3. Diary of the Wild

Diary of the Wild


  • [Double post]


  • Alter Ego

    Wow! This is a big one! There's a girl around that looks like me, acts like me and even moves like me… and no it's not Leena. At first I though she was Leena but then there were things off... the way she moved and her gestures, and then her scent... she was me!

    I think I was as curious about her as she was about me, so we got to talk a bit... she told me the only thing she knows is that she wasn't always a half-elf-kitty, she was something else and was put into that body and given a name... Elaine Xixia Rayfe. She said that someone was trying to get stuff into her head and she got bored and annoyed and just escaped, because that place was too dark and too cold and she didn't like it.

    Yeah if that's not enough of a shocker, she said that there were at least twenty different people around her reciting some people's personal information like mantras, as if to get it drilled into their heads. She said she could hear the two that were just next to her... Willow and Salin.

    She also thinks that they are looking for her, and at some point she startled and ran away to hide. She came back later invisible to tell me that she can't trust anyone except me, since she knows I... well I can't be a copy going after her, but anyone else could.

    I found out that not only she looks like me and moves like me... she also can do everything I can! Like... she knows all my tricks, and can turn into kitty too. So we both became cougars so I could show her a hidden place in the forest where she can shelter and nobody will find her as long as she stays as kitty.

    But the most disturbing thing is that she also is me in every aspect beyond the surface. Her behaviour, her attitude everything matches. And knowing she's exactly like me... it won't be long before she gets bored of staying in that place I showed her and will go out to find something more exciting to do, even if she has to risk being caught. At least she has a place to go to if she gets in trouble.

    Later we've been finding out that other "replicas" have been popping up and assaulting their "originals". Jimmeh almost got killed by his replica but we arrived just in time when he was knocked unconscious and barely alive, and that scared his replica off before he could finish him off. I heard something similar happened with Dermin, but I don't know the details about that one. Both of those seemed fully indoctrinated and trying to complete their job to then replace the lives of the ones they are replicas to... and we don't know for what purpose yet, because none of us are all that important or anything...

    You know, it's kind of awesome to think that my "replica" rebelled and won't do what she was being told to do... but that also makes me a little worried because well, like I said it seems like she's me in every way. She likes what I like, hates what I hate, and has my same personality... I want her to have her own life and be herself but it's difficult to think it wouldn't affect me. Just to put an example... she's likely also in love with Jonni, even if she probably doesn't even know him yet... how will Jonni react to that? Will she feel rejected and heartbroken if he refuses to have anything to do with her? What if... she really tries to pretend that she's me to get Jonni's cares. I know myself... I cheat and lie a lot, it's not strange to think that my other me could try something like that, especially if a strong feeling of attraction is involved... and... well I really need to speak with Jonni as soon as possible.

    I care for my other me, but I don't know what I can do about her to not hurt her and also not hurt myself... having a twin sister is something but having a second me is quite something else.

    I need to think about this, and I hate thinking. I just hope Elaine is okay, because I don't want her to suffer at all... and probably nothing of this is being easy for her either.

    XP pending - Given


  • Weeee writing again!

    Not going to write much this time because there isn't so much to write. Just have to remind myself that things are going great, and everything seems good. Don't get to see my friends much lately because I spend so much time in the wilds just being myself, but I still manage to escape the forests to find my wolfie quite often!

    Problem is that when I'm with the Wilds I can't tell how much time has gone, other than trying to remember how many moons have passed, or guessing by Selûne's shape and size… but losing my time-passing-awareness could be handy soon, if things go the way they seem they'll go.

    Jonni said that maybe the city needs him to go live with the Fire Giants for one year to prove them that the city people are nice and respectable people and don't need to go to war and all that bad stuff. I think a city could be seen as nice and respectable the same day as a deer starts shooting fireballs though its eyes, so at first I thought he was joking... but he looked really serious. Then I thought he was crazy... but I am more crazy, so that's okay. Guess then I was sad because I just want to cuddle my wolfie for myself, and one year is a long time! He even promised that his new job wouldn't steal too much of his time from me.

    But then I understood... his people needs him, right? He can avoid a war all by himself, and I know if he sets himself to do it, he'll do it. And he'll save maybe lots of people, and it's really what he wants... I know he also dreads being apart from me, but yeah... it's like, he has to do it. What I am going to do is keep spending time with him when we both can, and when he has to go, I'll be a good kitty and wait for him! Time passes really fast when I'm with the Wilds, so maybe I won't even notice too much!

    I just hope the Fire Giant people won't be mean to him, because then I'll be very, very upset, and I'll turn them all into stone... you better watch out, you ugly Fire Giants!


  • Been lazying with writing again!

    All I can say is that I spend lots of time in my kitty shape and can't get enough of this feeling of freedom without any boundaries, neither in my mind or in my body.

    There are so many things that feel so much simpler and at the same time fulfilling when your mind doesn't need to worry about vain things like being polite or looking good… when the only currency is yourself as you give yourself to the Wilds to keep its balance, and the Wilds return the favour offering sustenance and shelter. When I am by myself but not alone, and I wear nothing but pride for being what I am and being part of my pack, my family. When my home has no walls and the only ceiling is the beautiful starry sky, with a kind Selûne smiling down and guiding us all. When my bed is any patch of grass where I lay my head on.

    But I guess that makes Jonni my favourite bed! Truth is, with me roaming the forests as a kitty, I don't get to see him that much lately, but that's okay because he's been accepted for that city job, and that takes lots of his time.

    It's a little weird too, that when he was coming to visit me a few days ago, he says that there was something preventing him from doing so. Seems like when he wanted to take the boat to Norwick, an awful windstorm began to beat on Peltarch and all ferry departures were cancelled. After that, he got Marea to come down riding her, but she got her leg stuck in mud and she got hurt, so he decided to come walking. And when he was walking down, some plantoid tendrils began to grasp at his ankles and another windstorm pushed him from trying to go south...

    Just by chance, I had also decided to go to the city to sell some jewelry I had picked from helping a paladin clean the crypts, and I met Jonni, but just then we got zapped with lightning as something seemed to get very upset and hissed at us before letting us be... almost seemed upset at our reunion.

    We don't know what was all the fuss about, but we just went back into the city since it seemed safe there. Just kinda weird that in the city it was all nice and sunny and just wherever Jonni went outside of it, it was rainy and windy.

    Oh well... we got to spend some time together and talk a little... and I mean "a little", because just a few moments after, that awful familiar mist appeared on the commons again and began to pop deaders on us.

    Yeah, this one I know who it was... that mean necromancer that is still upset at Jonni because he screwed his plans to raise an army of deaders... well suck on it, you dumb mummy-kisser, Jonni beat you once and he'll beat you again!

    So yeah just to prove that point we killed all the deaders, even the big knightly one that looked rreally strong and took a while to break even after he turned to stone... which I may have had something to do with!

    Jonni says he'll have to go again after the necromancer to kill him good. I don't really like him chasing dangerous people that summon armies of deaders but I'm kinda getting used to it... it's his home he's protecting and what matters to him, matters to me.

    So we broke the mean mist again, and showed the necromancer that he shouldn't mess with us! We sit down a little again and then Jonni said that there is a fire giant lady in jail, so we went to see her. A real fire giant that you can watch and maybe touch without smashing you? Yeah I had to see that!

    We went to see her but she was pretty quiet. She didn't want to talk to anyone and it was really hot with some shrine she had made in there, I almost got some burns from being down there a good while.

    It felt pretty sad too, to see someone caged like that, on display for anyone to come and watch... reminded me of those poor caged birds they keep as ornament in some of those stupid brick houses in the city. So I tried to get the door open to let her go, but Jonni said I can't because then they'll put me in jail, and that would be really awful... I don't want to lose my freedom, ever. But still feel awful for the fire giant lady... they say she burned the commons, but she looked like she didn't want to hurt anyone.

