a little more, as he had been trained. To negotiate you needed two parties participating . . . .he was trying for that.

    along with other tasks.

    it was nice to keep busy . . .

    run


  • "But why are they burning the field?" the young skald in training asked. The smoke swept up from the northern wheat like a spear striking the sky.

    "The disease will spread, unless it is stopped. Prayers and magics did not slow it down and now we must sacrifice some to save all." The old skald spoke calmly and watched the workers lighting some more of the field while trying to contain the fire on the other side. "It is not a decision lightly made, but if it is not done all the fields might be blighted. That is our way, we will try to save when we can, but there are times when you must sacrifice to save the whole. The tribe is more than any one person. We are a people. We must always try to save what we can, but there are times when we have to accept. You know who started the fires, this morning?"

    Young Jerr shook his head then looked out on the fields and considered. Finally he pointed to one man. "Him?"

    "Very good. Why him?"

    "It is his fields being burnt. To him when the . . . "

    "The word is responsibility. And why him?"

    Jerr thought about it. "I do not know, it just feels right, that way." His chubby young face looked out at the fires and the smoke made his eyes water. "If he was to lose, it was right that he bear the loss of his own hand."

    "With no food, how will he survive the coming winter?" The teacher queried.

    Jerrs eyes narrowed. "The tribe will provide. It was hard for him to do this . . . almost like he fought a battle."

    The old skald leaned back and smiled. "Not almost. he did fight the greatest enemy and ally we have, the land. He lost but in making the loss on his own terms and in his own time he brought great honor to his house. No, he will not go hungry and in the spring all the other farmers will help him replant, rebuild."

    "Rebuild?" The youngsters eyes looked further afield to see the storage areas of the farm wrapped in flames. "Even those?"

    "To stop an infection, you root it out, flame and destruction. To let it have a single chance to return might doom the tribe. We do not take chances when competing with the land. But we will rebuild. And the people will live on, and this evening you will sing the song of bravery for that farmer and the losses he has taken. So go practice now, lad. We want to do this right in the evening, aye?"

    Jerr scampered off over the hill looking for where he had laid his drum.

    The weathered and leathery face of a much older Jerr looked down on the camp below. His hand absently let the chain of the necklace run through his fingers. "Fire and destruction." He stared at Ceras tree and sighed deeper. "I am so sorry, Nat, Ging, William."

    A shadow flitted across the camp and Jerr smiled as it vectored in on him, A moment later Keira sat next to him, close but not touching. "Maybe kegs as well?" she whispered.

    "Aye, we have some allies in this but also there will be those who try to stop us. If it comes to destroying the tree and all within it it will have to be done quickly before there can be organized resistance. Druids understand the need for balance, others do not. Continue gathering the supplies and I will find folks who know what must be done and are willing to do so." His eyes stayed on the tree, his face hard.

    "You will kill them all?" Keira asked.

    "If I can, yes. If I don't then I will have failed. Fire and destruction to stop the spread. The tree and all within it must die if the cure is not found soon. . . . fire and destruction, no conversations, no words . . . death."

    "You always talk."

    "That is when I was what I was." He slowly turns to focus on her. "People change."

    "…" She paused then nodded. A moment later she was off down the hill and back into the camp . . . shopping. Jerr returned to watching the tree, trying to decide which boxes could be refilled with kegs.


  • He rolled over and clutched his head. "Damn, what was in that black bottle?" He loooked up and saw the top of his tent, he was sleeping in his own furs and comfortable . . .except for the head. Amith was cleaning, noisily. Amazing how she could make fluffing a cushion so bloody loud.

    "One time. That was it." She grumbled in elven. "You need to lose weight."

    He looked down and saw the drag marks leading to the bed. He then grunted and she correctly took that to mean, 'yes dear, and I am sorry'. It was nice having someone who understood you even when you were unintelligible. She banged a feather pillow next to his head and then left.

    He closed his eyes and smiled. Married, not married. Skald, not skald. He had not been trying to drown his sorrows, he had been mourning the losses. His pride had stood him well in the past, now he was trying to bury it. Complacency had a separate grave nearby. Just because he thought he knew what was going on did not mean that he actually did.

    Listen, watch, learn. There must be some reason why Ael hired him on to the scouts and he was going to earn the right to stay, dammit. Across the camp friends might be dying and he had spent some time talking to the spirits in Phoenix. Somewhere, somehow there mus be more knowledge available about a lich of only a thousand years ago . . .

