3. A Quest for Tyr - Kara Willendt's Diary

A Quest for Tyr - Kara Willendt's Diary


  • ((OOC - Cera giving Kara the top is perhaps the most kind, loving, and WISE act I have ever seen her do. Yes, I think I have plans for this top to help Kara. We shall see…))

    Entry 59 -

    Another council meeting today. I tried to get this Dagger problem worked out. Almost did too, but then Vashere’s replacement turned around and declined the post. I think I understand his reasons though. I really wish Vashere didn’t leave. Oh well, make do with what we can.

    I returned to the gypsy camp and met up with Wilhelm. I told him about how Yohan contacted me for a final time and that Jade and Seven are in danger. Cera then joined us. I also talked him how the hissing voice almost claimed me again. Wil agrees that I need to figure out a way to control the Hatred. I told him that Fishel has a few ideas, and I was wanting to have Pip show me some meditation techniques that could help.

    Cera heard my problems, and then did the sweetest thing I ever saw her do. She gave me her toy top. Coin had given it to her to ease her when she missed Sakura and Mojo’s many voices became louder. She gave it to me to try to help me against my voice. I pretty much had tears in my eyes when she gave it to me. The way she always tries to make me happy… and calls me her Mommy… It just pulls the strings of my heart. She is very dear to me. I’ll be very sad if something happens to her.


  • ((OOC - Okay, I did the diary entry for last night. YAY! I'm all caught up on my diary entries! I was only able to catch up on the extra day by doing much of the previous entry on my lunch break.))

    Entry 58 -

    I sent a message to Fishel to have him visit me as soon as possible. The recent ordeal I had with that hissing voice really scares me. I need to have this Hatred and Anger in control, or else the consequences could be terrible. To think I almost lost my soul twice. That’s a fate worse than death.

    Unfortunately, I received a very short message back from Fishel. “GOBLINS ATTACKING NORWICK!” Still feeling some sense of duty to defend my former home, I decided to brave the Nars Pass alone. I figured if I was overwhelmed by bandits, I could always drink that potion of invisibility I bought. I didn’t need to use it though. My protective prayer chants kept any attackers at bay.

    As I came up to the walls of the town, I found Fishel was outside ready to meet me. He said he was about to head up to me, since the goblins have been taken care of. We both headed into town, and noticed a bandit followed us. Within a few minutes, the town was beseiged by bandits, who kept tossing kegs of black power to try to blow up the gate. There was a good battle that raged on, I fought a little of it, but then I returned to inside the town to help with some healing. When I headed back out of the gate, I found that the defenders had raised a wall of fire using much wood and oil. What a wonderful blockade it made. And Coin was credited with the idea.

    Seeing that the battle was over, Fishel and I headed to the Inn to talk. I told him about how that hissing voice tried to take me while I was caught in my Hatred and Anger. He agreed that this was dire news indeed and we discussed various possibilities about getting control over my Hatred.

    Yohan then started to speak to me. He startled me at first. Something was after him. He sounded scared and gave me a last warning that Seven and Jade were in danger. “The one who hunts is the hunter… the one who comes hunts...” Then I felt another presense. It seemed to speak, but the I could only make out a few words. But I think I know who it was. It was Caleb. I know this because the necklace grew so cold after it “killed” Yohan. Cold enough to freeze! I will never forget the cold I felt when that demon came after me. It’s obvious to me that Seven and Jade are in danger from this thing, especially since Cera and a few others told me they saw Caleb in Norwick looking for Jade. I also fear that we all may find ourselves against this demon. The words I heard it utter made it sound like all involved in this will find themselves dead.

    After I realized Yohan was gone, I started to break down emotionally again. I was helpless in trying to help Yohan, and now he’s gone. Not just dead, he already was that. What happens when you kill a spirit? Along with the hissing demon that is after me, my Hatred that consumes me, hell, EVERYTHING else that wants me… It’s just too much to bear sometimes. It’s a wonder I survive in any fashion at all.

    Fishel was a bit alarmed at my sudden depression. He did remind me that I’m not alone though. I have many friends who are always willing to come to my aid. Some I barely know, yet they will do anything for me. Take Gidush for example. He stopped by earlier and was saddened to hear that I’ve been threatened by various things. He said he would willingly put his life on the line for me. So many people have faith in me. In a way, that contributes to my depression, as I fear failing in their hopes of me. On the other hand, it means that I have people who will support me, back me up. They have faith in me. They believe in me.

    It’s time I started believing in myself.


  • _((OOC - Damn game and server crashes. I hate how much money I waste on food. I especially hate it when I crash within 5 minutes after resting, thus not only wasting the food, but also clearing me out of spells for the next 8 game hours. Not to mention if you travel to a place and the server crashes, you suddenly will find yourself at your starting town. Kinda ruins the mood; I'm a sucker for continuity. Thanks Braeth for porting me to Norwick.

    Okay, rant over. I invite you to check out the silliness that I just had to write before I did this diary. Chibi-Kara Theatre! will be a somewhat regular column where I break away from the seriousness of Kara's predicaments and try to explain things about the character in a fun, hilarious, and zany manner.

    Also, I apologize for how late this diary entry is. I just couldn’t think well enough to write it after doing the CKT. Of course, now I still have to write another day’s diary entry… I’ll manage somehow.))_

    Entry 57 –

    By Tyr, what a headache I have this morning. Yesterday was another bad day.

    It started out nice enough though. I started off the day with Wilhelm, we headed out to see a friend of his, Telyle. We did get to meet him south of Norwick. Wil, his friend, Janu, and another who I can’t recall were talking about going to hunt Skara down. Unfortunately, we were unable to do so. Wil and I returned to the gypsy camp.

    There we met up with Reginald and Janu. Together with Wilhelm, the three each told me that they're always willing to help me any way they can. We all then started joking about how I was their queen. I've got my own little army of doom! HA HA HA!! Okay, maybe not doom… It's my own personal army of Justice though, right? Or is it Just us? Hee hee. It was so good to joke around like that.

    I really do appreciate their friendship and loyalty. I may wonder sometimes why all these people put so much faith in me, but without all their faith, I'd feel empty.

    So, we decided to head back to Norwick. I forget why I wanted to go back there. Wait! I remember! We had decided to explore the crypts again. It's been a while since I've been in some real combat, and I don't want my skills to get rusty. Besides, I'm always up for a round of undead smashing. So after some quick rest and preparation, we four headed south for Norwick.

    As we neared the town, I heard a hissing noise again. It startled me for a moment, then I truly felt scared as I realized what I heard. The hissing voice was reaching out for me again. This time it was urging me to let myself go into my Anger. I refused to listen to it, and warned my companions of what the voice was trying to do. Disaster struck when we came up to the walls of Norwick. In the conversation I was having, something I began to say harkened to memories that drew the Anger forth.

    As usual, I don't recall what I said or did while I was consumed by the Hatred and Anger. I do have a couple of rememberances, though. I recall lightning striking me many times, which people did say happened. The lightning didn't hurt though, it seemed to fuel me. I also recall the voice was whispering to me the whole time. I'm not sure what it was saying, but I'm sure it was gleefully trying to get me to submit to it. When I started to get my senses back, I could hear it utter one last message to me as it faded away, telling me I should submit to it... telling me I am the chosen.

