3. A Quest for Tyr - Kara Willendt's Diary

A Quest for Tyr - Kara Willendt's Diary


  • ((::pouts:: Aww.. I missed it. ah well.. ^.^ Cera will happy that her Mommy is better! Or at elast getting better! She will have to find a way to thank Ly?Ahnna for returning her Mommy to health.))


  • Entry 97 –

    I had a strange dream just now. I heard a voice call my name, a woman’s voice. But the name she called was not Kara Willendt, nor was it Amara Cal’Nuik. Yet it felt like it was MY name. “TrueHeart.” That’s what the woman’s voice called me. It rang through every inch of my body, I could feel it resonate in me. I am TrueHeart.

    She called out my name a few times, asking me to come to her. I wanted to so badly, but I was trapped. Somebody was keeping me from being able to leave. I couldn’t tell who or what, but something seemed familiar, deep down in my soul. My captor suddenly lunged at the woman, demanding she leave. The woman flinched at the sudden threat; she obviously didn’t expect it. She tried to reason with her assailant, but he loudly refused, exclaiming that I was his.

    His voice sounded full of anger, but underneath I could feel love, belonging, wanting to be together. Again, I could not shake the thought that I knew him. At first, I though it may be Braeth, that I somehow driven him to desperate means to keep onto me. I dismissed it almost as immediately as I thought it. I knew Braeth would do no such thing.

    The woman, who was becoming more familiar to me as I watched, then took a step back and asked my possessor to tell her about me. I could feel and see some visions that he projected to her, I must’ve been watching so closely that they came to me as well. The visions were memories, old memories from a distant time. A name seemed to stick out, “BearHunter.”

    As soon as the name hit me, I was suddenly flooded with memories of my own. These two were from the same ancient time. Memories of another life, yet they were very clearly my own. I saw myself marrying a man who had become a great leader. We had a family with many children. My husband loving me dearly, and his pride at his many conquests. And then he was killed in a desperate battle…

    I shook my head, trying to regain my senses. I looked up at my captor, and saw that this was BearHunter, and I was his TrueHeart. My heart ached in sadness as I realized how tortured he was, being stuck in a state of limbo. His love for me made him refuse to return to the gods, and now he found me in a new incarnation and longed for me so much as to try to force me to stay with him.

    The woman told him he needed to let me go. She told him that I will cease to be if he does not. That I’d die and he’ll only lose me again as I return to my god. As I listened to her, I began to realize who she was. This was Ly’Ahnna, the spirit guide that promised to help me.

    Unfortunately, BearHunter refused to believe what she was saying. He was so desperate to feel my love again that he couldn’t bring himself to accept the truth. He lashed out at her and she almost faded from sight. But she regained her composure, and then asked to bargain. I tried to call out to him, tell him to listen to her, I’m not sure if he heard me. But he did stop, though his anger permeated the air.

    “Let go of TrueHeart and I will see she brings you peace.”

    I begged him to agree, that I would bring him the peace he so much deserves. He took his time to decide, but finally let me go and handed me over to Ly’Ahnna. She touched me with her binding stone, and suddenly I found myself awake in my bed.

    I sat up quickly, surprised to find myself back in my room at the inn. The dream seemed so real, so vivid. I grabbed the binding stone I wore around my neck, and it felt warm. That was no dream. It was real. I was whole again. I already was feeling a bit better.

    I can also remember what happened when I died now. It makes so much sense. I’ll continue in the morning. I just wanted to write down this dream right now so I won’t forget it.

    
Alright, now to write about what I can now remember of that night I died.

Safinez, Moonblade, and I just left Norwick for a trip to Jiyyd. We ran into Scyth on our travels, and he wanted to join us, but wanted to get some food first. So we waited just north of the partial wall, fending off bandits who lurked in the area. Just as Scyth returned, I suddenly felt odd, like something grabbed me. My body felt a jerk, and suddenly the world fogged over and my friends disappeared. Some spirit was holding me captive. He had a familiar look about him, and I could sense he was a barbian when he was a living person, and he seemed big and burly. I tried to fight back, as I was scared for my life, but the spirit was too strong.

My body felt uncomfortable in this new realm I found myself in. It started as an odd twist in my gut, but it soon grew and grew until my body felt in pain. It was like my body wasn’t meant to be in this other world, and was suffering from it. I couldn’t understand why I was just kidnapped by a spirit, and cried from a combination of fear and pain.

Another spirit approached. This is the one I remembered originally. The one with a misty form of a man with blue lights for eyes. He argued with the spirit that kidnapped me, demanded that I be returned. He was quickly refused, but he braved the odds and lunged at me. Both spirits grabbed onto me, and my pain increased as I was now being pulled into two directions. The blue-eyed spirit suddenly reversed his pull and the suddenly change lossened the barbarian spirit’s grip on me some. The blue-eyed spirit then spun quickly, which wraped my arms around him and yanked me back into the land of Narfell.

