3. Maya's Second Journal

Maya's Second Journal


  • _Maya lay by the pool’s edge, her unwashed and still braided hair a disheveled mess in the steamy confines of the bath house. Her clothes and armor lay in a heap in the corner tossed haphazardly and strewn in disarray.

    A few women, Peltarch socialites, or upper merchant class visiting from Damara sat in the corner, giggling and whispering conspiratorially, often glancing in Maya’s direction. Maya paid little attention to them, instead laying with her chin supported by her fists, staring into the water.

    The song in her blood hadn’t really ended. The fight with the Ettins and Duergar had been challenging but without grave danger, punctuated by sporadic fights and interludes. It had been dangerous enough to invoke it, but without the need for fervor, which allowed it to end quickly.

    After the battle she stood with her comrades, trying to quell it. The only person worth considering there had been Ael, and that wasn’t going to happen. She found it easier to simply walk away.

    Even the boat ride to Peltarch had done nothing to relieve it. Afterwards, she sat on the Peltarch docks for what seemed like hours, watching the dock workers unload crates from a merchant vessel.

    The bath house was a mere 10 minutes away. He cost 50 glimmers. She didn’t even know his name.

    The song was quiet after that, though her heart was empty._

    Entry 86 – Needs

    I fight evil Ettins and Duergar today with Ael, Nicahh, and two stout dwarf name Farley and Kallinar. Was very good battle, and even have trophy of good make double axe. Maybe some day, I learn to use.

    But after battle, blood sing too much, and had been too long. All could think about after battle was celebrate life and make pleasures. Is way should be, no?

    I leave group, I go many places for make go away, but nothing work this time. Think watch many dock worker with no shirt in sun was probable not good way for make go away either.

    I get to bath house and after speak to person, I make pay. Is person I never see, probable never see again.

    Why is no one here understand?

    _A loud burst of giggling and pointing drew Maya’s attention. Maya looked over at them. They returned her gaze haughtily. Mockingly. Maya wondered briefly how long it would take the guards to arrest her, if she truly let Tempus within her, naked like this, after she put one of their heads through the partition behind them.

    Instead Maya closed the journal, and gathered her things._


  • _The trees twinkled in an ethereal breeze, their silver trunks and leaves reflecting light in shifting patterns from a pink, hazy sky. Tall red-brown grass rippled in waves.

    Maya stood in the grass before a yawning chasm. Her wings rested quietly behind her, dark gold hair and white feathers rustled in the wind. Blue eyes glowed with intensity. Far on the other side of the chasm, myriads of demonic figures gibbered and shrieked, their spears and pole arms dancing.

    Maya unfurled her wings, and with a thump of air quickly traversed the chasm. Half way across, summoned in shimmering patterns, a cloud of ravens formed around her. She and the ravens descended quickly, Maya’s legs crouching on impact, axe and shield at the ready.

    The ravens changed. They became ancestors, sons and daughters of Uthgar, dark armor and weapons glimmering in the pink, hazy light. With a cry of “Tempus!”, the battle was joined.

    Maya fought beside her grandfather, his grandfather, and all the men and women before them. Shield deflected pole arm, and weapons sundered neck and limb.

    This was The Exultation. This was The Rapture. Maya’s heart leapt with belonging and joy until…

    She woke.

    Maya stirred lazily, her legs getting tangled in the sheets. She thought about getting up, but the pounding in her head from last night’s ale convinced her otherwise.

    “Ugh”, she thought to herself, “I should not do this, even when have party. Grain and berry not mix.”

    She closed her eyes again, until the screeching caw from the window a few feet away snapped her eyes open. Despite the fog and pain, she bolted upright.

    The raven on the window cocked its head, eyeing her curiously. The bird’s gaze met Maya’s eyes behind locks of disheveled hair, before it took off and flew over Norwick. A single feather settled lazily on the floor.

    Maya reached down and picked up the feather, then flopped her head back down onto the pillow, closing her eyes.

    “Stupid bird”, she muttered in Uthgardt, before passing into a few hours of dreamless slumber._

    Entry 85 – Wants

    I need man.

    Am begin to be grumpy again, and have crazy dream. Always happen when long time without man.

    After great battle with goblins and bugbears, want for make pleasures was almost too much. Is like this much when blood sing. Adam would understand, and (the rest is crossed out). I think I write about this already, on pages before.

    I think of things I do with Ael that would bring much dishonor to Nicahh. Still I think them, and with other men in village too. I worry sometime if blood sing too much, that will do something stupid. Maybe is best if go to bath house in Peltarch, and find person for make happy for one night. No complicate, no dishonor, but with no heart, not be same.

    I tell Nicahh about dream of fly, and she say she have too. Even Yana have dream of fly. She say have dream about fly around inn and sit on roof, so maybe dream is not so crazy.

    I think only way going to make through shift is jump in cold creek behind inn.


  • _“…Give them a place beside you. Honor their spirits for the deeds of war. Grant them peace should they need it, and grant them battle for those that choose to fight again. In the name of Tempus, the Foehammer, I pray”

    Maya looked up into the sky, the last of the Uthgardt words of prayer carried by the wind across the plains of the Nars. The cold morning air had gathered dew on her hair, clothing, and equipment, and Maya shivered involuntarily.

    She stood up slowly from her prayer vigil in front of the moment to those who fell, and wearily continued down the road to Norwick._

    Entry 84 - Shrine

    I speak to Barrim few day ago, about shrine to Tempus inside of Peltarch. Is in place too out of way for people to see.

    I am too tired for remember all of words between us, but get thought that Peltarch not look kind upon guard of Norwick try build shrine to Tempus on place with shrine to fallen warrior. He say is Peltarch land. Is shame, because I thought was good place. He hint that maybe I should come back to Peltarch, but I do not like place where so many can hide behind words of law.

    Now, I try to think of other place. Maybe on hill in Nars for all to see.