    As the Anger left me, I felt very tired and collapsed to the ground. I was so scared as I realized what almost happened. I almost lost my soul. I was so sad, frightened, and worn out. And embarrassed. Many people were gathered around me. How many think I'm crazy? I needed a drink and a more comfortable place to sit, so my friends suggested going to the Inn. Reginald offered his arm, which I took gladly and hugged onto. I hurt inside, sorely needing a friend, and Reginald is one of the best friends I could have.

    Wilhelm, Kanen, Janu, and Reginald took me to the Inn and promptly got me a few mugs of ale. They all got some drinks for them as well, though Kanen only had a couple. The rest of us got pretty drunk. I'm glad they all tried to lift my spirits. After I really got tipsy, Reginald and Kanen both could tell I needed some sleep, and thus escorted me to my room. I think I practically fell asleep on the way to the bed. After a few hours, I woke up from a disturbing dream. I exited my room and noticed Reginald was sleeping back at the stairway.

    Poor Reginald. The way he cares for me reminds me of a sad song my mother sometimes sang in her performances. A song about unrequitted love. I feel so guilty for breaking his heart like I do.

    I stayed up for a little bit talking to both Reg and Kanen, then headed back to bed.

    Hangovers aren't fun. Especially when your head hurts from a mental struggle you had before getting drunk.


  • Entry 56 -

    I started the day by meeting some new friends. However, I didn’t get to spend too much time with them because some old friends also stopped by the campfires. I talked with Wilhelm and Jade, telling starting to tell them the tale of how a demon tried to claim me. I got half way through the story when a bunch of people showed up, among them were Karion and Vrugar. Man, I haven’t seen those two in a long time.

    Adam Bromley, who also came with the group, then called for everybody’s attention. He then let another bard speak, who started to tell of how Rain, yet another bard, had taken offense at some critism and jests and stole the bard’s harp. Rain then started arguing with this man and pulled out his harp and tossed it into the fire and walked away. Adam was able to pull out the harp before it was damaged. The man that the harp belonged to was naturally upset, and in his anger did something stupid. He blasted a spell at one of the gypsies’ dogs and boasted that Rain will fine the same waiting for him. Of course, all the gypsies became angry at seeing this stranger cause harm to one of their dogs and started to chase him down and soon killed him.

    Then Reginald stepped into the gathering. I was quite shocked at what I saw. Before me stood Reginald in what appeared to be goblin hide clothing and carrying a very large axe. Half of his moustache was also missing. I then recalled Wilhelm mentioned something about Reginald not acting like himself after a recent death. Apparently, he lost his memories and believed himself to be a barbarian. I felt so bad for my friend. He didn’t like it when people started to call him Reginald, as he really didn’t believe he was that man. So I decided to try a different approach. I started talking about Reginald, telling of all the things that I cherished in my friend. Basically, I was trying to jog Reginald’s memories. Some people started to catch on and joined in by telling other memories they had of Reginald. But we just couldn’t fully penetrate into his memories, though I could tell we were getting somewhere. Then one of the gypsies, Kashana, knew what was needed. She started to play a song she and Reginald once sang. Reginald started to recognize the tune she played on her lyre, and soon started to remember and sing the words. Suddenly the song came pouring out of him, like a damn had burst open. Our friend, Reginald, had returned to us! He was quite surprised to find himself in the hide clothes and missing his moustache. He was always proud of that moustache. I’m just glad to have my friend back..

    I then approached Vrugar for a few minutes to say hello, as I hadn’t seen him in a while. The half-orc looks to be doing well. He said he recently moved to the camp, which is good news to me. Another friend I can hopefully visit!

    I returned to Wilhelm and Jade, and asked if they still would like to hear the other half of my tale. They did, and so we three returned to their shack for a quiet spot. Unfortunately, Jade started to feel ill and so retired to bed early. Wilhelm listened to the rest of my tale with intrest though. He feels so sorry for me to have gone through all I have. Again, he tells me that I’ve experienced many things that would have crushed other people’s spirits, yet I survived.

    Yes, I survived. But have I really? I still have this Anger that grips me. As soon as my thoughts wander to the person I hate, the Kara Willendt that everybody knows disappears and is suddenly replaced by a … well, I don’t know because I don’t even know it’s happening. My friends tell me I get very angry, hateful, and do a lot of screaming. Will my mind ever be healed?

    By Tyr, listen to me. Of course I’ll find a way through this. I must not give up Hope. Never.

    Wilhelm needed to get some sleep after my tale, and I must admit I felt tired too. It was odd, one minute I felt good and the next I’m suddenly a bit tired. So I left and returned to the camp and took a nap. After waking up, I felt like visiting Norwick, but there was nobody to travel with. Finally, after waiting around a bit, I decided to trust in my prayer chants to protect me, and if things got especially scary I’d use the potion of invisibility I bought many weeks ago. As soon as I left the camp, I ran into Call and some of his friends, who were just coming to the camp. After talking with them briefly, and being joined by Garen and Cera, we all decided to return to the camp. I would have liked to continue to Norwick, but the prayer chants I had cast were starting to fade and I didn’t want make the journey being unprotected.

    Garen… I still remember hearing bad things about that man. Vashere supsected he was allied with Vinessa, and I think Adam Bromley said the same thing. For all that I’ve seen though, he’s been a healer. A bit quiet and reserved, but otherwise not too bad of a person. But I do trust Vashere, and at least respect Adam, so I’ll keep my eye on this man.

    While we all talked, I started to feel tired again, like I really needed more sleep than that nap gave me. I began to wonder what had tired me out so much. Suddenly, I realized what. Feeling good one minute then tired the next when I was at Wilhelm’s? I must have slipped into my Anger. The only clue to me that I’ve fallen prey to it is that I usually feel a little tired from it. I must really rant and rave a lot to tire me out like this. Garen did give me an good piece of advice though. He said that I must learn to let go of the feelings I harbor until I need to use them.

    Let go of the anger and hatred… Sounds like a wise piece of advice for me. I’ll have to try to follow it. Although if this Hatred is anything like my Fear was, this will be easier said than done.


  • Entry 55 -

    I had been able to contact Vashere and got him to send me the latest copy of the charter for the Alliance. The charter raised a few questions in my mind about what to do with one of the sub-guilds, so I called an emergency meeting to discuss and decide what to do. There was a lot of debating, but I think we finally came up with a compromise. I still think we are going against Vashere’s wishes as far as that sub-guild is concerned, but if this is what the others want, then that’s what we go with.

    I also took the time to warn the others about what happened to me in the temple. Eledaar, Pip, and Kanen suspect that my hissing voice may be related to this certain ring that they came across. This would be the same ring that they were doing something with on the night that Justinia was possessed. Can’t say this soothes me any.

    Eledaar had started acting funny after discussing it. He had run out of the room at one point, saying he felt ill. He returned a short while later, but he didn’t seem quite all right. When we were ending the meeting, Kanen had mentioned a paladin of Tyr, Sarah Rimes I think her name was, who had suddenly started to follow Cyric. Eledaar reacted badly to this. It was like a hidden rage was trying to get out. He then dashed out of the room and a few minutes later we heard some banging noises from the direction of the Wizard Study. Pip investigated and found a note from Eledaar saying he had to go take care of something and help a friend. He also found a book that had some pages ripped out of it. It was a book of demon summoning. I really hope Eledaar does not do something foolish.