But something didn’t go right. My body didn’t feel good, like it was all twisted up in various ways inside. The blue-eyed spirit then tried to talk to me. I could hear him tell me that he was a spirit of Hope, and that I was like him. Told me that I would become important to this world, and wanted to help me. I looked into his eyes, and saw that he indeed was like me. The eyes, they shined with Hope.

The spirit then looked about and tried told me to run, yelling at me that bandits were surrounding me. I was alone, except for the spirit, and had a half-dozen bandits learing at me. I tried to move, but my body was so traumatized by the shift into the other world and back that I couldn’t run, couldn’t cast properly, couldn’t swing my weapon well. The bandits quickly cut me down using wolf pack tactics.

I then found my soul heading for the Fugue plane, but that barbarian spirit made another grab for me at the same time, and succeeded in getting a handhold. And thus my spirit became stuck between worlds when Amissa had Raised me, and that was the cause of my illness.

_((OOC - A big thank you to Wolfhere for not only figuring out Kara's problem (along with Yhesail) and coming up with a solution, but also providing some interesting comments and ideas that changed and added to this little plot I have instore for Kara. I truly think the plot is much better with the adjustments made.))_

  • Entry 96 –

    I think things are finally looking up.

    I'm still sick of course, and the dizziness is stronger. Especially when I move to quickly. The sensation of moving yet not moving is unbearable, in fact, I think I start seeing in two directions at once when it happens as I'm turning. Yet I hold on and have hope I'll get better. I've been in situations that are just as dire and have come through and have learned and grown stronger from them. I'm sure the same will happen here.

    That damned wild magic almost killed me though. A flash of magic engulfed Amissa, Bram, and myself as we stood by the well. It harmed and dazed me, which REALLY felt terrible seeing as I'm already prone to dizziness. The harmful flash was followed by a huge fireball, the pain of which was immeasurable. The last time I've felt such pain was when I was killed the night Justinia was turned into a succubus. I thought I had died again, but instead I found myself healed of my wounds. Bram and I quickly stepped away from the well, but Amissa seemed unable to move at all, and then she vanished! Yhesail and some of her friends came over to see me, and then Bram vanished, and the wild magic suddenly turned my skin into stone! And then a circle of flames engulfed the square, thankfully we all were out of it. Oh, and some flashy lights over the No Casting Sign.

    We quickly decided to leave the area, and headed to the Friar's house. There a lady by the name of Ly’Ahnna had stopped me. I’ve been used to people stopping me and asking if I was alright, usually when I have a coughing fit, but she said something that startled me. “Her aura is black and troubled,” she said. It made me wonder about the nature of my illness. Considering it came upon me after being Raised from death, could something be wrong with my spirit? She took me to the south gate, where the wild magic doesn’t reach. The lady then hung a stone on a thong around my neck, and pressed another into the ground under me. She then pulled out a knife and traced a circle around me. Ly’Ahnna announced that there was now a minor circle of protection, and asked me how I felt. If my malady was being caused by outside forces, then I should have been feeling better. Alas, I still felt sick.

    Ly’Ahnna then sat retrieved her stones and sat down and asked me to tell her what happened. I told her everything. My vanishing according to Scyth, the spirit I saw, the pain I felt, how my body was found… She listened very patiently, asking a question here and there. I described exactly how I’ve been feeling, the coughing, dizziness, how it sometimes feels like I’m moving but my body isn’t. Yhesail then voiced what I think Ly’Ahnna was thinking as well. My soul is not correctly bound to my body. Ly’Ahnna said she could help me. She pulled out two stones, saying they were binding stones. She put one around my neck and said that when she had the strength, she would spirit walk and collect the remnants of my damaged soul with the other stone she kept. She said it will take time though. I appreciate her help, and if it will take some time then I’ll glady wait if it means I will get better. In the meantime, I need to be careful to keep my soul from getting weaker.

    I have faith in Ly’Ahnna. Jenna says that she helped her friend Robyn when she was in a similar situation. Ly’Ahnna’s a spirit guide.

    Oh, did I mention that Garen and another person wanted by the militia have been captured? I pray to Tyr that Justice is swift and hard on these two horrible people.

    I also met an interesting woman named Ariel. She is very precise with her movements as if each slight gesture had a purpose and a meaning to it. Her way with words reflects this too, and she is quite poetic in her speaking. She seems to have come up with her own names for people. I’m “Flame Haired Dove,” Kanen is “Heart of Iron,” and Yhesail is “Child of the Moon.” Ariel invited me to see a great sight, and let me into the woods and stopped in a field. The clear night sky lit the field with the light of the stars and the moon. Yhesail followed us, worried for me. Ariel asked us to dowse any lights and ask us what we saw. We both responded about the light of the stars and moon shining down.