    Eyes get heavy now, after pray for day to Tempus. Is time I put quill down, for have duty in six hour, when bell ring. Have much to sleep on.


  • _Maya stood on one of the many hills just north of Norwick. The wind whipped her hair and cloak fiercely, driven by the coming storm from the southwest. Feathers clung tenaciously on cords of leather, on long braids turned gold by the rays of the Summer sun.

    Yana stood beside her, not so little any more. The toddler had grown to child in the past few years. She clung to the cloak around her and leaned against Maya, for the wind cheerily threatened to knock her off balance.

    “Sometimes, people do not see battle around them”, Maya said, looking down at Yana. “They come here, and all see is peace. World has little peace”, she continued.

    Yana looked up, squinting to look at Maya’s face framed by the afternoon sun.

    “Little plants fight for sun against big trees, and are nibble to earth by rabbits. Wolf chases rabbit. Man chases wolf, for fur for keep warm. Trees and grass spread seed all around, and fight for land with each other, just like people”

    Maya paused for a moment, “People not see is little bit of Tempus all around.”

    Yana looked up, “Don’t people want peace?”

    Maya smiled a bit, “Yes is true. But get peace, must be strong and make ready for war. People who not train for war be conquer by people who do. Always remember this.”

    Both looked up as lightning flashed on the horizon. Many moments later, the rumble of thunder rolled across them.

    “Come”, Maya said, “Is time for go. Nature must be respect”_

    Entry 83 – Mentor

    I try for teach what little know to Yana. Each day I see what I know not enough soon. I can teach for fight, and teach ways of Tempus, but not do numbers, and write is not good. I ask villager help with this.

    I see Yana has gift of number and read. I think she is already better at me in this, even though so young. Limb is also strong, but body is thin. She will make good warrior some day, but must learn be smart warrior and protect self.

    Duty now is teach of life. In this way too maybe I not so good, but I can teach of heart of fire, and how try for do best.

    Is funny time like this I find I miss Adam for different reason. Adam would know how teach from books, and maybe teach speak other tongue. Will be funny elf grow up, not know speak tongue of race.

    _Maya puts the quill down as Yana padded in, ready for bed. Maya notes with amusement she still has the rag doll from so many years ago.

    “Good night Maya”, Yana says, giving her a hug, “I love you. Sleep well”

    Maya hugged her fiercely in return, “I love you too”

    Yana smiled contentedly and padded upstairs in the unfinished inn. Maya watched her go before picking up the quill once again._

    Hopefully love be enough. Will be I think, until Yana is teenager. Then will probable do much pray to Tempus.


  • _An exhausted Maya sat on the grass behind what was to be the Grapevine Inn. Over past the grass on the other side of the creek, Yana and several other Norwick children played tirelessly, alternately jumping the creek and screaming in delight.

    Maya took the ladle from the rainwater barrel, and took a long drink before opening her journal._

    Entry 82 – Politics

    Other day I help Lyte fight evil troll. I have fought once before, and are tough and worthy opponent. She want go there and check because see Drow and demon there not so long ago, and ask me to come.

    We see no demon or drow, but we fight troll who there. Then after leave, I escort scout elf name Hor up to Peltarch. She was good talk to and full of life, so make trip quick and fun. Hor is not full name, but I cannot remember.

    There I run into Ronan, Telli, and Melanie.

    Ronan good look but skinny part elf wizard I see in Norwick much. I can see mischief in eye, and think is part trouble maker, but after I speak with in Norwick, not cause much trouble. I am not sure about part in attack Elenwyd and Rhyndar, but each person I speak with say not fight in ambush. I hear Peltarch arrest, but was clear of do wrong, so let go. Maybe is just price for be trouble maker.

    Telli is woman mountain person who is good fun, and was winner in melee in Norwick. Sometime she make me laugh. Her blessing and heart are strong, and I will be proud for fight beside. I can see is person of good heart.

    Melanie is person with much gift with weapon. Is older, and have seen many time before during time here in Nars. I have even fight beside. I had much respect for. But now she do something that speak much of character, and hurt Norwick.

    From what understand, Dwin work hard for get hobgoblin for fight demon goblin. He not make ally of evil hobgoblin, but just get evil for fight evil. Was very clever I think. But after ambassador speak with Hobgoblin leader, Melanie appear from invisible and murder leader, and say then Dwin message never be heard. This after Dwin make promise hobgoblin leader not be hurt.

    I am confuse much about this, so I ask. I ask her explain why do this.

    She tell me cannot be bother.

    When she do this, she attack Dwin honor by make so Dwin not keep promise. She also show she have no honor, for attack leader like assassin. When I say this, she say assassin is person for pay, and she not pay, so I change word to murder.

    I am not sure what do about this. I not challenge her there because is Dwin right for do first. I have no right for make challenge, even though speak so full of self and no respect I want punch in nose. She insult Dwin honor. Is his decide.

    For a moment, the quill is put down, and Maya watches Yana play. Maya’s happy smile slowly turns down, and her gaze turns cold as she picks up the quill again.

    By go against Dwin, she try hurt people of Norwick, and make danger to child I care for. If she keep do this, I take group and hunt her down. I will treat as evil monster, and enemy of Norwick. Will be no challenge to person of no honor. She will be track by scout, corner, and cut to pieces. Children and people of Norwick will be protect.

    But I will respect, because this is what Tempus teach. All who fight much be respect. And when her head on pole I will pray for, that Tempus teach her spirit honor.

    Maya closes the journal with a sigh, then watches the children again. Slowly the cold gaze turns to twinkle, and the mouth to a smile. Then with a squeal and a shout, Maya gets up and leaps the creek to play with the children once more.


  • Entry 81 – Duels

    I fight minotaur champion again other day. This time, I lose. Was not even much of contest, really.

    I wonder this mean he just have good day, I have bad day, or was much better. Fight was over so fast, I not even have time figure out. Last fight last much longer.