    After the stress of the meeting, I was whisked away to the elven campment for Cera and Coin’s bonding ceremony. It was a wonderful ceremony. Both looked radiant in their elven silk clothes. I wish the best to both of them.


  • _((OOC - Thank you Fishel for finally approaching Kara about her problem. I know everybody could see the change in her, but it seems like none were willing to step forward and point it out to Kara.

    Thanks also go to Mas for resurfacing an old problem. It's nice to get some plot from DMs.))_

    Entry 54 -

    Not a good day. Nope. Not one bit.

    I woke up today and headed to the Temple. There I met up with Fishel and Kanen. Kanen told us of some problems he’s having. It seems a Lady Aspera has put an enchantment on Cila. He said Cila seems to be normal again, but the enchantment is still there and she’s afraid something bad will happen if it’s removed. I then told both of how I finally got to talk to Seven. They were very happy to hear that.

    While talking about Seven and I, I must admit I started to feel a bit dizzy at one point. It was almost like I had dozed or just stopped paying attention for a few minutes. I was talking to Fishel and Kanen one minute, then the next I recall is I’m sitting on the floor with a slightly bruised hand and Fishel has his hand on my shoulder and asking me something… if I’m alright. I was bewildered at this. I felt fine, why the worry? Then they both told me that I just had a fit of anger.

    Me. Anger? Great, blind anger? Even now that I’ve seen some proof of it, I still find it hard to believe that I could be capable of it.

    Both Fishel and Kanen told me that I’ve been doing this, and today wasn’t the first time they’ve seen it. Fishel told me he saw it quite a few times since the day I had my amulet stolen from me. He even had me do a little experiment show me what I can’t see. He had me write my thoughts, first had me write about Cera, since she usually brings a smile to my face, and then I was to try to keep some of my thoughts on her to use as an achor and write about what I hate… about that BASTARD of a wizard! HE MUST DIE!! EVERYTHING I STAND FOR, HE IS AGAINST!! LOVE, HOPE, JUSTICE, LIFE… HE STANDS AGAINST THEM ALL! AN ABOMINATION HE IS! PAY HE MUST!!!

    So, I had done what he asked. I started to write about Cera, but then my memory stops, like I suddenly wasn’t paying attention. All I remember is at one point, Fishel asked me a question about Cera. After that, I only remember him stopping me from writing. He then showed me the paper, showing me what I wrote. What I saw sent a sinking feeling through my stomach. It started with my normal, flowing penmanship, but then the words became jagged and jerky, as if the letters themselves were filled with hatred and anger. If it wasn’t somebody I trust showing me this, I would seriously think that this is all a joke. The angry letters did not look like my handwriting at all.

    I just paused a moment and looked up at what I wrote. The angry writing again… And again I didn’t even realize I wrote it. If I didn’t purposely look back up, I’d have never known it was there. This scares and saddens me greatly. I really thought I was all better, no more overwhelming Fear. Instead, I’m now being overwhelmed by Anger and Hatred. Will I ever be normal again?

    As scary as this Hatred is, it’s nothing compared with what happened to me next. I’ve lost my mind and recovered, I’m sure I can do that again. But what I write of next scares me because I fear losing my soul. While Fishel was trying to figure a way to ease my pain, a lightning bolt struck the altar of Tyr. Fishel and I both thought that perhaps my god was trying to send a message. I approached the altar, and put my hand on it. Suddenly, I heard a hissing noise. It startled me enough that I jumped back from the altar in surprise. Fishel heard nothing, which shocked me more. I put my hand back on the altar, to see if I heard the noise from it, and I heard it again, but now it whispered, “Come.” This perplexed myself and Fishel. Come where? Still curious, I put both hands on the altar. This time I hear the words, “Come to me.” As soon as I hear them, waves of… of… pleasure… wash over me. I fell back from the altar, overcome by the sensations. It was quite an experience, my body still tingled for a moment afterward.

    I began to think about this. The voice that spoke to me, it seemed familiar. After thinking about it for a moment, I suddenly realized that it was the same whisper that tried to get me to drink the water from the well back when the town was fighting off the bandits. The thought scared me. Did it want me to go back to the well? Is there more trouble to expect from the well? I decided to approach the altar one last time, hoping to pick up some kind of clue. I put my hands on the altar and waited for a moment. Nothing was happening so I thought it was over. Before I could remove my hands though, the whisper almost screamed at me, “You belong to us.” Wave upon wave of pleasure filled me. I wanted to pull away, but some force held my hands down. The pleasure that racked my body kept increasing. In the back of my mind, I could feel a horrible thing reaching out for me. I cried out in horror, and Fishel tried to pull me away from the altar, without success. I gathered the little strength I had and also tried to pull away. Bolts of lightning again struck the altar, and suddenly we both were thrown back, free from whatever tried to grab me.

    It took me a few minutes to recover. My body tingled so much. Fishel and I decided to leave. I suggested we go to the gypsy camp, and he agreed. I went to my room to gather my belongings and also to give a prayer to Tyr. After I said my prayer, the room seemed so silent, but deep down I could feel a warmth in my faith. Tyr was with me. As we left the Alliance guild, I told Fishel to pass the word on that nobody should use the temple right now. The altar to Tyr needs a cleansing rite, in my opinion.

    We travled to the gypsy camp, fighting a few bandits on the way. When we got to the camp, I searched around and found Cera and Coin. We talked about the Anger that consumes me from time to time, and Coin started to try to figure out how to help me. Unfortunately, I was too tired to stay up and continue our talk, but I do hope somebody can figure out how to get my mind to be normal again.


  • ((OOC - I really like reading diaries from other characters and seeing how actions I make in the game affect others. Most notably in this regard are Cera and Coin. I hope others that I RP with enjoy reading my diary for the same reason.))

    Entry 53 -

    I sent a messager falcon to Seven, requesting to talk with her. I really needed to talk to her and tell her she’s still my friend. Thankfully, she sent back a reply that she would see me as soon as she finished traveling with some friends.

    So I sat and waited for Seven to come. While I waited a large group of visitors came to the camp. None would return my greetings though. No, wait, I think one did at least say hello. The rest blatently ignored me. A little while later, Coin and Cera showed up. It sounded like they were doing good, although Coin seemed a bit distracted by something. I wonder if he’s okay.

    Finally, Seven did arrive at the camp. I said goodbye to Cera and Coin. Seven and I headed over to the a shack in the camp so we could talk privately. As I expected, Seven started right away with apologizing to me. Even if I don’t hold any blame to her for what happened, I know she needed to say it for her own sake. I can’t imagine the guilt she, a priestess of Torm, must have felt, being forced to betray a friend. I think the closest thing I could come up with for me would be if I was forced to commit Injustice. After she said her apologies, I immediately told her that I still considered her a friend. It wasn’t her fault at all. I told her how I had felt guilty about it as well, since I was given warnings but didn’t realize their meanings until it was too late. She did feel better to see that I still wanted her as a friend. I also feel much better now that I’ve let her know. I was really worried about her. Jade, Seven, and I have been put through so much because of Devon. DAMN THAT WIZARD! THAT FOUL, BLACK-HEARTED WIZARD! HE DARES TO HARM US SO! HE WILL PAY FOR HIS DEEDS!!