    He reached out and grabbed the canteen which held water and drank deep. Back to Peltarch was called for, the college library might yield more in the legends and songs. But first, a bath. Fortunately most of the camp was in the outer area keeping the sick company, from a distance. So few were subjected to the former skald bathing in the waterfall at the back of the camp by the cliff. They did not hear him laugh as he scrubbed and whisper something about someone named Nahwen and how he still missed her smile, her laugh, and her ass.

    Then clothed, he moved through the camp at a dead run . . . it was time for learning.


  • He prayed for several hours before rising from the floor to stand in the doorway. The portal to the cave of testing was before him, pulsing with a soft yellow light. Was this one more to fail? Or a chance to turn it around, the losses, the shame . . .

    "Did you try?" Amith asked, holding him in their tent.

    Jerr closed his eyes. "I did, but could I have tried harder?"

    She slaps his chest with a thump. "No do that. You know there is always smart men After a battle. But you need to be smart in it."

    "I lost so much."

    "You lost nothing but words. Chief, skald, they words. Have people stopped listening to you? You lose your drum, your voice? You lost nothing." Amith leaned against him listening to him breath, his heart slowing as he absorbed her words. He sighed deeply, her head rising and falling with the tide of air.

    "Lilin, Amith . . . "

    "Are mad at you, so am I. You didn't tell us about his joke, not good to let that sort of thing be hidden. Was bad surprise. You focus too much on one thing, you stop seeing battle and just see axe, never good. Everything, everyone is there, they were there for you. But you just saw your axe, and then you lose. Did you ask who she was? Who she worshipped, his shaman? No. Just saw axe and self." She thumped his chest each time she said axe, to drive the point home. Then her voice softened. "Not telling them showed you didn't trust them. They are very mad, and hurt. They lash out at you . . . as they should. I hurt, too."

    Jerr stares at the ceiling and sighs. "All axe . . .no talk, no wonder they stripped me of skald. I haven't been much of one lately. But what if they do NOT forgive me?"

    "Why would it matter. If they do not forgive you then they did not love you in first place. They just feel sorry for old man." The edge on her voice was hard. "If they no forgive then there never was marriages, just illusion of them. Not your problem, is theirs, now."

    "It wasn't an illusion to me . . . "

    She props herself up on an elbow and looks over at him. "I learn long long time ago, you not fat like people say. It is just you need a big body for your heart. When you decide to love you do it, with all of yourself. No hold back, no hesitate. It was hard to learn that you could do it to other people, even other elves . . . " Her breath catches. "Lilin said no because we talked. I no trust her, even if she is sister."

    Jerr did not bother to ask who.

    words . . . all he had lost was words

    titles, they were just words. he could still sing the sun up and down. he could still work for united tribes in the nars. but as Jerr, not skald, not chief, just Jerr.

    In the morning he was in the Heyokarr camp, singing the sun up.

    tests could wait, he had people to see.


  • Some tasks take bravery, for your life is at risk.

    This wasn't one of those.

    Jerr was fairly sure he would have walked with a lighter step towards a duel with a dragon than this task before him. He had bought some new clothes for this, afterwards he was going to burn them. Avoiding people was the hardest part. He didnd't want to talk to anyone, especially Keira. She had the uncanny knack of finding him, wherever he was. But this, this was a new order of pain for him.

    A runner had delivered the message. "The celebration of the new chief will be needing a skald to record and commemorate. Be there." So he got his things together and took the back ways, wrapping himself in the weave through the main pass, just to be sure. Most at the camp would not meet his eyes and he passed quietly through till he came to the big fire.

    The new chief, Beorn son of Jer'han, looked out with a grin that bordered on a mocking smirk. "I have not met my new wives yet, skald"

    Jerr shrugged and continued tuning the drum. "I never agreed to that, it was a challenge for leadership, not women. If you are having trouble finding some of your own . . . "

    Beorn snarled. "Watch yourself. I let you live since you are the only skald we have."

    "Only one in the pass, right now." Jerr nodded, eyes still on the drum.

    "The women are MINE." Beorn ground out.

    Jerr chuckled. "They are, and always have been their own. Try to take what isn't yours and you will die, slowly or quickly depending on which one you try for. I have freed them from myself since only a chief may have many wives, as I am no longer . . . " He ducked his head a little and shrugged again.

    "Bah, I will take what is mine and they will learn the ways of the tribe from a true warrior." The chief waved a hand dismissing the subject for now.

    Jerr tensed then let a breath out slowly.

