Travelling between worlds - Chea's Journal, part second.
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_Travel between worlds.
Dear Journal,
i think, i understand.
i think that world is ideas in our mind, that we explore.
once we know certain ideas we can go see them in external world, or make them part of physical reality for example.
where mind goes, body follows.
travel between worlds can happen using proper mantras, as they change mind's state - and can be used less or more skilfully.
i think that perfection comes from experience, trying & observation - that's why i practice mind's quiet, observation & mantras.
i think that before visiting lower words it's wise to go to world of animals for wisdom, after short visit to hell for fearlessness.
– Yours, Chea Allin, traveller between worlds._
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Unworthy of 2 Camels (and a Duck).
Dear Journal,
It seems I've fallen under attention of a fat man from Calimshan.
Suitor's people came to me, with praises and promises of gifts.
They said he's influential man in his home, in Calimshan. They said he's worthy of 2 Camels at the very least... and camels hold the price well.
Perhaps his price is as big as his ego, I thought.
... I've answered that I am unworthy of him ...
What I didn't tell them is that I am unworthy because I could not stay with him... Instead, advised them to seek a woman who is worthy of him.
I've also said that he's worthy more than 2 camels, I've added a duck to his price... and to be with a man, I need to feel worthy enough. It would be unfair otherwise, and I would feel badly in such relationship.
... a man should not overpay for a woman, and a woman should not overpay for a man.
... In some countries, bold and often untrue stories are called 'journalism ducks', or 'hoaxes'. Some bards love to spread such tales.
How much a duck is worth?
Probably not very much... but still, he can say that he's worth more than 2 camels... and in some circles, particularly in his homeland, this can have a value.
I love Anheim, and we are worthy of each other, at least, Dear Journal.
-- Yours, Chea, Unworthy of 2 Camels, and a Duck.
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(( DM Maythor gave me XP for stories, but he can't login to forums and I've written a note about XP given, on his behalf. ))
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Fire Elementals of Kossuth.
Dear Journal,
As my duties with Cerulean paperwork lessened, could find time for myself, and for my studies. I was buried under the tons of paperwork for too long.
Learning how to summon creatures, mostly the Fire Elementals.
The spells I'll use are:
- Summon Creature VI,
- Summon Creature VIII.
For a while I'll need to lose the access to the Chain Lightning, the 6th Circle Spell.
The higher summons ( the 6th circle or higher ) are no joke, and perhaps Kossuth - the Fire Deity - will be pleased as well.
Summons can be combined with Invisibility, as casting summon does not break the Invisibility spells.
-- Yours, Chea Allin, a Witch.
P.S. Wethrillina Aeliath, lover of Master Attentus, was a conjuring witch too.
-=- Chea, learning to summon the Fire Elementals. -=-
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A fight for alight.
Dear Journal,
Been a while since I had some time for my 'personal' pursuits.
Among the Cerulean Ranks, they treat me like a doll.
'Do not put yourself into a danger',
'You have great calligraphy',
'It would be a shame if something happened to your beautiful robe',... and so on.
Reports & papers they give me to fill with corrections are numerous, to put it mildly.
This evening, however, I've set things in motion, or at least attempted to do so.
I've decided to pursue fight against the darkness that inhabits the land, and started with a 'Light' cantrip spell.
My boy-friend, Anheim, told me once:
'With weapons one can defeat terrorists, but with education one can defeat whole terrorism. Those who practice terrorism are often desperate, unable to help their families in their poor plight. So they sacrifice themselves in a fight against those whom they believe to be oppressors, causes of their families poor living'.
I will use my charms and wisdom in this fight, educating and acting as a diplomat.
... my pet-peeve is so called 'cause for greater good', where priests of some so-called 'good deities' educate their followers to not hesistate to sacrifice the meek when the numerous majority needs to prevail, and there's no other way.
I'll try to be like one of more famous of eastern geishas (women companions), who had a smile and kind words even for the meekest and worst.
... I'll not let myself be abused, however.
... We'll see how things will unfold.
-- Yours, Chea Allin, a Witch and a Seeker of Enlightened Energies.