    I fight brave and fight true, so Tempus not dishonor. Tempus know that champion cannot win all battle. Part of be champion is strength of heart, not strength of body.

    But now Kull make noise about how not worthy for fight minotaur because is woman. Say send woman out do man job.

    Is funny, because I hear all time when grow up.

    In tribe of Griffon, woman can fight, but for defend village. Is man who go to war. Woman do not. So I understand many think like this too.

    I wonder who Kull pray to. Maybe if Kull fight Maya and win, but I teach Kull for pray to Tempus, would be victory all same.

    But part of worship Tempus mean respect all opponent. This might be hard for Kull, unless Maya win.


  • _Early morning, Maya sits on the edge of the creek behind the Grapevine Inn, her face contorted in pain. Her armor is off, still piled by the bedside in her room in a heap. The simple shift she’s wearing conceals little, her hair clumped with things best not mentioned.

    A guard yells at someone running down the street, and Maya winces. She turns and mutters something quietly in Uthgardt in the direction of the guard, but he neither hears nor cares.

    With effort Maya leans forward, and dunks her whole head in the creek. The creek, fed by snow run-off from the hills is icy cold, but Maya remains submerged for a good twenty seconds before lifting her head up. She picks at something in her tangles tresses in disgust, and then once more submerges her head, scrubbing. Finally, she pulls her head back with a gasp of hair, and shakes it, water spraying in all directions.

    Finally she lays back, sleep overcoming what hobgoblins could not.

    The noon sun and the not so gentle jostling of a foot on her shoulder wakes her. Maya cracks an eye open to see first guard Chet standing over her, a wry smile evident even under the helm.

    “Lieutenant, just a reminder of the patrol you’re leading in an hour”

    Maya cracks another eye open and looks up. A large part of her wants to see if she can cave in the front of Chet’s helm with a well placed fist, but all she manages is a weak nod.

    “Thank you. I be up in bit”, she mumbles in her thick accent.

    Chet wanders off, and through the fog in her head she can hear him talk to one of the other guards, something about clothing and legs, but the voices disappear and merge into someone haggling with one of the merchants.

    Slowly and with effort, Maya gets up and goes to her room._

    Entry 80 – Black Heart

    I drink too much. I drink too much wine from Sisterhood. Take bottle on road. Drink too much on road. Then go Oscura (evil city is crossed out) and drink too much there too.

    Was pretty dumb.

    I want try forget. Think bottle of wine help, but just make world fuzzy, and me angry at everything.

    Then I act in shame. I tell Natanya am miss Adam on anniversary, am angry, and want try forget, and she say should be celebrate time together, and not drink for time apart.

    She is right. Sister of heart is wise in many things.

    I feel sick at self, for treat memory of Adam this way, and run all way back to Norwick. I try make before throw up, but have to stop twice on way. Just glad throw up in chamber pot and not in bed. Much easier for clean.

    I am worry though. Was very angry when go north with black heart. Black heart make very easy for kill hobgoblin. I kill three big hobgoblin in three stroke of axe without even try hard. When heart is black, is like blood sing. All who face me die, in name of Tempus.

    I think am good person. Tempus knows this, and give me power for fight things are evil, in his name. But Tempus give power to people with black heart too. Is way of life, good and bad. All must battle for survive. Tempus only teach we honor each other when do.

    I not want black heart, so must learn celebrate life more. Tonight I will go to old house and read favorite story Adam used read to me, when I could not read.

    I know will cry when do this. I know tears make hard for read. Maybe tears better than wine for Maya.


  • _Adam sat in the large tub, Maya opposite. Adam was saying something about the story he just read, but somehow Maya couldn’t hear the words clearly. His eyes sparkled with the fire in his heart. The timbre of his voice captivated her attention, but the words were lost amidst the song in Maya’s blood. They had just come back from a journey in a cavern, full of things that gibbered and squealed. The battle had been furious, but they had all come through alive.

    Maya curled her legs underneath her and on either side of Adam’s, and moving across the tub, pressed herself against him, water sloshing onto the floor. Adam looked up at Maya and stopped talking. Maya looked down, hunger in her eyes. He reached up gently to caress….

    Maya woke up. The buzz of voices in Norwick filtered in through her dream, and the sunlight through the open windows assaulted her eyes. Slowly she sat up, reluctantly rubbing the sleep away._

    Entry 79 – Anniversary

    I told self I would be in Damara today, on great field of battle where I marry Adam. I thought would do honor to memory of. I move on to new life without him, but memories are still good.

    Wedding was small, but have many important people in, include king of Damara. Adam knew so many people, so many things, that I think part of Nars go when he go to Tymora.

    I think on this day much as day for Nicahh and Ael be marry come close. I hope life together for them is more long than I have with Adam. Is hard to meet someone know is right for, then lose so soon.

    I try for find other man, who can fill warm place in heart, and not be so lonely. Some stay by me for time. Some not feel same way as I do. Some leave. I think would make good wife for someone again, but would hurt for watch grow old, when I do not.

    Maybe Tempus does not wish me be marry. I wonder this much. I wonder if best not have man in heart, so can make heart for Tempus.

    I just come back from fight evil ogre other day, and blood was sing. Was warrior with way of magic there, name of Jeremy. Was tall, strong, and full of years. But we walk separate ways in Peltarch after battle. I think maybe miss chance for not be lonely again, just for one night.

    I hope Tempus does not want me be lonely.


  • _Maya stood on a hill just north Norwick, the sunlight cascading down from a clear morning sky reflecting on her armor in splashes of silver and gold. Her head was turned upward, her eyes closed, and dark blonde hair mixed with long braids and feathers blew in a gentle breeze across her back. Her long arms stretched outward, embracing the grace of Tempus.

    Maya prayed. Her voice was clear and resonant. She did not whisper. She would not hide the words from passersby or any other. She spoke her broken trade speech, mixed with the odd words of her Uthgardt heritage when translation failed her.