    Anyways, after that we went back out and Jonni said he had to go help his mom with some stuff, but he promised me that he'd put away his whole next day for me, and only me! So here I am now, writing a little while I wait for him. I cooked some really nice me--- someone's at the door!


  • Seems like trouble never ends! Just as we are back from Furtle Island and rested a bit, Willow, Wolfie and I got together and we thought it was a good idea to go into the forest for some adventure, and as we are back in Norwick, lots of goblins start lining up and tossing fire grenades to the walls and over them.

    The soldiers sounded the alarms and more adventurers came, so there we were, trying to protect ol' stinky Norwick from ol' stinky goblins. But there was something odd to these goblins.. their eyes were bright red and some had small horns or tails, and they were tougher than usual too… they were fiendish goblins!

    Someone pointed that the might be coming from the Lost City for whatever reason nobody knows. We started getting overwhelmed because they were like hundreds and we were just a bunch of adventurers... but then, this huge she-giant rushed in trampling through the forest and over the goblins! Yeah, I panicked because in my experience giants aren't good news, so I made her still so she couldn't hurt anyone till we knew what was she up to.

    Jonni knows the language of the giants (because he's awesome!) and talked to her. Turns out she was coming to help, and help she did! I gave her some of my best tricks and she was so amazing to watch cleaving goblins in groups of three with each swing!

    In the end we won, and the Frost Giant warmaiden moved on to wherever she was going. It was fun to see the dwarves all grumpy not wanting to admit that a giant had saved their ass! But deep inside I think they were kind of grateful, it's just dwarves are stubborn like that, right? I can tell Beorn has a big heart deep inside his thick chest.

    Later on Jonni told a few of us that there is more to what the giant lady told him. Apparently she was sent by the "White Snake", which Willow related to Ky, the dragon that was hunted down by dad, and raised by Rasuil, which later escaped and now seems to lead an army of giants with the purpose of changing Narfell's climate.

    Still, the fact that she came to help means that Ky maybe doesn't want to go all hostile about it... sure, maybe Ky is protecting his own realm, but he could have sent his champion to wipe out the remaining goblins after Norwick had fallen, not to protect its gates. Anyways I have no idea of how a dragon thinks, but at least the gesture seemed like tending a hand to us, and I think it's only right to return it.

    Jonni thought we should go to the Coldstones and speak with Ky, see what he wants, but he's worried that he's heard his parents deal with giants and dragons before, and if you go to their domain without a proper offering, they take it as an insult, so he suggested trying to find some worthy offering for the giants and Ky.

    Willow in the other hand thinks he's over worrying and we could just walk there and talk with Ky as long as we bring Ras with us, and she didn't like that Jonni doesn't want to share the story with some people, like the dwarves of the Legion. I'm on Jonni's side on this... we've been with Legion and dwarves before where giants were involved, and any try for diplomacy was brutally shot down under the edge of their axes... even after I had made the giants Stay Still and Jonni had got them to become talkative.

    Still, Willow went in that stubborn frenzy that only she is capable of at times, and managed to ruin Jonni's mood. I really hate to see two of the people I care about most arguing and being upset, but I guess it happens sometimes, yeah? I think the last straw for Jonni was when he told me "Maybe you can ask the god in the mountain for advice, Kitty", and being in the kinda negative buildup we were, I didn't find it amusing, which made him give up and walk away.

    That made me feel terribly awful with guilt so I chased him to try to fix it, and after a little bit of talking he said he was just not feeling too well, but he gave me a little kiss and agreed to stay with us and go find some adventure. He was still awfully quiet all through the adventure in the goblin hold, but that's fine, I gave him some space because sometimes we just need that, a little space.

    He was much more of himself when we were back, but then we met Leena that found us returning through auntie's home. She also looked... awfully quiet and distant. Siiiiiiigh. So there it was, a second grumpy crisis coming on... and again, one that matters the world to me. So when we were back to Norwick I pulled her off with me to have a sister talk.

    Turns out she's disappointed on herself, because she feels like she's failing to be there for us when we need her. She wasn't there for the end of the elven spirits, and she wasn't there for the Furtle Hunt, and she just hates to let people down and miss all the excitement. After she's worked hard to see things through, she just keeps missing the outcome, and I can see how that is frustrating.

    I didn't know what to tell her... other than the truth. That she's not only welcome, but missed among us when she can't be there, that whenever she can be there, we'll need her to be there, and when she can't, we'll miss her, but we'll understand it. That without Leena there is no Elaine, and that will never change. I only have one sister, and she's the best sister of the world, and I'll never, never turn my back to her. If there was anywhere or anyone in the world that would accept me but not her, I will flat out refuse to have anything to do with them. It's both of us, or none. I want her to be as much part of my life as she possibly can, and when she can't, I just want her to be happy wherever she is, until she has again time for me.

    I guess I didn't solve her problem that much, but she's still hopeful that the situation changes in future. We got to talk about other things after... like it appears that mad druid that preaches nonsense about dad wants to take over the druid Circle ignoring the current elders or the druidic traditions. Guess that doesn't really concern me, but I don't know if dad would be happy about it.

    We also spoke about Salin. Seems like she finds him nice and amicable, but she just doesn't feel any butterflies in her stomach when she's with him. She can see how my day becomes bright only by seeing Jonni walk towards me, and she would like to feel the same for the person she's supposed to spend her most intimate time with.

    I advised her to follow her heart, and if one day she feels that Salin is the right one for her, I'll accept him as one more in the family, as she has done with Jonni. But I also asked her to make sure that the man she chooses is the man she wants, not just the one that was there when there was nothing else to pick from.

    Sis and I, both work by impulse, the coil of the moment, the call of the wild that runs through our veins and guide our actions without giving thought to them a lot of the time. But sometimes maybe a little pause and patience are needed. And probably this is one of those things.

    After that we went to the city where I helped sis to make her new armour all furry and nice like the ones we have, and we went straight back home to spend the night together, just she and I, being the sisters that we deserve to be.

    I had plans with Jonni and I had promised him that I'd spend the night with him, especially after the emotionally rough day he had, but I know he'll understand that it's my sister that needed me most then. He is generous, understanding and kind, and I'll make it up to him, one way or another.


  • I made it! After so much practice I can turn mean people and monsters into stone… and that's going to be awesome because this trick doesn't go for the mind, like most of the others... it goes for the body. Lately I've been finding a lot of mean spellcasters that have strong minds, but I bet they won't have so strong bodies.

    It will be handy too if we go to the Lost City as we have been thinking... an elf girl named Yana says that there are statues that come to life and are very dangerous, so I can turn them right back into statues.

    We'll have to see. For now we wanted to go to Smurf-nibbling city, but Llama wouldn't show up in the whole tenday, so we'll go another time. He must be still tired from the trip to Furtle Island I guess!

    Yeah... Furtle Island... what an adventure! Before we parted, Jonni had one of his visions, saying that we would have to talk to the Furtle if we wanted to see our quest through. Then the pirate ship arrived with like... some daring approach to the docks. I thought it would sail over us!

    As we boarded and departed on the boat, we got off the wrong foot when that mean cheap excuse for a god zapped us with Lightning. I'm not very tough, and while others were mostly fine, I almost fainted and I thought I would die because of it. So I got upset and swore at her telling her the difference between a stupid god like her and a real god like Talos, to whom she is no more than a lapdog. So Jonni and I got zapped again... hard. Yeah sure, I paid tribute to her because I didn't want anyone hurt because of me... I would have offered tribute anyways if it had been demanded in front, not after zapping me to half death. She's still a cheap god and a loser that has to mess with normal people because the other gods just laugh at her.