P.S. I'll try to create some enlightening arts. One could question how Art can bring enlightenment... but well, we are Mind and have Bodies... and looking at the Art can change one's Mind State. I've heard that sometimes Mind State changes can completely alter one's perceptions, and in effect - the whole world in which one lives. People should not underestimate meaning of the Arts, I think.
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Memories, Memories.
Dearest Journal,
... i wrote so much, but so little about my childhood & about my first Awakening to Magick.
My mother - Neanna - was an actress and my father - Vincent - was a mercinary soldier who travelled both near and far.
... i was born and raised in Cormyr, where i lived with my mother.
One evening i felt 'pulled' to the Elven woods of Cormanthor near, where i've found a glade with ancient circle of rune-stone monoliths.
Selune was in her Full Moon phase, and everything seemed so intense, so soaked with loving energies of Magick.
... i entered the Circle of Stones, and everything seemed to spin around me. Trees danced, Selune's light shine on me.
... i felt guided by unseen presence, heard ancient song in my head.
... i felt something made me to make strange gestures, speak ancient, arcane verses.
... i felt like a doll, with Selune pulling the strings and making me dance.
... then everything went bright around me, a light spell was cast.
... a light spell, the gift from Selune.
... danced there for a while, then felt tired and fell asleep on warm earth within the Circle of Runestones.
... everything was intense and meaningful, magical and loving, in a way it felt so right ...
Woke up in the morning and went back home.
There, i could not repeat the spell again.
Went to the stone circle again few times but everything was gentle and quiet.
Only when next full moon arose, the Circle of Stones felt alive again ... and i could cast the light spell again.
Voice in my head told me to seek 'Enlightened Energies'.
Later found a Monk from Kara-Tur who taught me how to meditate, how to seek the light within myself.
Even later i joined Arcane Academy in Damara, under patronage of Loviatar ... such emotional pain, i ran away without completing the Course.
And yet later again - when i was ready - a Rashemi Witch named Katarina appeared in my life to initiate me fully into the Witchcraft.
After that, me and my familiar - Nade, a black panther - found each other, and beginning of friendship between us did appear.
But these tales are for later, Dear Journal.
-- Yours, Chea Allin, a witch & a seeker of Enlightened Energies.
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Value Words.
Dear Journal,
... i am travelling to Damara with a escorted caravan, seeking love.
They asked me if i will pay - i've answered: 'it's fine'.
They asked how much is fine - i've answered: '100gp'.
Thought i'll sort meanings of the words, so conversation goes smooth.
'poor' - transaction reejected.
'good enough' - 1 gp.
'good' - 10 gp.
'neat' - almost fine, 80 gp.
'fine' - 100 gp.
'grand' - 1000 gp.
'excellent' - 10 000 gp.
'awesome' - 100 000 gp.
'perfect' - 1 000 000 gp.i've considered modifying with other words, but finally settled for numerical pre-fixing.
for example:
'1 000 grand is perfect',
'10 good enough is good'.
... etc.This should be simple and easy to use.
-- Yours, Chea Allin, travelling witch.
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_Future Vision & a Poem.
Dear Journal,
i've composed a poem about visions i had, about destinies foreseen.
The Twin Moons skryer saw,
Future - vision in dark skies.As Aquarius rises up,
Magick across worlds awakens.Darkness, Hordes shall soon follow,
Be reborn across worlds.Stars, light-points at night-skies,
Gods, guide light, that will come.One star, not too dim - is Damaran boy to come,
He's destined for Oscura, his name Kensho, after monk.His destiny is to control,
The dark forces that'll arrive.Will he do what gods expect?
We shall see, time will tell.– Yours, Chea Allin, a Witch & a Seeker of Enlightened Energies._
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_Dark Clouds.
Dear Journal,
… i've been investigating conditions for Attentus' - Kensho's meaningful rebirth.
Worst obstacle seems to be corruption.
There are demonic, devillish, ghostly, humanoid and human forces that wait for his return to prey on his mind's qualities.