    She prayed for the people of Norwick. She asked them to make their hearts strong, and let Tempus be their guide. She asked for Tempus to make her heart strong too, for the battles to come and the blood to be spilled. She asked Tempus to give her the wisdom she often lacked, to lead these people to his arms, so that they may gain strength and persevere.

    She repeated the prayers over and over, until the muscles in her arms burned, and her voice became hoarse. She continued to pray, until the sun sank into the western horizon.

    Only then did a tired and weary Maya travel east, and collapse onto her bed in the Sisterhood_

    Entry 78 – Divine Grace

    I win archery tournament. I have no explain for, but message from Tempus. Many archer there better than Maya. Many. Big Ael, William, and little quick Gear all there for show skill. I always enter, but never go far. Is just fun for try and laugh with friend.

    Day is somehow different. I hit center of target more times in tournament than all of life before. As if Tempus make each arrow go true, or make eye clear and aim better.

    I not know why he would do this. I am not archer, and message is not clear to me.

    Is sometime hard be priest or champion of Tempus. Many not know this, but Tempus never speak. Is never word from heavens, or message in write. Is always sign, usually from ancestor.

    So what this mean? Tempus reward for prayer? Tempus want me learn bow? Maybe Tempus show Norwick that have faith in Tempus, and even axe woman win archery tournament.

    Only know one thing for sure. Is time for get better bow.


  • _If one peruses the next several pages of the journal, numerous entries on life’s little adventures are related from the simple woman’s perspective. There are tales of personal accomplishment, of victories minor and great, and of bloodshed and adventure. Most of them however are of little consequence - The tedium of Norwick moving north, the building of the inn of the Sisterhood, and watching Yana grow.

    For better or worse, Maya appears particularly proud of practically bludgeoning Ael to propose to Nicahh. Several entries mention the union, and the inevitable patter of little feet that will follow.

    By most accounts, Maya has had a peaceful respite in a life otherwise filled with battle, honor, and the glory of serving Tempus.

    Perhaps the times will change._

    Entry 77 – Scars

    I stand in front of mirror this morning, and wonder of where scar go. I wonder this often. Three week ago I hit hard by goblin axe. Was foolish way for get hit, but make mistake. Just glad was good enough for twist away, and behead goblin before he do again. But now is no remind of mistake. All is gone. I am same in mirror as when Tempus make me from nothing, there in Peltarch commons.

    Is nature of elf for live long time. Short bearded mountain people are same way. Many I see speak of human they watch grow old and die, and their children grow old too. Now I am like this I think. But maybe not.

    I talk to Zyphlin for long time once, and he show me all scar he have. He name most, and gave story for tell for each. I have many thing would have like show him, but no scar for story. Where are my scar for story?

    I think about this much. Adam die, Talgris leave, Natanya and I in bad place, and Zyphlin look at me sad and say no. I can still feel wound from each. Maybe when battle take place in heart, scar is there. Tempus not take that from me


  • _In wispy silence, the Minotaur coalesced within the pillars of the menhir. Its horns were filigreed and runed. Various jewelry adorned its features, and magicked chain mail glittered on its broad torso. The great axe was held easily, as dark intelligent eyes peered malevolently behind ornamental plates.

    “I seek the Champion of Tempus”, it rumbled, hot breath billowing out clouds from nose and mouth.

    Fadia and the group around her startled. Maya turned suddenly, eyes wide with recognition. Yes, this was the one who told her to follow his faith or die.

    There would be no pleasantries before this challenge. His demand had mocked Tempus, and Tempus would demand reprisal.

    The old worn belt Maya wore glowed, sending power and strength to her limbs. Maya’s eyes focused, and pupils dilated with the surge of adrenalin. Then a single tear formed in the corner of her right eye, blood following. A trail of red cascaded down both cheeks, and Maya’s vision became white.

    For Maya, the world ceased to be. There only was the glory of battle. There was only the pride of Tempus. The minotaur filled her sight and for a moment, a brief moment, Maya felt that she could fly the distance.

    The two clashed in a thunderous rush of steel.

    The minotaur had height, reach, and leverage. His great axe crashed down on Maya’s shield first, the impact sending shock through limb and shoulder. As Maya staggered under the blow, it struck again, spinning Maya around. But as it went to strike a third time, Maya recovered her composure, ducked and whirled, forcing the minotaur to abort his attack and deflect a low swing.

    For the precious moments that followed, the minotaur was on the defensive. Maya’s fury was upon her, and the attacks that followed forced the minotaur back through the menhir. Maya’s axe hissed with the minotaur’s blood when a well placed blow parted shoulder plate, leather, and flesh.

    Screaming with pain, the minotaur quickly recovered. Once again the great axe crashed down on Maya’s shield, her arm buckling under the blow. The axe skittered across the shield downward creasing the armor just above her thigh.

    Soon, Maya’s leggings glistened with fresh blood.

    Eyes ablaze with confidence, the minotaur whirled the axe and struck again, but this time Maya was ready. As the blow came, Maya spun clockwise with the impact, forcing the minotaur to over-reach his follow through. With a triumphant cry, Maya struck down on the exposed leg of the minotaur.

    The axe bit deep. Iron, muscle and bone parted to volcano forced steel, and the minotaur shrieked, collapsing on one knee. The minotaur whirled off balance in a desperate attempt to strike at Maya, but Maya simply moved back out of reach. Then Maya stepped forward, grounding the minotaur’s axe with hers, and stepped on it.

    For a brief moment, the only sounds were the heavy breathing of the two combatants. Maya leaned forward, narrowing her eyes, looking into the face of the minotaur.

    “Faith is Tempus”, she said, “Remember”

    …and beheaded it._

    Entry 52 – Challenges

    As begin to write this, I look at last entry and see was very long time ago. I have been so busy with militia and report, and so busy with move to Norwick I not even think about journal. Natanya would probably shake finger at. It make me laugh, think about that.