    Ale flowed and food was plentiful. Jerr took anough to keep hunger at bay and only a bit of ale for fear he would not stop if he truly started drinking. As the day wove into night he sang the sunset and then came the time for the celebratory song. He chose his song with care and modifuied it to contain the name of Beorn but most of the song was for the hopes of the tribe, for the connection to the lands. It called people to remember who they were in the times to come, to hold on the the Nars and the ways of them. The last lines were the ones he had worked on the most.
    . . .
    For lead on, Oh Beorn, the tribes eyes look to you
    Yes lead us well, new Heyokarr chief, for we watch.
    He stilled the drum suddenly and let the last word echo in the dale. The chief was almost too drunk to notice but a bit of a fire was still there. "Good enough, old man. Here, for the songs this day . . . " and he tossed a bag of coins out to land at Jerrs feet.

    Jerrs blood burned. This was an insult to any skald and not worthy of a man who would be chief of the tribe. He turned from the fire and walked out into the night, laughter from the chief following him . . . others looked to Jerr and then looked away.

    he had to go find a good place to burn these clothes.

    as he went into the darkness one thing lingered in his mind, running laps of it driving all other thoughts away.

    people actually believed that he would gamble his wives away. they thought that little of him. even his own wives had thought that, not wanting to hear any explanation.

    bard . . . the chief had tried to pay him like some common bard.

    shame made his face burn as he let the darkness take him, and he was gone.


  • Focus

    His leg lashed out and caught the hobgoblin squarely in the stomach, as it doubled over his hands drove a hammerblow across its back that left it broken on the ground, the two swords falling from lifeless hands.

    Keep your focus and they fall.

    One charged in from the side and he stepped forward leaving one leg behind to trip him. The step back to snap the neck with the heel of his foor was almost an afterthought.

    Keep your focus on the now, not the . . . then
    _she had looked . . . afraid.

    it made him feel dirty. she was not the one who should be afraid. she hadn't lost control.

    he had._
    A blade sunk into his side and he threw one of the axes from his belt. The hobgoblin went down, the axe blazing in its chest. He tossed another to distract a shaman before cherging in to finish it with his hands.

    like he had almost finished her

    He snarled at the thoughts intruding and spun in place, looking for something else to fight. There was nothing but a roadway littered with bodies.

    and the enemy was still here, for he was the one standing, waiting for her to decide . . . if this continued . . . .he had lost control in so very many ways

    Jerr hung his head and walked towards the camp.


  • warning PG13, violence etc. you can skip this one if you want

    Dammit.

    He was trying to lighten the load, not add to it.

    But part of him kept to one set of habits, one path, while the rest of him struggled to cross the gap and get on the new path, the one he had to take.

    And in the middle of all this was Keira. He didn't know which path she stood on, was she a last remnant of the old path or the marker he used to find the new one?

    He didn't know. All her damn questions. Getting a straight answer out of her was something close to impossible. But he managed it, every now and again. Yet he didn't know what she was. Perhaps a third path, not the old one, not the new one he searched, but an path he might not need or want . . .

    He had wanted to spar, and when she invited him down below the inn he thought they might do so, as they had last time. It had been like dancing strike, be struck, dance away and circle. This time was different. She was different. It all had gone different . . . . since he asked her the question. (and in a deep part of himself he knew it was his fault, not Nicahhs, not Keira's, his and his alone)

    He remembered her words from last time, about rhythm and misdirection and struck first. She didn't hit back. Thinking it a trap he circled and spoke again but she just watched him. So he tried a second time, flipping her over with the force of the hit and she took the kicks and rolled back to her feet.

    any second now she will rise up and drop me . . .any second now

    But she didn't, she let him beat her bloody, then bloodier. She didn't know the anger that was rising up inside of him, the dragon anger he worked so hard to control. The only words she said were taunting (and told him something about her he had not ever suspected). He bound her hands and stepped back, trying to keep the anger in check and she rose before him, his fist lashed out to knock her over again. "I didn't tell you to untie yourself"

    His stomach heaved as he heard himself say the words. He wanted out of here, he needed to find the path but the forest was all blood now, no trails lay before him. He was losing . . . lost. She had managed to beat him without lifting a finger. "Ask for your freedom and I will give it to you."

    She stares at him silently.

    Inside he is screaming 'ask ask ask' But he pulls her up and repeats himself. "Ask and I will let you go." Inside he begs for the freedom, for her and for him. 'ask, please gods, ask' If she asks he can misunderstand her, walk away, forget it all and try to find the path beyond the blood.

    Again and again he strikes and the dragon rises further, not held back by his demanding she ask.

    and

    she

    doesn't

    dammit

    She is far too resilient. He can see bones resettle he knows he broke. The dragon wants him to finish her. THAT is the other way past her block. If she is dead, he can try to find the path again. Once dead her blood will stop flowing stop hiding everything, stop filling his eyes, his mouth.

    He bit her, hard, her blood in his mouth. The dragon smiled, with Jerrs face. "Turn around" She stared at him, face as bloody as the paths in his mind. "Turn." he spoke slowly, clearly. "Around."