    Anyways we made it safely to the island after we were boarded by some ghouls that weren't very hard to deal with. Once in the island we found some lizard people, saurials or whatever they were. They didn't speak our language, but luckily Willow is awesome and she did, so they started discussing about us going after a furtle and stuff... then suddenly a bigger lizard came and got all hostile, next minute they're all trying to eat us because they said we were their lunch. Huh?!

    Yeah it was whacky whacky time... so we fought together as usual and did well. We're getting to know each other very well and that helps a lot when there is trouble because we know what we can expect from each other. We had to cross the whole island fight after fight, and not only with lizards... there were also a couple of HUGE dinosaurs that I could make Stay Still... but they were so tough that we couldn't kill one of them in time before it broke loose, and only in the few seconds it was alive it rushed over Jonni and had him pinned on the ground trying to bite his head off! He managed to crawl back with the little energy he had left while we threw all we could to finish the mean dinosaur.

    Just when I thought we were safe and Jonni got healed back, I stepped into a nearby stream and a dire shark almost bit my leg off! The island itself was a hazard, but that also made it so feral and attractive... I loved how wild and natural everything felt, and the scent in the air was alluring.. except for the taint of the snake people.

    We saw the first of them when we climbed onto a hill, one of those mean shamans that took us a good while to put down... she kept throwing flames and stuff at us. With the snake people involved we all knew that it would get nastier sooner or later, but we continued till we found a ship wreckage by the shore. Just there, there was a cage where a big Furtle was being held, so we were all like "finally!".

    But then Llama started talking to it just like Savras' vision had adviced to Jonni before the trip, and then he told us that he thought himself the last of his kind and if we helped him avenge his species he would willingly give us his intact shell. We were being attacked also by some flying dinosaurs so we thought of freeing the Furtle, but he seemed like he didn't even want to live, just wanted to be avenged and be done with his life.

    It was a sad story and since we're all nice people, we thought that was pretty fair, so we went to a blocked cave that I had seen before, and Llama did something that opened it so we could go in. Inside we found out that it wasn't a cave... it seemed like artificially built, maybe with the wreckage of a boat, or maybe a buried ship itself adapted as lair of the snake people.

    We were really spent on magics and I had less than half my tricks left, most of them were Stay Still magics, so when some of the saurial strong warriors rushed to us followed by three mean snake people, I tried my best to make them still.

    But I guess I wasn't good enough, because they ignored my tricks, one after another... and I had a very annoying feeling of impotence as I saw Jonni get his head messed with some mind trick and walk aimlessly, and even worse, Willow was instantly killed on the spot with an evil spell.

    There I panicked and threw a last Chaos Rules! before running out following Llama. Behind were Damien, Shessie and Jonni, but only Jonni made it out. He couldn't get rid of whatever got over him, all he could do was crouch in pain with some strong feeling of disorient and nausea, and we couldn't leave our friends there... so I gave Llama every last trick in my reserves. My last Pretty Strong, my last Hit Much Harder, my last Pretty Fast, I drank potions, he drank potions and we both went back in knowing that we would leave that island with our friends, or not leave it at all.

    When we went in we saw that one of the Yuan-ti had her throat slit open and we only had to kill two, that were pretty hurt. Seems that last Chaos Rules! I did before going out did help afterall and the snakes had fought each other to the death. That gave us renewed energies to finish off the two remaining limping snakes, now with their spells also spent.

    Llama roared and went all rage for the Yuan-ti and managed to finish them off. I saw Damien dead right by the entrance as he just didn't make it out, and Shessie was unconscious, but even though she was bloodied she seemed alive and stable... and since I don't know how to treat injuries, I preferred not to touch her just in case I might snap a bone or make her bleed while manipulating her body.

    Deeper into the next room was Willow's lifeless body as well... it all looked quite gorish with blood all over the walls and the floor, a saurial still agonizing, and the bodies of our three friends. Jonni walked in then feeling a little better and he actually could take care of Shessie and got her up all fine, because Jonni is awesome like that.

    Llama was still hugging Willow's body when we went to the next room and saw a surprise... there was another furtle! It was being drained with some kind of mean magics, but it was alive... and next to it there was a stash with powerful magical things where Jonni found a scroll to bring dead people back.

    That was great news because with that scroll he could bring Willow back and then she could bring Damien back and we would have the group whole once again. So that's exactly what we did and a few relieved hugs later we had the group back whole!

    Llama then spoke to the furtle, telling her that a friend of hers is still alive but he's sad that he's all lonely and doesn't even want to live, so she asked to be freed to go see him, and rushed out. We followed as the little but sturdy furtle trampled over everything, even a dire shark that tried to attack her when she crossed the stream, she just bit its throat off and kept going!

    In the end both furtles reunited, and they liked each other, and saw renewed hope as well, since maybe they could work together to save their species. The male furtle then told Llyran that he would need his own shell, but told him where to find another from a dead friend of his as the furtle couple walked into the sea to make more little baby furtles.

    With that, our quest was all over, so we just got back home in another long trip, but since I spent most of it sleeping it didn't feel that long this time. Back in the city we split the magical stuff we found... Damien got an awesome armor, and Shessie some nice boots for sneaking around. Llama got a druid ring on top of the shell that later became the awesomest shield I've ever seen, except the one I made for my sister! Jonni had left to stash some saurial gear at his home so I picked a anti-dad necklace and a nice protection ring for him. Willow got kitty paws boots that I would have probably picked if not because I have my Moonwalkers. She also got the best cloak ever... one that allows her to produce dove-like wings and allows her to fly a short distance, to the sky and back. I'm a bit jealous, but she seemed so happy with the cloak, and it seemed so right for her to have it that I really didn't have the heart to dispute it... especially after she had gone to the Fugue place again.

    I got nothing as keepsake from the adventure, but there is nothing as satisfying as seeing the people you care for being happy, and besides, the memories will always be there. It's memories of a great adventure with tons of struggle, tons of willpower to keep things together even when it seemed our world was crumbling, and the incredible end in which we all come on top to save a species from becoming extinct. It has a morale to it, too... there is always hope, even when all seems lost.

    I'll try to remember this one to pass it on when I get older. For now, I still have to live many more adventures, and with friends like Willow, Shessie and Llama, and especially with my Wolfie next to me, I think those adventures are just getting started.


  • It's been a few busy days lately, and I'm feeling very happy. First of all, I've been spending a lot of time with Leena. I like having her around, and it's really nice to do stuff together. Sometimes I think we carry a bit too different lives, and now that I am meeting Jonni I was afraid I'd have even less time for her, but doesn't seem like it, and that's a good thing.

    She's been making some more friends too, and one of them, Salin, seems interested in her. He doesn't seem like a bad person to me, but he makes me wary because he seems to be tainted, and although he appears to want to fix it, never know if his inner self is something that he's not aware of, and could end up hurting sis. Also… don't know, he's a puny city noble, doesn't have the vigour or the attractive I'd want for myself, and I think Leena's tastes are not that far from mine. I don't like how he smells either, of sulphur and cobblestone.

    I wanted to know more about the man that is getting close to my sister, so I pretended to be her when he came around to have a talk with him. He seems honest about wanting to fix the taint in him and become a better person, and he also seems to care for her. I rest easier now, but I'll still keep an eye on him. In the end, I'll support my sis with whatever she decides, though she thinks him a friend, at least for now.

    Lately she had to do some of her druid stuff just when the elves were gathering to go fix the elven spirits problem, so I was invited to come in her place. The real challenge was deciding where they wanted to go... but eventually they settled for going to where the elven camp was, and I helped how I could to clear the bugbears.