    I have spent much time in militia look for new tribe of goblins, try to keep peace, and battle huge minotaur.

    New tribe of goblins is much better fight. Are like little ball of muscle. Some can use magic. They seem some out of nowhere and attack Norwick, but whenever I go into woods and try find, I cannot. I try speak to goblins in Rawlins, but none listen to me.

    Lucidious was think about hire couple worshipper of Bane for be militia. Ask if I will teach. I say no. He not hire. That was that. Still, I think Lucidious is good chancellor. He give Norwick character. Is good wizard, not good warrior, but seem be no nonsense type person. Think he put Norwick before self, which is good.

    Evil Minotaur come challenge me after he put spell on, and tell me change faith. Was great warrior, but I still behead after hard fight. I think Tempus want tell him stuff it too.

    I will write another entry later. Have too much work to do.


  • Entry 51

    I decide that will join Norwick militia again. I send note to Dwin, and he reply is happy. I am proud for serve Norwick again, and will help make big and strong like days long ago.

    When I tell Yana this, she lock self in room and not come out all morning.

    Is true. I will not be around as much used to. Sometime will stay in Norwick. Journey from Norwick to Sisterhood is not long, but is long enough that stay in Sisterhood all time not be easy. I will miss children when am not here.

    When Norwick rebuilt, I have idea maybe Yana can stay with me. Here in Sisterhood, life is soft, and is good place for get new start, like Nicahh give to me and children. But world is not soft. Put food on table is hard work sometimes. Yana will be better person if understand this.


  • _It’s late at night, and the Sisterhood is quiet. Most of the children have gone to bed. Nicahh and Ael are somewhere in the kitchen getting a bed time snack. Keira walks ghost-like through the halls, the disturbed glow-bug eerily moving shadows as it flits out of her way.

    Maya sits on the edge of her bed, a large down pillow hugged to her chest. She stares out the open window into the serenity of the night. No travelers grace the road from Jiyyd, and no sounds of revelry escape the walls.

    A gentle breeze sneaks into the room. It swirls past Maya, tickling her neck, and moving the pages in her open journal. Slowly, one by one they flip to …_

    Entry 50 – Ache

    It feel like someone big, kick in stomach.

    After children settle, I had feeling something wrong in Norwick. I run down long road to gate, and see Krig, and say same thing. He say Tempus tell him, go south.

    Was big attack there! Goblin and bugbear attack south gate in great numbers. As goblin and more goblin fall to defender, Krig hammer, and my axe, I can feel blood sing.

    It has been very long since blood sing like this. Not since Talgris visit. Axe arm is get very tired. I get hurt, someone heal. Bugbear come, and I behead. Most of axe strike are true. I get hurt and heal again. Wave after wave come. Wave after wave cut down! I am surround by elite goblin, but I strike hard and true. Tempus is with me. I can feel his pride. I can feel him be please. Blood quickens, and my heart is alive.

    Is many people there. Krig, Nicahh, Rhyndar, Shae, Lilin…so many! All fight here under eyes of Tempus!

    …and Zyphlin too.

    I know what I write now will not be see by other, but I wish could make understand. After battle, after face death, is be so alive that world is bright. Red is more red. Green is more green. Life is bigger. Should be celebrate with friend and lover. Life should be celebrate. Is short for many.

    Adam would understand this. Sometime, not even make back to house. Tall grass and shade of tree is good too.

    I grab Zyphlin by collar, and drag to Boarshead. He laugh much, and has grin, so I think to self that is time. Have always thought was very cute, for more years can count. What best way to celebrate life but with friend who is cute!

    We get to Boarshead, but upstairs is close. I not care. I go to break down door. I am hungry for him, to be with old friend in this way.

    He say no.

    I write this, and still not know why. He begin to say things, why cannot be. I listen, but I do not understand. What he says does not make sense to me. Why, cannot celebrate life like this with me?

    Perhaps I do not please him in this way. I was hope did, that he would see heart for be good person, and find me cute too.

    But he does not.

    I do not wish be his wife. I do not love him this way. I know this for truth. But if I do not love him, why do I hurt so much?


  • _“Gimme back my doll!”, Yana shrieked, chasing a boy down the hall, little hammer raised. Maya’s hands are full of blankets, and they are past her before she can grab either of them. Maya turned and began to shout something, but they are through a door and around a corner before she even has time to speak.

    Maya sighed and laughed and was about to walk down the hall when one of the boys called out from the communal room.

    “Maya, I think Julius is sick”, he called out, wrinkling his nose.

    “How sick?”

    “He threw up on Mal’s bed and I ain’t cleanin’ it up”, he said, walking down the hall to the kitchen. “Hey we got anything to eat?”

    Maya sat the blankets on the chair inside the room, where Julius was sitting with Mal on the floor. Mal at least had the foresight to put an empty chamber pot by Julius’ knees.

    Maya frowned a bit, “How long he been sick?”

    “Just this morning after he ate the pickled eggs”

    Maya looked at the mess on the bed, and the look on Julius’ face, “How many he eat?”

    “Dunno. There was a lot”

    “He ate all!?”

    Julius looked up pitifully and nodded, his face a near shade of gray. Maya just put her hands on her hips, “Is lesson there, somewhere. After finish empty stomach, clean off Mal bed and bring blankets to me. Is fresh blanket there”, she said, pointing to them.

    As Maya turned and left, Julius heaved once again. However, he did manage to mumble a “Pay up” before heaving a third time.

    Maya just rolled her eyes._

    Entry 49 – Home Again

    War is over, and children are home again. Nicahh and I bring from Gypsy camp. Was like herd cat. They go all over place before get to Sisterhood.

    Is nice for have noise here now. Was too quiet. Now feel like home again with children run all over place and get into trouble. When get too noisy once, I see Ael just get up and leave and go out to forest. I think maybe he was like quiet with Nicahh.