    Suddenly, a beam of moonlight light up Ariel. Her regular clothes seemed to have vanished, replaced by a translucent robe. She looked quite beautiful. She pulled out a sword, and began to dance and sing. The song seemed to surround us, and the sword sang through the air. Her dancing was spectacular and her singing wonderous. I could not help but just stand and stare in awe at the performance. She told us after that she was a follower of Eilistraee, her Lady Silverhair. I can’t say I know the goddess, but Yhesail seems to. Perhaps I can ask about this Lady Silverhair sometime.

    The next day, which would be today actually, I saw a little pixie flying by the well. I called out to her, since she looked so pretty and was the only being hanging about that didn’t look like a total bore. It turned out that the pixie was Cera! She had used a spell to take the form of a pixie. Her talent with magic amazes me. She mentioned she wanted to take me with her to the Winds to see Tyr. Ah, my dear Cera. She loves me so much, always wanting to help me out. I think she tried to do something, for a bright flash surrounded her, and she didn’t look good and fell to the ground. Whatever happened, it nearly killed her! I picked her up and brought her into the inn so that I could heal her. I got her in there just in time too, for as I started healing her, she changed back into her usual form.

    I told her about my previous day, and how somebody will be helping me feel better. She still wants to help though, I think. She’d rather I not suffer another day being sick. My dear, loving, Cera… Arianeria also talked with us. Again, I make another person worry about my sickness. A dwarf I never met had even stopped to ask if I was alright. Maybe I should stay in my room until Ly’Ahnna is done and has me fixed. I feel so bad at making everybody worry about me.

    I will get better, I know it.


  • Entry 95 –

    Scyth was trying to help me remember what happened when I died. There’s gotta be a clue somewhere in that lost memory for why I have this illness now. I tried to meditate and bring myself into the memories of that night. It worked, fortunately and unfortunately. I could remember being alone with the spirit, he seemed to be trying to tell me something. But my body was wracked with pain, it was like something was trying to pull me apart. Just remembering it in such a deep meditation caused me to writhe in agony again.

    Cera also stopped to see me. She’s worried at how sick I am. Her and I threw Scyth for a loop though. He looked so dumbfounded when she called me Mommy that I couldn’t help but giggle. Not that I blame him for his confusion. After all, Cera appears to be about the same age as me. In fact, she is older than me. And she doesn’t look like me at all. I can imagine his thoughts, “How can she be her mother?” I shall have to explain the full story sometime.

    But I really do feel like her Mommy sometimes, with the way we care for each other.


  • Entry 94 –

    I’m still feeling awful. The coughing, the dizziness, the nausea, the feeling that I’m moving but my body isn’t… I keep praying to feel better.

    I felt Safi’s spirit yesterday, felt that she died. It saddens me, as she was a nice person to know. Scyth also told me that Nour died. I barely knew them, but the little bit I have spent with them was time spent with two people who obviously loved life.

    Speaking of new friends, I’ve also gotten to enjoy being with Lillianna and Scyth. Especially Lilly. We share something in commen, we both grew up in Waterdeep! Well, I grew up in a nearby village, but still. I’m afraid I made them worry for me with my illness. Ah, but it’s nice to have friends who care.

    It was funny though. As Scyth and Lilly saw me to bed after I had fainted in the Inn, Scyth had mentioned I just disappeared when the night I had died. I was with Safi, Moonblade, and he joined us and then I simply vanished? It got me thinking again, trying to remember what happened. A spirit, for some reason I remember seeing a spirit with glowing blue eyes. The odd thing about those eyes though, it was as if I was looking into my own.

    I think I felt the same spirit watching over me as I slept.


  • Entry 93 –

    Ugh, I died again. I feel so sick right now. My insides feel all twisted up, and I’ve got a bad cough.

    I wish I could remember what happened. I know I was heading out to Jiyyd with Safi and Moonblade, and I think I even remember joining up with Scyth, but then my memory blanks out. All I can think of is seeing some kind of spirit with shining, blue eyes. The next thing I remember is waking up in the Friar’s house with Amissa and Braeth standing over me.

    Damn bandits. But why do I feel so sick from dying?

    I did get to talk to Berret today. I had received another letter from her before that had me worried about her, so I did my best to try to make her feel better. Silly me, I’m coughing away and making her worry about me, and all I’m thinking of is trying to make her feel better about herself.

    Oh, I’m feeling dizzy again… I better stop and get some sleep.


  • Entry 92 –

    I received a letter from Berret. She had some concerns about that barbarian. She had traveled with him and they were attacked by a beast and he was killed. She was shocked to see him alive, and she didn’t like the way he spoke to her on that day I arrested him. She feared he may blame her for his death. She also supsects a dark power brought him back to life. So, she was asking for me to keep an eye on him. I wrote back that I would help out, and also told the rest of the militia to keep an eye on the man after he was let out of jail.