    That weird spirit that keeps calling Raryldor "murderer" appeared again, hovered around a little being a dumbass in general much like the first time, and then vanished. They managed to destroy a third stone with Kessie's awesome bow, but she had to sacrifice the bow for it. Guess the bow is just an object, so it was worth it, yeah? Only one stone remains now, and it seems like it will need a spell that only María can cast in the whole realm, at least from those that can be considered reliable allies. But casting the spell could take her magic from her completely, so I'm not sure she'll agree to help... maybe she can make a scroll of it for someone else to use or something. Oh well, that's for the elves to spend some more hours disagreeing about.

    Couple of days ago, I was taking one of my strolls in the forest and saw Willow. It's good to see her out and about, she's been feeling a little off lately, and I was worried she'd lose her adventuring spirit. But there she was, fighting some goblins, so I helped her a little as a greeting. Then three of those mean sneaky goblins came and tried to ambush stab her, but she's really dodgy and I helped a little with mind tricks, so the goblins went down.

    There was some kind of uneasy feeling in the air, though... something was not right, and both Willow and I could feel it. Then, some horrible monster made of plants and vines came to attack us. Both of us then realized it had to be the same monster that attacked Rasuil! Well, knowing that, we tried to run and take it from distance so it wouldn't get those creepy vines inside us, and killed it easily, more or less... but then another, bigger one came after us.

    We ran away fast as we could, but it kept grabbing our ankles and arms with vines and pulling us towards it. In the end Willow took her katana and shield to hack at it while I cast some Blue Balls of Hurting and we could escape its grasp... but after a few seconds it raised even stronger than before.

    Now arrows or magic wouldn't even make it twitch and it was pursuing us, tossing those vines at us to grab us... we had no idea what to do except running to not get killed when lightning cracked in the sky and fulminated it on the spot. At first I thought I had Talos to thank, because maybe he thought that creature to not belong to Nature, but then it started snowing and I knew who was our "guardian".

    Dad came in his snow wolf shape to tell us that he had been after these aberrations for some time, and he's trying to find out where they come from. He also said he's watching me, and he's proud of me... that meant so much to me. He said we should tell Rasuil to call for him in dreams, but he had to go pretty quick. Before he left, he told me to be good with the wolf's son... I think that was dad's way to say "I know, and you have my blessing". I couldn't be happier with his little visit!

    I need to tell Jonni that my dad approves of "us"... maybe meeting him in person will be hard, but he'll be happy to know. Speaking of Jonni... I guess I should also write down that last tenday we managed to find some time to go over that out-of-the-way, nice spot past the swamp, by the crack where the collapsed lizardfolk cave is.

    Since Jonni had been nagging Sabre about teaching him to drink, she had advised him to start with a bottle of Cara-binary or something like that, so we went to get one and brought it with us. We got some venison meat and some snacks too for a nice picnic, and after that he gave me a very tender massage with some of that nice bronzing gel. The sun went down and the sunset made for a perfect setting, the scent in the air was right and we got really mushy and affectionate... so I showed Jonni that I want him to be the one for me. Then he showed me the stars... colourful, vibrant stars.


  • Looks like adventure found us again, instead of us finding it. This time around we had been in Norwick just talking and keeping each other's company, Willow, Jonni and I, along a few others that were less talkative.

    We were just talking about stuff. A green dragon that had been seen in the Rawlinswoods, some past adventures and so on. At one point Jonni looked very serious, saying he had to say something to me, and then he said that Elvira has written him that she's maybe going to be back to Narfell, and was sorry to leave without letting him know.

    Jonni was worried that I'd be angry at that, or maybe I'd not allow him to see Elvira because… well they were fond of each other before Elvira left and I know that. I told him he doesn't have to worry, that I trust him and I don't see Elvira as a threat. Besides, she's always been nice to me, and I'll be happy to see her too.

    I hope Jonni doesn't have me for some kind of black widow that envelops her mate in a thick wall isolated from the world to have him all for herself... I am a spirit of freedom, and the person I want to share my time with needs to be free as well. The only feeling greater than my fear and my worry for my loved ones is my trust in them.

    I think it just goes in Jonni's character to not want to harm people he cares about, even when it's not his intention, and that's why he chose to tell me. And it makes me really happy that he trusts me and cares about me and my feelings so much.

    But on to the adventure! Yeah well, after we talked a bit, Willow began to stretch and excused herself, it was sleepy time for her. But it was an awesome night, and I was just in the mood for having a good time with Jonni, so I thought I wanted to show him a special place I like a lot, but for that we had to go to Peltarch and past the swamps.

    Turns out that just as we got to Peltarch, we found this large gathering of people and we decided to at least say hi before moving on, when a guard came saying that the orcs were attacking! Yeah... Jonni gave me again that "sorry but I have to..." face, and I wasn't about to let him go alone.

    There were lots of people in the group. Couple of the elves that do the elf spirit stuff with Leena, Raryldor and Hen, also one of the stiff knights from the knight order, Shannon something, and even Shessie's big brother... I think I forget more, had almost an army with us! So we went all to look and yeah, there was like an orc army gathering west of town.

    They started fighting the orcs off and pushing them back, like, dozens of orcs, and then we followed the pursuing ones into the canyons. Got a bit deep into it, where the howling worgs are, and looked like there was a landslide that led up the mountain through a pass we had never explored.

    We got to some snowy hills, all filled with big, mean orcs. Some with big axes, others with big swords, others with big crossbows... and all with big tusks. But we had a strong group so it was being pretty okay so far. After a while, we reached a kind of camp with a gathering of orcs, and after clearing it most of them stood around searching, but I was too curious so I went ahead and found some kind of iron fortress, with lots of orcs around it.

    I like, ran back to warn them that maybe we should stop and refresh a little because that looked real tough. They agreed to do that, but seems like while we rested the orcs also regrouped and prepared for the assault... Hen came to tell us that where there were 10 or 15 orcs, now there were like 40 or more!

    So she and I had the best idea ever! The plan was that I'd sneak in invisible and do a couple of Chaos Rules! in the middle of all of them, that were all bunched up and hugged together. Then our warriors could come in and sweep in the confusion. So the rest of the group agreed and we did that.

    Problem... there were two mean sentinels away from the rest, with those huge crossbows... as soon as I did Chaos Rules! they would see me and start sniping at me, and I'm really squishy. But the group and Jonni had trusted me with doing my part... I couldn't return empty handed. I took some breath, did Pretty Fast! on myself, and did two Chaos Rules Forever! on the core of the two tight units of orcs. Then ran like hell and got back!

    Just as I was reaching safety I got shot on the shoulder. Owwww! That hurt... but I was back, and it was a clean wound. Jonni tended to my wound, as we waited a few seconds for Chaos Rules! to take effect... when we went back in, there were about half the orcs left, and some of them were still fighting each other, so I took the opportunity to go ahead and do couple of Chaos Rules! more... yeah, about all the remaining orcs started dancing, singing, and brawling each other! Now our warriors charged in as well and I don't think anyone even got hurt at all as all the orcs were dead in the ground.

    Phew... that was really fun! Now the fortress was in front of us, but it seemed empty and filled with poo. I took into my adventurous strolls again, and found another large group of orcs a bit ahead, around a hill. There was a really huge orc with a huge axe in the middle of all of them, so I went back to warn the group... but they maybe had heard the other battle, because they started charging around the hill.

    Shannon, Raryldor and Jonni ran first as they were doing every fight to keep them from us. At one point I saw Raryldor take a big blow and he had to run a few paces away to get some air and heal himself, so I thought to give him Pretty Fast! so he could escape and prepare to rejoin the battle faster. Then I looked back to where the main fight was...

    I couldn't see Jonni, much as I looked, he was nowhere. The huge orc with the big axe was now facing Shannon and getting shot at. I started to picture what could have happened... that orc that almost killed Raryldor and was giving so much trouble to Shannon... that orc had done something unforgivable, and he was going to pay for it. I began throwing at him empowered Blue Balls of Hurting until he was a dead corpse, and then some more. The orc finally fell and the others chased after the few remaining ahead to finish them off. I stayed behind, looking desperately for Jonni... and I finally found him, laying on the ground, with a big gashing axe wound across his chest that tore his armor open as if it was made of paper, and reached his heart. He was... not moving, and neither was his heart.