    I think much about Dwin offer though, and think maybe is good one. I work in Norwick as guard and live there, and come here to Sisterhood on days off. I do not know if take Yana with is best, or leave here is best, because I not around as much if do this. Is very hard decide.

    Is not so far though, and can run for long time. Sisterhood is try open up trade post maybe in Norwick, and would be shopkeeper there. Yana could stay maybe, and help run. Do little errands and take coin.

    So much think about.


  • _Maya sits leaning against the south fence of the Sisterhood, her bare feet playing with the long grass. The midday sun has begun to rise quite high, and Maya turns her face upward to greet it

    Travelers come and go down the Long Road, and at the sound of wagon wheels Maya opens her eyes and waves, though she hasn’t clue who the driver is. A large bumblebee frets over a nearby flower, and Maya pokes it, feeling the fuzz on her fingertip before it wobbles through the air.

    All in all, a good day for a quiet journal entry._

    Entry 48 – Zyphlin

    I was come from Peltarch and run into Ginger near crossroads. She is happy, and somehow cannot see my heart, or know what feel about what happen. I not know what to say. Am angry, but can do nothing. So I say little, and was happy when Zyphlin come by.

    He apologize for be so busy, and ask if I would like talk. He suggest lake, but am tired of be in armor, so I say would like change and ask if he like come inside or wait.

    He come inside.

    I show him room where stay. Is little room with not much in, but not need much for live. Except for what carry, best thing own is thick fur blankets, many of which I get when live by self west of Nars when crystal come. I think will buy nice wood chest, for keep in, when weather get warm

    We sit at foot of bed, and talk about many things.

    Zyphlin is funny friend. Is very old friend, and was student to Adam. We have Adam in common, and like see good win, and evil lose. Can talk league a minute without slow down. In some people would make not interest, but I find self try understand all word he say. He is good person inside. I can see heart clear in this.

    But I find talk with him clumsy, because I see as more than just good friend. I tell Natanya of this long ago, and have good giggle over. Have felt this way for more season can remember. Is not love I think. But sometime person speak right, act right, even smell right, so all can think about is make pleasures with. I think he knows this, in his heart too, that I feel this way.

    But we do nothing.

    I cannot figure out why this is. Is just way is between us. He talk of all scar he get, and show each one. I get very distract. He show scar on neck, scar on arms, scar on side, and all can think about is rip rest of clothing off and go explore for self. Bed was right there. Would have been fun I think.

    Maybe is because we have Adam in common, and he feel would dishonor. But every time Zyphlin and I together, can hear Adam laugh at us both.


  • _On a hill somewhere in middle of the Nars, a large banner with the symbol of Tempus flaps gently in the breeze. A small fire burns nearby, it’s smoke rising lazily into the sky.

    Maya kneels in prayer. Her armor is meticulously polished. Her hair has been washed twice, and the feathers cleaned. Her shield lays in front of her, her axe resting on top

    Her hands are not clasped, but instead hang outstretched by her side. Her face is turned up to the sky, her eyes closed, her lips moving slowly as she murmurs the prayers over, and over, and over again.

    All is serene on this lonely hilltop, save for the quiet crunching of footsteps. Without turning her head or opening her eyes, Maya stops her prayers momentarily.

    “You will die”, she says.

    Svet the hobgoblin had been sent to the hill by group leader Morsh, to find out who made the messy fire. Short sword in each hand, he had made his way quietly up to the top of this hill. The large human female had made camp here, a poorly made fire smoking fitfully in front of her, and a large flag fluttered in the breeze. He recognized the symbol though. He had seen it displayed on many Orc shields.

    At her words, Svet stopped. Like most good scouts, his understanding of the human trade speech was good. Discovered, Svet resigned himself.

    “I know”, he said gripping his swords tighter, “You have slain many of our kind recently Yellow Ropes for Hair. Before we battle, I would ask. Why do you come here, to pray to the Orc god??

    Maya turned, but did not rise. “I pray to Tempus, who is god to all who would do battle for what they believe. Name is Maya. Yellow Rope for Hair is good too”, she said grinning.

    Svet looked at the banner, then back at the woman. There would be no shame in retreating, and informing Morsh what he saw. He wondered though, whether he could out run this human with her long legs. No, he thought to himself, and brought his swords up, ready.

    Maya watched him, but then shook her head. “Tempus would be honor by doing battle here, but instead I would teach. I honor Tempus by teach too. You live to teach other. You do this?”

    Svet lowered his guard some, but kept the grip on his swords firm. Slowly he nodded.

    “Good!”, Maya said. “Sit please”

    Wondering if this was a trick, Svet moved forward carefully. Seeing this, Maya moved away from her shield and axe and turned to face him. Svet sat in front of her warily, keeping his swords nearby.

    Maya spoke at length. She spoke of how Tempus respected those who fought for what they believed. She spoke of holy days, of honoring with blood, and strength of conviction. Those who did not fight for what they believed, deserve to lose it.

    She also spoke of honoring of your enemies. “Honor all opponent, even when defeat them in battle. Honor homes and families. Not defeat enemy by destroy them. Orcs, need to learn this”, she said, casting her eyes down.

    Svet listened, and mulled this over as she spoke. “Is today a holy day?”, he asked.

    “No”, Maya smiled, “Today is day Tempus brought back from Warrior Rest, and made again from dust. Is day was reborn, and begin journey for be champion for him”

    Svet listened, though wasn’t sure quite what she meant. Perhaps it was a spiritual journey he thought, for surely the gods would not make someone from dust. A question arose though, one that intrigued him.

    “Maya, this Tempus honors our people too, for trying to rule the pass?”

    “Yes!”, Maya said delighted. “All creature great and small do battle, try to spread kind throughout. Priest of nature know this. Your Shaman too I think. Tempus honors struggle, fight we make, for way of life we want. Good or Evil. I fight for things I want, I hope for good.”