    Later in the day, I met a champion of Lathander named Ormath, and a friend of his who is a priest of Torm named Bram. Together, we decided to take care of some of the undead that haunt the Norwick family crypt. Bram unfortunately got called away, but Ormath and I decided to continue. Before we got too far in the crypt, we ran into a strange man in the dark. I must say, I got a bad vibe from him. It was the way he chuckled at me. I wish I had my light spell cast on me so I could get a better look at him. He seemed to be a tall person, but that’s about all I could say.

    Ormath and I took good care of all the undead on the first level of the crypt, and we decided to go down to the second. But my warnings about the next floor being tougher were true. We didn’t get to far, as we were attacked by a half dozen undead, each retaining some skill from their former lives. Fortunately, my faith in Tyr was strong enough to hold them at bay and we were able to retreat in relative safety.

    ((OOC - All caught up! Yay!))


  • Entry 91 –

    I began the day meeting up with Berret and her friends at the Inn. What a happy lot of people. Well, one was a bit sad at the lose of some friends, but even she got into our little impromtu party. Let's see, there was Berret, Scutum, Nour, Saf, and myself. Oh, a woman named Lillianna, Lilly for short, also joined us, and another too, Khaya was it? Anyhow, we has a few drinks, joked around, laughed a bit. Twas all in good fun. Except we had one half-orc that barged in rudely, and there was a few guys that approached that seemed interested in all the ladies at first, but then not, but then again. I have to agree with Saf, men are too quick to make a decision.

    While I was enjoying myself, Braeth approached. I could instantly feel the tension in the air rise. Nothing bad really, just an uneasiness. We talked about some stuff relating to the Alliance. He voiced concerns that the Alliance has been stagnant. I can’t deny it, we have been. Of course, we’ve had a rough time since Vahsere left. The Soldier position seems to always be losing it’s council member, and then there was me going bonkers… I reassured him that the guild is starting to gain momentum. One thing that bothered me is that he said nobody has been talking to him about guild business. He feels kept out of the loop. I hope he doesn’t think that I’m the cause of it. I certainly want him in the loop.

    But the rough part of our conversation came when he started talking to my new friends. They really got into a big debate about politics, the bandits, the threat of the well, where priorities should go… It was a very heated discussion, and I hope that my friends didn’t get the wrong impression of the Alliance. Much of Braeth’s opinions came from things he’s learned in the Phoenix guild. I will say that is seemed like he later made up with Lilly afterward.

    Somebody then called for our help. A person was trapped in Wald’s storehouse and needed help. Those rats can be viscous. After some people rescued an elf, I was again talking to Berret and her friends by the well. Suddenly I hear Braeth and the elf that was rescued talking to a barbarian, accusing the man of looting the unconscious body of the elf. I had to step into the situation, and Jorg also joined in. We had the man arrested, since he admited that he looted the elf and then spent all the money he took. The nerve of the guy. He also made a few comments to Berret, but I didn’t catch them. I didn’t like his tone though.

    After that, some other people needed help at the storehouse. Something really needs to be done about those rats!

    Braeth and the others got into a discussion with Fine about him keeping a hawk all caged up. After talking to Fine, Braeth and my friends then continued to debate about animal rights, and then back to the original arguments. Braeth got so mad at one point he started to threaten. Of course, Saf was calling Sker a slave of Braeth’s. She doesn’t understand that the panther is his friend. She only follows him for the same reasons any of us would follow our friends. And of course the big issue in both debates was Braeth hinting that there was a serious situation connected to the problems of the well, but wouldn’t say anymore of it because the knowledge could be dangerous in the wrong hands. Finally, what ended up happening was that Braeth invited Saf and Nour to his house to talk to Saf about it in private. I came too, more to reassure Saf that Braeth wouldn’t do anything. While the two talked in elven, I hung out with Nour and kept her busy. Nour and Saf are fun people. Okay, so they like to wear skimpy clothing.

    Actually, Nour convinced me to put on this very skimpy outfit. That showed off not only my bosom, but my legs as well! Her plan was to try to distract Braeth and Saf from their serious conversation. I think it worked in the end eventually. I’m a bit nervous as to what Braeth thought of it though. Oh well, it was just that once.


  • ((OOC - So much for soon, eh? Well, I got this up, I wonder if I can manage to continue to get the last diary entry up there? Ug, and it'll be a long one. Perhaps I won't play Kara tonight, it'll keep me from continuing this backlog of diary entries.))

    Entry 90 –

    Today I met a woman named Yhesail, who Fishel has just recruited to the Alliance. She’s a priestess of Selune. We had a wonderful chat with each other. I must say I like her. She’s got a good head on her shoulders and a kind heart.