    There, time stopped. I hugged him with all my strength and wished to go back just a few minutes so that I could change my choices... so I could make the orc that did that to Jonni Stay Still and everything would be alright. I did not cry, because tears would not fix it. But I knew what would make others think twice before they dared to hurt us again. I took my hunting spear and used all my fury to separate the huge orc's body from his head, to make a trophy with it. Still dripping fresh blood, I put the head in a bag and I went back with Jonni, my hand caresing his cheek, as if he was just asleep... but I knew he wasn't.

    Then someone tapped me on my shoulder with a rod. It was Hen, offering the rod to me, saying that it could help me to bring Jonni back with us. I nodded and grabbed the rod, putting it into the gash that the axe had left in his chest, almost physically touching his heart, wishing it would beat again. Then I felt his flesh closing around the rod, so I pulled it out... the wound was healing itself, and in a few seconds it was all gone. I put my ear on his chest. Tum... tum... tum... tu-tum... tu-tum... tu-tum. His heart was starting, and he opened his eyes, all dazed and confused.

    I hugged him tightly, maybe a bit too tightly for how weak he looked, but he was back with us... I returned the rod thankfully to Hen and the others left us a second of intimacy while Raryldor burned the fortress down with fire elementals. I wanted to tell Jonni so many things, but I thought that was not the place or the time. In the other hand... he thought differently.

    "I love you."

    It was the first time he said that to me openly, without fear of being mistaken, and there was no sign of regret in his eyes. I was so invaded and overwhelmed by all kinds of feelings at that moment... from extreme sorrow to anger, then hope, then joy, and then... this. "I love you too..." I think I managed to speak the words as he smiled. "Let's get you back home, kitty."

    Yeah... I needed a rest, a good one. And he did too. As we went back we still found a "small" white dragon that wasn't much trouble to kill. Dragons are serious business but at that time I could not care much about it. I did see if I could get a scale out of it, but quickly rejoined Jonni to walk back to Peltarch with him.

    Turns out that all that was about the orcs stealing a holy great axe of sorts from the elves, and now the weapon had been recovered and was going to be returned to where it belongs. Looks like we had won the day, and we were thanked for it. I thanked Hen again, and asked Raryldor to take care of my sister in the elven spirit stuff they are doing down in the forests.

    As for Jonni... he didn't want to go home, because he said his mom would know something really bad happened to him from the look in his eye, so I invited him to come to my treehouse and spend the night there. We took the boat, and got there pretty fast, to get our deserved rest. Jonni had had an awful day and I wanted him to feel that I'm with him, that he is the one for me... I wanted him to feel my warmth. I made his rest a little special for him... and I think he liked it.

    I sent him back home in the morning, he looked much better then. Still a little dazed and maybe still feeling a bit lame, but he's a strong wolf, and in time he'll come stronger out of it. I don't know if I have to thank Savras and Selûne for making him as he is, if I have to thank his parents, or maybe he's forged himself to be that noble, caring and selfless. What I know is that right now I want him to be my Alpha.


  • What's with hobbers really? I mean, they just keep causing trouble. This time I was returning from Peltarch after meeting Jonni's dad (he didn't eat me, yay!) and I just wanted to go home and then the gates of Norwick are full of people and lots of hobbers dead in the ground, and lots more coming.

    I needed to get home and those hobbers had umberhulks that know where I am even when I'm invisible so I figured I'd stay and help. Since there were none of my beefier friends in there, I just picked the warrior that looked stronger, and threw at him all my good tricks so he would fight better.

    That was some knight fighting on a kind of magical holy horse that charged at everything that moved, so I guessed that was as good as any to get my tricks, while I kept far behind tossing some Stay Still here and there. A few tons of hobgoblins, umberhulks and bullfaces later, they stopped, and there was this huge creepy hobgoblin face appearing in the sky.

    Yeah and there was also this huge ugly monster appearing and disappearing all the time, like some kind of illusion, but that was even more creepy than the hobgoblin face. I have no idea what it was or what was all that about, because we never got to fight it…

    Willow and Llama arrived then, but they missed the excitement and looked tired, so they went to cuddle to the Pixie Roost I think. I went to get Jonni some small pelts from the vermin in the cave near my professor's tower, he says he wants to become a tanner to make nice bags so he can carry his stuff easier. After getting the pelts, I got back home to eat a bit and Jonni appeared, so while we were there, I decided to show him my treehouse and store some heavy stuff for him.. he keeps carrying around way too much junk.

    I gave him all the pelts I got, and that also made him happy. You know, he then asked if he could stay the night. I thought for a moment if mom or sis would have a problem with that if they walked in and found us cuddling on the cushions. Guess I forgot to keep thinking about it when he kissed my ear... I really like it when he does that. I felt so comfy and so at peace that I fell asleep in his arms.

    I packed him back home with some breakfast when we woke up. I hope his mom hasn't missed him much, because she might not agree with her son missing a whole day and night at home without a warning... wherever you are Jonni's mom, it wasn't my fault!


  • Whew…. what a tenday.

    Guess that's how it is when I'm not lazying around the forest or stalking people and animals. First, I went to the city even though I hate it because I feel like for Jonni his family is very important, and I made him worried saying that I'm afraid of his dad, so I wanted to compensate for that going there to meet him.

    Problem is, I still don't know where he lives, so I stood at the commons, and Jonni found me first. We started talking, and Willow and others showed up too, and then Shessie came screaming that the giants are attacking the city!

    The first thing I did was grab Jonni's arm and pull him southwards so he would come with me to Norwick, but then he looked at me oddly "But Kitty, this is my home...". Yeah... guess I was selfish without even noticing. Willow pointed that I have fought giants before and it should be fine. Well yeah... I mean, when we explore new places we find monsters and stuff, but defending the city from a siege is something else! Anyways, my friends were going to help, so I went along to help them. Stupid giants better don't hurt them!

    There was already a dead giant at the gates, and a couple of soldiers that had died fighting it... but wow, that giant was like, twice the size of the giants I had seen before. And fiery red. Someone said they were Fire Giants, well guess that name suits them so it works for me too.

    We went a bit further and then bam! Lots of giants, with another of those huge red ones. We started all running around being chased by giants while Jonni and Andrew were the ones standing in front of the giants to keep them busy. After lots of running and screaming we beat them all... phew!

    Or not... because right after that, we went to look a bit further, and lots of huge orcs started attacking too. A lot of those superfast ones with hammers, and then lots of superfast ones with big swords... and mages and all kind of ugly big orcs. There was one that was even bigger than the rest and was like their boss. When a wave of the orcs was killed, he retreated and sent another wave. So I sneaked past the big front orcs while they were busy fighting and made the big boss orc Stay Still. Hah!

    Jonni disarmed him and tied him so he could be captured and ask him if they were being friends with the giants and why were they attacking the city. The orc was pretty dumb though, and he just said stupid things... "stupid human, stupid city, stupid... stupid". Bah!

    At least we got back to the city safe, and all my friends were fine, so that's what matters.

    A few days later, we managed to get the group together again. This time we decided we wanted to see the smurf-nibbling town that is below Norwick's crypts. But yeah, problem is, we all hate deaders, and they are tough as hell, plus they don't listen to my tricks because they don't have brains or whatever... so I think it was Shessie that said that there's a long way around to get there, through the underdark.

    So we decided to go that way! I mean, what could be the worst we could find? Drow, beholders, squidfaces? Pff... at least those things can be talked to and listen to my mind tricks! I think, anyways...