    We also talked about the Alliance, as she said Kanen mentioned about it to her. I let her know about what was going on, and how I’d like for her to help out with the temple and possibly a council seat as well. She did say she’d be willing to help out as much as she can. It makes me happy to hear that. She also told me of how she’s been helping out at the Temple of Tyr at Peltarch. I really should go visit that temple again, I didn’t get a chance to see any of the caretakers on my last visit.

    After Seven and I parted ways, I sat by Wilhelm’s shack, hoping that he’d be coming home soon. I was in a real good mood from my chat with Seven, and I really felt like seeing other friends. I was in luck, for Wilhelm did indeed come walking home shortly after I sat down by the fallen tree in front of his shack. He and I had a wonderful chat. We talked about friends, and what it was about those friends that endeared them to us.


  • Entry 52 -

    Well, we just had a council meeting for the Alliance. Lots of debating and arguing. Looks like I'll be the figurehead for the Alliance. I do think that Kanen's right about me. I just don't see my strength sometimes. I've been through so much. Many people would not have been able to make it through some of the things I've seen.

    After the meeting, I rested and then headed back to the gypsy camp. I've been enjoying the restfulness and peace of the woods. I'm starting to feel better from it. Not quite as tired anymore.

    I got to see Cera again. It looks like she's doing okay. She wasn't too sick from that little trip to the land of colorlessness. She happily told me about how she had spoken to Calendall and he agreed to help out with the bonding ceremony. I'm so happy for her. I told her about the tailor in Norwick who I had gotten my dress from. I'm sure the old woman would love to make another dress.

    I do hope that Coin knows what he's getting into with bonding to Cera. He better prepare himself to be suddenly opened to her feelings. And considering that Cera may have multiple personalities, that could cause quite a headache I think. Bah, I'm sounding too negative. I'm sure Love will hold them together. It has so far.


  • _((OOC - I should've mentioned it before, but…

    When you see bold letters in the diary, Kara's lettering is very harshly written and not as neat as her usual penmanship.))_

    Entry 51 -

    I had a nice, brief chat with Adam Bromley today. He was surprised to see me in the gypsy camp. I'll admit that the camp is not a typical place for a priestess of Tyr, but I explained my reasons for moving and he seemed to understand. I told him about how I felt so weary from all that happened and needed to be with friends. He asked me what had happened to me, and I briefly explained about Devon and how that…that BASTARD MUST PAY!!

    Cera and Coin interrupted me from my conversation with Adam, with Cera giving me a wonderful hug. She asked if I was alright, she seemed to think I was upset at something. I reassured her that I was fine. Adam decided to leave, having things that needed to be done. Imphras then showed up. Cera and Coin announced to me that they wish to become bonded like Braeth and I. While we all talked, the conversation led to me remembering about good ol' Tyger and how he used to tell me camp fire stories. Cera then asked me to tell her a story. She suggested I tell about how Braeth and I fell in love, and this way I could also explain how we got bonded.

    Braeth also came by while I started the tale, and sat down to listen. He was still a bit surprised at how Cera calls him Daddy. I could sense, though, that he accepted it. Unfortunately, Imphras had to leave early, but he was enjoying the tale. Cera and Coin were too. Although I noticed that Cera was really staring at Braeth a lot.

    Suddenly, Cera screamed out at Braeth, calling him "Traitor." It was like she became a different person. I guess it's the part of her that still hasn't forgiven Braeth. She started to channel some magical energies, but they seemed to be harming her more than anything else. Silvery arcs of energy pulled her down, and we watched in amazement as the shadows seemed to open up and draw her in. Within a brief moment, Cera had vanished.

    We all were dumbstruck at what we had seen. I prayed for Tyr to keep Cera safe, whereever she may have gone. It chilled me to have witnessed that. Coin said she did it before, the same night at the well that caused me to go insane. It still troubled me. I just couldn't help but worry for her.

    In the same amazing manner that she left, Cera was spat back out of the shadows. She seemed to be alright, but she was sweating a lot and felt a bit warm to the touch. I told her to drink a lot and rest.

    I hope she's okay.


  • ((OOC - Wow! I've reached entry 50!! Amazing. I'm so proud of the fact that I've kept my goal for this diary, one entry per game session.))

    Entry 50 -

    My first few days living here have been nice. The whole atmosphere is more relaxed than Norwick. It's very soothing.

    I got to talk to Kanen. He had stopped by the camp hoping to see Cila. I've yet to meet her. We talked for a bit about various things. We both wondered if Seven was alright. Kanen mentioned some nasty rumors were being spread around about him. And somebody hired another man to seduce Seven because the hiring man said she was Kanen's girl. Heh. Talk about misinformed.

    Kanen also told me he plans to recommend and vote for me to replace Vashere as leader of the Alliance. He thinks I’d be good because I keep a cool head and think things through. He also says I have an inner strength. I know he speaks the truth, but I still can’t help but feel like a weak, little girl sometimes. Tyr wouldn’t have sent me back to the world twice if I wasn’t somehow special though.

    I then decided to find Jade and Wilhelm. I lucked out and found them easily enough. They invited me to see the shack they recently bought. It’s nothing grand, but it is a cozy place. After they get a little bit of furniture in there and decorate it, I’m sure it will be a great home for them. Jade offered me a nice mug of tea. What a flavorful blend, I’ll have to find out where she got it. Wilhelm came forward and talked about that woman Celeste. Just like I thought, he never did anything with her. She tried to seduce him, he refused, and now she’s just trying to get back at him with rumors. I never believed her for a second.

    I also saw Coin and Cera, who were also talking to Fishel. I’m so glad Cera treats me as a friend again, although it worries me how she’s reverted to acting like a child. She still has mixed feelings for Braeth. It seems that the child half of her sees him as Daddy, probably because he and I are basically married. The other half still sees him as a traitor who tried to take Coin away. She had a dream where she saw Daddy turn into a creature she calls Father, who took Coin away and killed him. Coin and Fishel think that if we had Braeth apologize to Coin in front of Cera, it may help her to forgive him. I think it’s worth a try. I’ll have to talk to Braeth about it.

    Later in the evening, Jade decided to head to bed. A few minutes after she left, we heard a scream from the cove where her shack is. Wilhelm, Reginald, Fishel and I ran over to the shack to make sure Jade was okay. We found her huddled in a corner like a frightened rabbit. When I got close and looked at her carefully, I noticed that her hair was slightly frosted and she was shivering. As if she was suddenly chilled. I asked what she saw that spooked her, knowing her answer before she said it. The black demon with a scythe. I reflexively shivered at my memory of the creature. It alarmed us all, knowing that the creature belongs to Devon. Fishel began to shout about how we should separate Jade and I, as Devon wants Jade and my amulet. Reginald went outside to make sure nothing was out there. Jade decided she really needed sleep so she went into her bedroom. Suddenly she screamed. We opened the door and found nobody was in the room. She just vanished.

    Wilhelm was distraught, as were the rest of us. Fishel kept going on about how we should have listened to him. I felt myself getting angry. Devon took her again. That BASTARD just can’t leave her alone. Just keeps causing us PAIN. I’m so SICK OF IT!! SICK OF HIS TAUNTING!! SICK OF HIS GAMES!! He DIGUSTS me so much. Tries to KILL MY FRIENDS! KIDNAP THEM! The way he toys with us, like it’s ALL A GAME TO HIM!! The way he FLAUNTS everything I HOLD DEAR!! HOW DARE HE MOCK MY LOVE!! MOCK MY HOPE!! I’LL KILL HIM!! HE’LL PAY FOR IT ALL!! HE MUST PAY!!!