They wish to pollute his consciousness stream with their own corruption, to have him purify their sins and misdeeds - they wish to 'bathe' in his mind-stream, so they seem more pure and fascinating energetically to others.
... i am warned as well, to not learn 'Mind Blank' or 'Spell Mantle' spells too early as well, as their energy, protecting and purifying qualities are magnet to corrupt forces across planes.
So far i've learned that fire magick can be used to purify the pollution, but i am not sure if that's enough.
-- Yours, Chea Allin, a Witch-Student of Master Attentus._
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_A night sky full of stars.
Dear Journal,
… i've been skrying, observing the skies, doing other arcane and divinatory practices.
As the fates spin, as karma turns, the Aquarius Zodiac is gaining in Power, Magic Awakens across many Worlds.
Beings from hells and from other lower planes awaken, reincarnating as humans, as beasts, as ghosts.
... i've foreseen that gods answer to the subconscious prayers of many beings, of beings that are scared of the incoming darkness.
There's a rise among 'light points', among beings that are spiritually developed.
Attentus' next incarnation of major significiance shall come to Narfell someday, i got a few clues as well - but he's just a small point of light on the sky dark as night.
... i've foreseen that most likely he will be given name 'Kensho', a Kara-turan word for 'awareness', for 'awakening', for 'comprehension, understanding', and for 'seeing nature, essence'. 'Ken' in Shou, Kara-Turan language is not only 'seeing' but also 'sword'. Perceptions as sharp as blade's edge come to mind with that.
i like that, and will try to ensure.
Attentus wielded not only magic, but also sword at end of his life - this implies strong Kara-turan warrior's Karma that wanes as his lives progress.
... probably he'll be born in Damara, in a family of westerners well-versed in Kara-Turan traditions of Magic and Spirituality, and his name will be given after an old warrior-monk friend of that family who will die at Attentus' age of 9.
.... if i am not wrong, he will be taught meditation since early childhood and his sorcerous powers will awaken that way.
... i've foreseen that Mystra, Selûne and Azuth influenced his destiny - so he'll be guided to 'control' incoming 'hordes of darkness', in the name of Light.
... he will also gain attention of Kara-turan lesser sage-deity of Lightning and Martial Arts, Raiden - but i could not see why, so far.
... i've foreseen that there will be many others as him, as too much of responsibility and power would destroy him.
Gods seem to spare him too much of that burden, for now, i think.
-- Yours, Chea Allin, a Witch-Student of Master Attentus, a Seeker of Enlightened Energies._
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_Letter to Attentus.
Dear Journal,
i wrote a letter to Master Attentus, perhaps will have opportunity to present it to him - when we both reincarnate at similar age, when i'll be a little younger than him.
'Master Attentus - i've scried for Your past, Dearest - it is what my eyes saw, unbound by time's chains.
You are the one who was both cursed and blessed, with struggle and power, with torment and love.
You are also the one, who never was too far from my thoughts and from my heart.
Dearest Teacher, i admire your coherence, discipline and will in pursuit of love - my hopes are to be reborn as slightly younger than Your age shall be.
Then we can seek the light together.
– Chea Allin.'
– Yours, Chea Allin, a Witch-Student of Master Attentus & a Seeker of Enlightened Energies._
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_Skrying for Attentus' past, part 6.
Dear Journal,
Attentus and Wethrillina were always together, were busy together.
People often called her 'Lina', for short.
As a part of their romance they united two Arcane Guilds - Spellweaver Keep with Emerald Circle, in which Lina was a member.
He was Spellweaver Leader, and Lina served others as an advisor.
She was wise and philosophical witch related with unseelie, cold fey - she was Distant, Menacing, Seductive and Cold outside - but so hot as a White Star inside, for those she loved or cared for.
She mentioned that scary stone-and-metal fortress that spellweaver keep was should also have a garden, and Attentus loved the idea.
They had some private time for themselves as well.
Other times they enjoyed presence of others, did some politics, involved themselves in arcane and political circles.
This was a romance with great meaning and with great style & company.
