Under lock and Key. (keesy's ramblings)
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Who would have thought that I would find a Tallie I trusted so easily and quickly as I did him?
And one who sees something worthwhile in a shortie like me?
Heh. He's an odd one alright!
I got talking to him whilst brushing out his Fur!
Yes, Fur! He told me; when he was human again, that he is a druid and a shapechanger!
I think he liked that even though I don't share his skill, I could understand how easy it could be to get lost in it… running that way, like deciding not to wake from a wonderful and terrifying dream.
I like being free like that too. I envy him his skill just a little, even though it scares me.
I don't much really like big cities. Jerrick took me to Peltarch to see a special vendor he liked. He turned me into a tree! It felt funny, in a good way. I made him laugh then. I dangled an apple from my ear and proclaimed that I was; in fact, an orchard!
It was good to see him smile. Especially as he next had to help retrieve two men who had been lost in the land of the dead.
Until then I didn't think I would be that scared of death. Boy was I worng. It gave me a real shock. Even once they came back, they looked so very lost.
And then.. Well. Jyyid was being attacked by a band of snow goblins when we got back. They were so very muc stronger than me.
I well.. Poor Jerrick! He kept apologizing. I.. I think they had me as good as dead. Maybe Three times. I can still hear the arrows flying towards me and feel them invading me. And the sounds they made... They burnt the gates, so Jerrick , Vine and some others found their camp and burnt it. But only after they had killed all but one.
Jerrick told him that if more came after him , that they in turn would be killed. He didn't seem to think it would stop them though. Said they breed faster than they could kill them.He made me go back to town with the others while he scouted and killed stragglers.
Oh, I was worried!
After he came back, he showed me his barracks and said that he thought I was made for the legion, if only a little underskilled for now.
No-one thought that much of my family at all back at home. All of the women had no better ambition than to whelp more children for that festering place! Even if half of the stories are true, Lilith was certainly more than a stupid HOUSE WIFE!.
I only hope I can be as BRAVE as her someday!
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Oh, how I doubt why I am here!
I tried so hard to justify my reasons for ebing in Jyyid! For even taking up space at all.
Yes i Search for someone who is long dead, Somoene few would remember now. But wouldn't anyone want to know the truth of someone's life instead of the lies they were brought up to believe?
It wasn't her fault. She was harshly misjudged. Maybe her spirit is watching me now, trying as I am to know her.
but no. A fey I met today, nice as she seemed , was determined upon finding out what I was trying.. and to turn me from my task.
I only spoke to her about it because I had heard they had long lives. I have no response to the letter I left at the camp.
I can't yet go out into the pass there to the broken wall, where she is buried next to her .. Husband? I don't even know if they lived long enough to Marry. There is at least one other grave there with hers as well. The name Valis is on the stone, and I wonder at why he is next to them. I nearly joined them as fodder for the creatures in those woods…
I went to unlock the box I found under it the first time I visited the headstone... But there it remains . Therein I hope will be a journal or.. something... Anything.The Fey made me doubt everything.
what do you want me to do? leave you and your secrets lie? Do you even care what mother and the rest in OUr village think of you anymore?
Or are you free now?All these thoughts. And to find out Jerrick is married. Why does it all have to hurt like this? I finnally someone who is willing to be my freind, and I dared hope.. more.. And even he hid truths from me. I told him everything.
Then I met her.
I found out from others that all of her past partners are dead or missing.
It's not my place I know. And besides. It was the fey who told me that. I don't know what to think of such creatures after witnessing Jerrick's efforts to save people turned into trees by malign fey.Ben was kind today, and another woman ; Ashe, who seems new to the region as well. We talked much about certain skills Ashe and I have , and she taught me something wonderful and secret.
I hope to see them again.
I think I need more freinds here. Jerrick seems too busy now.It was nice to talk to someone who is a deft with her hands as I am!
I could almost forget the disdain with which Pretty E treated my ask here.
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DRUIDS!
They scare me. Even Jerrick managed to do this today.
How did he call upon those…powers? Trees that were really people tricked by fairies? That is what some who witnessed it said. Are these the same as the little pixies I have seen around Jyyid? I don't know what to think anymore. No one helped me to understand.
My heart was in my throat, Jerrick "died" many times saving those people.
I am not sure I want to let him make me like a tree anymore.
It was such a hard thing he did.
There was another Short one there who seemed hell bent on disrupting.. whatever it was Jerrick was doing. Even if the distraction proved fatal to Jerrick or the other one who helped him.
One mistake. If anything had happened to those people.
I warned him to sleep light .
I don't want to think too hard about that. Jerrick survived somehow, as did his helper. The tree folk were saved.
I am glad his freind Ben took the time to let me know Jerrick was alright. I talked with him for a goodly while, in between his duties to the legion. Jerrick is his commander. It seems he is a good leader though. Ben certainly considers him a freind as well as his leader. I like them both. They are good honourable folk.
There was a half orc by the fires then who was so very different from the one who would not remove his helmet and was threatening folk the day I first arrived in Jyyid. I hope I get to meet him again soon. He was funny, and seemed shocked that anyone would share their meal with him.
It's your fault I like the apples from Peltarch so much Jerrick!
( Keesy pauses a moment here in her writing and musing to let a sudden blush in her cheeks cool. )
Still, my sleep was plagued by images of the terrible things I have seen and felt since arriving. They dominated my dreams over and above the good things I have experienced. Especially those from.. I can see myself on the ground, arrows jutting from my body. I can see Jerrick and his friends trying to bring me back.
I can see somewhere wonderful just beyond it, and Urogalan The Black Hound and Guardian of the Earth awaits there for me. He doesn't show any expression, but his eyes. I can see loss there and grief. Still... Knowing he is there beyond the veil comforts me.
One day I will be free of everyone's and my own expectations of me , and I will stand with him as a watcher of my folk. In those moments, I was freed from the burden of all I came here to prove.And OH! it felt so wonderous.