    I wasn’t paying attention to what was going on while we sat there. I just remember some arguing and then Jade suddenly appeared next to me. Having her suddenly appear like that startled me out of whatever I was thinking about. I can’t quite remember what it was. I’m glad Jade did return though, and that she’s alright. She did seem disturbed about something though.

    Afterward we left Jade, and then it was only after being assured she would be alright, I spoke to Fishel alone. He wanted to tell me something that he thought would cheer me up. We had a nice talk about why evil doesn’t succeed while we good people do. Basically, it’s because we willingly help each other and our cooperation and sharing of talents adds up to a greater whole than the sum of it’s parts. Evil, on the otherhand, is only concerned with itself and thus is hampered even if it tries to work together because in reality it’s not working together. It was food for thought at least. I we also talked about how I felt lately and why I feel that way. He’s a good person to talk to, he listens well. If I do get voted as the leader of the Alliance, I’ll be glad to know the Temple will be put in his hands. Of course, I’m still going to keep doing some work with the Temple, I will never really abandon it.


  • ((OOC - Yes, Reg, she has some fire in her. And it's growing…))

    Entry 49 -

    I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. Before I always felt that I'd be staying in Norwick, as I had found great friends there. It was home to me. However, I've been recently been feeling lonely. Many of my friends have moved since the roads have been opened up. With recent events that have happened to me, I've really felt like I need to be with them. I also think that some of them need me, especially Cera.

    So, I've decided to move from Norwick. It's not a complete farewell, though. I do plan to visit, there are still some friends in the town after all. Friends like Covah, who was kind enough to escort me to my new home.

    So where did I move to? Well, I noticed that a good number of my friends are at the gypsy camp. Wilhelm, Jade, Reginald, Cera, Coin… Plus, the camp is close to the Alliance guildhall. Plus, it reminds me of staying out in the woods with good ol' Tyger. I've felt tired inside lately. My heart aches from all that I've been through. I think living here in the gypsy camp will help me relax.

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    Jenkies!

    Kara's got some fire in there!

    I'm glad I could think of something on short notice, it helps to know Mythology 😄

    Man! telling a story from memory at the drop of a hat is scary!

    Glad it worked out and fit so well into Kara's experience.


  • _((OOC - Wow! This was perhaps the best night of RP I've had ever. Damn, Kara sure gets emotional at times. I actually needed a tissue or two a few times.

    In a way, I wish the events at the cavern happened another night instead, because I was really looking forward to a very depressed Kara try to write a diary entry. Oh well, this diary entry should still be a very good read.

    BTW, Reginald. It was uncanny how well your story fit the situation Kara was in. It really did mirror her problem and helped to start the process of drawing her back out of the catatonic state she was in. I'm very impressed with you, who wasn't there at the beginning of her ordeal.))_

    Entry 48 -

    How could I have been so blind? I didn’t see what Yohan’s warning meant until it was too late. “Watch your friends.” I feel like such a failure. “Seven’s the lock, I’m the key.” How could I have been such a fool! Damn that black-hearted wizard!

    Today, I started the day at the Alliance hall. I met Fishel there and we decided to head to Peltarch for a play at the new theatre. Unfortunately, we never got there. A messenger falcon dropped down to me, with a message tied to it’s leg. She asked if she could come to Norwick, she urgently needed to speak to me. Fishel and I immediately turned around and headed south. We met up with Seven just outside of town. She took me to the upstairs of the Friar’s to talk privately.

    She told me of how she was having nightmares about a black demon with cobalt blue eyes and carrying a scythe. We all die. Obviously the same creature that haunts Jade’s dreams and the same creature I faced when Yohan had me travel to Thay in spirit form. She mentioned that she has found out a way to fight the creature. I knew what she was going to say before she spoke it. My amulet. She said Rashid could feel a great power in the amulet and that it was blessed by a god. She asked if I would give it to her so she and Rashid could have it. The fact that I’ve used the amulet to represent my Love and Hope must have some bearing on it too.

    And I was a fool! I gave it to her, wanting to see this creature ended. Who could I not? Seven and Jade are both friends who needed my help. She left the Friar’s and I stayed a moment, giving a short prayer to Tyr that this would work. Suddenly I heard the voice of Devon’s puppet in my mind, taunting me for being so predictable and a fool. I felt a chill as I heard her voice, and snapped back at her. I then left the Friar’s and saw how foolish I just was.

    I stood in shock as I watched Seven hand my amulet to Devon’s puppet. I couldn’t believe that Seven was betraying me. I felt my stomach twist up inside. Then the puppet left, and Seven seemed confused as to why she was leaving. She suddenly fell to the ground and started to have spazms. And Devon’s puppet then taunted me some more, gleefully driving home the fact that I just let Devon have what he wanted. I just tried to ignore him, knowing that if I started to talk back I’d only become angry, my hatred for him pounding in my head.

    I ran over to Seven, somehow knowing in my heart that she wasn’t to blame. She stopped twitching, and woke up, dazed and confused. I told her how what she remembered, and told her I saw her give my amulet to the puppet. She was devestated at what she had done. I started to run about town, looking for the wizard’s minion. She taunted me more, saying that I won’t be able to find her. After a few minutes of frantic searching, I knew she was right. I then tried to find Seven again, but she left, too distraught at what she did.

    My amulet… My Hope... I gave it away to that fiend! Just then I could feel Yohan’s spirit approaching, which deepened my sorrow. I failed him. Failed to realize his warning. However, Yohan wasn’t mad. He understood. He knows his master is very deceitful. He told me not to blame Seven, but I already had forgiven her. Can she forgive herself though? I asked Yohan if there was anything I could do to fix my mistake. Of course, he answered back in a riddle, then left. “Two creatures, one of light, one of darkness, joined as one in flesh. You know them, Soul of light, Soul of darkness. Bonded as one in love.”

    I tried to look around town again, wanting a friend. Needing a friend. Fishel had gone south to do battle with goblins. Nobody else was around that I knew. My sadness grew. Finally, I saw Janu. I broke down and started crying as I told him what happened. He tried comforting me, but I still felt terrible. Fishel and Kanen then showed, and Braeth… and finally Jade. I repeated the tale several times, each time hurt more than the next. All I could feel was sorrow, failure, and hatred of Devon.

    Damn that wizard! He’ll pay for what he did! I’ll make him pay!

    It was seeing Jade that really made me feel bad, and my sobbing grew. She held me and also tried to comfort me. It was nice, but I still couldn’t shake the sadness from me. She then left, saying there was someone she needed to see. Braeth also had gone to do something. Kanen, Fishel, and Janu then started wondering where Seven was, worried for her. She probably was feeling the same despair that gripped me. Thinking about her made he feel even worse. My feeling engulfed me, it hurt so much. My mind seemed to come to a halt, overcome with my grief. It was a relief in a way, for I stopped feeling. Couldn’t feel my grief. Couldn’t feel my pain. Just nothing. I almost felt like the world wasn’t even there. I was just barely aware of my surroundings. It didn’t matter to me.

    My friends then started to leave. I’m not sure why they did, I recall hearing Seven’s name mentioned. I quietly followed, out of reflex. These were my friends, I should stay with them. I heard one ask me something… I think he asked what I was thinking. Reflexively, I responded and told him the truth. Nothing. The other two then hugged me. I just responded with my thanks. Something in me knew it was a good gesture. They talked for a bit while I just stood there, with no thoughts running through my head. Their voices just sounded like babbling to me. It didn’t matter. I didn’t care. Then a name broke through the babble and made itself clear to me.

