The view from the Background - Ashe's journal
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The writing contained within is thin, elegant, and neat, like it was written with a tiny rapier by a master swordsman. The thin strokes end in sharp points where the quill flicked off the page, and the book itself seems to be in good, if not brand new shape. The first entry awaits anyone to happen across it.
_I never thought I would be writing to myself.
I suppose I have always thought it to be a bit like talking to myself, and that people might think me crazy, but I've seen other people doing it, so why not?
I suppose I'll put a note here, and if you're reading this, and you're not me, give me this journal back. I just might put something useful in it someday.
Thanks!As for what to write… I suppose I'll start with a to-do list.
1 - Go spend time with the sails.
2 - Avoid more Vampires
3 - Avoid being around Sabre when Pavel AND Luke are nearby.
4 - Kick Johno's ass at slots again
5 - Find 600 Gold to buy that rapier set.There, five goals. I hope I can visit the bathhouse without running into pasty McWhatsherFace again. I don't fancy being adverse to the sunlight...
Well, that should be it for now!
-Ashe Ferrin_
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A nearly perfectly duplicated list from earlier in her journal is copied over on this new page, and then written below.
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_As for what to write… I suppose I'll start with a to-do list.1 - Go spend time with the sails.
2 - Avoid more Vampires
3 - Avoid being around Sabre when Pavel AND Luke are nearby.
4 - Kick Johno's ass at slots again
5 - Find 600 Gold to buy that rapier set.There, five goals. I hope I can visit the bathhouse without running into pasty McWhatsherFace again. I don't fancy being adverse to the sunlight...
Well, that should be it for now!
-Ashe Ferrin_
_Well fark.
So, I managed to do a lot of my list. I've spent lots of time with the sails, and am now a full fledged crew member, having been sailing once on water with 'em, and once… yes, in the void. Farkin'ells we went to Yalaira, fought bandit knights, undead of all shapes and sizes, got tranced by a vamp, then helped by a vamp, and with a vamp's help destroyed a powerful Lich and his Dracolich.
I got to be the one to hold the dracolich, too.
Now that I know the power of true names, I'm going to have to find out my own, and perhaps a few others, to be thorough. . .Avoid more Vampires. Fark. Failed hard, now I have Tavos here in this world with me as part of his bargain, and even though he's a surprisingly nice sort, I cannot help but get this odd feeling something's gonna happen... or maybe that's just my odd feelings about vampires in general?
Spending time with Sabre's been scarce lately, simply because I haven't seen her about much, and Luke just recently returned too from wherever he vanished too, but there was a straight out fight between Pavel and Luke in Yalaira... well, more like a fight between Luke defending himself from Pavel kicking him around again.
I haven't been caught between the three of them lately, but now I've talked to both Pavel and Luke at length... and not an hour from each other either, both of them finding me alone in the bathhouse, and spending a while each, talking.
Learned a lot of useful things about each of them... and more than I needed to know in some cases, which I don't even care to write about. Just to keep prying eyes from what ain't theirs.
The ferret got destroyed in the N'Jast attack, so no more kicking Johno's ass at slots anytime soon.
I got my 600 gold, and my new rapier and stiletto. I named the rapier, " Twilight", and the stiletto, "Dusk". It's fitting, as neither has any reflection to their blades, they're more like the in-between shadows you see at twilight and dusk... my favorite conditions for light. They've taken the life from ogres, undead (Or un-life from them?), and even a necromancer so far, as well as bandit knights. I wonder what else will spill it's life on these?
So, I accomplished most of my goals it seems, and now I've got other things accomplished too. Won't write some, but I passed a test, and also became a knight in Yalaira.
Lady Ashe Ferrin.
Fark.
Well, it's not so bad anyhow, I was sick of being in the background anyway._
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_Somehow it isn't the same.
Sneaking about, fighting on my own, it's not the same as fighting alongside somebody else. Well, of course it's not the same, but that's not what I mean.
And now I'm arguing with myself on paper. Great.
Anyway, I think about it sometimes, growing up, that is. I remember stealing for food, stealing for fun, even kicking the crap out of someone because I could… well, they did make fun of my hair. Jerk...
I loved life, and loved being alone, and got to stay away from the complications that being around other people dictates, that seem to pop up in the most humiliating of ways... normally my own mouth, damnit.