    Slowly she shuffles about, favoring one leg he had kicked hard in the kneecap. He untied her and stared at the strap of leather in his hand before putting in a pouch. She had bound him, by refusing to be set free. He might as well keep the strap to remind himself. Stunned by his own violence, his own anger, he hands her some healing draughts. As though nothing had happened they go back upstairs, he unmarked, her bloodied and bruised from the rain of blows she had endured, had let happen.

    He thinks back to a question she had once asked him. "Would you hurt me if I asked you to?"

    Had she asked?

    Had he asked for this? He feels the strap of leather in his pouch with his left hand and also tightening about his heart. Had he asked?


  • A month passed since the challenge to the Featherflights, More than that since the young buck challenged HIM for the Heyokarr. Jerr was beginning to feel like a caged animal. Always waiting for something to happen but just . . .waiting.

    The pressure was changing him, stretching him out and squeezing him down at the same time. He found he was doing more lessons, for people in the tribes and folks around the fire. Like he was making sure he left a legacy if and when the challenges came to fruition. He told tales of punishments of the tribes and the slow magics of the old ways. Where a spell might take days to cast. The mages laughed and tried to imagine telling goblins to 'hold still' while a fireball ritual was being prepared. Jerr smiled tolerantly and continued with his lessons.

    He tried to make time to be with each of his wives, to do something special for them. He wondered if Nicahh had been given the outfit he had had commissioned from a gypsy seamstress. Lilin had her comb already but now he needed to find something else for her. He nagged the knife maker in Peltarch to speed up the order. He and Amith took a few days away from the Sisterhood and toured each of the places their remaining children lived and spent some time with the kids. Time pressed on and he could feel the wheel turning but he felt disconnected from it now. Finding a quiet grove he and Amith spent a couple of days sleeping out beneath the stars, like they had long ago. They spoke of little things, not the changing of the world but of the proper sharpening of an axe and he could spend hours looking into her eyes or watching the sunlight dapple her hair. They sparred but usually ended in a more closer form of 'combat'.

    It was his grounding, his reconnection to family, that brought him back to his focus and purpose. He returned to the Featherflight camp and started to drum, when he ran out he slept by the fire and would awaken to drum again. He told the Featherflights the old tales, of cross tribal magics, of the sea-less ship, of the threats that had gathered tribes together in the past. He drummed till his hands throbbed and sang till he was hoarse, but still he sung on. One the morning of the third day he stopped in the middle of a song and staggered off to sing up the sun and then headed to Jiyyd to walk and talk and have some ales.

    She was there. So was Natanya. So they both spoke and, when she left, Natanya gave him a kiss goodbye, without his asking. He touched his cheek and looked after her stunned and then Keira drifted closer and just watched him. He looked to her, mind racing with a thousand questions he knew she would not answer. So he did not ask but went to his room in the Sisterhood to sleep like one of the dead, the three days of drumming having taken so much out of him.

    That night the Drow attacked, though he never awoke. His own internal clock brought him up to sing the sun and he found Grag and several others standing before the Sisterhood discussing the Drow attack of the night before. He looked to the east and drummed as the first glimmer of light shot above the towns skyline.

    They THEY attacked, huge spiders whose very presence chilled your heart. Jerr sang to Lathander and was doing a Tempus hymn when something inside stopped him. The drum thudded loudly in the early dawn as he spun, axe flying to his hands and he charged the biggest spider there.

    whack He cut hard on one of the legs as a toxic fang skittered across his leathers, painting a green line on the red and black leathers.

    thudrr The back swing skittered across the thorax of the beast making a slight starring of its hairy shell.

    "never" He panted

    whack

    "interupt"

    Crunch

    "Prayers!"

    He staggered back from the corpse of the beast and looked down at is own injuries with blind eyes. A chant from behind and some of the worse wounds closed but he could still feel the attacks he had been ignoring. "Thanks, Old Cat" He said to Wolf.

    Then she was there again, a red and black shadow of his own form, slim and ethereal. He invited her to walk north with him and they started to talk. For he was looking to all he loved for the grounding . . .


  • He sat down on the edge of his bed and leaned over his wife, Amith, kissing her gently where she rested. Her eyes opened and looked up into his with a questioning look.

    He nods. "I said the challenge to the Featherflights. They now have to decide."

    Arikess had come with him, probably out of boredom more than anything else . . .

    "Greetings Jerr" he called. Jerr nodded and responded, more focussed on the task ahead. "Where are thee headed this day?"

    "Tribal grounds, to see how the recovery progresses." Jerr paused, "and to risk my life."