They had few friends, closest was 'Klaz' - a spellsword named 'Klazaroth Stormrage', a black sails leader named Deacon Sterr, and a warrior Talgrath Caldassan with his pixie friend.
Wethrillina liked to help tormented people, to solve their 'puzzles' as Attentus called problems that bothered them.
Klaz was a 'complex puzzle' by Lina's words.
Attentus could do anything for her, and when she was lost behind arcane portal - he ran to rescue her disregarding completely all of posiible dangers.
She was rescued.
Other time he admitted to her that he craves power to protect her, and she was impressed.
She understood him without words, and was modest, cautious, eloquent, loving and gentle for him, despite being sinister, dangerous and fascinating witch.
Her manners were without fault, she was elegant and not too formal when compared with Attentus.
Her words and touch of her blue skin were like heaven's caress.
Attentus loved her more and more each day that passed.
Their romance lasted for about a year, then she left him.
Attentus could not accept this at first, but she was gone.
But thanks to this romance worst of his emotional scars were healed, and eventually came to terms with himself and moved on.
– Yours, Chea Allin, a Witch and a Seeker of Enlightened Energies._
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_Skrying for Attentus' past, part 5.
Dear Journal,
… i did skry for more of Attentus' past, and i learned as follows.
After his vision and return to society, Attentus was still in deep emotional pain.
Ruri's Heartstone blessed with love protected him from Vrock Demon, who started to avoid Attentus - but torment was still in his heart.
Later Attentus learned that Vrock hid in the Depths below Gypsy Camp's broken earth, where shadows served him.
It took years of compassion practice by Attentus, before the demon was fully defeated by Attentus, however.
Years passed, Attentus fled from life and engaged himself in Arcane Pursuits of Spellweaver Keep, advancing in ranks until he became Overseer, then the Leader, the Keeper.
When new mage appeared in the area, Attentus greeted her or him, showed and explained Spellweaver Keep, and sought romances from attractive witches.
But he couldn't find anyone whom he could love until he met Wethrillina Aeliath.
A witch banished from Norwick by a high-ranked Norwick Militia, a Barbarian named Uthger. They made her leave with swords bared, and torches in hands.
Attentus met her, and they cautiously exchanged their life stories, as time passed, as meetings came.
Both wicked and cautious, they both attempted seduction, tried to entrap other one under them.
Both fell in each other's traps, this romance could not be otherwise.
Attentus was still scared of revealing his emotions to Wethrillina, fearing that he will be left after showing that 'weakness' - but it was him who had to make first step, as he was a male.
Attentus arranged for revoking the banishment, as the Head of the Spellweaver he had that power in Norwick, anyway.
Then during a Norwick Faire, Attentus' elven friend, Evelyth Miliatani, sang a song that encouraged him to let woman have upper hand, to 'let her under his skin, then to begin to make it better'.
He offered his heart to Wethrillina Aeliath and she accepted his love - they started to be a couple, and even kissed each other passionately at fair's end.
Attentus torments were supressed by the new love, powerful, beautiful and true.
... i'll leave the nicer details for next time, Dear Journal.
-- Yours, Chea Allin, a Witch & a Seeker of Enlightened Energies.
-=- Wethrillina Aeliath. -=-
-=- except that being a Witch of the Unseelie Fey, she had a light-blue skin. -=-
-=- … a heaven's caress. -=-_
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_Tower of Love, a Den of Power.
Dear Journal,
… i had unsettling dreams,
... in my dreams i had a vision of a Tower, in which Beautiful Women of Power offered Love.
Tower of Love is a great Spiritual Challenge, for those who dare to enter.
... it's easy to annoy all women of the tower, by loving improperly.
... Tower is a symbol of Catastrophe, of Ruin in TAROT, Divination Deck of Cards.
... it's not easy to emerge victorious from that Test, but those who succeed will advance in Spirituality & Love, will achieve Great Success through many lives.
... Those who fail, will have their Karma Ruined for many lives, as well.
... i had insight that i'll visit the tower to serve there after many Reincarnations, as well - and won't fail the Test for Tower's Staff.