    Svet thought this over before rising, “I listen to your words Maya. Many make sense. I will tell Morsh what I saw”

    Maya watched Svet walk back down the hill before returning to prayer. Perhaps others would come. Perhaps the Hobgoblins would try to remove her from the hill. It was their right. Tempus would understand.

    Regardless, Tempus would be pleased today._

    Entry 47 – Day of Prayer

    Today I honor Tempus. Today is day Tempus pull from heaven, and make again.

    I went on high hill in Nars, for be closer to Tempus and raise banner and smoky fire for all for see. Meet Hobgobin scout there who think could sneak up on me with eyes close, but Jore teach me listen.

    Hobgoblin and few other come. Some I know, and some I do not. There, I teach words of Tempus. Few come just want talk, but I say is day of honor Tempus. Can talk about other things other day.


  • Entry 46 – Teacher

    Just make quick entry, before do chore.

    Nicahh show me place for training in Sisterhood. Place is so big, that easy get lost, and place for training was hid. Is right next to (The remaining is inked out)

    Nicahh say can go there, if need break something. Somehow make me feel like child who throw tantrum, but is more than this, and is much hard explain. I try not feel too guilty about.

    Keira come find us too. I hear her come, and she seem surprise, until I say hear creaky door she open. She say will teach me control this, and to use right. I notice that I have never seen Keira angry so agree. I see empty heart of hers try become full, and maybe sound silly, but think maybe help by listen and be student.

    First thing she say is when begin get angry, think of prayer of Tempus or something can do easily like song, help take mind off and relax. I tell her of ballad I know, I teach to Norwick children many year ago. It take quarter hour sing whole song, and so many verse is easy forget some.

    I hope work, because otherwise look funny kill someone while singing.

    _Maya sprinkles the sand on the page, then blows it off. A smile tugs at the corner of her mouth as she looks at the last sentence. Finally she starts laughing, as the journal is put back into her pack.

    Dressed in simple skins, Maya goes around to the side of the Sisterhood, and grabs the wood axe out of the stump. This day is particularly warm for Spring, so she leans back, and ties the braids and hair behind her with a leather cord. This simple act makes her pause for a moment, and reflect on the much simpler life she had so long ago, and how things have changed after what feels like an eternity of seasons past. For a long moment she rests the axe on the ground, closes her eyes, and lets the gentle breeze caress her skin.

    Yes, it’s the simple things that are worth fighting for.

    Soon the rhythm of chopping wood echoes throughout the grounds of the Sisterhood, and not so distantly to the gates of Jiyyd._


  • _Maya sat by the stream, relatively unclothed. Her armor and clothing lay drying in the sun, perched on various rocks. Her hair was still wet, but it too lay drying in the sun, hanging in sheaves down her back. Her braids were undone, the feathers and leather ties laid out neatly. The cold water had taken out most of the blood. What hadn’t come out with simple rinsing a little soap and scrubbing had finished.

    A large turtle also lay upon the rocks, just out of arms reach. It eyed Maya curiously, sticking its neck out from the shell. Maya playfully poked its nose with her toe, and she was rewarded by a sharp bite. Maya cried out in surprise and laughed as she shook the turtle free, and stared momentarily at her bleeding toe, the blood dripping in the water._

    Entry 45 – Anger

    Some days, I find very hard for control anger. Sometime, anger control me, and is like nothing matter. Love, hope, dream all gone. Just white in front of eyes, and then red of blood of people I kill.

    Ginger make me angry. Honor forbid I challenge, and honor forbid I take what think should belong to me. I remember get so angry, and can do nothing about, that I take out on furniture. Is better than friend, though today I take out on hobgoblin.

    …and I am ashame.

    It begin I spend whole day shopping in Peltarch. I find little tiny dress for Yana doll, and was so happy! Was candy on stick, and nuts cook in sugar, and is good for celebrate Yana birthday, which soon. Spend whole day shopping make tired. Not know why but do, so I sit down in commons for rest and drink.

    Then see Zyphlin. I think of Zyphlin as last friend left from old times. Times of be Black Dragon, times of teacher A’Lan, times of Kanen, and times of Adam. I pat ground for him sit beside. Would very much like talk about old times, have few laugh, and joke with cute friend. He have business though with Cerulean Knight, and say be right back.

    So I wait. I wait some more.

    Then he finally come back, and is crowd of people now. Sywyn look for Zyphlin. Think Keira maybe too. But I pat ground again. Zyphlin just sigh and look at me, and say have business, and is sorry.

    I remember start get angry. I was think he maybe should make time for friend, but is selfish of me. But not matter. Am angry now, and all can think about is maybe bash everyone head together, then Zyphlin no longer have business. I remember say something rude, and get up and walk away.

    Path to gypsy camp is bloody one. I look for fight. I kill all hobgoblin who look at funny. Am tired of them be on road, and is more like murder than combat of honor. By time get to gypsy camp, am cover in blood, and have something stuck to boot that probably part of inside of hobgoblin.

    Some day, someone will make angry, and I will pull out axe before can walk away.

    …and Tempus will help me kill them.


  • Maya sits on the bed in her room in the Sisterhood. Her face is puffy from crying, her eyes frown in distress. Clutching a pillow to her chest, she stares out the open window onto the road, and watches the travelers go in and out of Jiyyd. An old wedding ring, untarnished with time twirls idly in strong fingers. With a sigh she reaches down and rummages through her pack, pulling out her journal.

    Entry 44 – Adam’s Cloak

    I not know what to write about this. It start off as good day. I go in cold caves with Sisters and William, and was great adventure. I even get potion I really need. Then later, we all have fun with spar in Jiyyd Inn in basement. Was Gears, Ael, Nicahh, and me. I hold back, try not get angry and hit anyone too hard, so we all have fun. Nicahh is very quick and learn from Keira, and I leave happy know she say will teach. Is great honor, know such fine people and great warrior.