    Well, so we went down the fishy caves, and then past the angry umberhulks and the ant people. Those places I had already seen, but after that it was like wooooooooow. We saw first a natural staircase, but then it didn't seem so natural after we started seeing squidface statues. There was then some kind of... hall, chamber something with a bullface statue at the end of it that led to another stair-case like... with like a thousand steps downwards. By the end of it I think we were in the centre of the world!

    And that's where things got really amazing. We got to really huge caves, they were like a world below, couldn't even see the ceiling, it's just as if it was night time, and instead of stars there were so many crystals of different colours glittering all over the place. The ground had water streams crossing all over, small lakes with natural cascades, the water was so fresh and tasty! Also lots of mushrooms of a thousand different kinds... sometimes making towers one over another, sometimes forming rings, sometimes just randomly sitting on a rock... there was so much to see, and so little time because we had to keep walking...

    We also saw some kind of weird round buildings with small windows, some of my friends say they were squidface homes... guess so, yeah? We crossed also their mines, and then saw the most awesome device ever! It was like a huge round disc with another disc suspended on top of it and a pretty swirly light in between. I couldn't help it, I had to step in and see what happened, so I prepared to leap in and... doh! I got grabbed by the arm. Silly Jonni said it's dangerous and I shouldn't do that. But what could go wrong, really! I mean... it was a pretty light and everything was quiet, no monsters anywhere, so I explained him that, and he said he was coming in with me then. Okay, now I got a little nervous because he made it sound as if it was going to be dangerous or something, but I just grabbed his hand and we stepped in!

    We waited a bit inside for the light to do its swirly thing... and waited... and nothing happened. What a disappointment... but I guess the swirly light was cool to see from inside anyways.

    We went on still and passed some more caves with more pretty crystals, mushrooms and streams... we even saw a dock with a boat. We had been walking so long! The Smurf-nibbling town couldn't be far anymore... when suddenly something fell from the darkness on Llama. It was like... a huge cloak that wrapped around him and made him run off scared! That also scared Jonni when another of those things fell on him, and I was caught by surprise between them, not knowing what to do. I reacted by making Jonni Poof! so that the thing would leave him alone, but when I looked around Llama was nowhere to be seen, and now the cloak thing couldn't see Jonni, and turned to me instead. Then I caught for first time what they really were... it was a monster! It had these huge claws, teeth and eyes in the inside, and it was coming after me. So I ran like hell in circles wihile Willow searched for Llama desperately and the Kris brothers did what they could to help.

    Llama came back running from wherever he had gone, now chased not by one, but TWO of those cloak things... Willow tried to help but they nailed him down and attached to his back, doing whatever awful thing they do to people they attach themselves to. Willow started kicking them frantically so they'd come off, and then Jonni appeared from nowhere and began prying with his sword, and finally they managed to pluck them off.

    Problem... now we had three angry cloak monsters chasing us, and they were like impossible to hit.. they appeared and disappeared as they wanted in the darkness of the cave and ambushed us constantly... Jonni stood defensively in front of Llama while Willow pulled him off to a more safe place... and then I thought to try my big Stay Still trick for ugly monsters, and see if it worked with the cloak things. And yeah, it did!

    Phew... that helped for us to escape safely, and Jonni could still kill a couple of them with the help of the Kris brothers. There was still one alive when Jonni looked back to make sure we were all safe and ran off with the rest of us... I think the cloak thing wasn't in the mood for chasing either, after two of its friends got killed while being paralysed.

    Llama was bitten all over by those awful monsters, but Willow healed the wounds and then began to do her praying stuff to the Wind god, trying to reanimate him in less divine ways as well, and whew... Llama started breathing again!

    There were so many close calls there that we decided the best thing to do was going back the way we came... and try another time after we get a little stronger. Tell you what... the curiosity is killing me now. I really have to see that place one day! Still, I don't regret a single step of the thousands that we took down there. It was an awesome experience, and it makes me feel so alive and full to be seeing the all the wonders of the world.. even the more deadly ones.

    Just because we hadn't had enough excitement, we all gathered again to find some adventure. This time with a couple of new people... there was an archer called Kalem, and two others that seemed to be together... Trish and Eric. They're all nice people, but maybe a bit introverted. We brought them along anyways, the more the merrier, yeah? And that way maybe we could get to know them a bit better.

    We set the Goblin Hold as destination, we know that's where goblins gather all the stuff they salvage and steal, so maybe we'd find some nice treasure. You know, it was odd that just when we were outside the hold, we spotted sentinels on top of the hills, as if they were guarding something... but that made it even more exciting, we were on the right track for treasure!

    So after beating all the archers, fire-tossers and mean mages outside, we got into the hold and first there are like tons of huge insects spitting all the crap they could at us. Who taught them their manners, really? Eric and Jonni were on the front all the time, being supported by Llama and Trish, while Willow, Shessie, Kalem and I kept to the back tossing arrows, tricks, bolts, rocks, or whatever we could find at hand.

    First turn to the right, and what we find? Lots of goblins with two huge boars of the size of dire bears. They said to lure them out one by one, and well... I thought "cool, so I'll make one Stay Still, and we kill the other nicely". So I went ahead and yay! one of the huge boars got paralysed and the other came alone... but what we didn't see is that there were duergar lurking invisible and ambushed us as soon as we started fighting the boar...

    Not only that! The duergar sneaked past Eric and Jonni and came straight for us, the unarmored squishies in the back. First thing I saw was two of them bullying Kalem and there was no way he could escape... so I tried to make him Poof! I got close, to gather the wild energies I need for the trick... and suddenly TUNK!

    Yeah, a very awful and deep pain in the back of my head just before all went dark. I didn't even have time to feel my bones hitting the ground of the cave. There was no trance, no light at the end of the tunnel... and no fugue plane. All I know is that I opened my eyes with the most awful headache ever, and the first thing I see is Jonni holding me in his arms. Over paper, it was a nice place to be in, but damn if my head was hurting...

    Jonni asked if I was feeling alright, if we should go back... but I wouldn't ruin everyone's fun for anything in the world. We were finding adventure, and beating bad guys that probably had treasure... hells no! I told him what he needed to hear, that I was fine, and just needed a little time to get my head back over my shoulders.

    In truth, it's been two days since that and my head still hurts bad. At least the gash in my head is looking good in the mirror. As for the bump... well that might take a bit longer. I hope my head won't stay forever deformed!

    But back to the adventure... all I remember from the moment I got hit in the head is rather blurry as I kept wandering in the back, dealing with this headache and stinging pain while following around. I remember we kept finding duergar, and now we knew their tactics, so Willow and I prepared scrolls and magics to help Eric and Jonni see invisible things.

    There was one of the duergar that had all those magic tricks that I hate... the hurtful fire ones... he locked on Trish and began to throw fire at her, one spell after another till he burned her alive. What a douche, really. Willow tried to get her back on her feet, but she was all crispy and... yeah. At least Willow could still pray to her Windy god to bring her back to life, and although Trish looked a little annoyed, at least she was back with us. I hope she'll recover fast, it must have been really painful...

    Going forward, we found lots of stuff in some crates... mostly potions and ores, and then went downstairs. There were more duergar, goblins, even ugly trolls that we have no idea what they were doing there, other than stinking like hell. In one of the bigger rooms there were a group of bullfaces... what a fight! One of them bullfaces slipped past our frontliners and I almost get a heart attack when he walked right past me. Llama and Willow were fast there to pin it down and kill it with everyone else's help.

    They had more potions, and scrolls and ores... well, seems we screwed the duergar good. They had it coming! For being so.. ugly and stupid... and hitting me in the head, and hurting Trish so bad.