... had insights that many of our friends, including Attentus & Liliana will pass the Tower of Love's Challenges as well.
-- Yours, Chea Allin, a Witch & a Seeker of Enlightened Energies._
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(EN) 'Tower of Love, a Den of Power' = (PL) 'Wieża Miłości, Siedliszcze Mocy'.
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_There's no Picknick.
Dear Journal,
There's no excess food or frivolity, only cold discipline.
When i sit at cold in Ashald Park, for mornings, nights and mornings i think of flowers, poetry, beauty … of fountain and nice gardener that is a little too wild.
... it's not like when i sat before Triad's Temple, no such stiffness or remorse.
There's calmness and ethereal amaze, spirituality different way.
Such are women artist spiritual chores, men rarely understand what we do.
-- Yours, Chea Allin, a Selunite Witch & a Seeker of Enlightened Energies._
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_Efflorescence.
- Ashald Park's morning. -
Dear Journal,
i spent a night in the Ashald's Park, thinking about a poem.
'efflorescence dew
fluttering upon motionstears of beauty fall.'
Efflorescence is such beautiful word, it refers to erotics, love, flowers, flowering, scents, night, light and scene.
Night & light come from associacion with Nitescence, a rare word for 'glow'.
i should use such beautiful words in my poetry as well.
'Oh, hearken Beloved, how the Night softly treads'.
– Yours, Chea Allin, a poetry-inspired flower-admirer._
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Credits for the poem: Poetic T.
Source: https://hellopoetry.com/words/efflorescence/ .Credits for: 'Oh, hearken Beloved, how the Night softly treads' to Baudelaire.
http://criticism-for-art.blogspot.com/2018/03/baudelaire-meditation.html
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_Dragons.
Dear Journal,
What is Dragon?
Dragon is symbol of Fear, therefore any monster, even human monsters, are dragons in a way.
As one defeats dragon - either internal or external - one becomes a dragon as well, in a way.
… is it a defeat?
When one defeats a dragon to protect, because of love - one's loved ones offer reconcillation, it's a victory not a loss.
By defeating Dragons, great treasures can be obtained - either in coin or at least in Wisdom, Power and other Non-material Values.
The greater dragon defeated, the greater treasures obtained.
Befriending, taming a dragon is also a victory, probably the best of a kind.
Befriended Dragons are powerful Protectors, they are symbols of Magick & Protection.
Myself, i struggle with Esoteric Dragon - the Challenges related with Spiritual Pursuits.
-- Yours, Chea Allin, a Witch & a Seeker of Enlightened Energies._
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_Elements & Symbolism.
-=- Brazier-Fire & Rain-Water. -=-
Terrible thing happened since i wrote in You, Dear Journal.
Lady Elisa Horgath was murdered, while i was struck with severe fever.
Cerulean Investigation stalled with me being ill, then murder happened - in Ashald's Park.
… but i try to not think about this, to not drag myself into despair - in such state i won't be of help to anyone, anyway.
Dear Journal,
Tonight had enough of strength to sit at Mermaid's Patio and ponder about Elements.
Attentus' main element was Air, associated with his Athamé, magickal tool for directing Arcane Energies, with Information, Communication & Masculine Thinking.
My main element is Water, associated with Intuition & Feminine Feelings.
These two elements are most important for us - and these form Mist together, holy spiritual form.
Dear Journal, as i sat by Mermaid tonight, i've experienced Fire from nearby brazier & Rain-Water from the skies mostly.
Together these form Steam, a masculine-feminine feelings couple.
Earth & Air is Dust together, a masculine-feminine thoughts couple ... and when one compares spiritual journey to the road, dust can be seen as experiences & wisdom accumulated during travels.
Water & Earth is Mud, feminine feelings & thoughts, swamp-mud conditions is where Lotus Flowers grow. Difficult conditions of the swamps are comparable to difficult youth many girls have, and Lotus Flowers reach Perfection & Beauty while growing in these. Lotus Flowers are symbols of feminine Perfect Qualities, and more.
The Four Elements are bound together with Spirit, that makes them holy, that makes them whole together.