    "Mind if i come along? I like sight seeing" Arikess paused. " .. . you mentioned risk your life?"

    "Be respectfull before the Featherflights and you are welcome." Jerr nodded. "Risking my life, not yours."

    "Of course , but what do you mean all the same?" Arikess queried.

    Jerr considered the question as he pulled on his armor looking ahead to the plains. "I am challenging for the leadership of the tribe and it is up to them to set the conditions."

    "Right now?" Arikess looked shocked as Jerr nodded. "It is my honor to witness then, Jerr. I will be your witness."

    Jerr smiled and continued looking south. "Carefull out there."

    "I know the road, old one." Arikess smiled.

    Jerr grumbled. "Roads change."

    Arikess snorted then said. "I am surprised none of your closer companions came to support you, isn't this significant?"

    "I didn't ask or say what I was up to." Jerr said as they entered the camp. He ignored Arikess saying somehting about fearless as they were now within the tribal grounds and he was walking slow and steady right through the camp making sure he was seen by all as he did so. He went up the hill to the long house and stepped up to the cliff edge and looked out over those who had started to gather. He unbuckled the leathers and stood there in light clothing. Striking his drum he called out in a commanding voice for them, the call echoed off of the walls of the small canyon. He choked on the first word, so strong was his emotion. He tried again, raising his voice so it filled the area.

    "FEATHERFLIGHTS! A TRIBE WITHOUT A LEADER BECOMES A CHICKEN WITHOUT ITS HEAD, IT MAY MOVE FOR A WHILE BUT IT DIES . . . SLOWLY. I WAS DECLARED SKALD OF THIS TRIBE, I AM A MEMBER OF IT. NOW FORM A COUNCIL, SET THE CONDITIONS OR ANOTHER TO FACE ME FOR IF I HAVE TO CRAM IT DOWN YOUR GULLETS THIS TRIBE WILL HAVE A LEADER. IT WILL GO ON FOR WE ARE NARS

    The challenge was laid, all understood that he was now standing to challenge for the leadership of another tribe. How they would react would remain to be seen. He nodded to Arikess. "Now we go."

    "Notable speech." Arikess said quietly as they walked through the tribe to the stream bed.

    "Short ones are the best. Make your point and give them time to absorb it." Jerr pulled on his armor ass he looked at the archers watching them pass. Inside he wondered if the challenge would be one of archery. He touched his bow, but it wasn't his bow but one made by Eluriel. He made a note to get some more woodworking in and make some more bows for practice work in the gypsy camp. He walmost vibrating on the way back from unreleased tension and it did not go well for the orcs who saw two simple travellers as easy prey. Fists and fireballs soon convinced them that appearing easy is not the same as being easy.


  • He leans against the wall and feels the stone of it rub his arm. Stone, dug from the land is now an outlander tool to section off a part of the countryside. Jerr lays a hand on the stone and sighs. Did HE feel like this? They told him later the description of the caster. Her again.

    A spider walked up the sid eof the wall, a small garden type and Jerr watched it climbing. He nodded. "Yes, they are getting more bold. But why come all the way into town, just to cast a spell on me?" The spider began to spin a web and he absently watched it as he stayed to the shadows and also watched the great gaping hole where a gate once stood. The web was a fine complex little thing and he let the message it brought sink in.

    "No, not me, but maybe what I am doing . . . " He looked at the gate as Theon came through and said nothing, lost in thought. "Many are talking to the Yuan Ti, so it is not that. What makes me different?" Strand after strand the spider wove as the old skald watched. "The tribes? Why would they care who is chief? Unless . . . " His eyes narrowed. ". . .oh…"

    He swung his drum to the front and started to play softly a thanks for the guidance and focus the spirits sent to him. Right or wrong he had a reason for himself and a direction to go.


  • _"Now!" She hissed with delight as the flower wilted before the fires dim flames. "He is weak. Most likely in battle."

    The large warrior on the opposite side of the fire nodded. "And there will be no sign?"

    She threw the flowers and a poison sack into the flames and they burnt swiftly with a black flame and white smoke. "He is old, the flower of his youth long behind him. He will know nothing save that he is dying. It will seem that his final season came upon him, as your people say."

    The warriors topknot bobbed as he nodded. "Well past, it is, I'd say. Old fool just did not know when to stop._

    Jerr staggered as the pain took him. Keira watched him, cautious that it was not some sort of trick. He fell for the first time as the pain brought him down like a puppet with its strings cut.

    _"And you will recall our deal."

    The young buck nods and spits into the fire. "I am no snake lover. Thius is a battle between the outlanders and not for us. We will not take part, as nothing has attacked our camps. Outlanders do not belong here."