    There was only one room to see, and when we reached it we heard lots of weird noises from outside. When we opened there was an umberhulk, some duergar and some goblin and some kind of... stoney.. tentacle plant, all fighting each other. I'm not sure what was going on and who was friends with who... we kinda swept in and finished off whatever was still moving. Seems like the rock-plant-tentacle monster had been eating and wrecking all that it found in its way... duergar, goblins, equipment... I'm not sure, really, but the place was all wrecked, and there was nothing but broken crates, rubble and dead stuff in it.

    So we decided to return through the goblin coal mines that lead into my aunt's home. Gosh how I hate these stupid goblins. I wish I could help my auntie to get her home back, but with those holes poked into it, it's going to be hard. Oh well.. maybe that's another adventure.

    For now... I've written so much, and my head hurts like hell still. I need to lay down a little somewhere warm and soft... now where is Jonni...


  • Guess it's time to recap a little what has been going on…

    Well, first of all, looks like sis is doing fine with the elves, though I was with them the other day and they just seem to go in circles bickering with each other. While they spent an hour disagreeing on everything possibly disagreeable, sis was telling me in hush hush how frustrated she is at that, but she also says that she's starting to be accepted and they're even counting on her to fix whatever is broken.

    Looks like they allowed her to call on the power of the Furies to destroy some evil gems that keep the elven spirits trapped... you go sister! Sounds like there's more to it but I haven't been digging. If she's happy, I'm happy for her. She's getting stronger too and learning a lot of useful things. Honestly, I don't really care what the elves do or don't, I just want my sister back and safe. Just in case, I enchanted a nice shield for her so it can protect her from bad things... it also helps me to rest easier.

    The forest looks disturbed lately... lots of weird lightning and a somewhat eerie air to it... the animals seem to be scared of something and hide in their dens and caves. Uncle Rass told us a weird story of a vine attacking him and implanting a thorn in his arm, now he seems pretty obsessed with that thorn and he's even carved out a chunk of his arm, as if he thought it was still creeping inside of him... well the idea is disgusting, but the size and the looks of the wound he did to himself is not less disgusting either...

    Willow offered to help him, but he's stubborn as hell. I don't know if he's just too proud to take the help of a young girl that could be his daughter, or he really thinks he got it under control. He still looks like he hasn't slept in days, both because of the pain, and how obsessed he is about the vine. I told him to go see Auntie Sunny if he's so worried, she knows those neat regenerating tricks that could make his flesh grow back nicely... but he still prefers to deal with it himself. Just hope he'll be okay, yeah?

    It's not the only odd thing that has been going on in the forest either... Willow, Jonni and I went out to look for adventure, and we found it! Besides the normal hobgoblins there were these... big, bloated, especially ugly ones that were guarding little treasure hoards. Okay, the first one was a bit scary, because he was like, impossible to throw spells at, and very hard to hit so it took us a while to put him down.

    But when we went deeper we found a whole band of them big bloated ugly hobs, tossing mean spells at us, with their big weapons and stuff! We like... ran around a lot and tossed anything we had at them. Jonni stood there all guardian-like trying to keep Willow and I safe, Willow changing from bow to sword flowing around the fight like the wind, and I did what I could using my Stay Still and Pretty Fast tricks so my friends could hit them more easily... we threw all we had at them! I spent one of my wands, and I tossed the wand too!

    We had to run away for our lives at some point, and then we rested a little and came back with new energies, and then, after lots of fighting and running around we managed to conquer the mean hobgoblin hoard! We even went inside their cave after and cleaned it up, because we had just refreshed ourselves and felt good enough to go on.

    Out of what we collected, Willow got a really nice flail that she says it helps her to kill the deaders along with some wind arrows that really suit her and Jonni got a few trinkets and potions. I got a lot of gems to add to my collection, so I'm happy too. It was a very nice adventure! I even got to hit a few hobgoblins with my spear. Something tells me I'll never be as good as Jonni, but well... I'll always have my tricks, and claws.

    Speaking of Jonni... I've been spending some time with him lately. You know, he's the kind of guy that looks dull in the surface, but once you get past that protection he puts around himself, he's actually a very familiar, warm and caring person.

    I had him for another of those stiff people in big polished armours from the north, but he has surprised me more than a few times already. I don't know... he has a mix of handsome and cute that is kind of attractive. At first I thought he'd be one of those meek people I can take advantage of, but now I'm feeling him closer than that.

    Turns out he's just nervous and shy around girls, but he told me that he likes spending time around me, and that made me feel good. Then it's like we always have something to talk about, and we are different, but kind of alike. He asked me out in a date and... well yeah, I accepted. He seems to care for Nature and the Wilds, he says it comes from his parents. We talked a bit about lycanthropy, and about our lives in general. And he really is open minded and understanding about things... that the world is not a checkered black and white chessboard.

    After dinner we took a stroll and well... I had eaten well, had some wine... had good company and it was dawning. So he told me a tale about his parents and the Gypsy Camp and I kind of fell asleep in his chest. Yeah that sounds big... but what can I do? I'm a night creature, and he was treating me so nicely... I felt comfy and safe. He even stood there without moving all time, keeping me from the rain and the goblins that roam nearby.

    You know, that was really sweet of him and I'm sorry for his arm because it must have been holding a lot of my weight for hours, but he still didn't complain about it, just smiled and whispered a prayer to Selûne so that she would keep me safe.

    I don't know. I think I would like to have another date with him... and maybe we can be more than friends? Both Leena and Willow seem to approve it, and Selûne knows I hate chains, even emotional ones... but I'm not going to keep myself from something I want... that's just not me. Besides, don't I have already a family that is worth living and dying for? It'd just be like making Jonni part of that family.

    You know, I'm still scared that his dad will eat me when he learns about it. I'm kind of his niece... he's a werewolf and I'm a werekitty... I hope Jonni won't mind if we skip the family presentations...


  • Time to catch up with some of the things that have been happening, before I forget them…

    So... looks like we've taken onto another dangerous adventure, and made it alive, more or less. It started out exciting, with riding a sky ship that took us to a jungle in the other side of the world. The trip was amazing! Our mission was to hunt a huge dinosaur and bring his skull to the captain. Seemed like an easy job, but only in the last moment Captain Beeter said that the jungle was magical and then our heads began to spin and made us hurt each other.

    All in all, it was a bit silly and frustrating trip, but we got out safe. Things to underline... Shessie went to that "Fugue" place I haven't seen yet... and she went not once, but twice. Once because she was caught by cannibal hins, and another she fell to the saurials that we were dumb enough to attack first even though they meant no aggression. I don't want to visit that Fugue place, ever, but it feels bad to see my friends go down while I can do nothing to help them. If that wasn't bad enough, we also murdered half the population of local saurials that lived in the jungle, including their cubs, because we chose the wrong company to travel with, but I guess that's easy to correct for the next time. It's not something I want to reminisce, so I'll just say that in the end we kind of amended our offence to the hosts and the wilds, but far too much blood was spilled without being called for.

    On the plus side, the experience was really intense, and I think I tightened my connection to the wilds in it. Now I'm capable of using a few more neat tricks, I'll make the new entries in the first page of this book when I'm done writing this. Especially about the one to protect our minds against magics, because that almost cost us too much in this trip... and I'll be better prepared next time.

    Oh, and I have to mention the family of feral sabertooth tigers we saw. As huge as beautiful, a mother was nursing and caring for her cubs. It was so beautiful to watch that even terribly dangerous animals have their tender family life.

    And we saw the end of the Rainbow, with some weird creature hoarding a treasure on it and wanting nothing but keeping us away from it. Guess it was pretty to watch from a short distance, and we didn't want any more trouble anyways.

    So... it was all very pretty, very frustrating, and in the end, very successfull. I got a pair of pretty Moon Walking boots out of it. Now I just need to convince Captain Beeter to take me to the moon one day! Or maybe ask Leanna to teach me a trick to teleport there...