    Later in the day while I was patrolling by the south gate of town. I suddenly heard a cry of help come from the forest. I left the town and tried to find whoever was calling out. He sounded like he was in pain. I immediately started to stumble my way through the dark, following the voice as it called out. Soon I found the source, and a couple of other people, one being a halfling by the name of Drago, who beat me to the fallen and helped him back up. There were some goblin corpses lying about too. I was glad to see the person rescued.

    Afterward I ran into Janu while I patrolled the town. It’s been some time since I talked to him. We talked about my victory over Devon, Braeth and I splitting up, what I plan to do now, his search for signs of his father’s murderer… He also mentioned that Telyle is missing. I shall keep them in my prayers tonight. While Janu and I talked, I heard somebody casting magic, which of course triggered the Wild Magic to twist the spell. Instead of what I think was a healing spell, a blast of cold shot out from me (even though I did not cast the magic) and hurt some people around me, including Janu. A bench was also damaged so much that one couldn’t sit in it. I tried to find the culprit, but he must have run away. Good thing too, he would’ve been facing a fine for sure.

    After my lovely chat with Janu, I continued my patrols and came upon Jenna with some friends of hers. Berret was there, as well as a few people I had recently met the other day, and some new people too. They were all going up to Peltarch. I decided to join them, since part of the reason they were going was to see the theatre. I don’t know what made me want to see the theatre. Perhaps because it reminds me of my mother. I do miss my family very much. I think I also hoped to see Reginald. We had a good group going. There was Jenna, Drago, a halfling named Scutum, an elf named Stealth, Berret, a half-elf named Nour (I cannot spell nor pronounce her full name, it must be elven), and another named Safinaz. We got to the first valley, and ran into Cera and Coin! Unfortunately, something came up that required me to head back to Norwick, so I was not able to continue on the trip.

    Which is too bad. I really would have liked to spend more time with Jenna. While we have many differences in how we carry ourselves about, she is a very fun person to be around. It’s hard not to be smiling when you are near her. Lliira chose well in calling Jenna to her service.


  • ((OOC - Wow. I've gone without posting in here for quite a few days, eh? I just have been a bit burnt out on writing for Kara I guess. And I likely will again. After this entry, I still need to do one more diary entry, and then also work on the "big" story of Devon's Keep. I think taking the break from writing for Kara helped a bit though. At least I put up a pretty good profile of Tindra for all of you to enjoy! (located in the Character Profile thread.) Well, enjoy, and hopefully I'll get the next entry up soon.))

    Entry 89 -

    I was greated with a big surprise when I left the Inn today. Kanen was smiling! I mean REALLY smiling! I haven't seen him give that big of a smile in… well... I don't think ever. It was so nice to see him to be not all grim and serious. And the reason for his happiness? Seven's returned! He says she's doing pretty good. I'm so happy. I wonder when Jade will show up.

    I also traveled up to the Gypsy Camp today. I thought it'd be good of me to visit Cera and Coin. She's doing very well. She's got a neat little trick she does now. She went and drew little glowing pictures on back of my hand. They shimmered through a pretty rainbow of colors. She did the same to Coin and Jenna.

    Kanen's happy again. Cera's happy again. Friends I thought dead are coming back. The guild is starting to get active again. Boy, things really are starting to look good around here. Well, mostly good. I still feel a bit bad about breaking up with Braeth. He seems to be handling it well though.

    One odd thing though. I've been having a few odd dreams at night lately. Not unpleasant, but they sometimes seem repetitive. Whenever I wake up from them, I get the feeling that somebody's watching me, but for some reason it doesn't feel threatening. I wonder what it could be? Another spirit contacting me?

    ((Yes, a bit of forshadowing about something I want to do with my character. You'll get a better picture of what is happening when I finish my big story. If this somehow catches a DM's interest, I ask that the DM in question please contact me before throwing anything at me related to this, as I have some very specific ideas as to what is going on.))


  • Entry 88 –

    I left the inn this morning, still feeling very glum. I just couldn’t get over the fact that we had to kill our friends. I know that their souls are free now, but we really wanted to rescue them. I wonder how the others are taking it.

    I passed Braeth by the well. I had wanted to say something to him about the wanted posters of him I saw in Peltarch but seeing as he was engaged in a conversation with two dwarves, I decided to not nag him about it for now. I really didn’t want to make a huge scene. So I continued to walk toward the Friar’s.

    Outside I saw Jenna. She was being her usual happy self as she greeted me. She thought that I should talk to Kanen since he seemed especially sad. I’m surprised she didn’t notice my own sadness. Still, I figured it might be good to talk to Kanen, as we both were participants in the ordeal. I entered the Friar’s house where Jenna said Kanen was.