    "I thought you said that you were going to take the widows" she muses.

    "Take them, not keep them." He brags, puffing up his chest. "They are only good for one thing. After that they can go and take any halfbreeds I get upon them with them. The old fool was diluting the tribe, weakening us. Now he pays the price. I am sure they will be thankfull for my attention after being married to that fat oaf, so lost in the 'old ways' he might even have been stupid enough to take from them what was rightfully his." Again he spits on the flower writhing in the flames. "I will take what I want and then send them on their way."_

    He struggled to sit up and fell again, his left arm refusing to obey him. Keira propped him up and gave him something to chew on, woody, He gnawed on it and wheezed. She sat behind him and held him up with her own body weight, asking questions. He struggled to stay awake and answer them but it was a haze of pain, and numbness. The fire guttered low and even the young buck had run out of things to brag about. The darkness of the cave was a blessing to her, but slowly sapping his spirit, as she planned. She reinforced the promises and he nodded, not noticing the added layer of geas she laid with the final smoke from the fire. He would be theirs, and through him, the tribes. For now they would be removed from play, later they would fall, each in its own time, at the hands of one of their own.

    She carried him from the inn to Vrokas on her shoulders, he lying like a dead man, which he almost was. Vroka pointed off to the infirmary and Keira dumped him on a bed and then sat at the foot of it. Calm eyes watched him slowly dying, shutters on a closed soul.

    Vroka eventually came in and examined him. She cast one spell and then another. "When he get bit?"

    Keira looked up. "I . . . bit?"

    "Spider, by looks of it. He be poisoned bad. You in the queen cave?"

    Keira's expression did not change. "You can cure him?"

    Vroka nods, not caring about where he actually was hurt. It will cost 100 gold. I have potions for this. But you wait long time to bring him in. He should be dead.

    Keira nods. "Yes, but he isn't." She looks down on the sleeping face. "He should be, but he isn't." Her eyes reveal nothing as she looks on the face and rubs her forearm, the her neck.

    In the ashes of a distant fire, deep within a cave, a rose showed a last bit of green and red. Slowly the flower opened and the smell of the foul smoke was replaced with the scent of flowers and an open field, of the land above. But nobody was there to take note of it, in the darkness.

    Jerr eyes opened and he looked up at the ceiling and whispered. "i am dragon"


  • He sat by the fountain and listened to the ethereal winds howl at one of the doors. Slowly he turned the axe over in his hands and buffed it lightly with a cleaning cloth. He hadn't used it much lately, SHE had encouraged him to learn to use his hands and his feet. And she had been there when the challenge came.

    They had been in the Baths. It was a place where Jerr could relax, get away from it all and soak. Nobody bothered him there. Unless he invited the source of the bother. There she was right beside him, wearing something next to nothing.

    Selula coughed discreetly. “Excuse me”

    Jerr looked up, surprised. “No worries”

    She smiled and looked slightly embarrassed. “Someone is here”

    Jerr looked about and smiled. “It is a big pool.”

    She shook her head. 'They want to speak with you, they were rather insistent.”

    Jerr sighed and nodded, swiped the water from his body and pulled on a gypsy tunic. He was worried and almost didn't notice that Keira had also exited the bath. He followed Selula to the outer room where one of the Heyokarr awaited, sneering at the plush surroundings.

    Jerr smiled easily and greeted him. “Heyas”

    The sneer turned and focused on him. The tribesman's eyes narrowed. “You are soft and this proves it. A tribe is only as strong as its leader"

    Selula resorted some towels and pretended not to hear.

    Jerr shrugged. “Bathing before a festival?” His eyes narrowed, ignoring the quiet pad of feet behind him. “ . . .and?”

    “Tempus will decide our leader. I challenge you for the leadership of the Heyokarr tribe.” The words were almost spat out.

    Jerr felt a calmness flow into him. He had known this was coming, now here it was. “Of course you do.”

    “And the chiefs wives.”

    Jerr managed not to snort, barely. He ignored the add on and spoke formally. “As is the old ways I name the conditions.”

    The tribesman nodded. “I await your conditions.”

    Jerr thought for a moment and smiled, looking at the axe on the tribesman's shoulder. “You name the weapon, I will give you that. The strength of the tribe is its people so any within the tribe may bless or strengthen you or me as they decide. Once the battle commences it is you and me, no armor. Now, what weapons?”

    “The great axe” The tribesman frowned when Jerr chuckled. “If you can even lift one, at your age.”

    Jerr smiled lazily. “I think I can find one of those. There will be a festival, they will have a fighting ring set up we might as well use it, no?”

    “I am not going to shame you in front of so many. We will meet in a proper ring, blessed by our gods. Not as some spectacle for others.”