Despite all that, there's this... camaraderie that I haven't felt before that just kind of... well, it makes me get an escape from a vampire, then walk RIGHT back into the room with it because a friend was in there. I could have left, picked the locks and taken off, but I didn't. I didn't WANT to.
I have friends now. Pirates, but friends. Non-Pirate friends too now that I think about it, including the GGLLAA, whom I haven't seen of in a while. I wonder if they went to go help with the rebuilding of the silver valley?
At any rate, I suppose things aren't so bad, but I think I am going to hole up for a while and spend that alone time... for now. I have a lot of thinking to do, about a lot of things, before I make any more big decisions. I've made a few lately, and I don't want to get ahead of myself.
Speaking of decisions, got another job offer today from Noble Cael's pal, whose name slips my mind. I'll look into it when I feel like going outside again. . ._
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_It's been an interesting couple of days!
I managed to get my order in, from the Peltarch weaponsmith near the marketplace, and my new babies are beautiful! I named the rapier "Twilight" and the stiletto "Dusk". They're exactly what I wanted, too!
As far as the rest of life… right now is a total mix of feelings. I want to leave Peltarch, in a way, because of those assassin Kobolds killing Anah out of the blue like that. Am I even safe?
I take enough chances on my own that a little thing like that shouldn't scare me in the least... but there it is.
As least I've had good company lately. The sails, are fantastic. Yeah, there's some stuff I don't think I want to know, some stuff I know and wish I didn't, and some stuff which I can't help buy wonder about each of them, and I'm seeing more of each every day.
I suppose that's how it is when you find new friends and associates, almost like a dysfunctional little family in a way...
Then there's noble Cael... I have GOT to quit being all mushy around him. I'm prolly scarin' him off. No more starry eyed, blushing maid bullshit f'me, no sir! I'm going to just be myself, and if he chases, he chases.
Dammit. I'm a git._
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_I never thought I'd be aspiring to be a pirate, but I've come to terms with that I suppose. It's not a bad life, and hells, I've had enough time on ships t'know my way around. In fact, I think I used to want to be a pirate, when I was a kiddo, maybe once or twice…
Still, I never expected to have that ditty I heard be turning itself into pirate songs in my head. Maybe if I write it on down, they'll leave me be.
**[We are the black sails, we like swashbuckling! You call us pirates? We don't know what you mean! Try and accuse us, we'll put you out ta sea!
~Boom de yadda Boom de yaada, Boom de yadda Boom de yadda~
We'll take over your port, we don't care what you think!! Ye give us any crap, we'll throw you in the drink! You'll never catch us, or we'll escape the clink!
~Boom de yadda Boom de yaada, Boom de yadda Boom de yadda~
We fight while we're on land, and while on the deep blue, we fight without a care, an wi' a wanion too! We'll fight ta kick yer arse, and even rob yer crew…
~Boom de yadda Boom de yaada, Boom de yadda Boom de yadda~](318f6f4bbf)**
Well, suppose that'll do for now… I'm sure I'll end up with more soon. I can't get the song outta my head..._
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_Well, this sucks a bit.
A friend of the sails, and apparent bartender of the Ferret, was killed by Kobold Assassins. Ones who seemed by all account and rumor to have something specific against the sails.
To tell the truth, it's got me a little bit scared.
Yes, I fight Kobolds pretty regularly, and sometimes alone, and most of em don't notice me when I sneak right under their noses, but I don't think I want to run into these assassin types.I'm just not qualified ta stand up against that kind of thing I suppose. I don't want to be standing by helpless though, if more of my friends get attacked. I'm not strong enough to get a bigger, better bow, and be of any use with it, so I'll have to go with what I know.
I'll buy my new swords, and that'll help a tad… but I need something bigger. Something greater. Something to help myself be more ... capable?
I've been researching a little, and I heard of something called shadowdancing... can it be learned? I will find out. I want to. I have to.
Got to keep good notes, and see what there is to be seen, and not be seen myself. People seem uncomfortable talking about it, so I might be getting in over my head... but when has that stopped me before? Time to find out who I can talk to about all this...I don't want to bother the sails with it, at least not yet, as they've got enough problems on their minds. I just want to help... ok, maybe it's more than that, I can't really lie to myself, but that's there too.
Sick of being pushed around and underestimated, sick of hiding behind the rest. I'll show them what I can do, I'll find out how, and I'll prove just how useful I really am!
Unless those Kobolds get me first I suppose..._