... tonight i've played with these thoughts, pondering for use in my Art of Magick & in my Poetry.
... hopefully my illness will pass away soon and i can be useful once again.
-- Yours, Chea Allin, a Witch & a Seeker of Enlightened Energies._
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_Skrying for Attentus' past, part 4.
Dear Journal,
… after a break i did continue to skry & pry, learning about Attentus' & Ruri's tragic romance.
On her trip East, Ruri was cursed by her enemy, she barely fled - or was allowed to flee, to suffer more.
It was a touch spell that landed on her left arm that at first did nothing, then resulted in paralysis & pain.
Attentus with Ruri tried Remove Curse spell, but the Curse was too potent.
Natural medicines didn't work either, and Ruri suffered more & more each day.
It was excruciating experience, the pain that Ruri felt, and Attentus suffered with her.
They had their love rekindled for a while that eased the pain at first, but after a time her personality was affected as well - she could not feel emotions, nor love.
Attentus in his desperation went to a secluded place in the Nars Pass, near a Brigands-built shack, and opened a portal to Hells despite his little skill in Magickal Ways.
Demons of Hells compensated for his little power, and completed the Portal-Opening, taking his invitation as their advantage toward this goal.
Portal to Gray Wastes opened, and Attentus had a glimpse at the Blood War, the War between Demons & Devils waged across the planes.
He saw Devils & Demons killing, blood spilled, screeching echoes as vultures & bird-like Demons fell from the Red Skies on lesser Baatezu.
One of the Bird-Demons, a Vrock detracted from it's course and passed through portal to face Attentus.
Bound by a Pentagram - Binding Rite, Vrock negotiated release terms with Attentus.
Attentus wished to learn about Ruri's curse & about a way to remove it.
The Vrock Demon told him that she was infected with Cursed Slaadi egg, and that she's transforming into extraplanar creature to be tormented in that form for Eternity.
Whether the words were true or not, Demon was released and Attentus ran back to Norwick, searching for Ruri.
Crying, out of breath he met her at the Spellweaver Keep's courtyard and did something that deeply hurt him for many decades of his future life.
He met her, she was transforming already - sinister energy field around her, bloody-sinew-menacing wings sprouting from her arms, her hands ending with claws, and burning-red-eyes looking at him with hatred.
He cried 'i am Sorry!!!' & shot Ruri with a Lightning Bolt spell, to kill her before transformation completes, to save her from fate worse than death.
Then he felt on courtyard's cobblestones, in pain & tears.
His friend Delawen, a mage-girl of Norwick, appeared and tried to comfort him - he yelled at her and fled from her presence. He wished no contact with anyone.
Living in seclusion of Rawlinswood, he was tormented by Vrock Demon who appeared again and again, Attentus' Lightning did nothing to harm him.
Attentus' magical power was just too weak.
He suffered desperation & emotional pain for weeks or more, then had a vision. Ruri appeared before him, dressed in a grey robe, surrounded by light.
She told him that she's still dead and now a 'Keeper of Afterlife', that she was spared from torments by Attentus' sacrifice.
She wanted to say goodbye, and to give him parting gift - a green-metal ring with floral ornamentation, made of her essence, that would protect him magically, and remind him that he always has a place in her heart. Ring was named 'Ruri's Heartstone'.
This was last time Attentus saw Ruri, his pain lessened, and he somewhat recovered after this ordeal.
His hair went Grey from shock & suffering he endured ... but he returned to Norwick & Society, continued his life.
Probably he continued to live only because Ruri wished him to live, even if living for someone is more difficult than dying.
... this concludes this scrying's part, Dear Journal - i do not know when i'll continue.
... i need to think & recollect, to ponder & meditate as well.
... i have Cerulean & Selunite chores too ... but eventually i'll find time.
-- Yours, Chea Allin, a Witch & a Seeker of Enlightened Energies.
-=- Attentus after his hair went Grey. -=-_
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_Skrying for Attentus' past, Part 3.
Dear Journal,
… after a night's sleep, i woke up, went south to skry a campfire i mentioned earlier.