    After greeting Kanen, he gave me a shock. Steele’s alive. He was found near the well. I couldn’t believe it. Steele alive? Suddenly, I felt my mood lighten and hope start pumping through my veins. “Could that mean Jade and Seven are also alive?” I asked myself. Kanen must have seen my eyes brighten, because he made a comment about there being hope the others are alive. He also told me that Steele fully remembers what happened. The paladin of Torm fears that his god will reject him. I feel that I should talk to him. While Steele commited more heinous acts than I did when I let my Anger possess me, Steele was not at all in control. Devon was. While I wasn’t fully in control either, there was at least some part of me that was. That Anger was, and probably still is part of me. So I was held accountable for my actions. But Steele, Jade, and Seven weren't in control at all, so I feel they shouldn’t be held accountable. I shall have to pray to Tyr and Torm to forgive and accept Seven and Steele back. They deserve the same chance I got.

    Perhaps there is a happy ending after all?


  • Entry 87 –

    It is over. Devon is defeated. But the price of the victory weighs heavily on our hearts. It almost makes the victory seem hallow.

    Jade, Seven, Steele… they are dead now. Killed by… by… us. They had to be killed, as their souls were linked to the foul wizard. By killing them, we freed their souls and Devon’s power weakened. Besides, they would have killed us, as he controlled them.

    Damn that Devon. I may be a believer in redemption, as I needed it myself. However, Devon could never earn that right. May he burn in Hell for all of eternity.

    At least our friends’ souls are free. At least the wizard is dead, his dreams of godhood laid to rest.

    But it makes me feel so hollow and sad inside. We were a forlorn hope.

    May my friends’ spirits rest in peace.

    I'll write more about the whole battle later… I just can't do it now. It pains me too much to try.


  • ((OOC - It's too bad you are having troubles with NWN. The adventure was very good and it was a grand ending. I'll have a full story written ASAP))

    Entry 86 –

    We leave for Thay today. I'm not sure if Hugh was contacted in time, so it looks like it's just Kanen, Reginald, Wilhelm, and I. Unfortunately, it also looks like Fishel won't have his plan finished in time if I understand this correctly.

    I'm leaving this diary in my bedroom at the Alliance, along with some letters I've written in case I don't return. I know it's a bit morbid and pessemistic to write those letters, but I very well might not return. I am fully willing to sacrifice myself if it means that Devon is defeated and the captured souls are freed. It'll be worth it if our friend's souls are freed.

    May Tyr guide us and let Justice prevail.

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    {{ooc- Well, I WOULD have went of the (&()&&)(*#@(&$@@ patch didn't screw up my NWN. I still can't play it…says something about "invalid file name" when I go to open it. MAN I'm ticked!}}


  • Entry 85 –

    It’s the beginning of the end. Kanen has informed me that there is a plan in motion to stop Devon. This plan will require some of us to make a strategic strike at the foul wizard. I will, of course, go. There is no way I can back out of this. Kanen, Willhelm, Hugh, Reginald, and I will be going soon. We may very well be giving up our lives, but if it means that Devon’s evil can be stopped, then I gladly give it up.

    I also spoke to Fishel, and he has a plan going too. I hope he can finish it in time. We also talked about how I was doing, and why I broke up with Braeth. Was a good chat, really. It made me feel a little better about the whole situation. Helped me to see perhaps why I didn’t stay with Braeth, at least reasons that I didn’t really think of before.

    And I saw Cera today! She’s not going to blow up! Trey found a way to save her. I’m so relieved.

    Oh, and Gulir made it official. I’m a probationary member of the militia. And my first incident involved an umberhulk that crashed into town. Jore, Lisara, and Fred started to attack it and stop it, with myself even helping out.


  • Entry 84 –

    Oh, what a day.

    Since I had traveled up to Peltarch, I decided to stop at the Alliance guildhall before I returned to Norwick. It was good that I did so, for I got to talk to Fishel and Eledaar. We talked briefly about the state of the guild, and then Fishel asked Eledaar to tell us about the ring, the Ebon Band. He seemed reluctant at first to tell it, but he did tell us all he could. I’m not going to write it down here for now, in case it’s something that others should not know. I’ll just say that it’s something to worry about for sure.

    So then I decided to travel to Norwick, since I still really had to talk to Braeth. Not that I really looked forward to the talk, but I felt Karli was right. Fishel and El were originally going to travel with me, since I really didn’t want to go alone, but something else came up that required their attention. Thus I was left by myself. I sent a messenger bird to find Kanen, and he did respond but said he’d be a while. I didn’t want to just sit there by myself though. I figured Kanen was probably coming up from Norwick if he was going to be a while. I’d probably meet him on the road if I headed out by myself.