    Jerr smiled wider. “I appreciate your discretion. send word when it is ready. I will come as will my wives” a finger lances straight at the tribesman. “and you bring your friends.”

    “I will bring our people, so they may see what you have led us to.” The sneer was back.

    “As the old ways require, so shall it be.” Jerr intoned formally and watched as the tribesman left. “damn”

    Each wife took it differently. Nicahh took it in stride “It was bound to happen.” Amith was blunt and to the point. “It is a challenge. Face the challenge. Let Tempus decide.” He was asleep in the tent when she carefully took his axe and put a better edge on it. Lilin asked the most questions, looked the most concerned. All promised to be there if they could.

    Keira would have shown up. He knew that. He did discourage her one statement. “If there is a new chief, his will be a short term.”

    But it made his heart sing, the dragon in him roared agreement as the tribal side of him explained that would only weaken the tribe further.

    But the song was still there, the roar of defiance. He looked down at the axe in his hands and nodded. Not easily would he leave the tribe. Now, or ever.

    Old? Weak? Soft? A wolfish smile crossed his face as he looked to the door where the winds still howled. “I am dragon. Let him come.”


  • Jerr looked in the mirror at the blood trails coming out of his ears and back into his hair. It was that bad, he thought. Spending a few moments cleaning up did not change anything, he could hear nothing but ringing. He looked at eyes haunted by the fear of this not being a passing thing and then turned from the mirror and walked back to his room.

    He sat on the bed, turning a scroll over in his hands, not looking at it. The explosion had not been that violent but he had been right on top of the second one. After that the sight of the crowd had been too much and he had wandered out out to where the south gate sometimes was where he sat and watched over the lake, waiting for the ringing in his ears to fade.

    But it didn't.

    Later, Genzir and a group of others had wandered by and gestured for him to follow. From what he could make out from the lips they were heading for a cave.

    He hated caves.

    But he wanted to know if he could handle the ringing in a combat situation, so he followed along. A stop at the grove and Raisa and Tindra worried over him some. Raisa gave him a scroll that might cure the deafness but he was afraid to try it. Afraid of it not working. It was tucked in the scroll case along with assorted other scrolls he pack ratted away.

    He hated caves and it was worse, deaf.

    His songs and contact with the weave seemed a chancy thing. If he focused his intent then some of his most oft used songs flowed out naturally, but he was hesitant to try. From the winces he could tell that his voice was off, so he drummed the sun and prayed for forgiveness of the gods. Ilmater was the third.

    But he was still deaf.

    The cave was almost a relief. The enemies attacked and Jerr met them with his axe. It did not require voice or hearing. Just a strong back and a steady hand. That he had. But it was like he was alone in a crowd. Nobody spoke to him, he could see that they were talking but they did not include him, he supposed it was too much work. So he followed along, but if he was distracted they would all head off and he would have to cast about to find them again, he would not hear them go. Ting guided him now and again but she seemed . . .distant.

    maybe it was him

    maybe it was what he was . . . .becoming

    deaf

    less than a full man

    not worth taking along

    when they left the caves they came up through Oscura. His feet knew the way and he wound up sitting next to Dirge. The well he could still hear. But he had always known it was not a sound but the essence of sound. The screams were almost a comfort, something to drown out the ringing.

    nobody noticed

    nobody came after him

    not worth it

    he wandered south, wrapping himself in the weave he did not bother clearing hobbies but just glided by them his head full of sound, his ears full of blood

    it was the same in Jiyyd, people would come and go and be talking, but not to him. not worth it, he supposed

    Keira

    She stopped, sat beside him, faced him to mouth words clearly so they could talk. It was like warmth to a man on the big ice. He took in her face, her lips, everything.

    He stood to sing the sun up and then returned to her and put his head in her lap. He didn't need to be spoken to, just noticed. The peace he found let muscles he had been tensing slowly relax and exhaustion flowed into him. She had her hand resting on his neck, after having traced his ear. He wished he could purr like a wolf.

    tired, he returned to the sisterhood

    and now here he was, a scroll in hand and fear choking him so much he was afraid to try to read it in case he got the words wrong.

    he lay back on the bed and stared at the ceiling

    that is where Amith found him, later, asleep, scroll still loose in his fingers. Frowning she pulled it out and looked at it, then at him.

    "Old fool." she said in Elven.

    He did not move

    She shouted it and he made not a twitch.

    She looked down at the scroll again and back at him.

    and began to read . . . .


  • Awaking in the tower, the door shimmering to the left, he found a moments peace. It was something he had sorely needed for a very long time. Always running from one errand to the next, grabbing naps at the edge of camps. He said hello to many folks but he did not stay long enough to be touched by any of them. Except.