    More news... oh yeah, Willow brought some bad news about the animals in the forest, the smart ones. Looks like some of them have been killed by the bugbears, including one of their leaders, the badger. Looks like there is some bad influence pushing the bugbears to cause trouble, and the bugbears... well, they don't need more than a little push to start being trouble.

    We now think that the smart animals could be "aspects" of a same entity that fell off the sky and "shattered", taking the physical forms of what animals were nearby. Some say "planeswalker", others say "alien", I think I've even heard say it might be an angel, because it had wings. It's all a mystery but we've decided to go meet with the white deer sometime soon and see if we can get some insight and maybe find a way to help... the smart animals are okay, but trouble-looking bugbears are not so okay.

    Willow also asked me to help her go to find a dire turtle shield for LLyran, they're preparing a trip to go soonish some place where dire turtles live, I guess? I said I'd help them, of course! See if I can bring Leena this time around, it was a shame she couldn't ride the Star Harpy, but thinking back on all we went through I'm almost glad she didn't come... I can't bear to think we could have hurt each other with those mean magic disturbances in the jungle. She would have still taken a lot of positive things from the experience, I bet...

    And speaking of family... Father has come to visit, just after we beat some kind of demon-dog in the crypts, he appeared at Norwick's south gates, preceded by the typical soft and tender snow. He didn't say much, guess he was in a hurry or just takes him just too much effort to do those "manifestations" of snowy wolf. He warned us that an old act of mercy of his has been freed and seeks to haunt our land.

    "Meet with the one that has not bested me,
    ask him about what has been set free,
    Eyes to sky, don't bend the knee,
    change must happen carefully."

    Yeah, father sucks at poetry… but at least the message was not very cryptic. Guess he knows I'm not very smart... so we went to find uncle Ras, "the one that has not bested him", and he knew exactly what father was speaking about. He told us the whole tale about the dragon father and him captured and kept jailed at the Wolf's Den. His short name is Ky, and over the years uncle Ras and the dragon grew fond of each other, like kind of buddies. Now what was a tiny white whelp is a big and dangerous white dragon, and has an army of frost giants with him...

    His purpose is to switch Narfell's weather to "what it should be", like, in a day's time. Guess the dragon either doesn't understand or doesn't care about how harmful would that be for Narfell's ecosystem, without giving any living being time to adapt or migrate. Besides, father is already bringing that change, but slowly and steady, as it should be. The dragon has lost his mind, and while uncle Ras thinks he's a kind of buddy to him, he's going to do a lot of harm if we don't convince him in one or another way to just allow father to do his job.

    In our favour.. dragons live thousands of years, right? He shouldn't mind waiting just 100 or so... we'll see, I guess. I don't want the wilds to go through any sudden change, and I want my home to keep being my home. I'll defend what is mine...

    And I guess that is all I need to write down for now... hey father, if your new superpowers also allow you to read my diary, you need to know that I still love you. And now screw off, it's private!


  • ::A change can be noted in this entry and every entry afterwards. Even though the scripture is the same, it's almost as if a different, a bit more mature person was writing it::

    I've decided this is not going to be just my trick book anymore. Now it's going to be my diary so I keep all the things written down and I can always go back to them without forgetting.

    First things first. Leena is very worried lately… she says she's had bad dreams, and I know that look in her face. She's afraid, I can feel it in her. The way she speaks of what happens in her mind... it sounds familiar. Our parents prepared us against it and we got to be strong, together, as we were taught. So far she seems a little more sensitive than me, maybe because she's a druid, maybe because she pays more attention to the gods of Nature than Selûne... the "dark side" might be calling her louder. I know I've been feeling more... "feral" lately, but for me it is not a dark or bad thing. I feel good when I am in my cat shape, and I look forward to spend as much time as I can in it. Maybe what haunts Leena is something else?

    It's okay, because nobody's going to take my sister from me. Not the "dark side", not the Malarites, and not anyone else. Suppose we're not kids anymore, and we do have to take care of each other.

    Yesterday we had a sister talk, she and I, and made and oath to stay always together, and protect each other, no matter what, at all costs. Family is family, and then there is everything else. Leena sealed our oath with one of those druid blood pacts dad taught her.

    We went afterwards to fight trolls with that crazy dwarf woman... the ugly one with a beard. Uncle Ras and Jonni also came with us. I had never been in those troll swamps, and it was a very dangerous trip. It was going well, but they set up a bad ambush inside a grove and we all began splitting in different directions. The dwarfess was struck with magical fear and I tried to stand around her to hold the trolls that were chasing her, but then they turned their attention to me, and hit me in the head.

    I passed out, and I thought that was it, but in the blur of my eyes I caught Leena running towards me through the trolls, not caring about being really hurt herself and being no match for them. After the blackout, I saw Jonni healing my wounds, but then all I wanted to see is that my sister was safe and ran off to find her. Turns out everyone made it to safety, so we recovered and went to kill those damn trolls.

    I suppose the fables hold some truth, and I just spent up one of my lives. How many remain now? Four, five? We all made it back safely, but that taught me one thing... I can't protect my sister if I am a wuss and I'm the one always needing protection. Up to now I've been learning to survive by avoiding problems... I have tricks to run faster from danger, to be invisible, to charm or paralyze people and monsters so they can't hurt me... but it's time to stop running. My sister needs me, and we need to make our stand when the time comes. I'll start by looking for a weapon that suits me, and maybe some more comfortable clothes. Then I need only to watch and learn, and the wilds will teach me.


  • My Shapes!

    Yeah I'm going to keep record of the shapes I've learned in this page, so I don't forget too if I get hit in the head!

    Cougar

    The best of my shapes so far! It's not only a shape it also… feels like myself, yeah?! Okay, still not my old panther shape, but I feel feral and free when I take this shape. There are no boundaries and I can let myself loose and not care about rules made by boring people that are too afraid of anything they don't understand, hiding inside walled towns... I can just follow the call of the wild, and be part of the world.

    Giant Tarantula

    Yeah that's right! I can turn into a spider larger than myself… and even keep my red hair! This is my second favourite shape so far, because it makes me feel free and I can climb anywhere plus I can walk through webs and grease without tripping or slipping! It's still me when I take spider shape though! I mean, I don't get spider mind or stuff... in fact only when I am cougar I feel more wild and feral, all other shapes don't seem to affect my mood or behaviour.

    Umberhulk

    My ugliest shape by far! But sometimes I need it… that's why my friends helped me to learn it! Can carry heavy stuff, move large rocks and even burrow! Problem is that I get blind when I become this thing. The upside is that I can feel -everything-! Like, if someone is standing still ten meters away from me, I can feel the reverberations of their breathing in the ground. It's amazing!

    Raven

    I love this shape because I can still talk a little while using it, and even better, I can fly! I still don't dare to fly very high though… like... imagine if the shifting ends or something weird happens, it's a long fall! But I've been flying short distances and flying up hills instead of having to take the long roads around! It's so fun!

    I'll add more as I learn them!


  • I've learned some new tricks! I wrote them down on the trick list so I don't forget them. But what's even better? I learned magic words to make my tricks better!

    Yeah!

    The magic words are "Forever!" and "Really!", and they make my tricks longer and stronger!

    So if I want to do a long "Pretty Strong!" so it doesn't run out too soon, then I go "Pretty Strong Forever!" and it lasts, like, forever!

    If I want to do more powerful "Pretty Strong!" so my friends can fight better or carry heavy stuff, I go "Pretty Strong, Really!" and they become very, very strong!

    I have tested a bit… some tricks don't work with "Forever!", some tricks don't work with "Really!", and some don't work with either! So I gotta keep testing all my tricks and see the ones will work well and stuff. Also, when I do the magic words, tricks drain me a lot more... so I gotta be smart using them!

    Maybe I can convince Morry to let me try some tricks on him later!