    Actually, I was fairing much better against the bandits than I thought I would. Despite being ganged up by three of them at one point, I managed to come out of all the fights with only some minor bruising, which was quickly healed by my prayer chants. I was right and did run into Kanen on the road. He was escorting somebody else to Peltarch, but the person was glad to have been brought this close to Peltarch, and decided to sneak the rest of the way. I hope the journey was safe. I’m sure it was, as I had cleared out a lot of bandits that were along the road.

    Kanen asked me as we traveled about Jade, and our dreams. He seems so sad, so gloomy. He better not be giving up hope, I’ll have to smack him if he is. He should know very well what happened to me when I did that. He doesn’t need to go down that road himself. He mentioned that he was attacked by a woman named Aspera Chillwind. The name sounds familiar to me, I think I heard it mentioned in Peltarch, but I never met the woman. Anyhow, she was detained in a cell in Norwick for her attempted murder, and Braeth was making comments and making moves like he was going to kill her, saying it was for the “greater good.” Kanen even had to knock out the arrow that Braeth had readied in his bow. I confessed to Kanen that this side of Braeth bothers me and scares me. I told him how I talked to Karli about it, and she told me I should not keep the relationship going for now, as I needed to sort out my heart first. Kanen did seem surprised I asked Karli about it, but I reminded him that she is a priestess of the goddess of love. He nodded and then asked if he wanted him nearby when I broke the news to Braeth, and I accepted his offer.

    I found Braeth, or rather he found me. By Tyr, that elf can sneak around. I didn’t notice him until I practically bumped into him! We went into the inn (with a shiny Kanen in one corner) and sat down at the far end of the room. I started off by tackling the issue of Braeth’s recent attitude, which started a wonderful little debate about the Greater Good and Law. He really didn’t seem to understand why it bothers me so much. First of all, he’s going to get himself into trouble at some point. “Not if I don’t get caught.” Yeah, right… I’m sure there will come a point that he’s caught. And then what? His actions will reflect on the guild, and could put it in jeopardy. Also, he seems very ruthless about it. What about redemption? He says he would allow a person to redeem himself if possible, but if that person is beyond redemption then they should be taken care of. Okay, I can agree with that, but I get this feeling that he doesn’t wholeheartedly agree with what he said. I just get this feeling that he’s being… ruthless.

    The fact is, I’m not sure if I love him the way I did before. I’m not sure if he could love me the same way. Part of it is due to this new side of him I see. Another part of it is due to the fact that I DID wound him a lot when I cheated on him. Breaking that Bond was no light matter. Being with Braeth since I recovered has, yes, been very nice. But the full comfort I used to feel isn’t there. And then there were Karli’s questions… She was practically saying that… that I love Reg?

    Perhaps I’m just still not fully healed from my ordeal, and thus I’m confused as to how I feel about Braeth… and Reg. Maybe it’s not that I don’t love Braeth, but that I need to rediscover that love in me. I hope he doesn’t think I don’t want him at all. I really do care for him. That’s why I’m doing this. I care for him and don’t want to hurt him by doing something down the road because we figure out after we are wed that I don’t love him.

    That was one question Braeth asked me. Did I have these doubts when I Bonded to him. I can honestly say that I haven’t. I truly loved him, and was sure he loved me. But we’ve changed. Breaking the Bond did that. I hope Braeth understands all this, at least someday.

    During our talk, we were interrupted by Philomena, a halfling who is a member of the militia. She joined in on our debate about Law and Greater Good. I was a bit annoyed at having my talk to Braeth interrupted, but I decided that politeness was best. Bugged me that Braeth wouldn’t whisper like I did. At least by talking to Philomena and then Galnin when he arrived, it looks like I will likely become part of the militia. They are at least willing to appoint me unofficially until we can talk to Gulir.

    After Braeth left me, I talked to Attentus. I can’t believe I forgot who he is. I’m usually pretty good at remembering people. But then I had only met him once I think. Anyways, we had a nice little conversation, and then we returned to bed. Okay, not really exciting, but I figured I’d mention him so I don’t forget him again.


  • ((OOC - Hey, Riverthorn… I don't mean to burst your bubble, but Monkey's already reviewed the diary and I've been given the XP.))


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  • Entry 83 –

    Boy, what a day! So full of ups and downs. I suppose that it was a good day overall. I got to have some fun at the Midsummer's Eve Festival!

    Ah, the festival… I needed a night of fun. The whole thing started out with some bards spinning tales at the Inn. It's been a while since I've gotten to sit down and listen to a bard tell a grand story or sing a song,
    which made it all the more fun for me to do it last night. And many friends were about having fun.

    I ran into Karli, which was great because I really needed to talk to her. I was concerned for Meril, and thus wanted to make sure she tries to talk to him, and I also had some questions about some feelings I'm having toward Braeth. Karli, bless her heart, was kind enough to sit with me at the Friar's house to talk. I started to tell her about Meril, and she responded that she had already spoken to him. It was quite a relief to know that she did get to talk with him and I hope their chat helped him out.