    Cera.

    Hearing the name brought memories of her. I missed her hugs. I wanted to see her. Needed to see her.

    I must have said something, because somebody started to talk to me, repeating Cera’s name. Yes! Cera, I wanted Cera! I needed Cera. Her hugs... her smile... her laughter... The person then asked another question... could I fight? Fight? Yes... fight... don’t let the Fear make me run, FIGHT INSTEAD!

    They again started walking, and I followed. One headed in another direction, but I stayed with the other two. Something in me told me that they were taking me to Cera. Others lept out to attack us, tried to hurt us. FIGHT! MUST FIGHT! Others fell down, left us. We continued. Soon I was hearing music.

    Then somebody hugs me, I barely acknowledge him. Then I hear Cera’s voice! She runs over and hugs me, calls me “Mommy.” It was great to hear her again, have her hugging me again. She always brings a smile. The rest of the world didn’t matter, just me and Cera. People kept talking around us. The word, “hope,” lept up from what they were saying. Something in me stirred at the word, like a forgotten memory. Someone speaks, tells another to tell a story. Another stirring. Story, I want a story. A story about Hope.

    The storyteller, I think it was Reg. Yes, it was Reg. He told a wonderful story. It was about how a god was jealous of how well off man was when the world was created. He made a box and put awful things in it, then gave it to a little girl. Another god saw it and tried to warn her, but she still opened the box. The girl then felt awful as she saw that she released War, Sickness, Anger, Hate… all the evils of the world. The story seemed to mirror my ordeal, how I gave the amulet to Devon despite Yohan’s warning. Reginald then told of how the girl found a small little thing left in the box. Hope. It was small, and without neglect it would have died. But the little girl held it, kept it warm, and it grew in her care.

    Hope. Can’t abandon Hope.

    Suddenly, an imp started to fly around us. It taunted us, taunted me. Suddenly my quiet mind started screaming in rage. DEVON! Anger, I felt much anger. And hatred. Hatred for DEVON!! Then his puppet shows up. Again taunting. I start to step forward, brandishing my weapon. Fishel held me back. The puppet asks us to follow her, so we could see our folly. The others thought it to be a trap. I didn’t care. I followed her, my hatred seething in me. The rest followed.

    The puppet led us inside. She then gloated more, and then called out to summon something. The cave grew dark, very dark. A large form stepped out of the darkness. The demon! The one that I faced, that haunts Jade and Seven!! The puppet tried to give the demon my amulet. I called out for everybody to stop her. A flash of light burst, and then the puppet asked what was wrong. The demon then cried out for his Love. It wanted… Jade. Jade was it’s Love? The demon and puppet argued, and sometimes the demon taunted us. Fishel slipped over and grabbed my amulet and handed it to me. What relief I felt upon having it. At one point, the demon looked like it would fight us, but it became insulted as the puppet tried to command it. The demon killed the puppet, and left.

    We soon left too, as the cave started acting funny, having a few quakes. I’m so glad I got the amulet back. Glad that Devon failed. He failed! He again underestimated Love! AND HE CALLS ME THE FOOL!! Oh, but he will pay in the end. Yes. He’ll pay. He hurt me this day. He’ll pay for the pain. Pay for MY PAIN! Pay for MY FRIENDS’ PAIN! THE BASTARD WILL PAY!!!

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    :shock: Hes moving to where Coin and Cera are.


  • ((OOC - Cera always does something that throws me for a loop. Calling me "Mommy" was just too much! Poor Cera.))

    Entry 47 -

    I dreaded getting up this morning. I feared what Coin’s trial would do to Cera. I also had a hard time believing that Coin was as bad of a person as this trial was out to make him. I headed out of the inn, and went to find Braeth. It wasn’t too difficult to find him, he was over by the guard platform by the north gate. He was with Rashid and Karli, and another elf, named Sil I think. Karli and Rashid seemed to be arguing about something, and then both stormed off angry at each other.

    Wilhelm then entered town with Cera of all people! I guess she wanted to see the trial for herself. She really yelled at Braeth. He tried to explain himself to her, but I think he was doing more harm than good. I also sensed that even if Coin was proven innocent, his troubles with Braeth wouldn’t be over. It felt like Braeth was hiding something.

    Rashid called Braeth over, and told him that he’s dropping the charge doing with poisoning Karli. She basically told him not to do it. Braeth got very upset. He quit the militia right there, throwing down his papers. All because he thinks Justice is not being served. His attitude was starting to piss me off. He’s damning Coin to be this person as evil as Vinessa when the whole Truth isn’t known! We exchanged a few words, and then he stormed off. Wilhelm went after him, with the hopes of calming him down.

    While Braeth talked to Rashid, Cera started calling me, “Mommy.” It was nice to see her not angry at me, but to see her in such a state that she’s reverted into acting like a child really struck me senseless. I don’t think I ever realized before how shattered her mind is. I knew from the first day I met her that she wasn’t fully sane, but to this level? It’s terrible that such mental illness has struck such a sweet person. Cera and I tried to find Adam and Coin to tell them the news about the trial, but we were unsuccessful. I ended up parting with her at the tavern.

    Later, I travelled back to the Alliance hall, wanting to pray at my temple. Things were just going too crazy, especially with Braeth. I know he’s doing what he thinks is for the Greater Good, but I just can’t agree with it. Braeth came in just as I was praying, figuring that I’d be there. He and I still argued a bit, and I could tell he still wanted to do something to Coin. He just couldn’t let it go. We both left the temple and ran into Fishel. Fishel and I both tried to talk Braeth into not taking further action against Coin. It was a long talk, but we were successful in the end. I think. Coin just better watch himself and not get Braeth angry again. Fishel and I then talked, about his past, about my overcoming my Fear, a few other things too.

    It looks like Braeth wants to move. He’s sick of the town. He’s considering moving to the gypsy camp. Not a bad choice really, it suits his personality better. We also have a lot of friends that moved there, and it’s closer to the Alliance Hall. I guess I can live there.


  • _((OOC - And Kara soooooo much wanted a hug from Cera more than anything in the world. Well, that and a good story. Too bad she didn't really get earlier. I wish I knew it was going on sooner, I missed the part that I would have been interested in the most.

    Kara really wanted to talk to Cera more. She was just too scared to though. Poor girls, they are so torn up inside…))_

    Entry 46 -

    I had a wonderful day of fun and relaxation. The gypsies held a huge party, which they called a Patshiva. Unfortunately, I missed the beginning of it, which had many stories, songs, and poems. A well, fun was still abound.

    Kanen was kind enough to escort me to the camp. On the way, he spoke of how he hoped I understood his decision to leave the militia. I told him that I completely understood, and in fact felt the same way as he did. He was glad to hear my words. Why is it that I seem to be the only one that understands this paladin?

    When we got to the camp, they were holding the archery competition. I was surprised to see Coin with Cera. Last I knew he was in jail. Did they let him out so that he could see Cera one last time before the trial? If so, then I have to commend whoever let him out. Cera really did need to see her Coin again. And I have to commend Coin if he does keep his word and return for the trial. I really wanted to speak to Cera, but I was too scared that she’d not want to talk to me, so I just kept things to a polite greeting. I’ve come to miss her cheerfulness though.