    Then Zyphlin come, and give wonderful news! Say that when evil men rob tomb, Sharn kill one of evil men and put Adam cloak in treasure…and they find! I am very excite, and Zyphlin say Ginger have, and is standing behind. I turn and am delight, and see Ginger step forward and offer cloak. I look in Ginger eye, and see is not happy though.

    Ginger do brave thing. She go with group and face many giant of cold, and then help kill Sharn. From what hear, all people there take treasure. Ginger take cloak, not know made by Adam, and stole from me long ago. So here I am, take what mine, but what Ginger earn.

    So I give back.

    Krig offer make trade with Ginger for cloak. Krig offer new cloak for replace. Ginger do, but I see is still not happy.

    For awhile I hold Adam cloak in hand. I pull back flap in seam, and see name stitch there. I remember put to face and cry hard, because miss him so much. I hug Krig much, and say how much he mean to me.

    But I still not earn. Ginger earn this. I did not. So I give Adam cloak back to Ginger, and Krig cloak back to Krig.

    When I was return, Tempus make me earn all things again. I fight duel to death for. Should I duel Ginger? What do I do?

    What does Ginger know of Adam? Ginger know of Adam laugh? Does Ginger know of Adam story? Does Ginger know of Adam gentle touch?

    Is wrong!

    Here, the writing begins to get sloppy. The pen is pressed forcibly, the page beginning to tear.

    Ginger earn this, but how is right? Is not hers for earn! Was stolen from me! It was belong Adam! My husband! How can be right for….

    _The writing turns into a squiggled line across the page as Maya’s hands begin to shake. The belt of Tempus pulses, the symbol of the FoeHammer shining brightly. Maya tries desperately to control the pen, but has her hand shakes, she instead tosses it across the room angrily.

    “Nooo”, Maya whispers angrily, shaking her head to quell it, even as the first tear of blood cascades down her cheek.

    With great agitation Maya paces the room, breathing quickly to calm herself, but it is of no use. The anger which fueled her return, which enabled her survival breaks forth, the wall of resolve broken. In moments, Maya’s already prodigious strength triples.

    The silence of the Sisterhood is shattered by a piercing cry. Maya’s hand hits the door and goes through it, pieces of wood skittering and spraying down the hall.

    A few rooms down, Nicahh suddenly bolts upright. Ael startles out of sleep and spins, whacking his arm on the bedpost. Both stumble madly out of the room with weapons drawn, heading to the sounds of splintered wood.

    When they finally reach Maya’s room, she is kneeling on the floor. The door hangs by one hinge. The table in the room has been broken in the center, and all that remains of the nightstand are scattered pieces. Face and clothing streaked with blood, she looks up at the two.

    “I’m sorry”, she mutters weakly._


  • _Catapults from behind Norwick’s walls loosed volleys at the attacking positions. Bugbears with long range throwing darts rained them down onto the attackers when the opportunity presented. Large battle axe wielding bugbears guarded them.

    Along with others, Maya nocked arrows and let them fly at the defending bugbears on the ridge. The bow was a well made target bow, but not up to the draw strength of the composite longbow Adam had left her. The arrows penetrated well enough, but not enough to quickly kill. More often than not, the bugbear only went down after sporting more than half a dozen feathers.

    In frustration Maya dropped the bow, and ran forward with shield and throwing axe. Several of the darts impacted her shield, the remaining skipped harmlessly off her Damaran made armor. With a cry of effort, Maya threw the axe upward, and it spiraled, finally embedding itself into a bugbear’s shoulder. Shrieking in pain, the bugbear fell out of sight.

    Holding her shield high to protect her head, Maya backpedaled out of range as the archers behind her finished off the last remaining bugbears.

    Standing with anticipation, great axe on his shoulder, Grag looked over at Maya with concern, “Where’s Dwin?”

    “I not know”, Maya sighed, “….and not know where Grax is either”

    “Grax’s already dun ‘is part”, Grag consoled her.

    Maya simply nodded. Grax had accompanied the group to slay Sharn, and he and five of his friends had helped attack the orcs, hopefully drawing defenses away from Norwick.

    Suddenly the conversation was interrupted by the distant sounds of combat. People looked at each other curiously, until Grag responded.

    “That’d be the dwarves I bet. C’Mon, let’s go”

    The group advanced to the cliff face. Maya was startled at the cry of a familiar voice on the ridge. She looked up and saw the dancing blades of a powerful spell, but had no time to concern herself with it.

    The group moved along the cliff face and past the rock barrier the bugbears had erected. With she and Grag up front, Maya looked around at the group that gathered in around them.

    “Everyone ready?”, Grag asked looking behind him. Amidst a few responses, most everyone just nodded grimly. Then with a throaty battle cry Grag rushed forward, Maya close behind.

    Tempus was watching._

    Entry 33 – Norwick

    We re-take Norwick yesterday, and drive bugbear back to forest. Was victory, and am happy we win, but somehow victory feel empty.

    Many home is shatter and burn. People who not escape Norwick on stake as warning. But Bugbear not defend with heart, and battle much easier than expect.

    Even so, some people fall. Few on ridge fall to bugbears with darts. William fall to bugbear with axe before I can reach. Person who fall to spell of many blades was Ael, Nicahh’s love. Ael and William were return to us, but some other not.

    Is much ruin here. Will take long time for rebuild. I have no gold for help because use on healing drink, but still have strong back for move log and stone. So I stay for now, and help.

    I will consider more Dwin offer for protect town too. I not want see Norwick suffer like this again.

    Have just finish take Ael back to see Nicahh. Nicahh grab and hug him with tear in eye, but can see Ael is confuse, even though happy. Return from fall in combat is like this. I know.

    Yana have very soft life now in Sisterhood, and in camp. I think in few days will bring to Norwick after all body removed, and is safe, for help rebuild town. She must learn reward of hard work and help other.