    Keira

    He shook his head. Just coincidence, they had the same friends and went the same places. It is not like he was following her or she was following him . . . change the subject. He stared at the ceiling and tried.

    Natanya.

    William was still on his case and he had tried to explain. He had started to apologise to her only to have her rebuff him and walk away. Well, what did he expect? "be persistent" William had said. "You're good at that." William was right. But Jerr thought that William was more a Paladin than many who clanked about in their shells of metal and self righteousness.

    Keira wasn't self righteous.

    Change

    Neither was Laucien. Poor lad. Jerr had yet to figure out who or what the boy was in love with but he was fairly sure that it was at or very near the level of soul bond. With a dead woman. Not good. But while hope remained, Lauc would stay alive. Jerr had met Dianna once but she had focussed all her attention on the lad. The trip into old Aarnath had been rough and Jerr was still puzzling over why there. Keira had been along as well as Yuna whom Jerr still thought of as the Wild Child but was now a student of Keira's.

    Damn, back to her again. He looked around the room and thought about the long meeting he and Genzir had just finished, hours before. This could go right or very very wrong. Dealing with the Yuan Ti was like juggling blades. Impressive if done right but bloody if done wrong. This was a nice quiet room, warded and locked. If he couldn't get home he would stay here, to recharge, every now and again. But he recharged best when in the arms of Amith.

    Now there was a subject change.

    She was his anchor. The one constant in his life. She had taken the remains of his old axe and made him the new one. Slowly he drew the axe and laid it on his lap. And there the problem lay. The Drow had killed Besk, out in the fields and Jerr had been part of the recovery team. But getting Besks things to save them from the Drow had been a difficult task. Damn if some of the chests were not empty and others filled with ore. Unbalancing was not the word . . . hellish was. He struggled to save what he could and step by step he had headed back to the town.

    and dropped his axe

    his axe

    the axe

    the load was too much, he couldn't pick it up and so he stood over it trying to reallocate the load so he could get a hand free.

    Keira was there . . . she was always there.

    With a simple word she picked it up and followed him. So focussed on the load and the drow that may be watching, he let her. Let her carry his axe. The axe. When they got into town she waited by the gate and he took the load in to where Besk was to be raised by Vroka. Only once he was unloaded did it hit him. He staggered back outside and there she stood, holding it for him. She made some joke about he being without a weapon and her with. Holding his axe.

    decades earlier

    "For some of you it will be the sword, others the blade, most" the old weapons master smiled, "the axe. You will have one that will be yours. If you rise and honor yourself and the tribe, you might carry a family axe, and with it travels the honor of your family. That axe will be passed down through the generations and be known as an axe of your house. The Chief, well he carries the tribal axe. With it comes the honor of the tribe. He carries it and it strengthens him, reminds him of who he is."

    A young chubby skald in training looked up. "Is that the greatest weapon then?"

    "No Jerr. There are Nars Weapons. Ones that cross the boundaries of Tribe. They belong to the land and they carry the most responsibility. Ask your master about the greatsword that travelled north to fight the giants. Or about the Hammer of the Deep that one of our ancestors took to stop the Dark Dwarves by dropping a mine on them. Each of those weapons were not of a tribe but for all the tribes. We speak in reverence of the War Bear and his sword, The Smith and his Hammer. Other weapons are in our histories. Most were made in a time when the whole land was threatened. The men and women who carried them shouldered a heavy burden indeed. They knew to lose, the battle or the weapon, would bring shame upon us all. No harder task is there than to keep such a weapon."

    fade to present

    Tears dropped softly onto the haft of the axe as he remembered. He wanted to think that HIS was a Nars weapon but he had let her hold it as though it were a trinket accidentally dropped. He hadn't even thought about it.

    But now he had to.

    and soon he would have to make decisions

    the tears stopped falling and his face hardenned. Too many loads had almost turned him from doing the right thing. Like the walk across that field carrying ore and empty boxes he had focussed on the now and ignored the storm to come. Tried to ignore his own heart.

    Paladins, wrapped in their self righteousness. They did not know focus and sacrifice. Mages, locked in their towers would not know the study of an enemy. A few might know the willingnness to walk onto a blade, to get to the throat of an enemy. But they had not seen a Dragon fight.

    Taking the emotion, the resolve, he wrapped it up deep inside of himself. Only a bit of anger remained on the surface and he hoped that an enemy met him before a friend did.

    There was much to be done. Debts to be resolved. Empty boxes to be dropped and ore, handed off to others.

    he would not be foolhardy

    or a fool

    anymore.

    he was Dragon

    he was Nars