    Hugh won the archery contest. Afterward they had a melee competition. Coin surprised us by showing himself to be a very skilled. He bested Kanen and made it to the final round. Ultimately though, a dwarf named Balin proved to be the best warrior. Next was a boxing competition, which turned out to be very one-sided. Hugh was completely victorious, which isn’t surprising. Monks are trained very well with hand-to-hand combat. Cera surprised me by stepping into the ring for a boxing match. She lost, but put up a very good fight.

    Things started to wind down after that, and many of the people left. A few others and I still wanted to hear some tales. Reginald started to sing a song, but was interrupted as a theif tried to steal something from Coin. Next, my bard friend recited a prose, which was very lovely. After that though, it seemed nobody wanted to tell a tale. Having had an ale, and with my mother’s blood burning in me, I decided that if nobody was going to give me a tale, I might as well give one of my own. I told of how my father became a paladin. I know I told the story before, thus it should be easy for me to tell again. Plus, it was a new crowd so it was new to everybody. The crowd loved the tale, though it took longer than I thought it would to tell it.

    Reginald was especially pleased with the tale. He told me that my heritage obviously showed itself. I could tell by the way he acted that Jade was definitely right. He’s smitten. I feel sorry for him. I must commend him for being a perfect gentleman about it though. Poor Reg.


  • ((I SO wanted Cera to give Kara a hug well everybody she knew after the festivities held in the Gyspsy Camp…just to add one extra up note before the trial.. aw well, silly server resests. I had just gotten her in the mood to do it too. Though I suppose it can be as much fun watching other characters tiwtst in the wind as it is throw new things at Cera 😉 ))


  • Entry 45 -

    Coin has been put into jail and there will be a trial held soon. I've been called to be a witness at the trial, because of the demon's blood that Coin had given me. Braeth and Adam were arguing over Adam being able to talk to me because of it, since Adam will be Coin's defense at the trial. It kind of disturbed me how Braeth was acting, gloating on how he's setting the rules. So, Coin's charges against him are two counts of attempted poisoning, and one count of conspiracy to commit mass murder with Vinessa. The last charge REALLY surprises me.

    This whole trial business put me in a foul mood, because I know the one who stands to be hurt by this is Cera. I decided to go bash out some frustrations on some wandering goblins in the Rawlinswood. While in the woods, I ran into Jade. She seemed to be in a good mood, and we both decided to hunt together. By Tyr, she is skilled with that greatsword. It seems unreal how a smaller elf such as herself can wield that weapon with such grace. She attributes her skill to her teacher, Steele.

    After our hunt, Jade went off with Wilhelm. I wandered around town for a little bit, still feeling anxious about the trial. While I was talking to Amissa, I noticed a black figure near the houses across from the Friar's place. I had a suspition that it may be Mojo, because it looked like the big cat. I left Amissa to investigate, and sure enough, it was Mojo. Poor Cera. My heart aches to think of how she must feel. I called out to Mojo, asking if Cera is okay. While I stared at the panther, I heard Cera's voice in my head, and I spoke back to her.

    I'm very disturbed by her words. She hates us all for what we are doing to her Coin. He's special to her like Braeth is to me. She thinks we all betrayed her, especially Braeth and Rashid. I think she understood that I didn't want any of this to happen, but… She said if Coin dies we will never be forgiven....

    I'm losing a good friend. And even worse than that, I'm seeing her innocence slip away. That one cherished quality I saw in her, it's fading away. It breaks my heart.

    After I left Mojo, I ran into Wilhelm and Jade again. Jade pulled me aside, wanting to talk to me. She told me that she thinks Reg has fallen for me. Now, I've known the bard for a long time. He was one of the first friends I made when I arrived in Norwick. I suppose I shouldn't be too surprised if he has fallen for me, but I think he hides it well. Usually, at least. Jade told me he had drunken himself into quite a stupor the night I became bonded to Braeth. Wilhelm had a hell of a time getting him down from the roof of the inn. Poor Reg. Falls for a girl, only to have her belong to another man.

    Later, while I was talking to Wilhelm, I felt a spirit reach out to my mind. At first, I thought it was Yohan again, but it felt different. Familiar, but not the old man. A few brief flashes entered my mind, a knight of Torm was fighting some bugbears, trying to rescue a friend. I realized the knight was Sir Wulf. I spent quite a bit of time trying to find somebody help me retrieve him, the only way I could think of was to become invisible, for I did not want to fight bugbears. However, before I went deep into the woods, I felt the spirit's contact with me disappear, like he was pulled away. It was strange, but I felt in my gut like the spirit had been pulled back to the realm of the living. The sorceror I had gotten to help me and I decided not to go search for him, hoping that my feeling was right.


  • _((OOC - Sorry, Braeth, but I know I did not tell you about the vial Coin gave me. I know because he made me promise not to tell, and I was faithful to that promise.

    Just a reminder to everybody. You should consider the contents of this diary (and also the "Descent into Madness" story) as knowledge of an OOC nature. Your character should not be considered to IC know what is written in this diary unless I give you specific permission stating so. Braeth does have permission to have IC knowledge of part of the diary, from beginning entry up to the entry when Kara went insane with Fear. A few other people have been shown one entry from the diary, that being the entry about the events at the well that lead to her Fear.))_

    Entry 44 -

    I started the day talking to Reginald, Covah, and Piggu (a bard I briefly met before). We talked about a number of things. The new theatre in Peltarch, how I've been finding myself to be telling stories to people, and about my problems with Devon. I only started to talk about Devon because Piggu made a wise crack about keeping an eye out for wizards wanting me for experimentation as I'm the rare offspring of a paladin and a bard. Normally, I'd really appreciate the joke, but it kinda touched a sore spot considering the fact that Devon does want me for something.

    Wilhelm came rushing up to me, asking me to follow him immediately. He mentioned that Braeth and Rashid were about ready to kill Coin over something. The news hit me by surprise, and I immediately became concerned for Cera. If she were to witness them killing Coin, surely it'd break her mind even more than it already is. Not to mention her heart. I immediately followed Wilhelm to the South Gate of town. Before we left the walls of the village, Wilhelm stopped and whispered a question to me. He asked if Coin had ever tried to get me to drink some demon's blood. I whispered back that Coin did give me a vial of the substance when I became bonded to Braeth, telling me that it should help me with controling my Fear. I didn't drink it at the time, however, because I really didn't trust the substance (I was scared of demons, why would drinking the blood of one help?) and if what he said was true I'd rather save it for when I needed it.

    Braeth, Rashid, Coin, and Kanen's voices grew louder, as their argument became more heated. Wilhelm and I immediately exited the town and approached. Fishel was also there, I think he was trying to calm everybody down. Kanen was also trying to calm the crowd. But Braeth and Rashid were full of anger and hatred at Coin. It seemed that they accused him of trying to corrupt me and poison Karli. At least those things. Oh yeah, Coin also claimed to have elf blood stored on him in waterskins. If Coin had done wrong (and the demon blood could surely be considered wrong, also the poisoning), then Coin should have just been jailed so that all the evidence could be brought forth and a proper trial be done. But the two were wanting to kill him right on the spot! I tried telling everybody to cool themselves and asked to have the whole situation explained to me, and also remind them how they could cause harm to Cera with their actions. Nobody but Wilhelm seemed to hear me though. Rashid challenged Coin to a duel. I stormed off, disgusted with what I was seeing. This is not the way Justice should be done! When they started the duel, only Rashid was swinging a weapon, Coin refused to fight. Not wanting to stain his honor at killing a defenseless man (though if you ask me, Coin did agree with the duel so there should be no stain), Rashid walked away in a very angry mood.