Next to campfire i could not find these energies i suspected ... confused started to ponder, then found answer.
Old Norwick was elsewhere.
After Ostromog's Bugbears destroyed Old Norwick, settlers rebuilt it to north, leaving Old Ruins behind.
Went south, visited a famed Norwick's Well, that during Attentus' times radiated wild magick.
... it turned out that under it were tunnels where one of the three Control Orbs was hidden.
... controlled telepathically these Orbs were keys to controlling Old Narfell's constructs & artifacts that still linger hidden in remote places of Narfell.
... these Orbs were dangerous to use, and radiated with wild magick.
Then i went south to Lake area, and found three Menhir Stones, by which old campfire was set-up.
These Menhirs were nodes in the Ley-Line Network studied by old Spellweaver Mage, Isaac Hamilton.
... cast skrying spell, did a rite and after a while thoughts & visions flooded my Thrid Eye Chakra, so i learned of the past.
Attentus was a village boy who heard voices of long-dead people, other villagers were scared & non-trusting him.
Then a Mage named Versutus visited village, charmed Attentus' parents, then bought the boy for gold - argumenting that boy will learn how to wield his Arcane Gift, so it's no longer a curse, that he'll have better future under Versutus' tutelage.
Attentus followed his new Master to his Tower next to Waterdeep ... where Master made him forget most of his past with a spell.
Training lasted 15 years, and for first 10 he had no contact with other people except for his Master & occasional tower-guests.
First 5 years were most taxing & dull - it was mostly cleaning laboratory & other chores for Master, as he was taught discipline, philosophy, diplomacy, languages, and other mundane abilities as well as meditation, he was prepared to awaken & wield his powers that way.
Then his Magick Awakened, and for the next 5 years he was taught Arcane Theories, spells & rituals, mostly.
Last 5 years were interresting - he interacted with other kids at his age, both boys & girls. They played together, competed, learned together - spent almost all of their free time together.
They used their spells irresponsibly, as with one play - when they charmed each other, and left with feelings hurt.
Attentus had a few of shallow romances during that time, but he didn't feel the True Love until he met Ruri Hasegawa later.
After 15 years of training, he passed a Test designed by his Master, proving he's worthy of the Mage title.
Soon after he left Versutus' Tower in search of Old Narfell Artifacts, to forge his promising future elsewhere.
Ruri Hasegawa came from the Eastern Land of Kara-Tur, from an Island of Kozakura where people had yellowish skin, angled eyes and different culture than the Western World.
She was raised in an Arcane School, where they were taught Shadow Magic & other skills.
One night her School was attacked by a Rival with his soldiers, almost everyone was massacred, buldings & sacred texts burned to the ashes.
Ruri fled West, to Norwick where she tried to mimic local customs.
Wary of strangers, her independence, inner strength, pragmatism, modesty & caution were appreciated by locals, as were her beauty & grace.
Attentus & Ruri could understand each other more than most of other people could understand them.
Both Attentus & Ruri meditated, both were taught Arcane Lessons - Attentus focused mostly on Enchantments, Ruri - on Shadow Magic.
Their romance lasted for a short while.
... but Attentus - in his youth's folly - tried to control her, treated her improperly ... it was far below of what she was worthy of.
... his stupidity & ill manners resulted in arguing, Ruri made steps to break their relationship.
Eventually she even left Narfell area to visit her friend in East ... then after a long time returned - Cursed, Humiliated & in Pain.
When Ruri was away, Attentus missed her ... remembering her angry voice, accusations, feeling emotional pain.
... She taught him good manners that way, as he later told other women.
After Ruri's return, Attentus tried to apologize, to make up for his errors ... but she was not easily swayed by his immature words.
She could not hide her pain from him, however - so he learned eventually - and she needed that despite her independence & pride.
Dear Journal, this all seems hazy, perhaps i made some mistakes as i wrote.
... i need to rest more, then skry again, then i'll be able to write more & elaborate.
-- Yours, Chea Allin, a Witch of Light & a Student of Master Attentus the 1st._