    I then told her about some of the concerns I've been having over Braeth. Lately, I've been seeing this side of him that really bothers me. The way manner in which he is so willing to disregard the law for the "Greater Good" really rubs me the wrong way. Sure, I can see the need for such actions if the law is Unjust and out of control, but it really should only be a last resort. Laws are here for a reason. Some order has to be maintained, boundries set to guide people into doing what is right. He just wants the easy and quick resolution, at least that's how it seems to me. But do the ends really justify the means? I can't say they do. I tried to approach him about this before but he seems pretty adamant about it. So I asked Karli for some suggestions on how to handle this problem.

    Karli took in everything I said and then prayed to Sune for guidance and wisdom into my situation. She then asked me a couple of tough questions about Reginald, Braeth, the whole situation of me cheating on Braeth, my feelings for both of Braeth and Reg, how I felt about my god… I think the toughest question she asked was if I'd erase the night I spent with Reginald if I could. It was a question I couldn't answer for sure…

    She then gave me her advice. Karli thinks I shouldn't have a relationship as I don't know where my heart lies. I had wounded Braeth when I had cheated on him and drove him to break the bond. She says I can't heal that wound, for I don't have all it would take right now to do it. I have to sit back and take a look at myself and be honest with myself, and figure out what I want and need. I must say that what she says makes sense. Things do feel different with Braeth. Things have changed between us. I think he and I expected we could just go on as if nothing happened, but obviously we can't do that. Something did happen and I have to face it.

    I just hope Braeth can take this in stride. His quickness to anger is another thing that bothers me...

    After our little girl talk session, Karli offered to buy me a couple of drink as we continued to enjoy the festival. So we returned to the Inn and I grabbed some wine and sat down to enjoy some singing. Reginald was there and he sang a short little song, but then was interrupted by a rude halfling. After that another bard sang a song, and then Karli and Jenna performed a song and dance. A very… passionate song and dance. After that Sakura asked me to sing a song. I was a bit drunk, so of course I agreed to sing. The only song I could think of was the one I sung for Reginald. He seemed to have ducked out of the room, so I didn’t see the harm in it. I think Karli would be the only person to understand why he reminded me of the song. I didn’t do to bad for being drunk and not having any formal training as a bard. It’s a sad song though, not really good for a celebration, but people loved the beauty of it.

    The festival died down soon after. I left to walk about the town, and for some reason had decided to go to the north gate. I heard a bit of a commotion, so I opened the gate and saw Jade and Jubei in a stand off, with Wilhelm in between. Jade was wanting to kill Jubei, saying that it was commanded that he die. Her eyes flashed blue. It must be Devon controlling her. Jubei ran off and she chased after, but I think he got away.

    I headed back into town and after a bit I saw Jubei again, heading to the general store. I followed and approached him. He was wary of me at first, understandably. He immediately said he wasn’t hunting Jade anymore. I know he at least is a person of honor, so I believed him. Also from what it looked like, it was likely the roles of hunter and prey were reversed. Jubei asked about Seven, she was his “master” now. I ended up telling him that we think that Seven’s soul has been taken by Devon. He was quite bothered to hear this and ran off to try to find Seven.

    Which of course was stupid of him, as he runs into Jade. Wilhelm and I again try to talk her out of killing Jubei. Then we were interrupted by bandit attacks. Jubei got seriously injured during one attack and then ran off, trying to get to Peltarch since Wilhelm said he saw Seven there. Idiot. He of course got cut down by bandits. At least I think he did. I had run after him and found his dead body and that of many bandits, and Jade and somebody else was standing over him. She seemed not to remember wanting to kill Jubei though.

    I’m really worried about this. I hope Braeth has warned Rashid to keep an eye on her.

    Afterward, Braeth went with Kashan and some others to investigate a ruins. Braeth had gotten killed by bandit archers. Kashan did have him raised. I had planned to follow through on Karli’s advice tonight, but I thought it’d be too cruel of me to do so just after he had died. I just couldn’t do that to him. Maybe tomorrow will be better.


  • Entry 82 –

    I don’t believe I talked the whole day away. I really meant to go see Gulir today about joining the militia, but I ran into a few friends in the Inn and just got chatting so much. Not that I mind, really. I love having friends around me.

    First I saw Fishel. When he saw me, he tells me that he forgot to give me something, and then gave me a hug! I’m so glad he’s back, he’s such a great friend to have. And then Sakura showed up. She still seems unstuck in time. It’s funny, sometimes she just freezes, not even breathing. Other times she repeats herself, except backwards. It probably has to do with her instability in time. Amissa also stopped to chat. And an woman named Berret who is a friend of Sakura’s. And finally Call.

    Lots of people I talked to I realize. I really did talk the whole day away between them all. Twas lots of fun though.