    Cera was not there in body, but her familiar, Mojo was. Mojo was very angry and ready to attack anybody who wanted to harm Coin. I looked down at Mojo, who was growling away, and decided that I really should try again to be the voice of reason. Braeth was still wanting to kill Coin where he stood. Braeth again mentioned how I told him of the vial of demon's blood. I was a bit shocked, for I know I did not mention about the vial before, only today when Wilhelm just asked me. Did Braeth read my diary? I'm going to have to talk about that with him. I don't like the idea of anybody reading my diary without my permission. Anyways, Wilhelm and I were able to calm Braeth down enough so that he was thinking rationally. He walked off to his secret place in the woods to clear his head. I told Coin I wanted to speak with him later, and left with Wilhelm and Reginald to talk to Braeth.

    Braeth was upset, as I expected him to be, but I was surprised that he was mostly upset with himself and not with me. I truly expected him to be angry at me. Braeth was angry with himself because he had let his anger and hatred rule again. He did wonder why Kanen defended Coin. I explained that Kanen probably felt the same way as I did. Coin should not have been killed like Braeth and Rashid were going to do. Coin should have been arrested and a regular trial with proper evidence brought forth. Braeth argued that not everything can be within the bounds of Law and that I should remember the Greater Good. I disagree, this was well within the bounds of Law. Poisoning Karli at the least is against the law, even if it was just pixie dust. I'm sure that some law could have been cited for the demon blood he gave me. But most importantly, I stressed about Cera and how hurt she'd be. Tyr protect and watch over that girl… she may already be hurt from what happened. She was watching through Mojo.

    After Braeth was again of calm mind, all the guys in the group decided to have a little fun with sparring against one another. I guess they needed to vent out a little of their anger and frustration. I didn't partake though. Instead I watched and defended myself from the occasional goblin that decided to attack us.

    I'm just so frustrated at what happened. Sometimes men really piss me off, always so quick to draw a weapon instead of thinking things through. I have to applaud Kanen, Fishel, and Wilhelm for keeping their heads cool. I'm also frustrated at the fact that Braeth seems to act more human and I act more elven. Oh well, hopefully things will work out alright in the end.

    Please be alright Cera.


  • _((OOC - I wonder if people are detecting a change in Kara since she overcame her Fear. This change may or may not be fore the better, only time will tell. Let's just say that her Fear still has some control over her. it's the manner in which it controls her now that's changed…

    The poor girl doesn't even realize it though. She just thinks her Fear is over and done with.))_

    Entry 43 -

    Fishel has returned! Unfortunately, he's got some amnesia. At least our good friend is alright otherwise.

    It seems that more and more friends are wanting to help with the problem of Devon. When I left the Boarshead Inn today, I found Braeth talking to a bunch of people about it. Of course, I was then obliged to talk about Yohan's messages to me. One person in particular that I was telling the tale too was a woman named "Blood Rain." I'm not sure if her name is spelled that way, but that's how it seemed it was pronounced. Odd name really, but I've heard stranger.

    While I talked about how I reminded Yohan of his wife, Braeth pointed out a mistake in my tale. I keep thinking that Devon killed her, but according to Braeth, Yohan said that Devon took her. When he pointed it out to me, I remember that those were the words Yohan said indeed. I just understood "took" to mean "killed." Devon himself (through his female puppet again) spoke to my mind, accusing me of spreading lies. As if I'm perfect. Oh well, if it annoyed Devon, then I'm happy that I had a mistake.

    It'd be just as well if he killed her anyways. She's propably a puppet like Yohan was. Heck, she's probably the one he's using to speak to us now. Bastard.

    Devon's puppet then started to speak into the minds of people around me, taunting them. Soon it was suggested that we travel to the Alliance's outpost. There the puppet would not be able to overhear us and then twist our words against us. Everybody started to head out while I thought about something. That's when Devon made a mistake. He had his puppet come up to me and revealed herself to me, giving me a face to match the voice. Devon taunted that my friends had left me, and I replied that I was leaving to, and promptly did so. Of course, Devon taunts back that I'm cowardly running away. I just ignored it. I left because Devon disgusts me, and I did not want to hold up my friends.

    Blood Rain had to leave us, she had to attend to a friend. A good number of us made the journey north to my temple in the Alliance guildhall. There was Verix, Pip, Kanen, Braeth, Janu, Rashid, and Fishel. At one point, a headless spirit interrupted our conversation to talk with Rashid. Rashid had been helping the spirit out with trying to get a head for her. Some of the other people kept saying things to make the spirit angry. They weren't giving her a lot of respect, and she soon left.

    Fishel, Janu, and Rashid began to bombard me with questions about Yohan, Devon, the necklace, and the my spirit trip to spy on Devon. After much talk, we decided to try to contact Yohan, hoping to get him to talk with my friends. We were successful and Braeth, Rashid, Janu, and I talked with Yohan while Fishel stood guard (Verix, Pip, and Kanen had left us). What did we learn? Devon is definately in Thay. He wants Seven because she is the "key." He wants me because I'm the "lock." What are we lock and key to? Domination and control over life. Braeth guessed that Yohan means that Devon wants to become a god, Yohan thought Braeth was wise to see that meaning. Toward the end of our impromtu seance, Yohan warned that Devon was getting angry at us. He probably was scrying me and could see Yohan was in contact with us. We felt a darkness approaching us, and I could tell it was the same scythe-wielding creature I met before. Rashid used some hidden power to surround us in protective light. We ended our talk with Yohan soon after, not wanting to tax Rashid too greatly. Suddenly, the altars in my temple started to glow with sparkling auras. Obviously, the gods had blessed us. They deem our quest to stop this mad wizard to be quite worthy.

    Braeth seemed surprised when Yohan called me his hope. But I think I understand. Devon may want me because I'm a lock to something he needs opened, but at the same time, I'm a lock that can seal his chances of success away. With my Love, Faith, and Hope, I shall succeed. And then Yohan can finally have his rest.

    Braeth and Rashid left us, deciding to get some rest. Fishel still wanted to talk to me, and Janu stayed for a little while. Fishel asked me what hope was. It seems he forgot! Janu and I tried to explain it at first, and he didn't seem to understand. Then I decided to tell him of how my Fear consumed me and how it was hope that kept me alive through it. He understood after my tale, and not only that, but he remembered me telling it before, when Kanen was in jail due to Justinia. Janu left, but Fishel and I continued to talk. I asked him about his deity, as he never spoke of Mara before. He wasn't sure why he was guarded about his deity's identity before. Mara is a goddess of healing, perhaps a relatively new one too. We also talked about Kanen, who is a good friend of Fishel's. As we talked, some more memories came back to him. He's not really worried if they all don't come back though.

    One thing is apparent, I need to talk to Seven. It's imperitive that her and I are kept safe from Devon until we find away to ruin his plans. I'm also worried about her since Kanen broke the news to her that he loves somebody else. She seems to have a soft heart under her strong exterior. She usually hides it well though.